Disclaimer: Do I own Grey's? I WISH! But seriously... no. Unfortunately not.

Originally posted in another fanfiction account- my friend's because she forgot to log out- so those of you who are confused, that's the reasoning. LOL

The rain beat down on the glass of their bedroom window. It was strangely mesmerizing to watch. It could distract a person from their own tears, as if it were crying for them. The lightning would flash, covering the world in a blanket of light. The thunder blocked out all sounds. It was as if it caused life to pause for a short time.

Meredith stared at the water that ran down the window, barely blinking at all. Her hands clutched something to her chest, something that made her already bad day even worse.

The door to her room opened, sending in a flood of light from the hallway. She his her face in her pillow, trying to hide away from the world. Reality sucked.

"Mer," a voice whispered. "Are you awake?"

Meredith closed her eyes, not responding, motionless as someone sat on the bed beside her. Fingers ran through her hair and she took a deep breath at the feeling. The hands felt comforting, but they couldn't fix the pain that ripped through her heart. The fingers moved down to her cheeks, wiping off the drying tears that she hadn't bothered with.

She had to stay 'asleep'. She couldn't talk about it at the moment. It was too hard. But her own emotions betrayed her, and without being able to control it, her face scrunched up and another wave of tears wracked her body, scaring both the man who was sitting beside her and herself.

"Meredith!" Derek suddenly gasped. "What's wrong?"

Without responding out loud, she handed over the pregnancy test and then hid her face away in the pillow that was damp with her tears.

"Another negative," Derek mumbled sadly. "Aw, Mer. It'll be okay. Come here."

Arms wrapped around her body, and she fought against clawing at them and pushing at them with her hands. "No! Please!" she sobbed. "No!"

The arms didn't budge and she gave up, collapsing into his them. "Derek!" she cried. "Why is it so hard for us to get pregnant? W-why does my uterus have t-to be so freaking h-hostile?"

"Shh," Derek soothed quietly. "Deep breaths Mer."

"My day was horrible!" she cried loudly, knowing that everyone in the house had heard, knowing that they would simply stay away just like she needed them to.

They would all let Derek do his job.

"I'm sorry you lost your patient today," Derek said softly.

"But how did you-

"Cristina told me. Mer, it's not your fault. It happens. As doctors, we lose our patients and there is nothing we can do to stop it."

Her sobs were quieting down, but her sadness was too overpowering.

"Derek," she whimpered. "Why does life have to be so upsetting lately? I mean... look at us! Izzie left! George died! Lexie practically hates Mark! And I can't get pregnant for my life! Why? What happened to the days when we were interns? When everything was simple?"

"Nothing was simple Mer. There was Addison and-

"I get it, okay? There was Addison and Mark slept with her and bla bla bla. But I was carefree and happy and I had all my friends. And to be honest Derek, sometimes... I wish I could just go back to those days!" Her consciousness began to waver. "Back to when it was all so simple."

The rain began to slow outside, and through the clouds, she saw a flash through the sky.

A/N: HI GUYS. YOU WILL FIND OUT MORE OF THE BAD DAY THROUGH FLAHSBACKS. MEREDITH WILL SOON LEARN WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU MAKE A WISH THAT YOU MAY REGRET. I DON'T HAVE THIS STORY ENTIRELY PLANNED OUT, THIS IDEA JUST CAME TO ME AND I REALLY WANTED TO WRITE IT. SO PLEASE REVIEW AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YA THINK. THANKS.