A/N: Hi everyone! I'm back again :D. This time I'm going to try a hand at one shots and of course I'm starting with bleach :3. I actually had the pairing of NelxIchigo and some innocent mentions of IchigoxOrihime in my head but I decided to add on extra and throw in some minor NelxGrimmjow in the mix to see how it would be :3. Criticism is highly appreciated but please let it be constructive and not hurtful .. I'm new at this =^.^=
Overview: He was never really hers to begin with... Still in her dreams she continued to hold him...
He was never really mine was he? Only in my dreams will I ever see him smile at me... That's how it's supposed to be... But why do I want more?
As I stare into the moon of the human world, I can't help but think back on all the events that transpired over the past few years. As an arrancar and an espada no less, I expected to be dead... Then again, I wasn't the only one left alive.
"Oy, you still out here?"
"..."
"Ain't got a mouth now?"
Tossing an annoyed glance over my shoulder at Grimmjow, I frowned. "Don't you have a soul reaper to bother?"
"Oh? You mean the one you fell for?"
Narrowing my eyes, I raised my reiatsu to let him know he was damn near pushing it. With years came the tolerance but also the breaking points and Grimmjow was damn close to breaking one... And me breaking his bones.
"Easy there... Not in the mood for a fight right now."
"Then don't pick one." I turned away from him and got up.
"Comin' to check up on ya, strawberry's orders."
"So they are..." Looking down into the shouten, I tore my gaze away from Ichigo and Orihime sharing a piece of cake. Brushing my hair over my shoulder, I sonido'ed away to another rooftop far on the other side of town. Resting on that rooftop, I pulled my leg up to my chest and rested my chin on top of it. I hated bringing up topic's that included Ichigo these days... Stirs up feelings that I shouldn't have. For Christ sakes I've been around before he was born and yet I'm fawning over him like one of those horny high school girls that I see walking around everyday. "Ugh..."
"Thought I find you here."
'Speak of the devil...'
"Why you leave like that?"
"Oh no reason." I put up a fake smile to mask my discomfort as I faced him. That's another thing that came with age... Hiding your emotions with ease.
"Like I'll actually believe that... You sure your ok? Cause if Grimmjow did something..."
"Relax Ichigo, though he's a pain in the ass he did nothing..."
"This time yea..."
"..." Getting up, the night air was cool against my legs, ruffling the skirt that played around my thighs. Pulling the denim jacket over my tank top, I prepared to take off again when a hand laid against my shoulder.
"Where do you think you're going?"
"... Some place." I turned to look at him, his gaze not fazing me.
"You've been distant lately."
He removed his hand away from my shoulder and I turned to completely face him. "No I haven't."
"Then why did you leave after we cut my birthday cake?"
By we... He means him and Orihime... And though I feel bad I can't help but feel jealous of her... Jealous of their perfect relationship... Jealous that it's not me and him. "Needed some air."
"Not buying it."
"Whatever you say." Turning away again, I felt him grab my hand this time and I snatched it away from him and turned to face him. "What do you want?"
"For you to tell me what's wrong."
"There's nothing wrong, if there was then I would let you know..."
"Orihime."
"What?"
"Is that what's wrong? Your jealous of her?"
Lowering my head, I glared at him from under my bangs. "Your foolish, you know that? Accusing me of being jealous of her..."
"I don't see you blatantly denying it either."
It was a stand still at that point, and I wasn't going to let him win. Walking past him, I only faltered when he grabbed my elbow.
"I know its her."
"... You know nothing." Yanking my arm free, I took off again and this time to some place farther...
"... You don't know how to take a hint do you?"
"Don't change the subject."
Looking at him barely, I swung my sandals over on my shoulder, their heels clicking against each other as my feet was caressed by the ocean. I was surprised actually that he found me at this part of the beach since its cut off and to get here you need to be some what of a good climber to get over the rocks.
"Answer me..."
"The truth is something you don't want to hear."
"Neither is the facade of my friend's obvious pain. You don't think people notice? Grimmjow may have not said anything but I've been approached by others who noticed the oddities."
"Such as?" He shook his head as he approached me. Stopping in front of me, gold met amber... Its funny how the two of them are so close on the color spectrum yet there such different shades.
"Your such a liar..."
"... You should return to Orihime." I turned away only to be pulled back into him.
"Did I say I was done?"
"No... I..." My sentence was cut off when I felt lips descend upon mine. Pushing him away, a felt the faint sensation of heat arise to my cheeks.
"... What?"
"Were both taken..." Though I never said anything to anyone, I could technically be considered in a relationship with the former ex-sexta espada.
"For one night... Please..."
His eyes held nothing but sympathy and I didn't want that...
"Please."
Dropping my sandals, I discarded my jacket and turned to face him. "... No contract?"
"None."
His lips were upon mine again and this time I responded back. I let him have entrance to my mouth as I interlocked my arms around his neck pulling him closer. His hands were cool as I felt him slide under my shirt and undo the flimsy bra that I put on to retain some modesty. Pulling away, I removed both my shirt and my bra.
"Neli..."
