A/N: Last chapter guys, and this one we worked really hard on. Please leave a review if you like it. Also, this is where that mature rating kicks in, so read responsibly.

Axel

His previously gentle hands pushed me back roughly, making me fall back onto the couch as he settled on top of me, never breaking the heated kiss. He'd started out shy at first, both sitting on the couch, kissing hesitantly, exploring and getting to know each others likes and dislikes. I was being particularly careful as I'd never been with a virgin before and for some reason this felt like completely new territory.

For the next long and delicious couple of minutes, I realized he was a fast learner. The moment I made a noise of pleasure, he seemed to register it and then do that over and over again until I had to break away for some air. Now he'd apparently decided to plunge in for the goods and ravage me beyond the point of recognition. I was surprised I was still aware of my surroundings as I felt completely dazed and incoherent as his lips worked wonders and his hands roamed over my chest and sides, into my hair and... Well, it was amazing.

My breathing would never calm down and my heart was about ready to burst. The way his body moved on top of me and how he'd taken the lead in the kiss somehow made me feel like the shy virgin. Which was really kinda cool. I was happy he was so comfortable and I just simply enjoyed the entire make out session, loving it as much as he was. Kissing him back for all I was worth, I let my hands fist into his shirt on his back, breaking away for some air again.

"Woah..." I panted, needing a minute. He needed to give me a minute! My dick was so hard, it hurt at this point and I knew I didn't want him to take care of it even if I was pretty sure he'd be very willing... And god, did I want him to, but that'd be too fast.

He pulled away, lips red and swollen and eyes hooded in lust. "What? Did I do something wrong?" His voice was soft and he was panting a little. Eyes were roaming all over and he kept licking his lips in anticipation.

Framing his face, I shook my head, smiling, "Definitely nothing wrong." I leaned up, intent on giving him a small soft kiss but he didn't let that happen, no... Instead he started kissing the hell out of me again, which... "Roxas!" I broke away again, chuckling a bit awkwardly as I was completely breathless at this point, "I need a minute to cool down, if you don't let me cool down we'll end up doing things you're not ready for," A pause and then I honestly told him, "nor I." How I wanted to fuck him... I really, really was having a hard time being good. But too soon! We'd just admitted to liking each other.

"Oh, okay." Nodding, he moved back and sat on the other side of the couch, every few seconds reaching up to touch his lips and smile softly. "That was really awesome. Are you sure you don't want to do anything else?" His voice was hesitant and eager sounding.

I groaned, so turned on I was pretty certain it would kill me, "No, I'm not sure, but please help me out and see my logic. If we go too fast..." I'm not sure what, but... "Lets just make sure we know each other inside and out before doing the intimate." Right... Being with him without telling him about my history would be keeping something from him he deserved to know before agreeing to drop his pants in my presence. "You're too far away though, you think you can manage to cuddle without trying to see how boneless you're capable of making me?" I grinned, reaching out with a hand, hoping he'd just get over here already.

His smile split his face and he literally jumped across the couch to sit by me, grabbing my hand to lace his fingers with it. "It's not like I know what the other stuff we could do is. So, I'm all excited but don't know what could come next. I'm sorry you're excited and you know what comes next. It's harder for you. Sorry, Axel." He leaned up to place a quick kiss on my cheek before sitting back down.

Wrapping my arms around him, I shook my head, "Don't be sorry. Not about this..." I whispered, trying to find a way to settle him against me without touching his side. This was tricky... "Roxas," I asked, "Can you please tell me how to not hurt you?" I gestured at his side for clarification.

"Hmm, that is a tricky one." He tapped his finger against the side of his face and raked his eyes over me laying on the couch. "Okay. I think I've got it. Here, stand up." He waved at me to stand and I did, wondering what he had in mind. Moving me back a little, he went to the right side of the couch and sat down, turning and leaning his back and side gently against it. "Okay, now you can lay down on the couch with your head in my lap, or you can sit between my legs. Sound good?"

Nodding, I flopped down on the couch, settling my head on his lap all the while smiling up at him, "I can't believe I didn't see how hot you are from the minute I met you..." I told him curiously.

Tilting his head to the side, he grinned and started running his fingers through my hair. "It's not like I made the best impression. And I was too scared slash intimidated by how cool you are to really notice how good looking you are. But, you can go ahead and shower me with praise now though..." He winked at me.

"Alright," I agreed easily, wiggling my butt into the couch to get comfortable, taking a deep steadying breath, "Here goes..." I waggled my eyebrows playfully up at him, "One." Yes, I was going to tick them off, "I swear to god, I'm obsessed with your eyes. Their blue is almost surreal, in a fascinating way." I lifted a second finger, "I think your hair is even more out of control than mine and that quite honestly make me very happy."

Third finger, "I've never been attracted to someone shorter than me before, so I'm a little surprised... I like it though. You're so incredibly cute, it's kinda unfair." Fourth finger, "When you took those pictures of me? How concentrated you looked? I totally wanted to jump you for that alone." Fifth finger, "I will swat that yummy ass of yours one day."

Sixth finger, "But none of that can top just how amazing a person you are..." I told him softly, "Sure, you were a bit rude when we first met, but nobody has made me want to stick around and find out why. You make me want to stick around and when you're having a bad day and it seems like you won't smile ever again? I feel this urge to try and make you laugh so badly..." I smiled up at him, "I love your laugh, music to my ears."

His face was so adorably red at this point, and he wouldn't look me in the eye. His fingers had stilled in their stroking of my hair and there was a small smile playing on his lips. "Wow. All that huh? I have a few things that I like about you, ya know." He cleared his throat and his eyes stared into mine as he started talking. "I liked you from the minute you appreciated Namine's sketch. And then how you just made me relax? Or when you made me laugh? It was just so easy to be around you. I like that, a lot. How being with you isn't hard or uncomfortable at all. Even when we were looking at gay porn. How on earth did I even end up hanging out with you after that? I totally wanted to die..." Chuckling a little, the hand in my hair started up again. "You are really hot. And you are seriously, like, the coolest guy I've ever met. And since you are laying on me and I want to kiss you again, you should lean up so I can." Smirking, I did just as he asked, pushing up so I could offer him my lips.

A week later

For a week now we'd been dating and Demyx was so worried about the smile that never seemed to leave my face, he nearly dragged me to the doctor to see if anything was wrong. That was up until I told him I was dating Roxas. Dating Roxas. Yeah, just thinking about it had my heart flutter... Our first date had been relatively traditional, we'd both decided on going out for dinner and then a movie.

We'd gone all gooey on each other... He'd fed me his food and I'd fed him mine. Hand holding in the cinema, some stolen kisses and severe lack of interest in the actual movie we'd gone to see. Quite honestly, I'm not sure I could even remember the title. Second date... Well, I'd just finished up inking a customer and had called Roxas in so he could take some pictures...

They were amazing, he was brilliant at the job and assured me he was having a great time, which made it even better. After he'd taken the photographs we'd planned on going back to his place, but then ended up ordering in some chinese and eating it on the chair in my working area as Demyx and Zexion had been occupying the kitchen... I would have suggested my apartment, but Demyx and Zexion had been 'occupying' the kitchen...

