Cinderpaw11 here! So, I've decided to be an idiot and decided to start another fanfiction! Yaaaay! Anyways, this is about Hollyleaf, and yes, it's a songfic, too bad for you if you hate songfics. I thought this song went perfectly with Hollyleafs story. Anyway, I know I'm planning a Rainwhisker story, and I have about fifteen Births to write, AND I'm planning to continue Invisible, BUT, I loved Hollyleaf… she was epic, and I really do hope she's still alive, and somewhat sane. Anyway, this is getting pathetically long, so on with it.

Disclaimer: That's right, I'm writing a disclaimer, wanna fight about it? Come Clean belongs to Hillary Duff, Warriors to Erin Hunter, and 'Wanna fight about it?' is from Family Guy.

Hollyleaf ran into the tunnels, full speed. Her brothers weren't going to come after her. They knew she needed her space. And then it happened. There was a loud rumble, and Hollyleaf swore there must be a storm. Until a chunk of dirt fell on her head.

She sped up. She didn't want to die! She just wanted to get away for a while. From the glaring clan-mates, the growls and hisses that had come after her since she announced it. She should be a hero, not a villain!

Her brothers scream echoed around the tunnels, making the dirt fall faster: "Hollyleaf!"

And then it opened in front of her. A way out! No… three.

One was crumbling away, one was almost buried, and the last was shaking violently.

She looked at them frantically. No way out, at least not unless she got injured doing so. And she chose.

The first one. And as she zoomed through it, feeling her anger run out of her and into the crumbling ground, soon to be replaced with fear and possibly pain, she saw light. Bright light shining in through a hole in the roof. And the smell of ShadowClan. But it was better than nothing. She sped up, and took a flying leap. Only to be smashed back down, as a huge rock fell out of the roof of the cave, catching only her tail, but still enough to break her tail. Yowling with pain, she clawed at the rock, and suddenly the rock was flung down the tunnel. Ignoring the weird occurrence, and thanking StarClan, she took another jump, successfully landing in the outside world.

A yowl of victory escaped her, as she had escaped the tunnels, and she turned tail and fled back into ThunderClan territory. But not back to camp. She couldn't go back there, not yet. In a moon or two she'd return. Until then, she knew a place near the Moonpool she could hide. 'The Moonpool…' She snarled under her breath. The place closest to StarClan. Pathetic, StarClan wasn't in charge of her anymore. She chose her own path. It was her life, and she chose what to do.

She dodged everything she saw. Every familiar landmark she had grown to love and cherish throughout the seasons. And then she smelt the WindClan borders. The scent she was related to. Hollyleaf curled her lip in disgust, continuing on her way. She remembered the first time she went up the path by the stream, her real mother beside her, tail flicking nervously at what was about to happen, eager to see her friend, Willowpaw.

Familiar voices were heard up ahead, and she stopped abruptly. She couldn't be seen; she'd be taken to camp for punishment or questioning. She wasn't ready for that.

Thornclaw. She identified as the first voice, as she picked her way forward slowly. And… Heathertail…?

"We have to stop meeting Heathertail. I'm sorry."

A shocked, sputtered, "B-but… we…" replied.

Heathertail and Thornclaw? That explains Thornclaw being single… or not-so-single. Hollyleaf watched curiously, as Thornclaws fur bushed out, and he hissed at Heathertail to make a run for it.

"Who's there?" He demanded. And out stepped the one she dreaded. The one she wanted dead. The code-breaker. Her mother. Her real mother.

Leafpool muttered something about needing to think. And Thornclaws reply shredded Hollyleafs heart: "After Hollyleaf died… I think we all do."

She had died? No she hadn't! I'm right here! she wanted to yowl. What had her brothers said about her?

She didn't catch the rest of their conversation. She had run. And at the perfect time, for moments later, Crowfeather appeared.

Code-breaking ThunderClanners! And she was one of them!

But she continued towards her hiding spot. She wouldn't go back until this blew over a bit. Two moons ought' a do it.

And against her word, she went about nine moons later. She started on her way to camp. Would anyone remember her? Perhaps. But she would eavesdrop before she went in. And she knew the perfect place. The area outside the nursery that she and her brothers used to talk in. She could easily eavesdrop on the gossiping queens.

"Can you believe Dovepaw?"

"What's wrong with Dovepaw? She seems nice."

"Oh, she's wonderful. But hasn't she clung to that medicine cat and her mentor a bit too much? She never hangs out with her sister anymore."

"Ivypaws fine. And Dovepaw has every right to hang out with those two. They're brothers, she probably goes to Jayfeather to ask for rumors and junk about Lionblaze. You know, I used to be good at blackmail."

"You? Blackmail? I don't see it. But doesn't Dovepaw seem like she… replaced her?"

"Hollyleafs name isn't a curse, you nimrod! She was a saint until the end! And so what? Lionblaze and Jayfeather… were so depressed until that Dovepaw came along. Besides, without her knowing about the beavers, we'd all be dead!"

