Why and How To Make Him Love Me

THE LIST

Part one: Why?

His eyes… His gorgeous crystal green eyes that shine whenever I see him. When he sings, there is always a spark in his eyes and if my heart would not have been chained to the inside of my chest, it might have jump out and scream then and there. His eyes are diamonds!

His smell… I can sniff him from afar. It's not that strong and sweet smell of some strange sport deodorants; no, it is a soft and gentle smell, not too strong; it reminds me of fresh air, and I always get the feeling of a soft breeze brushing my skin.

His body… Of course his body is that of a Greek god. I have seen him a plenty of times with and without a shirt. And the last one… God, those muscles and that skin… I would love to caress his chest with my fingers and then put my palm on his arms, which are so full and so perfect… I need to stop here.

His self-confidence… Sometimes annoying because he knows exactly what he is able to do to girls, while just smirking at them. And although I always oppose everything he says, I really really really love his confidence. He knows what he has to do to get what he wants. Unlike me.

His voice… That deep voice that makes my body shaking in despair. I know… I'll just say it – I get horny while listening to his singing or talking and although I hide it quite perfectly, I sometimes have a feeling he knows. Not that he notices me, but every girl in this school gets goose bumps, so why would I be any exception. And I'm not… What could that voice do to me in some others situations…

His cool attitude… That smirk! His posture! His hands in his pockets, while gazing around! I could eat him up!

His character… Most of the time he's annoying as hell! He makes fun of me; he calls me names; and he laughs at me whenever he has the opportunity! But when it comes to it, he can be so damn understanding and nice and gentle and good-hearted and lovable and shitmyheartisbeatingfastagain!

His smile… His smile… His smile… His smile… I just… love him…

Part two: How?

Talk to him… If he listens… I think he won't… No one does actually…

Smile at him… If I get the opportunity. I'm usually angry at him, so…

Touch his arms here and there… No comment…

Invite him over… I need to work on my courage towards him…

Sing a duet with him… Done…

Throw yourself at him… Never ever!

Kiss him… I already did. Nothing changed.

Give in to him… And become one of those? But I wouldn't mind here and there…

Tell him how you feel… Pfffhahahahahaha! Yeah… No.

That is what Rachel Berry has written on her list Why And How To Make Him Love Me. The reason she wrote that list is that she always needs a plan to make something happen. Always!

And while other girls just go with the flow, she has to know about each step she has to make. Because this boy was a tough one. He had a diversion of girls to pick, but he did not trust them, which is why she had to be careful. She had to make sure everything will go smoothly.

Because she liked him for real.

And she liked him badly.

And Noah Puckerman was worth it.

The list was a perfect and excellent plan, which could actually make her succeed. However, Rachel Berry was not happy that she ever wrote the list.

Not at all.

She could throw herself in front of a car for making it. Or worse – cry right here and right now! She knew he was popular, and she knew he was constantly surrounded by girls, pretty girls and beautiful girls. Watching him being trapped was a daily routine.

And today was not different.

Except that today she kind of wished to gather her courage and finally start with the plan, but seeing him laugh and talk with those girls, made her knees week and her heart too heavy to make a move.

Which was also nothing new because each and every day she tried to make herself do something because he apparently will not notice her.

If he does not notice her, why should she so something out of character. That is so not her!

But hey, she is young and in puberty. She wants to have fun and she wants to have fun with Noah Puckerman!

But it is not worth it. She will never succeed. Not with all those girls around him.

And coming to this conclusion, Rachel Berry noticed with horror that her perfect list, which was in her hands a couple of seconds ago – disappeared.