My Notes

Update and here it is! This should explain something's to you guys but of course more information always brings more questions but it's okay to ask questions, I like questions. Ha-ha. But enough of my annoyance please read, reread and review cause lets face it I love hearing what you guys think. So enjoy

Not What You Think

Chapter 19

Arizona had been standing in the exact spot that she had been since Malcolm took her abilities and also when Callie had walked out, well ran out more like it. She knew it would be hard for Callie to adjust at first to the news of her being an angel but she was one hundred percent human now. So why had Callie run out again? She thought maybe she should go after her and find out what was going on in that beautiful head of hers. Instead she had decieded against it and so here she was standing still and staring at her hands, while her best friend was currently pacing back and fourth stopping every once in a while to just stare at Arizona and then she would resume her current pacing state.

Thankfully Teddy hadn't spoke yet which Arizona was extremely grateful for because Arizona couldn't remember the last time she had all these thoughts and children's voices in her head. Well actually that wasn't exactly true she did remember when she was younger around the same age as Ingrid she had had a pretty nasty nightmare one that was filled with children's pain, moaning, crying and silent whispers. She had woken up in a haste that night and ran to her parent's bedroom except the voices didn't stop even when she was awake. They stayed in her head and it drove her absolutely crazy even when her parents thought it best to send her to seek help.

The doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with her and it worried her the most. They had finally sent her to a mental hospital where she had to stay for a few months. Then one night after a long day of therapy she had been laying in bed in the fetal position holding her head just praying that the voices would go away. Then all of a sudden she felt an overwhelming sense of calm and even among all the voices she could make out a gentle whisper calling out her name over and over. She finally sat up in her bed and there she stood, the glow around her was magnificent and it was possibly the most beautiful thing she had seen Arizona never wanted to look away she wanted to simply stare at this creature for the rest of her life.

"God" She spoke barely above a whisper. The magnificent creature just smiled.

"No dear I'm not God...I'm Sia and I'm here to help you understand"

"Understand?" Arizona questioned confused laced in her timid voice.

"Yes dear...the voices in you're head...I'm here to help and when you understand then you will meet God"

After that night Arizona had never been the same. She had ment Sia for the first time that night and she had told her that she was born half angel half human and that she would be the protector of the children, she had ment God that night. Sia had taught her how to control the voices in her mind even though they never really stopped. The week after she was able to finally come home. When Arizona had gotten older and obtained all of her abilites Sia had always been there showing her how to use them or control them. Arizona had never told anyone that she was an angel not her parents, not her brother, not Joanne, not even when she was in college and had ment Teddy. When she took over the Peds department at the hospital the voices had eventually started to take over again so Arizona had to find ways to quiet them so she started finding silence in other woman it would lessen the voices but it was always still there until she had ment Calliope. Everytime she was around Callie the voices almost seized to exist and she knew that Callie was her angel.

"So you're an angel?" Teddy spoke bringing Arizona out of her thoughts and looking up.

"...Ye...Yes...well...well not anymore..at least"

"That's so awesome" Teddy said alittle bit too excited.

"So you're not freaked out"

"Well yeah I was at first...I mean when I touched you...I saw and...and...I felt...wow"

"Yeah I know" Arizona spoke quickly she knew exactly what Teddy and Callie had saw she supposed maybe that was why Callie had left.

"Can I meet God?

It had been the second time that Callie had walked away from Arizona in the past week. It's not that she wanted to in fact Callie wanted to do the exact opposite, she wanted nothing more then to kiss Arizona and never leave her side but she just couldn't bring herself to do it. Especially not now she was still very confused about how she felt about the whole situation and now after what just happened she wasn't sure she knew anything anymore.

She had went to push Malcolm away from Arizona and when she touched him she had seen something magnificent but yet almost terrifying. When she had touched him it had taken her mind to this most wonderful place, it was a very illuminating place but incredibly soothing it made her feel like she was on cloud nine and maybe she was. Then she had seen the most beautiful thing, she had seen Arizona. She looked so different but so breathtaking she was draped in all white, a glow surrounding her and she was standing on a ledge and she had huge white wings, she was in complete angel form and when Callie looked around she noticed that everyone was bowing down to Arizona like she was a God. In an instant the image was gone and she was back in the room with Malcolm, Arizona and Teddy.