"I did like Hollyleaf. You know, Mousewhisker had the biggest crush on her!"

Hollyleaf backed out of the small cave. Had it gotten smaller, or she bigger? Either way, she knew now. She wasn't needed. Dovepaw was it? she thought, Hope you do better than me with the prophecy. So Dovepaw had replaced her? Thanks for mourning me so long dear brothers. Nine moons, barely anything, and a replacement. And Mousewhisker liked her. Huh. Well, that sucked. She liked him in her later apprentice days. Oh well, the point. She wasn't needed anymore. She knew the prophecy didn't involve her. But it still pierced her heart.

Distant voices interrupted her thoughts.

Jayfeather was complaining about having to find a bigger meeting place soon.

But that would mean…

Uh-oh.

She leaped into the nearest tree, hoping that the leaves would cover her. Her scent wouldn't matter, it was ThunderClan.

"We don't have time to find one." She heard Lionblaze reply.

"Why can't we talk somewhere else completely? We could talk in that tree, for StarClans sake!" a tiny voice piped up. Hollyleaf guessed that that was Dovepaw. No! This is my tree! You can't have it to!

"A tree? No way." Lionblaze snapped.

"Why do we have to talk anyway? It's just stupid! Don't we know everything we need to? Lionblaze fights, Jayfeather dreams, and I see. Ta-dah! Done! Can I go?" Dovepaw growled.

"We know you don't want your powers, but neither did we." Lionblaze retorted.

"Yeah, get over it." Jayfeather agreed.

"Harsh, Jayfeather."

"I try to be." Jayfeather yawned.

"I know you don't want me to be part of you." Dovepaw started. "You want Hollyleaf. It's n-"

"Who told you about her?" Lionblazes enraged snarl cut her off.

"Rumors, clan-mates, gatherings. Need I go on?"

"You will never bring her up with us, you got that! She died moons ago, and we don't have time for you to sulk about not being her. She's gone. As far as I'm concerned, she never existed! Never bring her up again!" Lionblaze had gone over the top.

"… And I'm harsh?" Jayfeather asked after Dovepaw ran off. "She was bound to find out about her! Besides we don't even have proof she died! Don't take out your anguish on Dovepaw, she was making a point, and it was true. We miss Hollyleaf, and Hollyleaf did exist! You can't decide on that! But she's gone now, and we have to move on, no matter what! We have a prophecy to fulfill. Now go find Dovepaw, Firestar wanted to talk to us three." Huh, Jayfeather snapped to. Lionblaze snarled at him before walking off, tail swishing in anger and annoyance. Jayfeather slumped to the ground, letting out a long sigh, "Oh, Hollyleaf, why'd you have to do this to us…?"

Hollyleaf looked down at her brother from the branch she was on. Had she really done this much? Had she been the bind holding her brothers together? Letting out a sigh, she clawed her way down the tree, not caring anymore if Jayfeather saw –or rather heard- her. His ear twitched, but he gave no sign he knew who it was, he simply curled himself into a tight ball, turning away from her.

She walked up to him and licked his ear, and whispered, "I'm so, so sorry, Jayfeather…" before running away before her brother could guilt-trip her into coming back. This way he would think he fell asleep went to the top of the drop off that had the camp in it and looked around. She could see everyone, but they couldn't see her. Purdy was sunbathing outside the elder's den, while Mousefur and Longtail chatted outside of it. Lionblaze was entering the leaders den with Dovepaw trailing behind him, and Jayfeather had just walked into camp with a lost look on his face, before turning his gaze towards where she was hiding. His eyes widened, and he flinched before running into the leaders den. Mousewhisker, Bumblestripe, Millie and Brambleclaw were heading out on patrol. Daisy was lazing around the nursery, while Ferncloud and Dustpelt slept behind her. Squirrelflight was glaring at a dead squirrel that she was supposed to be eating. Sandstorm was peeking into the medicine cat's den, and flicked her tail in annoyance when she found that no one was in it. Leafpool was walking towards Sandstorm, mouthing some words. Sandstorm shook her head and growled a reply to which Leafpool looked ashamed. Good.

A fresh wave of anger washed over her, and she felt her throat rumble as she snarled in fury. If Leafpool and Squirrelflight hadn't lied, they wouldn't be going through all this anguish!

Before she knew what was happening, a feeling of power came over her, and a nearby beech tree was thrown into the clearing below, heading right towards where Leafpool had been standing moments ago. Yowls of terror filled the air, and someone screaming in agonized pain came from the elder's den.

Hollyleaf backed up in horror. Had she done that? Or was she imagining the feeling of power? Shaking, she headed away from the scene that the tree –or maybe she- had caused. She was going to forget all this. She was going to find a new place to live. But where? Obviously not ThunderClan. Or WindClan. River or ShadowClan? Would they accept her? ShadowClans leader, Blackstar, had seemed rather pleased at the announcement she had made. Maybe he respected her now. But, she was dead, wasn't she?

No. She was alive. He could accept her if he wanted, but RiverClan and loner life were always options.