In any case, the chinese picnic on the chair had been cozy, we'd cuddled up on it afterwards and spent hours talking, sharing small stories... Or, well, Roxas had shared, telling me everything about Namine and the adventures they'd had when they were little. He was so sweet... That flutter I'd never felt for anyone but him was so extremely pleasant. I would have basked in it's jolly glory for a while longer if it weren't for the fact that I needed to tell Roxas about my history. He deserved to know who I'd once been and what sometimes still poked at me.

Which is how I'd ended up getting nervous because now I needed to tell this guy I liked very much I used to be addicted to drugs... Not exactly awesome. I had no idea how Roxas would take it and I'd never actually 'kept' it from anyone before. Never been ashamed... I felt a bit ashamed now. It's not a part of me that I was proud of and I just... Whatever. I'd gone through extreme lengths to make sure this third date was absolutely perfect so I could dazzle him some before throwing that bit of information at him. I had bribed the night guard at the aquarium.

He'd walked in to get an appointment for a tattoo a couple of days ago and I'd told him I'd do it half off if he let me into the building. I remembered Roxas saying something about liking fish. I wasn't sure... What mattered was that now we were sitting in this huge tunnel, surrounded by water, all lit up, hundreds of colorful fish swimming around us. Left, right, up and down, everywhere you looked they were there.

I'd told him to prepare us some sandwiches, because I couldn't even make those right. Thankfully Roxas knew how to make very nice ones, and he had... So now we were sitting on a comfortable blanket, in the middle of the tunnel, eating our sandwiches.

"It'll be a year since the accident next month." He chewed his sandwich thoughtfully, watching a tiger shark float above us. "I'm planning a trip to Namine's grave. Would you go with me?"

Giving him a startled look, I swallowed my food quickly, giving him a nod, "Yeah, of course. If you really want me too."

"Of course I do. I wouldn't have asked if I didn't want you there." He grinned at me and nudged me with his shoulder. "I'll be the only one there, besides you. Our parents died a few years ago and it was just us. That's why it was so hard to stick around Twilight Town after the accident. I mean, I stayed to make sure that asshole got what was coming to him, but after that, I needed to get out." Well shit, he really hadn't had much luck at all... Reaching out, I pulled him closer to my side so I could place a soft kiss against the side of his head.

"I'd love to meet your sister." I murmured. Curious, I asked him gently, "Will you tell me? How'd the accident happen?"

His voice was soft and hesitant as he snuggled into my side. "We were on our way to an art supply store. I was driving because Namine wanted me to help her carry the new easel she had ordered. It was the middle of the afternoon and we weren't even going that fast. Probably about thirty miles per hour. It's weird, I can remember almost every little detail about that day, except the actual crash." He stopped and cleared his throat before continuing. "The light was green for us, but there was a truck that ran a red light. He t-boned us going about sixty miles per hour." A sharp intake of breath and I felt Roxas shiver a little. "He was high on some kind of drug, I don't remember what. The middle of the afternoon and he was wasted."

His chuckle was pained and I felt his hand grip my jeans. "Namine was killed instantly when he hit her side, but my seatbelt broke and I was flung out and actually into his truck, my side getting sliced up in the process. The guy had a broken leg and his father wanted to sue us for damages." The disgust in his voice made my blood run cold. "A fucking broken leg. Fortunately or actually miraculously, one of the witnesses at the scene was a lawyer. And she helped me. The guy is doing twenty years, and I'm set for life." Disgust gave way to sadness as he finished explaining it. "Not fair at all."

Swallowing the dry lump in my throat, I absently held Roxas closer to me, agreeing with him that it wasn't fair at all. I'd have said more, but there weren't many words I could use to reply to this... And... Drugs is what had killed his sister and given Roxas both physical and emotional pain every single day for the rest of his life. I wasn't stupid, I knew it was indirect, but drugs had been involved. How was I ever going to tell him now? I didn't want him to be disgusted with me, yet he had every right to be... Right?

Roxas - A week later

Hanging up my phone I sighed in defeat. He was working again, couldn't hang out, sorry. I glanced out my car window at the sign for Bloody Ink's and winced. How could he be working everyday all of a sudden? Were the bikers back in town? And if so, why wasn't I being called in everyday to take pictures?

"Axel." I whispered, resting my head against the steering wheel. Had I done something wrong? Did he not want to hang out with me at all anymore? Answers. I needed some answers and there was only one person I could try and get the answers out of. Demyx. Gulping, I glanced around the parking lot and spotted his car. Of course. He was always working on a Friday. Ignoring Axel's car out of the corner of my eye, I slipped my phone back into my pocket and killed my engine.

I could slip in and talk to Demyx and hope that Axel was in the middle of a tattoo like he had just mentioned on the phone, or I could try and get Demyx's attention and have him slip away on his lunch to talk to me. Balling my hands into fists and gritting my teeth, I shook my head in defiance. No, I wasn't going to be sneaky about this. I wasn't avoiding him, he was avoiding me. I could do whatever I wanted. Straightening my back and licking my lips in nervousness, I pushed open the door, causing the same bell to ring alerting the shop to my presence. Demyx stood behind that counter like he always did.

Demyx looked up from a book he was reading, frowning, "Hey Rox. Axel isn't in today... Did Larxene call you?"

"Oh. Wait, his car is in the parking lot. No, Larxene didn't call me." How was he working when he wasn't even here? My throat felt tight and I stared at the floor. "Where is he?" I asked softly. Why did he lie to me? Demyx's frown didn't disappear, only this time it wasn't directed at me, but at his boss who wasn't here.

"Xigbar is in town. Zexion came to pick him up so they could meet with Xig for lunch." Jumping off the stool, he walked around the counter, "Roxas, you wanna talk a bit? You don't look so well..." He gestured for the kitchen, giving me a careful smile.

"Yeah, I do." Unable to keep my anger completely in check, I stomped forward and into the kitchen grabbing the mug that Axel had said I could use. Filling it up with coffee, I turned and sat down at one of the tables waiting for Demyx to join me. Following my lead, Demyx filled his own mug up with coffee, sitting down on the chair opposite of me.

"You look on edge." He pointed out the obvious. "Alright, for this once I won't crush your cigarettes if you need to smoke." He allowed. "Now tell me what's up... Clearly Axel didn't tell you he was out."

Nodding in thanks, I pulled out my pack and lit a cigarette. "Yeah, Axel told me he was working today and couldn't hang out." Leaning forward I, glared at the table. "He's always working apparently. I haven't seen him outside of work in days. Demyx, I think he doesn't like me anymore. But since he hired me, he is doing his best to let me down easy or something." Maybe this had been a bad idea from the start.

"Wait." Demyx said, "Working? He only had one customer over the last week... You should know, it's the only picture you took for him." He shook his head then, "I don't think it's quite as simple as him not liking you anymore. He's been acting strange around everyone. The only times I talk to him is when I purposely start up a conversation, otherwise I don't even get as much as a hello in the morning."

"One! Are you fucking serious?" I yelled and slammed my mug down on the table, angry that he'd been lying to me this whole week. Coffee splashed out onto my fingers, but I didn't care. Just as fast the anger fizzled out and I slumped back into my chair in defeat. "So, then what's the matter with him? It seems pretty simple to me." Demyx sighed, leaning onto his elbows so he could place his chin in his palms, sighing again.

"Things are never simple with Axel... he definitely still likes you, I'm sure of it. The way he is around you? Talks about you? What's happening this week is not because he suddenly doesn't like you anymore. He was feeling too much for you for it to be able to die out in just a week." he sat up again, clearing his throat, "Actually... he likes you so much, I'm pretty sure he was about to tell you..." He frowned, giving me a curious look, "Are you against drugs, Roxas? Did you show any strong feelings to Axel over the subject?"

