AN: I was kind of getting stuck on my other story (Water Under the Bridge) and this is what came out of it. I liked the light hearted ness of the narration so I decided to post it. I don't own Now You're Gone by BassHunter but the song is what started the idea that and I watched the promo to the next Degrassi episode...Poor crazy sexy Eli! Anyways I hope you like... And as always I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters from Degrassi. Tragic right?

Now you're gone
I realized my love for you was strong
And I miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone
With your pictures hanging on the wall

Now you're gone
I realized my love for you was strong
And I miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone
With your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
Without my Anna it will break apart
It won't heal, it never fades away
I'll be thinking 'bout you everyday

Are you ready? Now you're gone
I realized my love for you was strong
And I miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone
With your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone

Now you're gone
I realized my love for you was strong
And I miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone
With your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
And I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
It won't alarm me, it will break apart
It won't heal, it never fades away
I'll be thinking 'bout you everyday

Wow I can't believe how pathetic this song... Even worse that's how I felt. How pathetic was I. It was all my fault. I was the one who had broken up with him but ever since he left it was like my whole life was over. Listen to me with my teenage angst. Pathetic. That's becoming my new favorite word. At first everything was okay until I started noticing him with a new girl. She was pretty, goth and totally his type. I Hate her. I Hate him being with her. How did this happen? I was the one who wanted time apart who required space and now I was the one who was no longer happy.

My phone beeped alerting me that I had a new text.

Adam: Come on Clare you can't ignore me forever.

beep beep

Alli: Really you can't!

I rolled my eyes at them. Since when did they start being friends anyways. I deserved to wallow in my self pity.

beep beep

Alli: And don't think you can wallow in your own self pity...

beep beep

Adam: We're heading over get ready. We're making you join the living today.

After that text I threw my phone across the room. Ugh! I didn't want to move why could they just leave me be? If I didn't leave my room then I didn't have a chance of seeing Eli and his girlfriend. I knew though that if I didn't get up they would be here and then Alli would force me up and that was never a pretty site.

She was finally back at Degrassi after a year of fixing her issues. I had missed her but unfortunately by the time she had came back I had already ripped my own heart out. I know over dramatic but can you blame me? Eli was amazing...Granted he was a little crazy but nothing in his past had led him to be any other way. I had loved him with all my heart. I thought I would be okay. I was wrong... I still love him, but I was too ashamed to admit it. So in an attempt to not make a fool of myself anymore I just avoid leaving the house.

With a sigh I get up and get too the closet to look through my clothes. After about 20 minutes I finally decide on a pair of gray skinny jeans a black tank top with a purple jacket to go over top of it. I searched for my black flats until I found them under my bed next to the box I still hadn't brought myself to getting rid of. It contained my ticket to Chuck Palahniuk, pictures of me and Eli even some of our English work. Ignoring the box and ignoring the pain that came to me at seeing it I jumped on my bed to slide my shoes on. After which I ran to my bathroom to fix my hair and put on some make up. Hey if I might run into him I might as well look good. After I was satisfied with the way I was I put on my fake smile that almost made me look like the old me, and ran down stairs.

"Mom I'm leaving." I called, it was almost the end of my mom's week but she didn't say anything about me not wanting to hang out with her. She knew the signs of heart break and it was obvious I had it. Instead of bothering me about it she let it go and I appreciated that. She too was still dealing with her own heartache.

"Okay sweetie! I love you I'll see you later." She called after me and I ran out the door just ask Alli raced up the steps. We almost collided and she wore a smug look.

"Told you she would come out. I didn't even have to threaten her." She said, giving Adam a victorious grin. Adam just rolled his eyes and laughed. "You look amazing Clare." Alli said looking down at me.

"Yeah you clean up good Edwards." Adam added sticking his hands in his pocket. He gave me a sheepish grin and I chuckled. Man did I miss them, I thought sadly realizing all the distance was just my fault and very unnecessary.

"Thanks." I replied to them letting them lead me down the road. "So where are we going out too?"

"Well the dot of course. Peter has been kind of worried about you. Apparently he made a promise to Darcy that he would keep an eye on you. It's kind of hard to keep an eye on someone who never leaves the house." Alli said with a giggle.