She couldn't move, she couldn't breathe and she couldn't think until she heard Arizona's sweet voice "baby" and then she had bolted from the room. She'd be lying if she said that a piece of her didn't wish that Arizona would of chased after her but she hadn't so now all Callie could do was sit in this dark on call room and think. She was sitting on the edge of the bed with her face in her hands when she saw a temporary flash of light and then it was gone. Even though the room was dark she could sense someone was there with her it was a calming presence and it eased her mind.

"wh...who's there" She spoke softly.

"Callie, Arizona's human I don't have much time...I need you to listen" The voice said inching closer to Callie to give her a better look.

"I know you...you were with Arizona the other night...you're Sia" Callie spoke.

"Yes dear it is me Sia...I don't have much time I need to speak with you on Arizona's behalf"

"She sent you here?"

"No dear she doesn't know I'm here nobody does...it was difficult but I got away quickly"

"You got away?" Callie questioned looking confused

"Yes once they found out that I helped Arizona tell you about us...about her...well they took me away from her"

"Did they hurt you?"

"No they do not hurt us...but enough about that I don't have much time...I need you to listen to me dear...something bad is going to happen soon and Arizona is going to need you...she is going to need to rely on you alot...you need to know everything about her angel side...especially now that Malcolm has taken her abilities...which I will take care of"

"I'm just so confused about everything about this...about what I saw Arizona is powerful I saw it"

"Yes she has the ability to be very powerful...but she doesn't always listen to us...she just wants to be a human...but you need to know her abilites...the things she feels you need to understand...here take my hand" Sia said reaching out for Callie's hand who slowly takes it.

When Callie touches Sia's hand all these voices come rushing into her head. They overtake her thoughts and she can hear all the crying and the screams.

"Stop it...stop the voices...please" Callie pleads trying to stand up but quickly falls to her knees. Sia lets go of Callie's hand and the voices immediatley disappear like they were never there in the first place.

"What the hell was that? Callie shouts

"That is what Arizona hears everyday...she is the childrens angel and she hears all the childrens pain...but she uses her calming ability to quiet them."

"She hears that everyday...my poor baby"

"Yes dear but she is very good at controlling the voices and when you are around she doesn't hear them at all...and she has this ability to calm people...she usually looks them in the eye and uses the ability or she places her hand upon them and it soothes them...kind of like the effect I'm having on you now...making you feel incredibly calm...works very well with the children...and she has a healing ability...the healing ability lets her heal...she places her hand on them and it heals their soul.."

"She can heal somebodies soul?"

"Yes...she can also place her hand over a wound and it will heal...that is why we sent her to be a doctor a peds surgeon...children are the future and I would trust no other angel to watch over them...and God wouldn't have any other angel watch over them...and she can shimmer but you know all about that"

"This is...is...just so much information to process...I don't know how to do it...I don't know if I can"

"Yes you can...I'm not suppose to tell you but do you ever wonder why you and Arizona ment"

"Yeah we...just ment we both work at the hos-"

"No dear...nothing is a concidence we put you together...God made Arizona for you and you for Arizona"

"But I'm a human isn't our relationship against the rules?"

"Well you see Arizona is a rare kind...she was born half angel and half human it's hard to explain but things are different for Arizona...telling you that she was angel yeah shes not allowed to do that" Sia said smiling

"But Malcolm"

"Malcolm stays on a need to know basis...and he will be spoken with...now listen Calliope...Arizona is going to need you please don't forget that...I must go now"

"Wait...what about Ingrid...what happens to her...Arizona mentioned she was going to be like her...what does that mean"

"Ingrid was born like Arizona...she just hasn't realized that yet...this is why we have brought them together...but something dark is going to happen soon...and you need to be there for them both"

"What do you mean something dark...what's going to happen" Callie questions feeling more scared for both Ingrid and Arizona.