"Drugs?" Huh? What did that have to do with anything? Eyes closed, I leaned back and tried to remember the last time I'd really talked and hung out with Axel. It'd been at the aquarium, where I'd asked him about Namine's grave..."Oh shit!" I shouted and jumped forward, my knee connecting to the leg of the table. "Fuck!" Demyx was looking at me like I was insane. Grimacing and rubbing my leg, I explained. "Demyx, you know I had a twin sister who died last year? Well, she was killed in a car accident. The same one that caused the scar on my side. The driver," Gulp. "He was wasted and high on some kind of drug when he hit us. I told Axel that story about a week ago..." Trailing off, I sent a questioning look at Demyx, hoping he could make sense of it all.

Demyx blinked, sitting back in his chair. "Oh. Okay, yeah, then I see what's going on." He nodded, giving me a reassuring smile, "He wanted to tell you something in relation to his history on that date. It's why he went all out with the location. I remember because he asked me if it was a good idea. I thought it was..." When I gave him a pointed look, Demyx shook the dreamy look off his face, "Yes, stay on topic." He agreed, "Anyway. I can't tell you what it is Axel wanted to tell you as it isn't my place. But what you told him about the driver? He's most likely freaking out right now, wondering if it won't just be best to break up with you rather than tell you what he needs to tell you." Demyx shrugged rather simply, "Now that you have a grip on the situation, I say you make sure he doesn't take the coward's way out and force it out of him." He paused and then added, "He really does like you."

I blushed a little at that. "I really like him. When will he get back and does he have anything scheduled for today?" Determined now, I wasn't going to let him get away.

"He should be back in about an hour. He doesn't have anything scheduled and it's a slow day so just get back here when he does. I'll make sure he's unavailable customer wise. You guys need to talk and work this out..." Demyx reached out, patting my hand, "Don't be too hard on him. The only reason he's been avoiding you so much is because he strongly believes he doesn't deserve you."

I snorted. "That's dumb. Doesn't deserve me? He doesn't get to decide who I get to be with. I want him and I'm not taking no for an answer." Staring at the coffee I hadn't bothered to drink and the half burned cigarette in the ashtray, I thought about what I could say to him. Should I corner him and just demand answers? Demyx opened his mouth to answer me, but the little bell at the entrance rang. Giving me an apologetic look, he got up and then made his way into the reception area to greet whoever had walked in.

"Axel!" I heard him say from behind the now closed door. Axel? I nearly got up, but apparently Demyx was intent on scolding his friend slash boss, "Roxas is in the kitchen and you're gonna tell him what you need to tell him. Right fucking now!"

"Demyx. Stay out of this."

"If you break up with him instead of telling him? Then yeah, you don't fucking deserve him." There was no answer to this and a second later the kitchen door opened to reveal a nervous looking Axel.

I resisted the urge to stand up and run over to him, but just barely. "Can I talk to you Axel? And, can you not tell me you're working, please?" Keeping my voice pleasant, I waved at the chair next to me, hoping that he would at least sit by me while we hopefully talked this out. I saw him gulp, grit his teeth, followed by an awkward nod before he nervously sat himself down in the chair beside my own. His shoulders were so tense, didn't that hurt?

Maybe he just needed something to take his mind off of whatever it was that he was thinking about? Quickly so he couldn't stop me, I leaned up in my chair and gave him a chaste kiss, hoping that could ease some of the tenseness in the situation.

"Axel? Will you talk to me please?" When I'd kissed him, his hand had shot out, fingers settling on my shoulder as he now stared at me. Not answering my question, or relaxing, his facial expression turned extremely sad, which shot a pang through me as I really never wanted to see that look on his face ever again. Leaning in closer, he took my chin in his free hand gently, surprising me as he gave me a soft kiss that lasted longer than the one I'd given.

"I'm so sorry." He whispered. The pain that I heard in his voice was so harsh and deep, I didn't think I could ever understand it. What had happened to him? My arms circled his shoulders and I pulled him against me.

"Axel, please, talk to me. You're hurting and it's hurting me." Trust me, please Axel. "I want to help you."

"Okay. But you don't need to help. I got help already." He murmured, "You need to let go of me though, I..." Pulling out of my arms, he got off the chair and started pacing the kitchen floor, his fingers tugging harshly on his hair as he tried to get it out. "Please don't fucking leave me." He said first and before I could reply to that he started talking real fast, blurting it all out to me.

"I told you about my dad and my half brother, how my mother's behavior forced them to leave? My mother was a drug addict before she met my father. He fell in love with her for reasons only god can be aware off. He got her cleaned up and then I was born and we were a pretty happy family until she fell off the wagon and started doing drugs again. My dad tried to get her back into rehab, but she refused. She's a very good liar... very, very good..." He said, still pacing the floor, not looking at me once, "It's how she got custody of me. My dad couldn't stay, she was literally ruining his life and Reno's. Mine too, but the law didn't allow my father to take me with him, so he was forced to leave..." I could detect a bit of anger there, clearly not happy his dad hadn't tried harder.

"When they left, my mother pulled me out of school because the money she was supposed to spend on my education, she spent on drugs instead. I was about ten by that time and since I was always home..." He stopped his pacing, sitting down on the floor, looking completely broken, "She did stuff to get drugs. Tons of men always came into the house and I heard everything. Anyway... No school, no friends, nothing really... I was bored. My mother got annoyed with my constant nagging and started giving me drugs to keep me calm. She told me I had ADHD, that I needed the pills to keep myself healthy. I had no idea she was feeding me addictive shit so I'd be too high to bug her."

I saw red, and not just Axel's hair. She fucking drugged her own kid? I swear if she'd been standing in front of me, I'd have hit her. "Axel. Are you telling me your own god damned mother drugged you?" It was beyond horrible. To think that Axel had been forced into something like that, broke my heart and seriously had me digging my fingernails into my palms, trying to control the anger I could taste.

He nodded at me, still looking pained, "I couldn't get off it, Rox... At fifteen she kicked me out, saying I was popping more pills than she and that I had to go fend for myself. Luca is a very big city... the drug community is unfortunately much too high and doesn't care about age. I tried at first to get myself into one of those foster centers and get cleaned up, but I wasn't even really aware I was an addict. My body went into withdrawal and instead of talking to the caretakers down at the centers about it, I went to one of my mother's old boyfriends, knowing he had the pills that could ease down my..." he chuckled humorlessly, "ADHD. He laughed in my face of course, telling me my mother had lied. He gave me the pills and from there on forward all the jobs I got was to pay for those pills."

He shrugged then, "I was too high to really remember much of that time, in any case... I blacked out after one particularly rough night and woke up in a rehab center the next day. Was in there for a year and when I got out? I moved to Hollow Bastion." Looking down at the floor, I saw his body shudder, "You know the rest."

I couldn't even begin to imagine the horror that he'd been through. How could I? I'd had a loving family and a decent life up until the accident, and yes, it had been painful to lose my sister, but how could he even think that he didn't deserve me because of something that he couldn't control? I didn't know how to break the silence. What could I say? I'm sorry? How paltry. Slumping to the ground a few feet from him, I drew my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them.

