Chapter 28

I don't like sports, magical or mugglish. I don't like running. I don't like sweating. I don't like exercising. Really I just don't move, unless it is completely necessary. Still, the day after the full moon, after realizing that Remus wasn't at breakfast, I panicked. But the moment Sirius Black said the words 'minor accident', well needless to say I hauled ass over to the Hospital wing

It was as if someone had kicked me in the stomach and then ran away, but I kept following them so I could kick their ass in. I couldn't breathe, and my insides felt like they would fall out of my body, but I still kept running like I had never ran before. And after the first twenty winding corridors, I kind of hurt so much that I didn't even hurt anymore. That's how fast I was running, my friends.

"What the-" I made a sharp turn and came face to face with who else but James Potter. And at the moment of collision, of course, we both went tumbling down to the floor.

"I hate you" he choked out, for my knee was firmly situated on his stomach.

"This seems oddly familiar" I murmured, to myself.

"Get off!" James croaked, banging his hands on the ground.

"Oh, sorry" I said, and immediately rolled off him. I stood up brushed myself off. I looked from side to side. Where the heck am I? I don't think I've ever been here before. I've certainly never seen that painting before. Hmmm…thankfully, it's despicable….

"Clary. Remus. Go now" James, clapped me on the back, not bothering to elaborate.

"Remus!" I yelled.

I ran and ran for another five minutes. And soon enough I was only one hallway from the Hospital Wing. I turned the corner and ran into a group of first years.

"MOVE!" I shouted at one of them. Her eyes widened with fear and she ran away. I immediately felt bad, but now was not the time for feeling bad. Now it was time to-

"Hi, Clary" Remus said casually. He was propped up in one of the hospital beds, and reading a book, while plucking Bertie Botts Every Flavor Beans from the table beside him.

"You're alive?" I asked, blinking nervously.

"You don't sound too happy about that" he smiled, and motioned for me to sit next to him.

"But…but…what happened?" I asked, completely dumfounded, taking a seat.

"Just a few broken bones that's all. Things got uhh….a little out of hand last night, Sirius had to hold be back" his face turned bright red. "He certainly did a number on my leg. We're gonna have to grow it back, I'm afraid" he tried to sound indifferent, but I could tell he was completely horrified by the idea.

I would be too if I were him. Re-growing bones is wicked painful. Rainy once had to re-grow one of her toes after I dropped a cauldron on it. Needless to say I felt downright terrible. But I stayed with her the whole time, and she cried non-stop. It was brutal. And that was just a toe. I couldn't even imagine having to re-grow a whole leg.

"Remus, I'm so sorry" I mumbled, too stunned to speak like a normal human being.

"It's not your fault. It's Sirius's fault actually. And don't worry, that idiot is going to pay big time once I'm out of here" he chuckled lightly, and gave me a small smile.

My eyes widened, "Are you completely deranged Remus? Are you sure they didn't knock you in the head? Why on earth are you so happy? This is serious!" I yelled. Here I was a nervous wreck. And he was laughing?

"Clary, I'm fine. Accidents happen all the time. That's the wonderful thing about being half human, and half bloodthirsty monster" he grinned, sarcastically.

"Remus, this isn't funny" my face started to get hot. Even though he was injured, and I was worried sick about him, I wanted to punch teeth out. "What if things get even more out of hand next time, and you they're not able to fix you. What happens to you? And what happens to me and James and Sirius and Peter and your mom and dad and….and….and what if one night things get so bad that you…you don't…"

Tears came rolling down my face, faster than I had run today. I stood up, and moved away from his bed. He tried to console me, and tell me that none of that would ever happen, and that he was going to be alright, but I wasn't listening.

My brain hurt from all the different images flickering through my mind. I pictured Remus as a werewolf. I pictured him crying tonight from pain. I pictured him lying on the ground, dead. I pictured him laughing and smiling. I pictured myself and James and Sirius weeping over his dead body, begging him to live. I pictured him as an out of control monster being pounced on by…..Sirius?

"Wha-what was Sirius…how was he there last night when you…what?" I screeched through my sobs.

He sat up straight for one moment, cried out in pain and grabbed my hand. With a quick jerking moment he pulled me towards him so quickly that I fell on top of him. "Ahhh!" he yelled, shaking from the sudden contact. "Sirius….uhhhh…that's another story. I'll explain later, I promise."

I sat up so that I wasn't crushing his broken body, and moved to the side of his bed. "Remus, how do you deal with this?" More tears came to my eyes.

"Deal with what?" he asked, even though I could tell he knew the answer. He simply shook my head, and he understood. "Clary, please stop worrying. I know this really sudden, and really shocking. And this is why I didn't want to drag you into it…" He trailed off.

He must have hurt his shoulder too, because he shuddered uncontrollably as soon I laid my head upon it. I quickly removed my head, and settled for lacing his fingers, which so far seemed to be unharmed, through mine.

"Will you come visit me again tonight?" he asked. His voice sounded different. No longer that happy and optimistic tone that was making me sick. He was miserable. And he was scared to death. And I couldn't help but think it was my fault.

It was my fault. If I wasn't such a downer, he would still be smiling and laughing. Me and my big mouth completely crushed his spirits. And I'm not even the one who's in trouble here! I'm perfectly fine! Remus is the one who is going to be in agonizing pain tonight, while they re-grow his broken bones. Remus is the one who has to turn into a monster once a month for the rest of his life. And I'm the one crying and complaining?

"Uhhhh….yeah, of course" I answered, trying to hold back more tears. If I came back I'd only make things worse. "Okay…uhh…I have to go now. I've got…I've got...a Herbology paper due soon...so I gotta go do that…." My voice got lower with each pathetic lie.

"Okay, yeah" Remus' looked confused. I could tell, that he could tell, I was lying. And his sad eyes were trying to meet mine, so maybe he could figure out why I was ditching him. But I turned my head and stared at a wall. He sighed slightly, "Yeah, you should go" he murmured.

I stood up and kissed him on the cheek quickly, so we didn't even meet eyes. We shared an awkward goodbye, and then I hauled ass out of the place faster than I had hauled ass there.

...I know it's been a long time. I'm very sorry! But school is finally over, so maybe now I'll be writing more often? Hopefully? Anyways, I really hope I made up the word 'mugglish', though probably not. I hope you enjoy! Please reveiw, and please don't kill me! See yins later.