Chapter 10 :

New start :

After the confrontation with Dr Cavanaugh Jane took Maura to lunch, but they didn't talk about it. Maura needed to practice her speech .

Around 2 o'clock, Maura and Jane joined Mrs Isles and the board at the family mansion.

Jane quietly sat next to Maura listening to her giving her speech. She was so proud of her. Maybe it was the adrenaline of confronting Dr Cavanaugh, but Maura was showing an amount of confidence she hadn't shown in a long time. As she was carefully listening to her wife's speech Jane couldn't keep her eyes away from her lips.

"God, she's sexy when she's confident like that. Actually I think I would have paid a lot of money to see her kick that bitch's ass. Because she could take her,my wife is a bad ass." Jane said to herself with a corner smile on her face.

After about an hour, the meeting was over and Jane and Maura were able to go home.

"Now that we're home, you can tell me exactly what you've been dying to tell me for hours." Maura smiled as they entered their apartment.

"I was just thinking that my wife is such a bad ass." Jane replied looking at Maura with such desire that Maura instantly knew she was in trouble, so to speak.

"Take me the the bedroom now."

"I was planning on it." Jane said as she strongly lifted Maura off her feet and took her to their bedroom.

"I love you." Maura whispered her arms strongly wrapped around Jane's neck.

"I love you too. " Jane said as she gently put her on their bed.

So Jane and Maura made love for the first time in month. For the first time since they lost the baby they literally opened their minds, hearts and bodies to each other without restrain. It was everything their very first time was, a bit hesitant,passionate, romantic . The two women who thought they had lost each other and who until a few hours ago were barely able to communicate managed to pleasure each other to a new level. They connected both emotionally and physically like they never did before.

"Wow." Maura breathed on her head falling on Jane's chest.

"Yes, I think Wow is appropriate. I didn't hurt you did I?" Jane asked looking down.

"Of course not, the physical pain stopped after about 4 weeks. I'm perfectly healed, don't worry." Maura replied sliding her finger's on Jane's sweaty chest.

"Good…" Jane nodded.

The couple spent the rest of the day cuddling in silent, they didn't need to talk. Making love again was their way of reconnecting with each, both physically and emotionally.

Around dinner time:

"Someone is hungry." Maura joked moving towards Jane's belly.

"It's your fault, you just draw all the energy I had left, after such intense both physical and emotional stimulation my body needs to regenerate, that's all."

"I know…You know today for the first time in months I felt like we were us again or at least that we would be soon."

"I know what you mean, seeing you fighting for me like that helped me realize that you still wanted me and us, and that you were still willing to fight for it."

"I know… I think it took me almost loosing you to realize that I couldn't be passive anymore and just lean on you and wait for you to help me. If I want to heal I have to fight as much as you do."

"I know, I think we're going to be fine, seeing you kicking Jordan's ass and seeing you talking to the board, I recognized that confidence you possess that made me feel in love with you. Also as we were making love you showed me how much you trusted me, so I think we're going to be alright now."

"Does that make us bad parents?I mean being to move on ?"

"Of course not. Moving on and healing doesn't mean we stopped being sad or hurt, or that we forgot about our daughter. It just mean that we're ready to continue living our lives, while remembering our daughter."

"I will never forget her, feeling her grow inside of me…It was incredible, that's why I don't want to get pregnant again. I want to keep this experience unique so I can cherish it for the rest of my life."

"It makes sense. Don't worry, I think you and I are going to be very happy, with Bass and Joe Friday ." Jane replied kissing her forehead and drawing circles on her wife's back with her fingers.

"Well, actually I was thinking that we could re consider having another baby." Maura shyly offered biting her lower lip.

"Are you serious?" Jane squealed.

"Yes, I didn't want another child because I thought It would mean that I forgot about our daughter. I thought it would be like starting dating again if something happened to you. But you helped me realize that I can keep our baby in hour hearts, continuing to live our lives and moving forwards."

"Well if I died I would like you to be happy and to eventually start dating again. I'm sure our daughter would want us to be happy too."

"Yes, she would. I think we could adopt, there are so many babies that needs a home. "

"I know, I wouldn't let you get pregnant again, It scared me too much when I almost lost you. " Jane agreed remembering the worse day of her life.

"I know…"

"Alright, I think we're not ready yet to consider having another child, but if you want to, when the moment is right, I will be happy to adopt a baby with you. On one condition."

"Alright…"

"I want to work at the foundation with you."

"OK…I don't know what to say… You love your job, you're the best."

"I love helping people. But if we want to start a family I have to rethink my priorities. I love being a cop, but it's way too dangerous, and I'm way too reckless. You and our child would spend your days worrying for me and I don't want to put you through this. Not to mention that taking care of a child is a full time job. I don't want to miss and soccer games or school meetings. I want to raise our child with you and make you guys my priority."