I felt exhausted all of a sudden, my chin came to rest on top of my knees and I stared at the refrigerator in my line of sight. How could someone do that to their own child? And Axel hadn't even known what was happening to him. I glanced at him out of the corner of my eye. He really was amazing. To get over something like that, then go on to own his own successful business? I was in awe of him.

"I don't know what to say, Axel. I mean, first off, I really want to dismember that bitch that birthed you, because she surely can't be called a mother. Second, I want to just wrap my arms around you and hug you forever." Tilting my head to the side, I admired the amazing guy in front of me. "Third, I'm just so amazed by you. To get through all of that? The strength it must have taken?" I shook my head and smiled gently. "You're my hero."

He tore his eyes of the ground, looking up at me in surprise, "No, Roxas. I just want to be your boyfriend. Sure, my addiction originated from my mother, but whoever put me in rehab? They're the hero. Without them I would still be an addict today. I would have never been able to get cleaned up and live my life without that person helping me." He smiled then, "He was a police officer. The people at the center said he found me somewhere in the streets and brought me to the rehab facility first thing." He sighed, "I... I can't believe you're taking it so well. I was really afraid you'd hate me for it since that driver was on drugs when he hit you and Namine. I'm sorry for not handling it right this past week."

I blinked. "How would some random guy on drugs hurting me, make you the bad guy? Give me a little credit. I know who to blame and it certainly isn't in any way connected to you. Axel, drugs are not to blame. They are an inanimate object, like the truck that rammed us. Each was used and abused by the guy who was driving." That said, I smiled at him. "And you're forgiven for this past week, as long as you promise to make it up to me. Like, maybe a date?" Pushing himself away from the kitchen cabinet he was sitting against, he slid over to me so he could sit in front of me, legs on either side as he placed his hands on my shoulders.

"No more dating, please? Your boyfriend. That's what I want. I don't want you to be my date anymore but my boyfriend." Leaning his face in closer, his lips were inches away from my ear, "I'm falling very hard for you, Roxas."

I grinned like a maniac, my cheeks hurting a bit as they stretched. "Really? Your boyfriend? Gosh, I don't know Axel...maybe you should kiss me? Just to help me make up my mind?" The words had barely left my mouth and he shoved his lips onto my own, kissing me fiercely.

"I'm sorry I'm not always the brightest. I really screwed up these last couple of days... I promise I won't do that ever again." He whispered, his mouth still on mine, hands framing my face gently. He kissed me some more, our bodies trying to get closer to one another as they'd seriously lacked in make out sessions lately.

"Upstairs?" I gasped out, suddenly aware that we were making out in the kitchen of his tattoo parlor.

"You sure?" He asked breathlessly, "Won't we be cheating on your couch?" We'd always gone to my place so far... I'd actually never been in his apartment.

I pulled back and glared at him. "You really want to stop kissing me, so we can drive all the way to my house? Please tell me you aren't serious?"

He bit onto his bottom lip, looking sheepish. "Well, no. But you're a virgin in everything relationship wise, Roxas... And although that isn't an issue whatsoever, I'm trying to make you feel as comfortable as possible." He cleared his throat, "I'm trying to be a good and caring boyfriend." He said firmly, nodding his head. "But if you say your couch won't mind then I can definitely introduce you to mine."

God he was sweet. "You're the best boyfriend I could ever hope to have." I leaned in and kissed him quickly, unable to get enough of his taste. Resting my forehead against his, I whispered, "I would love to meet your couch."

I was so happy to see that grin back on his face. He hadn't done that in too long... "Good!" He said happily, pushing up onto his feet and pulling me up in the process, "Because it's actually my bed." He winked and then sprinted off to the stairs right beside us, dragging me along with him.

Two days later

Gripping his hand tightly in mine, I swallowed my tears down as best I could as we weaved in and out of the gravestones, making sure not to step on any of the graves out of respect. I'd gone with a white marble headstone that you could see from far away, and I glimpsed it ahead. The closer we got, the tighter my grip on Axel became. He didn't complain though. Fifteen feet, ten feet, five feet.

My ability to hold the tears back suddenly failed me and I felt the first one break free and trail slowly down my cheek. My nose immediately started to get stuffy, an unfortunate side effect every time I cried, and I rubbed my hand across my eyes. I took my hand out of Axel's so I could rest the roses I'd bought into the holder on the side of the headstone.

He broke the silence after a while, surprising me. Or shocking me, I'm not sure. "Hi girlie! Your twin is totally gay for me." He said cheerfully down at the headstone, "Did you know he was? In any case, I'm an okay guy so I'm acceptable and am pretty sure I'd rock your socks off with my amazing manners. You'd definitely give me your stamp of approval. If not for my manners, then at least for the way I care about Roxas."

I laughed a little at his easy way of talking to Namine. She'd have loved him. "Yes, he treats me right, Nami. And yeah, I know. It took me forever to find myself a boyfriend, but he's the best one out there." I choked a little. "I miss you something terrible, sis." My voice stopped working and I just stood there, grateful for Axel's presence to steady me.

He placed another kiss on my cheek in form of sympathy and reassurance, "We put your art up in my store. People that walk in love it and the couple of designs you made that we selected to become available for tattooing are a real hit." He sighed, "Your brother is really stubborn. I want to build a wall to close off Demyx's space and give him a door instead of a curtain. My piercer would be happy and I'd have another wall where I'd be able to display some of Roxas' work." he nodded, "See. She agrees with me. It won't be too expensive and your photography is worthy of having it's own wall."

I rolled my eyes. "Don't take his side, Namine. It's an unnecessary expense and I already get my pictures displayed on the tattoo wall. He already blew some of them up so they take up more space. He's going to run out of wall it if he's not careful."

Axel pursed his lips, "He's not wrong... I am lacking space a bit. Especially since Roxas kind of needs a room to be able to take his pictures without being hindered by mine, Larxene or Demyx's stuff." Stepping out from behind me, he leaned closer to the headstone, winking up at me before whispering at my sister, "If everything keeps going as smoothly as it has now, I'll come visit you in a month or so to ask you if I can get your blessing on me moving in with Roxas. Not now though because considering how huge Roxas' eyes just got he most likely needs a little time to process this. Which is fine because we don't want this to go too fast. But... If all that works out then we can use the space in my apartment."

I didn't move, my eyes were indeed huge at the subtle hint he'd just dropped. He wanted to move in with me? In a month? Oh dear lord, how awesome would that be? "Namine, you better not tell him that I have a maid service come in every week to clean for me. I don't want him to think that I'm a spoiled little kid, but you remember what happened the last time I tried to clean, right?" Better tell him now that I was a horrible housekeeper. "Three broken glasses, two loads of ruined laundry and I still don't know how I stained the sink blue with that cleaner." I glanced at Axel, hoping he wouldn't be put off by my lack of house cleaning skills.

Axel, amazingly, seemed to be very happy about this news, "Brilliant! I won't feel bad about my lack of cooking skills. Roxas can take care of food and I'll do the cleaning. My work requires me to be good at keeping things sterile, so..." He shrugged, seemingly decided it would all be fine.

I felt a little giddy. We were moving in together! "Thanks for the support, Namine. Oh, and I finally got that tattoo you designed for me. In fact, I can honestly say that you were the one who introduced us. Axel is the only guy in town who could do your design justice, and look where we are now!" I should have known she had something up her sleeve...