"Yeah we're taking you to prove that you're still alive." Adam laughed taking the other side of me. I frowned at their jokes and sighed.

"Have I really been that bad?" I asked looking down at the ground ashamed of my poor friendship behavior.

"What is my favorite color Clare?" Alli asked sarcastically

"Pink?" I ask. Alli just shakes her head in amazement.

"Ignore her Clare. It really hasn't been that bad. You know just enough that me and her had to you know talk. Eli completely ditched me too." He said. I stopped and Alli gave him a pointed look. "Oh yeah sorry. Note to self don't mention Eli...Check." He said.

"Come on Clare." Alli said pulling on my arm to get me walking again.

"It's okay Adam I shouldn't be so sensitive. It was after all my fault. I was the one who wanted to break up with him." I replied trying to shake the pathetic feelings that were trying to break the composed mask I was wearing.

"Exactly Clare. You got what you wanted, Now let's get what I want...Food!" She declared and I laughed at her. Alli would always be the same old all about me. Adam gave her a look but just shook his head.

We finally got to The Dot! I was actually pretty excited to see Peter and get a cup of tea. No one makes it like Peter does. Adam opened the door for us and we stepped in still laughing at a story Adam told us about his brother Drew getting high. I was surprised to see Alli was okay with talking about Drew even more she was completely over him. I was happy for her and a little jealous I want to be that happy.

"Clare!" Peter cheered from behind the bar. "I guess I can tell Darcy that you're still alive." He laughed grabbing a cup to start my usual tea.

"Ha ha." I replied, smiling at him."How have you been Peter?"

"I've been good. Pretty good University is going pretty well too. Darcy and I have been talking about me joining her in Kenya whenever I'm done. She loves it there you know."

"Yeah I know." I said sadly missing my sister dearly. I hadn't heard from her in a while, I stopped talking to her after I realized I was pretty much a kill joy. "But that's amazing that you two are still talking." I proclaimed smiling up at him even though it hurt to form such a face.

"Yeah you're sister is great. But so are you kiddo." He said, handing me my tea.

"That's we keep telling her." Alli said, throwing her arm around my shoulder. "We'll have our usual as well. Throw in extra fries, Clare turns into a theif when it comes to fries." I glared at her as she laughed turning me around to take a seat.

I froze when my eyes clashed with deep green eyes. Eli! My breath caught in my throat and my heart stopped beating. He was here and he was watching me. Adam nudged me to sit down beside him realizing what I was distracted by. "Don't pay any attention to him Clare. He's not worth it remember." He whispered. She's here too, I realized noticing her throwing her arms around him protectively when she noticed I was there. I almost threw up as I saw her grab his face and kiss him forcing him to look away from me.

"Ewww!" Alli made a gagging sound as if reading my thoughts. "Clare we can leave."

"No I can't let him do this to me every time I see him. I did this I can handle it." I say looking at her and placing a fake smile on my face. She eyed me for a second and then turned to Adam. They began a conversation as I sunk into my own thoughts. He was here with her, and she was all over him. This was situations I thrived on avoiding and now somehow I allowed myself to be stuck in public with it. At least I made sure I looked good and not a mess. Maybe he won't see I'm really upset. Maybe I can trick him into thinking I'm all right. Maybe he has changed, Eli has changed. I thought.

"Here you are." Peter stated sitting down their food. "And here Clare I put your fries on a separate plate so maybe Alli won't stab you with a fork." I laughed at him.

"Thank you" we all three said at the same time and then laughed about it. I grabbed a frie and popped into my mouth salivating almost immediatly. Oh Dot food! Yum. "Good?" Adam asked taking in my facial expressions.

I blushed embarrassed of what I must have looked like for him to have asked that. "It's okay Clare it's normal for someone to have an orgasm while biting into a fry" Alli added trying to hold back a laugh that Adam could not. I looked away blushing deeper now.

I instantly regret it when I see Eli leading her out with that smirk on his face. My smirk. My heart sinked. Now you're gone. I thought silently as I turned back to my friends in an attempt to forget.

AN: So yeah I like this plot a lot and I think I might stick with it. I'll keep updating both stories. Let me know which one you like most. 3 you all!