"I never thought you would do that, but your facial movements seem to indicate that you meant every word you just said." Maura replied narrowing her eyes trying to read Jane's facial expressions.

"I think almost loosing you changed my priorities. I meant what I said, of course if you don't mind us living on your family's money, because my pension won't be much."

"I don't mind at all. I inspired you during my speech, didn't I?"

"You did, I realized there was so many ways to help people and to be honest with you, working without you isn't the same. I loved my job so much because I got to do it with you, I miss you every minute when I'm at work away from you."

"I miss you too. I know that together we can achieve a lot. I love you Jane."

"I love you too Maura for ever and always."

A few weeks later, Jane officially quit the Boston PD after 10 years to join Maura at the foundation, which was renamed The Rizzoli- Isles family foundation. Together they managed to financed severals smaller charitable foundations and also put together their own project : A center that was going to help people recover from all sorts of traumas : from witnessing a crime, to being the victim of a crime or losing a family member to a violent crime. They hired the best psychologists possible and also gathered an impressive lists of volunteers including Frankie, Frost and Korsak. This project was important for Jane because after catching a killer she always had this feeling of unfinished business. She knew that catching the murderer brought closure to the families but she also knew that the way to recover from such a traumatic event that was loosing a spouse, a friend, or a child or even witnessing a crime was long and painful and she always regretted that she couldn't do more when she was a cop. Thanks to her and Maura victims had now a place to go, to talk to other victims or to psychologist. Jane who always thought she needed the adrenaline of chasing the bad guys to feel alive found a new way to help people that actually satisfied her deeply. Maura and Jane were more then happy to work as a team again. Just like when they worked together in the past they completed each other perfectly : Maura would take care of finding new founding and of the general financial and administrative aspects of their project and Jane was right where she belonged : on the field , talking to victims, organizing support groups.

About 6 months later, the couple were happy to adopt a baby girl, they choose to name Angela, after Jane's mom as a way of thanking her for the precious help that she provided when Maura lost the baby.

They never forgot their first baby and after they adopted their little girl they started to visit her grave. They had named her Aaliyah, which in Hebrew meant, going up, ascending, which was appropriate now that she was above them, looking over them. They made sure to visit her and talk to her as often as possible. They also made sure that little Angela knew that she once had a big sister. They never forgot their daughter, even if it never completely stopped hurting, the pain started to feel more like nostalgia, they started to remember the good moments of Maura's pregnancy, the first time Maura felt her kicking, the 5th month ultrasound when they found out they were expected a girl, the tears on Jane's face when she learned she was about to be a mom. At first remembering those moments was painful, but after a while it brought a smile on their faces. The love Maura and Jane had been shown to be bullet proof. That unconditional love and support they felt for each other helped them to overcome the most terrible loss a human being can experience, and their love only came out stronger.

A few years after adopting little Angela, right when she started school Maura started her own project : a support structure to help women who like her had lost a child. It took her several years to be ready to do that, she knew she would have to open up, to talk about it with other mothers just like Jane opened up about Hoyt to the people who attended her support groups. So when she felt ready and actually had more time she fully invested herself in that new project. The structure was in the same place as Jane's center, because they clearly couldn't work away from each other. Maura invested a lot of herself in this project, she attended support groups, shared her experience, showed other mothers that they could move forwards. Jane was very supportive and even participated in several groups, especially the one where the spouses would come and share their pain, which obviously was different from the mother's but as intense.

They made sure to raise their daughter emphasizing on the importance of helping other people. Angela spent her entire childhood hanging around her parents at the center but it was only when she was 16 she started to take a more important part in it. She started to volunteer there, talking to kids who were victims of crimes. At first Maura and Jane didn't want her to get exposed to so much pain until she was be strong enough to be able to take the pain people would express without being devastated. But as their daughter, she inherited their stubbornness and soon they realized that kids who were abused or who witnessed a crime were more willing to share their experience with someone who was their age, who spoke their language. After two years of volunteering on weekly basis Angela decided that she wanted to be a psychologist and a few years later started to work at the center . She started to work there as a full time psychologist until it was time for Jane and Maura to finally retire and time for Angela to take over the Foundation and the center.

"I think we did good." Jane smiled admiring at her daughter giving a speech to the board members with as much passion and determination as Maura used to.

"I think we did." Maura replied resting her head on her wife's shoulder.

So guys, I hope you enjoyed this story, I think this last chapter was indeed quite good. I thought it would be nice to give you a glimpse of their future life, to show that after loosing their child their life continued and that they turned this bad experience into something positive. I also thought it was important for them to have a child...

As always please review, next step for me is my new story called " broken." It's quite dark please check it out!