Axel smiled and then looked down at his watch, "Ah, gotta get back for a customer," He murmured, giving me a questioning smile, mutely asking me if we were good to go. When I nodded, he stepped back over to me, settling me against his side like he so regularly did. "Alright, see ya later girlie! Have fun racing those fluffy clouds." Axel blinked, looking thoughtful, "You know how when you lie down in the grass? And you look at the clouds and try and see shapes in them? You know how people always see bunnies and shit?" When I nodded he said, "How cool would it be if it were artists up in heaven making those?" He grinned, clearly giddy with his idea.

I bit my tongue as the words 'I love you' almost escaped my lips. It was too soon, wasn't it? But, so much had happened between us, and I really felt like I loved him. We'd been friends for awhile now, and that had led us to becoming boyfriends. Is that what love was? The need to always be around them, the desire to always stand next to them, the want to always have them touch you? Axel was still grinning at the sky and my chest felt tight just looking at him. Yeah, I loved him. Even if it took the rest of my life to truly understand everything there was to know about love, I at least knew that much.

"I love you, Axel."

His head snapped down as he looked at me in surprise, "Woah..." He breathed, turning to face me properly, "That was the most awesome thing I've ever heard in my entire life." He said, his fingers twining into my hair, "Seriously." He smiled, "I love you too." I smiled up at him, feeling excited and happy all at once. My eyes darted left and right and I giggled as I suddenly remembered where we were.

"I can't believe I just confessed to you in the middle of a graveyard." I don't think he really registered my words and if he did he clearly didn't care about the location as he was staring at me rather intently, still looking at me like he had when I'd told him I love him.

"Imma kiss ya for a while and be ten minutes late to my appointment." He stated, inching down to kiss me so, so softly.

"Sounds awesome to me." Was all I got out before my lips were covered with his.

Axel - A week later

Okay, so I know I'd told Roxas we'd be moving in together in about a month, but apparently we were both so excited and were so busy telling each other we loved one another as often as we could... That we realized we didn't hear it often enough and that was because we didn't live in the same house. Which is how over the past week we'd both been moving my stuff slowly to his place without actually officially announcing I was moving or planning anything out between the two of us. Last night I'd gone home to eat dinner with him at his house that would soon be mine as well and Roxas had literally moved all my clothes without warning me. Not that I minded, no, not at all... He was just much too cute for his own good.

I didn't think I'd ever find a person I could spend all my time with. The mornings, afternoons, evenings and nights. We did everything together and somehow we never got on each others nerves. I'd wondered if that would change at some point, but I seriously didn't think it would. When I'd talked to Roxas about it, it was only to find out he felt pretty much the same way. We were both pretty easy going people it turned out. If he ever needed space, I'd give it to him without throwing a hissy fit, vice versa. I'd over-think and be paranoid but I seriously believed that both our lives had been so fucked up until now, it was good we finally had some happy shit going. I was basking in the amazing glory called love and I was hanging onto it with my entire being.

There was one tiny little thing though... It was getting extremely hard not to do anything but kissing with the occasional bump and grind since I was pretty much sleeping in the same bed as him every single night. Which was good, I didn't want it any other way, but I'd been sporting severe cases of blue balls as of late and I don't think my dick was going to handle much more. I didn't want to pressure him and I never would... I wanted him to tell me when he'd be okay to go further than our heated make out sessions. Maybe he was too shy though? Ugh... I didn't know. And I had no idea how to approach him with this subject.

I smiled at the customer Roxas was done photographing, wishing him a good day as he walked out the door. Alright... How to tell my virgin boyfriend I wanted to nail him hard? Pursing my lips, I walked over to him, placing my hands on his hips all the while invading his personal space as I pressed my chest against his back, letting him feel all of me. Including the erection that had easily popped up the moment my mind had started thinking naughty thoughts.

"Roxas..." I moaned softly into his ear, a hint of pleading, hoping he'd just get what I wanted through that without needing me to spell out the actual words.

"Axel, are you seriously going to do that to me at work? Couldn't you have done that last night?" He turned around and put his hands on his hips, a smile pulling at the corners of his mouth. "Your timing is horrible you know that? You still have one more customer today, and now I'm going to be walking funny too." Shaking his head in mock disappointment, he crossed his arms. "What am I going to do with you?"

I gave him an innocent look, "We didn't move my couch yet..." Pulling him into my arms, I let my hands slide down his back, cupping his yummy ass in my palms, "Hmmm... We got two hours before my next customer comes in. How about I show you the arts of an amazing handjob?" I waggled my eyebrows suggestively down at him.

"Oh! Umm, do you think we should?" His eyes were wide and innocent, his voice eager. "I think I might like that. I'll like it, right?" Oh, Roxas. So much a virgin.

"You'll love it." I assured, leaning down so I could give him a short but deep kiss. "Come on." I said eagerly, reaching down to take his hand, intent on dragging him up to my apartment as fast as I could so we could get down to it. Finally! After that one taste? Roxas would never let me out of bed after wards. Let the honey moon phase of our relationship begin! I was ready for it. Bring it!

Ding!

"No!" I shouted, turning around to scold whoever was ruining my life! "We're clos-" I cut myself off, blinking in surprise at the figure, pulling Roxas close to me for support as I kept on staring at the guy that had walked in. I hadn't seen him in years... I. Woah, fuck how was I supposed to handle this? He looked different, older and if it weren't for those goggles and red hair, I might not have recognized him.

"Axel." He said, his eyes lighting up as he took me in, a broad smile on his face.

I think my brain just collapsed... "Reno..." I said, sounding shocked.

"Reno?" Roxas asked, his voice surprised. Glancing up at me, he quickly let go and walked forward offering his hand. "Hello, I'm Roxas. Nice to meet you." Yes. Good. Roxas can take the lead... I certainly couldn't right this very moment. Oh my fucking god.

"Hi, yo," Reno shook Roxas' hand energetically, "Nice to meet you as well, whoever you are. I'm thinking important considering the way my little brother just held onto you." Releasing Roxas' hand, he stepped towards me and without asking for my permission whatsoever, pulled me into a tight hug. Wide eyes, I stared over his shoulder at Roxas, who seemed amused for some reason, motioning mutely for me to hug him back. Blinking, I nodded in thanks at Roxas and then hugged Reno back. "Well, shit! I have been looking for you for ages!" Reno exclaimed, still holding onto me.

He had? "I..." He stepped back, a hand still on my shoulder as he just took me in, "I was right here." I murmured, not really knowing what else to tell him.

"I see that!" Reno laughed, "I tracked you all the way down to that rehab facility. Took some time for them to tell me where the hell you'd gone after getting cleaned up." Panicked, I glanced at Roxas, motioning for him to get closer because I was having a hard time absorbing all of this.

"Um, maybe we should all sit down? Axel, I'm going to go ahead and move that appointment of yours to later on this week okay?" Roxas gave me a quick smile and hurried to find the customers contact info. "Maybe you could give Reno a quick tour while I do that?"

Without him? "Yeah, okay, sure." I murmured, "Bloody Ink's. I do tattoos." I pointed out the obvious and Reno pressed his lips together in amusement as he took in the dumbfounded state I was in. "Hey, no making fun of me." I told him sternly, "This is heavy shit. My long lost half brother just walked into my store." I sighed heavily, feeling my shoulders relax some, "I thought I'd never fucking see you or dad ever again." I pointed out. Trying to tone down the small hint of anger rushing through me. Wasn't Reno's fault they left...