"I can not explain...just be there when it happens and we will speak to Malcolm he can not just take Arizona's abilities she will get them back shortly and hopefully you will have processed by then"

With that she was gone leaving Callie with a lot more questions then before. In that moment she knew that she loved Arizona and nothing would ever change that I mean an angel just told her they were pretty much made for each other how more obvious could it get. Arizona had abilities and as terrified as Callie was about Arizona's power she knew she only used them for good and she knew she had to find Arizona kiss her and never leave her side.

After a long detailed explanation of why Arizona couldn't take Teddy to visit God she decided it would be best to just go home until she was needed here. Plus the voices where getting louder and she didn't know how much more she would be able to take before she went completly mad. She had just stepped outside of the hospital and slowly started to make her way to her apartment. The voices in her head were becoming more and more intense every minute, every second and one in particular stood out more then the others. She knew that voice, she knew that voice well, Ingrid. Her pain was in Arizona's head and she hated it she hated feeling her pain. Ingrids pain overwhelmed her mind and took front stage and she knew Ingrid had to be near by. Stopping in her tracks she turned around and made a beeline back to where she had come from, Ingrid was close and she needed to find her and she needed to make her pain stop. On Arizona's short jog back to the hospital she had taken notice to the change in the sky. It was bright and sunny when she had woken up this morning and now it was getting rather dark and the rumblings asured her that there would be a storm soon. Arizona glanced up at the sky one last time and when she looked down there was Ingrid standing in front of her. The voice in Arizonas head was shouting at her now and she knew for certain it was Ingrid's pain she was hearing and intensely feeling.

"Ingrid" Arizona shouts out trying to talk over the voice in her head.

When Ingrid takes a step closer to Arizona, Arizona can tell that Ingrid is not herself she can't put her finger on it but Ingrid seems different from the last time she saw her. She has her hands in the pocket of her baggy sweatshirt and it looks like she hasnt been sleeping for days.

"Arizona...you never came back for me...you and Callie you guys never came back for me" Ingrid breathes out.

"I...I...know" Arizona barely makes out.

"I needed your help and you guys never came back for me...I thought I was going crazy and then...and then a few days after I got back to foster care...I started to hear these...these...voices...I still hear them...I hear them now...everyones crying...and I can feel...I can feel...all their pain...I can...I can...feel everything...and one of those voices told me that you could help...that I could see heaven...but you never...you never came back..."

"Ingrid" Arizona shouts grabbing her head Ingrids pain becoming more intense by the minute.

"I can help...with the voices...you just need...you need to calm down..."

"I just want the pain to stop...I just want it all to stop...I can't take the voices in my head...I just want it to stop..."

"I know...I understand" Arizona said taking a step closer to Ingrid but Ingrid brushes her off and takes a step back.

"No you don't understand...the voices...they never stop...they scare me...I want it to stop...I need it to stop..." Ingrid cries out she takes her hands out of her pocket and she is holding a knife. She holds the knife up.

"Ingrid just calm down...please...just calm down...and give that to me...Ingrid I can help you...me and Callie we can help you...I promise...I can help..."

"NO I WAITED FOR YOU TO COME GET ME...TO GET ME OUT OF THAT HELL...YOU SAW THE LADY SHE'S SO MEAN TO ME...AND NOW THESE VOICES...i just want it to stop...I just want to go to heaven now..." Ingrid shouts taking the knife to her throat and in one swift move cuts.

"Noooooooooooooooooo" Arizona cries out tears streaming from her eyes she runs over to Ingrids body she puts her hand over the wound but it doesn't heal. Arizona looks up at the heavens.

"Give me my abilites back...let me heal her dammit"

Arizona tries it one more time but nothing so Instead she puts pressure to the wound. All she sees is blood, theres just so much blood and just like that it begins to rain, the storm has finally started.

My Note

So what did you guys think? Is Ingrid going to make it, or is it the end of the line for her? What about Arizona's abilities cool or what? Do you think Callie finally understands Arizona a little bit more or no? Watch out for next update.