I didn't know what to say, what did he want me to say? He just looked down at me, not smiling, not frowning, just... staring. I didn't want to hurt him, I mean I've only known him a day and a half!

'Harry...' I started, 'I'm sorry.'

'For what?' he asked, confused.

'For what I'm about to say' I paused, to check he knew what was coming, by the look on his face he did. 'We've only known each other for, for barely two days! It's impossible to have feelings for someone after that

amount of time, I just don't want to ruin our friendship.'

He didn't say anything and wouldn't make eye contact, great I've just wounded his ego, nice one Charl! I didn't wait for a reply, not that I thought I was getting one, I just slowly made my way back to the house,

which thankfully wasn't far.

Most contestants were at rehearsals except for Matt, Aiden and the rest of One Direction, I didn't talk to them, well apart from them asking where Harry was, I just told them he didn't want to come back yet which

was partially true. When I got up to my room I slammed the door in frustration and grabbed my phone off the bed, I had one new message, my heart sunk a little when I saw it wasn't Harry, why?

Tara:

Is it alright if I come round in like half an hour Charl? Mum's pissing me right off! xxxxx

I was kind of relieved that she could come round earlier, she was the only one I wanted to talk to right now...

To Tara:

Yeah that's fine Tar, I need to talk to you anyway so hurry up yo' ass! xxxxx

It had only been about fifteen minutes before I heard a knock at the door, and a very loud voice, I made my way downstairs to see Tara standing with Aiden, presumably asking who she was. She ran up and hugged

me when she saw me,which quite literally, knocked the breath out of me, leaving Aiden to wander back to Matt.

'Babes! What was up on the phone?' she eyed me up, I gave her a look that said 'I'll tell you later' when I noticed half the contestants sat in the living room watching us. I decided to go over and join them, I mean I

was here to 'enjoy' myself wasn't I? After introducing Tara to everybody, well not everybody, it was only really Matt, Aiden, Katie, Cher, Belle Amie and One Direction, Harry still wasn't back and the older contestants

tended to stay out of the way, anyway after everybody had been introduced we sat talking for at least an hour. It was fun, I'd forgot how it felt to be around genuine people plus I hadn't laughed this much in ages,

Louis and Zayn were hilarious! I was really starting to feel relaxed around everyone, I loved them already!

'So anyway, we just found him in the shower, fully clothed! I mean I was like 'Louis, man! Get a gri-' Niall stopped short of his story when we heard to front door slam shut.

'Harry, my man!' Zayn shouted as Harry walked through the room and into the kitchen, just giving a slight nod to acknowledge him. I wanted to go and apologize over and over again but I had a feeling he wanted to

be left alone. After about ten minutes Harry came out of the kitchen with a bandage wrapped round his knuckles and went to sit next to Louis on the floor.

'Aw Hawwy!' Louis screamed stroking Harry's hand, making Harry whack him over the head with his good hand. I genuinely couldn't stay down here any longer, it didn't feel right, why was I suddenly feeling like this?

I got up, not looking at anyone, especially not Harry, and ran upstairs to my room. Flinging myself onto my bed I screamed into my pillow, muffling out enough noise for only me to hear.

I suddenly felt a hand stroking my back soothingly, I looked up and Tara was smiling down at me, I didn't say anything, we just hugged for a while, I'm so glad I have Tara I don't know what I'd do without her. She

pulled away from the hug and looked me sternly in the eyes.

'What's going on?' she asked, I didn't bother resisting because I knew she'd only end up finding out anyway, so I launched into the whole story of Harry and I.

'Babe, why do you get so defensive when someone says they like you?' I knew what she meant,

'I don't know! I just, I just wish it wasn't so hard!'

'You've pushed one of your best mates away this year Charl, you meant everything to Matt, do you really want to do the same to Harry?' Tara sighed, Matt was my best friend, other than Tara and Hannah, we'd

known each other since primary school but early this year he'd told me he loved me as more than a friend, I panicked and just left him, it got so awkward after that we just lost contact. I didn't realize I was crying

until I felt a hand wipe away my tear.

'I miss him.' I simply said,

'I know'

'I'm such a bitch, I don't want to hurt Harry, we barely know each other though!'

'You're not a bitch' she stopped 'do you like him Charl?'

'I-I think I do'

'Then just go for it, if it doesn't work out then fuck it, but if it does then, well you know. Just don't sit there regretting not going for what you want babe. You're my best mate, I hate seeing you cry, I just want you to

be happy.'

'I love you Tar' I smiled pulling her into a hug,

'I love you too' she whispered just as her phone vibrated against my arm, 'I've got to go Charl, remember what I said!' she smiled kissing me on the cheek and walking out the door. I'm so confused, I don't like Harry, do I?

No, it's only been two days, I can't. If I don't then why is it all I see his his smile and all I can hear is his laugh? Oh my God, I do, I like Harry. I need to talk to him.

'So you like me?' I looked up from the windowsill, Harry was leaning against the door-frame, his dimples showing.

'What?' I was slightly shocked, had he been listening to our whole conversation?

'You heard me.' he slowly walked over, smirking slightly, I didn't reply I didn't look at him either. I thought he'd gone until I felt his hot breath hitting the nape of my neck.

'Don't ignore me Charl' he pulled me off the windowsill and pressed his front into mine so we were standing face to face, well almost, he was a lot taller than me.

'Yes.' I whispered, I didn't have time to gauge his reaction, he pulled me into him and pressed his lips onto mine, it wasn't awkward, at all, it was full of passion and desire. The kiss was getting heated now as our lips

moved together in sync, it was like an electric current running through me, he licked my bottom lip asking for entrance which I allowed, as our tongues fought for dominance it was then I knew that I did have strong

feelings for Harry. My hands pulled at the curls at the base of his neck, whilst his hands were on my lower back pushing me into him. I pulled away needing air, looking down I smiled to my self, his arms were still

round me and he removed one to lift my chin to look at him.

'You're not going to walk off again are you?' he whispered smirking, I shook my head,

'Not this time' I smiled slightly,

'Good, because this time, I wouldn't let you go' he smiled looking into my eyes.

I'm so sorry at how late this is, the only internet access I've had this month is on my phone literally! But I hope you like it.