"Awww, c'mon Red, you know how much I loved teasing ya." Reno grinned, placing an arm over my shoulder and then pretty much walked through the store, guiding himself, looking around curiously. "This place is amazing, Axel. You did real good for yourself, yo." We were standing in my working area now, him sitting on the chair and me standing in front of him. The initial shock was now fading and I finally managed to grasp control over myself again as I just stared at him.

"Why didn't you come visit?" I asked softly... This guy had been my hero, my entire world. He'd been there every single day up until the day I was eight. I'd figured he'd find some sneaky way for us to keep in contact without our parents knowing, but, nothing...

Reno smiled apologetically up at me, "Dad and I moved to Bikanel Island... I couldn't come visit you. I wanted to though," He said gently, "I wrote to you. I even sent you my pocket money so you could buy candy, but dad found out and..." He cringed, "Shit, Axel, I'm only two years older than you man. I had no idea how dangerous your mama was. She probably intercepted the letters and used the money on drugs." Now he looked completely crushed, "I've been looking for you ever since I turned eighteen and daddy couldn't stop me." My father hadn't let him? "Your mother put a restraining order on me and dad. We weren't allowed to come near her at all and since she always kept you with her..." Well hell.

"Okay." I clipped out, "No more of that. Enough." Sighing, I pushed him over so I could sit down next to him, grinning a bit, "You're here now, is all that counts, yeah?"

"You're such a sap, yo!" Reno laughed, pushing my head because he used to do that all the time.

"You're the one that has been tracking me down mercilessly! Who's the sap now, huh?" I poked him, feeling so fucking light all of a sudden. Shit, this was amazing...

"Um, you guys? You do realize that you are both saps?" Roxas stated as he stepped into the room, having heard us. "Again, nice to meet you Reno."

Reno chuckled, "Who the hell is this guy?"

I raised an eyebrow, motioning for Roxas to come closer, "My boyfriend. Fucking deal Reno."

He lifted his palms, looking beyond amused, "Okay, lay off, I won't give you the 'being gay is wrong and unholy', promise. Not my place and ya know," He waggled his eyebrows, "Pretty fucking gay myself." Really? "Ah yes, Reno loves the ass..." My older brother said dreamily.

Wrinkling my nose, I stepped away from him and pulled Roxas into my arms because I could. "TMI Reno."

He shrugged, "Didn't think you'd care so much since you made it clear to the whole fucking world you were about to jump each other. You realize your store window is transparent right? Sorry to have interrupted, yo."

Roxas blushed and buried his head into my side. "See? I told you. You should have done something last night and not in the middle of the store!" I wanted to protest, but he was right. Smiling apologetically down at him, I let my fingers find their way into his hair again, kissing the top of his head in sympathy.

"I promise I'll behave from now on." I whispered softly.

"You're not actually going to believe him, are you?" Reno asked Roxas. Maybe I wanted him gone again.

Roxas pulled away a little and beamed up at me, before turning to Reno and winking. "Oh, I hope he doesn't behave for too long. Anyways, how long are you in town for?"

Reno grinned, "I moved here. The moment I found out you were in Hollow Bastion, I told my boss back in Bikanel that I needed some time off. He wouldn't give it, so I quit. S'okay though, they need pilots everywhere, including HB." He shrugged, "I literally just drove in and came straight to this place. You guys wanna help bring up the boxes in my new apartment? Hang out a bit? I'll treat you guys to some home delivered pizza and beer?" He actually looked uncertain. As if I didn't want him here...

Smiling at him, I then looked at Roxas, "You in?"

"After seeing you smile like that? Hell yeah." He grinned up at me, then leaned in and wrapped his arms tightly around my chest. "Come on, let's get out of here."

Roxas - Two weeks later

I wasn't in any way upset at Reno. Or Demyx. Or even Reno again. But it just seemed like the whole world was conspiring against me and Axel, trying to keep us from any kind of alone time. Reno needed some help moving and of course we helped him out. And it was kind of fun to take him all around town, introducing him to Zexion and his crew. That had been interesting, as apparently Saix was still a little nervous around me. Who knew you could scare a guy like that so easily?

Apparently, the day after that was Demyx's birthday and Zexion had planned this huge dinner with everyone invited. I giggled at how completely smitten they both were with each other, spending most of the dinner covertly groping each other under the table, and then while opening presents. Axel's present to Demyx had been the idea that we could double date, and Demyx had cashed that in for the next night.

That had been a lot of fun. To see Axel relax and just kid around with his oldest friends. It seemed like Demyx dating Zexion was slowly opening Axel up more, talking tattoo techniques and designs to Zexion, and kidding each other about getting pierced in different places. Zexion also asked a few questions about Reno, who it seemed had wandered in that day, teasing and flirting with his employees, namely Saix. I couldn't tell how Axel felt about that, but I found out the next night, when Reno insisted that we all go to karaoke so that he could flirt with Saix some more. Very blatantly in fact. Friendly night out, my ass. I hadn't seen something that obvious since...hell, I'd never seen someone so obvious in fact.

I'd been hoping that last night would be just me and Axel, but Xigbar had called, saying he was in town and he was hoping he could borrow me for a bit to take some pictures. How could we refuse? I hadn't gotten home til very late and Axel had actually fallen asleep on the couch waiting for me. I'd wanted him to come with me, but after trying to work with him in the same room before, we decided that we better not. My hands always itched to touch him, run my fingers through his hair, or run my lips up and down his throat. Not something you really want to be doing when you are photographing leather wearing bikers.

And now it was almost two weeks later and we still hadn't found any alone time to just grope each other. I was seriously desperate... And to make matters worse, I now had to go into work and stand by for two hours as Axel did a tattoo, taking pictures the whole time because the guy wanted 'progression' shots of it. Groaning, I packed up my camera and loaded my equipment in the car. Pure torture. Being that close and no groping or kissing...my life sucked.

Huh? That's weird. The door was locked. Shrugging, I pulled out my key and unlocked the store. Demyx and Larxene must be off. And since Axel was the only one here, if he was with a customer he usually had to lock the door to keep people out until one of them got back.

"Hello? Axel, are you in here?" I chose to lock the door again, as I really didn't want to play receptionist on top of everything else.

"In the back! Lock the door behind you and then get in here. Let no one see you or else someone might keep us from it again."

"What?" Confused and glad that I'd already locked the door, I made my way to the back of the store and to where I could hear Axel's voice coming from. The door to his tattoo area was slightly ajar and I pushed it open, expecting to see him and a customer. There wasn't a customer though. What there was was our favorite pizza on a blanket with beers and then one miserable little candle.

Axel grinned down at his handy work, "I know it's not an amazing sight, but I had to make do with what I could find. In any case. We're not working. Or, well, we are... Everyone believes us to be working but we're not really because this." He said sternly, "This is gonna be our alone time dammit!" Clearly he was just as frustrated as I was, "I got the pizza to give you the opportunity to sit and relax some, but please tell me you're not hungry and just wanna get laid right this fucking instance?" What I really wanted to do was drop my bag dramatically and leap into his arms. What I did instead was gingerly set my thousand dollar camera on the table and walk over to him, stopping as I got close.

"Fuck, yeah." I murmured, my eyes glued to his face.