"No words." Kissing him again, I slid his shirt off and admired his abs and traced lightly over the scars that marred his tan body. His hand suddenly came and grabbed both my wrists easily and before I knew it my back was pinned against the rock while my neck was being attack and had darkening marks forming already. Biting back a moan, I shivered at the slightest of breath that was blown on my skin.
"No holding back either."
Letting out a surprised gasp, I brought him down for a kiss as I felt his fingers toy gently with my chest. Letting out a moan in his mouth, I whined as he pulled away.
"Relax."
Gently he picked me up bridal style and carried me over to a flat bed of rocks a little further off that was stable enough to support us. Laying me down on the rocks, I had no time to think as his lips descended down my collar bone to my left breast while his hand toyed with the right one. Arching into his touch, I let all sense of loyalty flee as I took in the new feeling of lust. Changing sides to give it the same stimulation, I was unable to form coherent sentences about how I felt.
"Now whose the one speaking?"
Glaring up at him, I saw my reflection in his eyes and instantly felt guilty. 'What the hell am I doing? This is my best friend boyfriend and here I am about to fuck him!'
"Having any second thoughts?"
Looking up into dazed amber eyes, I shook my head no.
"Good."
Kissing him again, I felt the air now more on my thighs and realized that he un-did the button on my skirt. Sliding it off, I was now only left in a pair of white lacy panties which were damp and soaking the rock beneath us. Blushing, I heard a chuckle escape Ichigo's lips.
"Never knew how bad it was."
Moaning loudly as I felt him press his fingers against my sex, I bit my lip just in case someone was around.
"What was that? I didn't hear you."
Pressing into me again, I whined and refused to let out another sound.
"Now, now Neliel, what did I say?"
I felt the shift of fabric against me and I groaned in pleasure.
"No holding back..."
I felt two of his fingers slide into me and I let out a loud moan that was pent up in my throat. I wasn't a virgin cause Aizen made sure of that but this felt different... Like how sex was supposed to be... Passionate and a bit wild...
"Shit your tight."
Closing my eyes, I thanked Kiskue that he gave me this gigai or else all hell would be breaking loose for whoever could sense spiritual energy but I wasn't sure if the limiters that were placed on this thing were going to hold very long. Moving back and forth, I moaned louder as I felt him add another finger and increase the speed of his fingers. "Oh god..."
"Call me Ichigo."
Before I had a change to retort I bit down hard on my lip as I felt his thumb press against my clit. It didn't take long for me to come afterward. Trying to catch my breath, I looked threw half lidded eyes at Ichigo licking his hand clean while looking back at me. He stood up and I noticed the outline of his erection that strained against the fabric of his denim jeans. Whimpering, I saw him look down then look back up at me smirking.
"You sure?"
Nodding, I stared up at the moon again and closed my eyes hoping to form some sense of what was happening.
"Neliel."
Opening my eyes again once I felt the light leave, I stared into darkened amber eyes. "Do it." Kissing me, I felt him enter me in one thrust and I broke off the kiss to moan into the night.
"Neliel..."
I felt his body shake as he tried to hold back from pounding me into oblivion. Touching the side of his face, I whispered into his ear gently. "Ichigo... Please..." That did it... In a instant my wrists were pinned again and my legs were around his waist as I felt him slam himself into me repeatedly. Letting caution go, I felt the restraints on the reiatsu limiters in the gigai break and in that instant violet crashed with black in a flurry of colors and melded. His kisses were brutal but that only drove our lust up higher. "Ichigo! Ichigo! Ichigo!" My voice was like a mantra as i felt my climax near.
"Fuck... Nel..."
More of our spiritual energy melded together as we continued our secret tryst. The more that was released the more we seemed to fall deeper into our taboo... "Ichgio!" Falling down deeper, my body was overcome with the feeling of pleasure and lust that coursed over me... Finally something snapped and I screamed his name out into the heavens. "Ichigo!" I heard him growl possessively before biting me and releasing inside of me...
"..."
"..."
Nothing was said between us as we pulled apart and redressed. Once finished, he walked over to me and kissed me once more before pulling away sadly. That is all that I needed. Nodding, we made our way back to the other side of the beach and back to the party...
"Oh my god what happened?"
"Was there a hollow attack? I didn't sense any spiritual pressure from the hollow!"
As we were bombarded with questions, I saw the stares from Grimmjow and I knew that he could tell what happened.
"Everything is fine, we were just sparring right?"
I put on my fake smile again. "Yea, had some anger I needed to release."
"Oh Nel-chan!"
I tensed up slightly when Orihime hugged me, the memories of what just happened swimming around in my head. Smiling again, I hugged her before ruffling her hair. "Don't worry, I'm fine now"
"That's a relief."
Walking over to Ichigo, she hugged him and I had to turn my head away when I saw them kiss. It was unfair that she would never know...
"Happy now?"
"... Guess so."
"No and, ifs, or buts?"
I leaned against the blue haired arrancar and we both stared up into the moon. "No... Can't be..."
"Why's that?"
Looking up at him, I smiled truly for the first time in a while. "He was never mine to begin with... Only in my dreams..."
A/N: End of the one shot! But for some reason now I wanna continue it :/ Should I or should I not?