But Clan-life was more suitable for her. ShadowClan it was.

And just like that, she was on her way to ShadowClan. And to say they were surprised to see a ghost was an understatement. Four cats screamed, two ran out of camp, three attacked her, two fainted, and the rest were to shocked to move. It was an amusing sight. Blackstar seemed highly amused after she explained what needed explaining. The tunnel, the nine lonely moons, the decision to not join ThunderClan again –but not the reason- and that she wished to join ShadowClan. And he agreed. Especially after he found out her power. It was an accident, just moving a rock, but he saw, and that was that.

~ Five Moons Later ~

Life had been… good. Moon one, had been… awkward. Moon two, cats started opening up to her a bit more. Moon three, Crowfrost, Scorchfur and Redwillow all started to act extremely nice to her, Scorchfur asked to be mates, she accepted, and was pregnant. Moon four, was in the nursery while ShadowClan fought ThunderClan over some territory, gave birth to Rock-kit and Rosekit, Russetfur died in battle, Rowanclaw was named temporary deputy. Moon five, Hollyleaf usually leaves the nursery –the kits in the care of Snowbird- and eventually becomes loyal enough to become, that's right, deputy.

-Moon Five, Gathering

"Okay, Hollyleaf, as planned, we're the first Clan here. Now, we need you to have a big entrance, so hide in those bushes at the side of the tree here. That's right, now when I say, 'Meet our new deputy,' step out, and I'll say, 'Hollyleaf.'" Blackstar planned.

Hollyleaf blinked, "Can't I just st-"

"No."

"But I ju-"

"No."

"…Okay."

"Good girl."

"I'll claw you."

"I know you will, now get in the bush," Blackstar commanded, shoving Hollyleaf roughly.

"Hey, be gentle. She has kits to return to you know." Scorchfur snapped.

Blackstar rolled his eyes.

"He's right. Hollyleaf has Scorchfurs kits to return to." Crowfrost spat the name Scorchfur like it was crowfood.

"Yes, Scorchfurs." Redwillow added, though not in a terribly upset voice; Scorchfur was his brother, and he was happy for him.

"Yes, mine!" Scorchfur added proudly.

Blackstar snarled, "Shut it with the Hollyleaf chat, we all know she's great, but RiverClan is coming. And I see ThunderClan walking with WindClan across the moors."

Panic swelled in Hollyleafs chest, she was about to do the stupidest thing in the world. Admitting she was still alive. And, Blackstars dramatic entrance was pretty stupid.

In the span of a few minutes, the island was bustling with cats.

"Let this Gathering begin! Firestar, would you like to speak first?" Mistystar asked.

"ThunderClan is doing well, except for a lone badger, but it has been sent over the WindClan border. Onestar?"

"Thank you, Firestar, a badger is just what we wanted." Onestar said dryly. Hollyleaf ignored the rest. When was Blackstar going to speak?

"Mistystar, would you like to speak?"

Apparently last.

"Blackstar?"

"Prey is thriving. We had a small spat with a fox, but it was quickly taken care of by our new deputy." That was true. Hollyleafs power had kicked in. After it bit her shoulder, she had yowled, and it flew into a tree on the other side of the scent line.

"Rowanclaw defeated a fox by himself?" Blackclaw yowled in a shocked tone.

"No." Blackstar started, ignoring the confused glances sent his way, "Rowanclaw was a temporary deputy, if you remember me saying. Our new deputy sent it out all on her own. Cats of all Clans, I'd like you to meet ShadowClans new deputy," he paused. Yep, he was really dramatic.

Taking that as her cue, she made the bushes rustle to get the attention on the bush.

Then she stepped out, heart pounding miles a minute, and, doing her best to ignore every cat except her mate, who was grinning with insane happiness. Gasps and yowls rose through, almost knocking her off her feet. Brambleclaw, the deputy of ThunderClan, a.k.a her adopted father, looked like his eyes were about to pop out of his head, Squirrelflight was rushing towards the front of the crowd, blinking repeatedly, and Leafpool fainted.

Lionblaze and Jayfeather were crowding her, and she did her best not to hiss or bush out her fur. She nodded to them, and flashed a small smile to show she was okay, then walked to sit with the other deputies.

"Hollyleaf."

I'm aware I changed some stuff, but whatever, I had to. Yup, Blackstar is dramatic. And my time line is probably screwed up xD

Did you read it? Did you read the lyrics? Did you not get it? READ THEM AGAIN! Seriously, 'trying to fit a square into a circle'

'I defy!'

'Trying to find a pigment of truth beneath my skin'

'Let it wash away my sanity'

'Cause I wanna feel the thunder'

'Feel the wind!'

'I'm coming clean'

OH, and the Thornclaw X Heathertail blah blah blah, read my other fanfiction, After Sunrise: Forever

I'll update after two reviews~ Nah, I'll update in a couple of days. But reviews are nice creatures.

Edit: Took the lyrics out because they were against the rules. Please take the time to listen to the song or search it up.