He moaned happily, taking me in his arms, "See, this is why I love you." he grinned, "Cause you want me as bad as I want you. Now enough talk and lets get to it!" He announced with joy before his entire demeanor changed, eyes hooding over, tongue sliding over his lips and a second later he had me pulled flush up against him, kissing me desperately as he half carried me to the chair he'd tattooed me in. He didn't sit me down in it though, just let us stand beside it.

"Imma take your shirt of, Roxas..." He warned in a breathless whisper, his fingers a tad cold as they touched my skin before pulling the fabric over my head. I reached up to unbutton his all the while his head dipped down so he could pay reverent attention to my neck, his hands on the small of my back caressing my skin. He pulled away so I could push the shirt off his shoulders, letting it fall to the ground. While his eyes took me in, I greedily let mine travel over his naked chest but was cut off when he dropped down to his knees, on hand settling on my tummy, the other on my back.

"I wanna do something..." He whispered as he turned me a bit, nudging my arm out of the way with his face before he started covering my scar with hundreds of small kisses.

"Axel..." I said breathlessly, my scar tingling in a good way as he ran his lips over it. His touch was feather light and I prayed that I would be able to enjoy what we were about to do and not worry about any kind of pain my scar might cause me. I really wanted to enjoy what was about to happen. My virginity really didn't mean a whole lot to me, and it hadn't been my intention to hold onto it as long as I had. I had just never felt the desire to let anyone else do the things that Axel was currently doing to me. I'd been so caught up in my own little world, focused almost entirely on Namine and school, and then on getting better after the accident, I'd obviously missed out on the finer and funner things in life. But, somehow that didn't bother me too much. No, I wanted Axel to be the one to have my virginity, as corny as that sounded.

When his tongue slipped out, it tickled and he chuckled as I squirmed away, giggling at the sensation. Hands on my hips now, he turned me so my tummy was facing him and he pressed wet and open mouthed kisses against my skin, my hands shooting up in his hair as that felt really sorta neat... His left hand slid over my ass, grabbing it firmly while his right moved to my front, palming my crotch through my pants.

Grinning up at me, my eyes widened as he undid the button of my pants with his teeth, looking utterly smug as he then pulled the zipper down, also with his teeth. He removed his hand from my front for a moment so he could pull my pants down and he then gave me a soft smile of reassurance before pulling down my boxers as well. Before I could blush over the fact of standing completely naked in front of him, he closed his fingers around the base of my dick, rubbing it in quick and short motions while he took the tip between his lips, his tongue wet as he sucked slowly.

"Oh, damn Axel." Was all I could get out as I felt his warm wet mouth surround me. My head was bent forward and my heart was beating wildly as I watched his red spikes move closer then farther from my abdomen. Reaching out, I gently rested my hands on top of his head, his spikes soft beneath my fingers, and I moaned as he was moving so slowly it was driving me insane. He kept at it for a while, never picking up in speed, just teasing me relentlessly. When he pulled away, he licked his lips, humming in appreciation up at me.

"Tell me, Rox, which cherry of yours are we popping first?"

My hands were still in his hair, and I slowly untangled my fingers, thinking about it. "What cherry would you like to pop? You'd know better than me what would be best for the first time." Really, I didn't care. Either way, it'd be with Axel, and I knew I could look forward to anything and everything with him.

Looking thoughtful for a moment, he stood up onto his feet, smiling softly before placing a kiss on my lips. "Get those pants off me, Blondie." He said, hands back on my hips so he could walk me backwards and push me down, making me sit on the edge of the chair that was back to it's lying down position. Placing his hands on either side of me on the leather, he kissed my neck, letting me fumble with the button of his jeans.

He hadn't answered me, but I didn't really mind as I was now extremely focused on removing his pants and boxers finally. Button open, zipped down, and I licked my lips and gently gripped the waistband of both pants and boxers, pulling them slowly down his hips.

"Wow." And do I mean wow. I hadn't really seen a lot of, ehem, dicks in my life, but I had a feeling that Axel was going to spoil me for anyone else for the rest of my life, which was fine with me. Heart beating fast and hands trembling a little as I slid his pants the rest of the way down his legs, I leaned forward and gave the end of it a short shy kiss.

Axel chuckled, gripping my chin softly, placing a peck on my lips, "So fucking adorable." He whispered, reaching behind me and then twirling a small bottle of lube in his hand. "Gimmie your hands." He instructed. Blinking, I did and he squirted some out of the bottle and onto my fingers, rubbing our hands together so both our hands were completely slick. He reached down, working my length slowly, his open mouth against my ear, his breathing harsh. "Start with one finger, okay?"

"What?" I looked up in his eyes, confused and unsure all of a sudden. He wanted me to do what with one finger?

Kissing my cheek, he left his lips there and then with his free hand took my wrist and guided my hand down his back, "You're gonna have to prepare me before we start the love makin'. Press your finger inside of me." He said in a whisper and then chuckled softly, "Then wiggle it around until I tell you to add a second."

"Axel. Are you really serious? I don't know if I can..." This was beyond anything I was prepared for. I'd just always assumed that I would be, er, receiving. I mean, he was taller than me right? Wasn't that, like, in the rules or something? But my hand was already resting at his entrance, and he was breathing so loudly in my ear.

Axel laughed breathlessly, "You'll rock my world, baby. Promise." Placing both hands beside my hips again, he leaned onto the leather of the chair, dragging his lips over my cheek so he could kiss me hungrily. I greedily returned the kiss, grabbing some courage before gently pressing a finger inside of him, hoping to dear fucking god I was doing this right. Axel broke away, moaning softly before licking his lips, giving me a nod, "Good, that's good." He panted out, slowly moving his hips back, informing me mutely with this motion that I needed to start the wiggling. I shyly moved my finger in and out of him and the blush soon faded into a look of want as Axel seemed to really, really like this. He was moaning and I was making him. I was the one who made him look so pleased. He smiled down at me through a grunt, letting his head drop onto my shoulder, "Okay," He moaned out, "Add another one."

That was fast. I gently inserted a second finger, amazed at the feeling of being inside of him, and the feel of his breath against my neck and shoulder. Tilting my head to the side, I sought his lips, wanting to taste him again.

"Axel." I murmured, licking his lips before pressing mine against them. We kissed for a long amazing while as I slowly stretched him and then his hand returned on my erection, not even bothering with the teasing as he settled into a relatively fast pace instantly. Tearing my lips away from his, I moaned at the sudden pleasure he was offering me and in reflex my fingers started moving at the same speed he'd settled on me. He groaned in satisfaction, smiling as his eyes closed, looking really fucking happy right now.

"Uh, so, so good Roxas. Go on..." He moaned. Adding a third finger, it took him a moment to adjust, but it wasn't long before he gave me the green light to start moving again, his hand still working me, the occasional kiss here and there that needed to be interrupted by gasps or moans from time to time. I was taking careful internal notes on how exactly he was reacting, memorizing the different ways that he was moving and hoping that when I eventually bottomed, I would enjoy it as much as he was enjoying it. My heart was still beating fast and he felt incredibly warm against my skin, our bodies becoming slick with a thin layer of sweat.

"Axel, can I, um, are you ready?" I was desperate to feel what it was like inside of him. My fingers were sending covert signals to my dick that it would feel fantastic if it was in there.

"Yes," He panted before reaching behind me, taking a condom and ripping the package open with his teeth, fishing the thing out before rolling it down my length. "Lie back." He instructed softly, wincing just a bit as I slipped my fingers out of him, but he shook his head, smiling in reassurance he wasn't hurting. "Just feels funky. Need you..." He moaned against my lips, hovering over me as I'd lain back like he'd asked me too.

