AN: RaiN one-shot. Post to Blood Lust.

Natalias keys trembled out of her hands before she got a chance to unlock his door. Her wrist still bruised and her mind still jumbled from this afternoons event. How she didn't jump across that table and kill her surprised Natalia. Surprised Horatio and Eric.

'10 bucks she'll jump across and pound her right there.'
'Deal'

But the satisfaction of harming her is just what Natalia thought she wanted. The girl wanted to feel dangerous. Giving her that atonement would not be purposeful. Natalia couldn't really talk to anyone anymore. Maxine, her best friend, had transferred to a lab in Colorado and Calleigh is never around anymore. There was a new girl, Molly. But she was too busy wrapping Ryan around her cutesy finger to give a damn.
Which is what brought Natalia here. Ryan didn't see her all day. And he was probably adding more string to Mollys plan. Her fingers brought her keys back to the key slot and unlocked the door. Her foot quietly stepped in the house as she heard two glasses clink. Walking into his dinning room, she let the contents roll out of her arms, spilling beer, pizza and, Star Wars, onto his freshly polished oak flooring. Natalias face cascaded into a full on frown and her eyes full of tears and hate. She was speechless. Ryan and Natalia had been messing around for months and tonight was the night when she wanted to make things official.
"Talia, I can explain. It was just two friends having wine."
She exploded. "Really Ryan? Because I'm pretty sure two 'friends' don't get all dressed up and use the special wine glasses. I came here to spill my heart out from my day in your bed and this is what I get? I'm outta here." She grabbed her bag and left.
"Talia! Wait!"
She stopped before she left the door. "Don't you dare Talia wait me." The door slammed shut, causing a picture of Ryan and Natalia at the aquarium to fall.
He turned to Molly. "You really should go."
"But Ryan-"
"Just leave." He raised his voice. Molly raced out of his house faster than a race-car. His body trembled as the thought of losing Natalia was so close. Why did he have to be so stupid

After 10 minutes of trying to call Natalia, he gave up. he loved her. Not just the sex, (He really liked the sex) but she was just a naturally fun person to be with. She could make a serious problem less severe. Ryan thought nothing of driving to her house. The minute of getting there, he heard rambling and screaming. He used his key to get inside and saw Natalia ripping up pictures and everything.
"Natalia Natalia. Shh I'm not going anywhere." Her traumatized self let out a series of wales on his shoulder. Her body shaked against his skin, knees giving out, Natalia dropped on the floor and shivered.

"So much has happened to me, Ryan. I can't take it anymore. I have drugged, I was shot at, I was tied up. And you have the nerve to go and ask out the perky little blonde. God Ryan." Her sobs and tears went down as she got up and walked herself into the kitchen to make chicken soup. Pots and pans fell out of her hands because of her shaking hands.

Ryan walked into the kitchen to see Natalia shakily cutting her chicken. The knife fell out of her hands and on the the ground. Her hands held up her body as she leaned up on the counter. Thats when Ryan went up to her and put her lips against hers.

The world melted around her. She snaked her hands up his shirt and back. This kiss was a million times better than the other kisses.

"Babe, don't leave me. Because I sorta love you." Ryan let the kiss go to look into her big beautiful eyes.

"Sorta?" Natalia chuckled

"More than sorta."