"Should I do anything..." I felt overwhelmed and a little nervous, suddenly intimidated by the experience that he had, and the lack that I had. Straddling my waist, he pushed up onto his knees, holding onto my dick before guiding the tip to his entrance.

"Just do what feels right, Roxas. Love me like you've been lovin' me this entire time and like I said earlier, you'll rock my world." Leaning forward, he kissed me softly and then pressed himself down on top of me. His body trembled above me and I'm pretty sure mine did too as we both moaned loudly at the same time as I was now sliding into him. It was tight and warm, but more than anything it felt so perfect to have him leaning over me, trembling and moaning my name as I moaned his. My hands were clutching his hips, gripping tightly as my eyes were tightly shut and I struggled to cope with all of the different feelings that were assaulting me at once. I was afraid to move right away, I was too close. Instead, my eyes still closed I moved one hand around his hip to grip him in hand, grateful now for the lube he had so generously covered my palms in, and started stroking him fiercely.

"Axel, don't move yet." I stuttered out, slowly moving my other hand up his side, feeling his muscles tremble as I grabbed his arm and moved his hand so that he was leaning onto my chest. I wanted him to feel my heart race, wanted him to use me to steady himself above me as I quickened the hand that was stroking him.

I could see he was having issues not moving down on top of me, and I couldn't help but chuckle as this pleased me for some reason. Palms flat on my chest, he supported himself that way, his Adam's apple bobbing as his lips parted, his pants filling the air as I worked him faster. He dropped his chin to his chest, moaning my name as his arms trembled through the strain.

"Okay, stop, stop..." He said breathlessly, "Don't make me come yet." He laughed, stilling my hand on him.

"Okay, but, um, I'm probably going to explode the second you start moving." My mind was only part listening, part talking, the rest was still occupied with the delicious warmth surrounding me. He moaned at my words, taking my hands so he could move them over our heads, lacing our fingers together as he trapped his erection between our stomachs.

"S'okay, come for me whenever you want, Rox." He murmured before kissing me fiercely. Pushing up onto his knees he then just as soon slid back down on top of me, groaning loudly into my mouth.

I'd been right, it didn't take me long to come at all. Everything I was feeling was just so overwhelming and new and good... Gripping his fingers tightly, my body stiffened as the first rush shot through me. Axel was kissing my neck hungrily as I moaned his name in bliss, moving up and down on top of me slowly, working me down from my high gently. I knew he hadn't come yet and I almost wanted to be embarrassed with how soon I'd come, but he didn't seem to mind all that much as he pushed back up onto my chest, gripping himself in hand. He looked completely out of it, the sweat on his forehead making his hair cling to his skin, his eyes squeezed tightly shut as he moaned through the motions. I would have taken care of him, but I my bones had gone to jello and I couldn't stop staring at him as he was so very hot sitting on top of me like that.

He was rubbing himself slowly, taking the occasional break to just kiss me which I returned desperately every single time before he broke away again with a gasp, sitting back up so he could continue his handy work. Through my hungry and lustful gaze, I wondered somewhere in the back of my mind why he wasn't letting himself come already. He clearly could have... The fourth time he took a break, leaning down to kiss me, his fingers tugging on my nipples playfully, I moaned as I started to harden again.

Axel moaned, "Hmm... Awesome." He pushed up onto his knees, pulling out of me completely and then used the next couple of seconds to pull the condom off me and replace it with a new one. I groaned, propping myself up onto my elbows as my head fell back when he moved himself back down my length. His hands circled around my back, pulling me up so I was sitting, his lips back on me again and this time he didn't pause, simply started moving right away and not gently, he pounded hard and fast and it was rough and it was good and sweaty and just freaking awesome.

Holding me close to him, his breathing was completely messed up and his moans and groans were constant as he worked us back to that edge again. I gripped his hips and then decided that although this was really cool and I really loved him for guiding me through it all, I needed him too. I held him still and then jerked my hips up, taking over the lead. My lips parted in surprise as he let out a higher pitched sounding moan and he framed my face, looking down at me with wide eyes.

"Okay, fuck yes, do that again." I looked up at him curiously and he licked his lips, trying to explain, "Magic spot. Prostate. What the fuck ever, it's amazing, I'll explain later. Do it again, please..."

"I want to be on top. Please, Axel." I managed to get out in between pants and moans and I repeatedly jerked my hips upwards. It was kind of hard to get a good rhythm this way, and I really wanted to speed up and pound into him.

"Okay, yes, good idea." He agreed easily, panting, eyes hooded and clearly having a great time. He made a funny face as he slipped out of me and then moved around to sit on my spot, myself now settled between his legs. Propped up onto his elbows, he pecked my lips, grinned and then flopped back onto the chair. "Give it to me, babe." I licked my lips, anxious to be the one to enter him on my own, instead of having him do it for me. This was it, I could do this and make my fucking hot and delicious boyfriend come.

Slowly crawling over him I rested one palm on the chair next to his hip, one hand gripping my erection as I moved it up to gently rest against his entrance. The chair was squeaking slightly, as our sweat drenched bodies moved against it. Gulping, I slowly pushed the head inside him, before pausing to remove my hand and lean forward over him, desperately seeking his lips before I continued. Connecting them hungrily, I couldn't enter him slowly like I wanted to, my body slamming forward without my permission, really. Once inside of him again, my hips started moving at a determined pace, and I panted into his mouth, unable to continue the kiss I'd initiated.

"Oh god!" He shouted, his head moving back so my lips now pressed against his throat, "See," A moan, "Rockin' my-" Groan interruption, "world." That last one was said breathlessly as his palms settled on my ass, encouraging my movements. I could only grin at his actions, the familiar tightness in my stomach warning me that I might want to give it my all before I finished again. Axel was the most erotic sight, panting my name and writhing beneath me, and I leaned down to lick and nibble his neck, anxious to taste him.

Sinking my teeth, not too hard, into his neck I let out a growl, which surprised me actually. Putting my arms under his and reaching up and around his shoulders to get a better grip, my mouth never leaving his neck, I used his body to force myself deeper every time I slammed back inside of him. God, he felt so good... I felt him tighten around my length and a split second later his entire body stiffened, his thighs pressing tightly against my hips as his hands on my ass clamped down, keeping me still for just a moment as he moaned loudly, coming between our stomachs. I didn't even need to move anymore, the simple feeling of his ass clenching and unclenching around me and you know, the fact that he just totally came shouting my name? I followed right behind him.

My muscles turned to jello and I felt a wave of satisfaction at the overwhelmed look on Axel's face. Too bad I didn't have enough breath or strength left in my body to comment on it, instead I could only lay my head gently against his shoulder, right beneath the giant hickey I'd accidentally given him. Fuck, that had been amazing...

His arms came around me, his lips placing a soft kiss against my sweaty forehead. "That was so unbelievably and ridiculously good... we are taking the next week off to make sure that wasn't a dream. For the sake of our sanity, we have to do this again and again and fucking again..." He chuckled softly, looking beyond content and utterly satisfied.

"Okay, whatever you say..." I mumbled against his chest, my eyes drinking in the sight of him. "Axel..." My voice was a little whiny and weak. "I don't wanna move..."

He smiled, "Good. Cause I'm not letting ya."

THE END