It was like her world was set in fast forward and slow motion at the same time. She heard things but never got the true meaning of them. Lights flashed as photographers took her picture, she saw them, she was there, but her mind was far far away. Serena held her there and Blair was thankful, if Serena's firm grip wasn't around her waist right now she probably would have collapsed. Tears streaked down her face and Serena quickly wiped them away for her. Questions were being yelled at her as she tried to fight her way through the crowd from the limo to her building. Her life was over. There was no point living anymore. Just before she entered the safe sanctuary of her home she heard one last question; "What were the last things he said to you Miss Waldorf?" she turned quickly into Serena's chest, she couldn't keep it in any more, screams echoed from her and Blair's whole life came crashing down. "He's gone, he' gone" she mumbled in between screams,Serena pulled her into her arms and took her inside before anyone could take anymore photos.

"Two weeks is too long Chuck," Blair muttered. "What am I going to do without you?"

Chuck reached out and stroked Blair's cheek, "It's not that long, i'll be back before you have time to miss me."

She hugged him tightly and was ready to refuse to let go, he hugged her back and laughed, "come on Blair, you're being silly."

"Fine, go, have fun." She forced a smile.

"Blair..." He glared at her.

"No seriously, it's fine, ill just have fun here, by myself -bored, by myself."

"Go spend time with Serena, I know you've been missing her."

"I can't have sex with Serena." She stared at Chuck with a cruel smirk.

"I won't count it as cheating if you do." Chuck smirked back.

Blair rolled her eyes. "Yeah right, nice try."

He reached down and kissed her softly on her lips, Blair pulled him to her to try and make the kiss more intense, hoping that he would be reluctant to leave her. He didn't protest. They dropped to the bed and Blair fumbled for his belt. "Blair, no." He drew his lips away from hers. "I really have to go, I can't miss the plane."

Blair sighed angrily, "you have a private jet Chuck, you won't miss it."

"This is a serious business deal Blair, and I can't be late for that," Blair got off Chuck then, upset. "I love you Blair."

A smile played around her lips as she tried to not say it back. "I love you too." She was a sucker.

He gave her one last sweet kiss before he left the suite, the banging of the door echoed through the suddenly silent apartment.

One Week later

Blair stared down at her phone for what felt like the millionth time, usually Chuck replies straight away but she hadn't gotten a reply in 1 hour. Probably just in a business meeting, she tried to brush the thought away.

"B, come on, you've been looking at that phone for an hour now," Serena said. "I thought we were spending time together, not with your phone."

"Sorry S," Blair replied putting the phone aside, swearing to herself she wouldn't check it again until she actually heard it buzz. "Just it's not like Chuck to not reply straight away."

She stole a quick glance to the phone, still no change.

"Blair!" Serena practically shouted.

"Sorry, sorry, sorry!" She stashed the phone away into her bag and hooked her arm around Serena's, pulling her off the park bench. "Come, lets go shopping!"

They talked and laughed all day, coming out of every shop carrying 10 bags each, dropping them off in Serena's limo each time. Finally they reached the lingerie store. Serena busied her self in the raunchy section while Blair searched through the classy but sexy section, looking for the right out fit to surprise chuck with. It had been 4 hours since they left the park and the phone in her bag felt like a brick, she was well aware that it was there and even more aware that nothing had been received in the last 5 hours, since she last texted Chuck. Worrying thoughts clouded her mind but she tried to push them aside, thinking of Chuck's expression when he saw her in the little number she had just tried on. She smiled to herself as she took the outfit off, she couldn't wait to see him again.

She paid for her items and went outside to wait for Serena, finally giving in to her nerve she checked her phone. It didn't surprise her that he hadn't text back yet but she still was saddened, cruel thoughts popped in her head as she began to think what had happened to him, but quickly shaking them off, sure she was just over re-acting.

Just as she was about to put her phone back into her bag it buzzed and Blair smiled in relief, she knew he would text back eventually. She looked back at the phone to see a Gossip Girl blast and read it quickly.

Good afternoon UES's, although when your done with this blast it won't be so happy after all. Sources tell me that a body was found in a suite this morning in California, suspected to be an OD...B didn't C tell you he was off the juice? R.I.P Charles Bass, Blair, we're thinking of you.

xoxo Gossip Girl.

The phone dropped out of Blair's shaking hands, tears filled her eyes and she ran back into the store to find Serena. She was looking at her phone when Blair burst into the store tears in her eyes, Serena dropped everything and opened her arms for Blair to fall into.

"shhh, Blair," She cooed. "I'm sure she's wrong, it wouldn't be the first time."

Blair shook her head and continued to cry as Serena took her out of the shop into the limo where she ordered the driver to take them to the pent house. From that moment on she knew that their whole lives had been changed forever.

Blair hadn't moved since she landed on her bed at 3 o'clock in the after noon, it was now midnight and she has refused anything to eat. Serena was fast asleep next to her, that hadn't spoken a word to each other all afternoon but she still insisted on staying the night. Blair was shaking and the tears kept rolling, every now and then she would think of a time she had spent with Chuck and she would burst out crying even louder. A news report had confirmed that Charles Bartholomew Bass had passed away earlier that day at 9 am, due to an over dose. Drug: Unknown. Blair had thought that the details were a bit sketchy and didn't add up, the reporter didn't know a lot of things about the death and Chuck did swear to her that he was done with drugs. And he wouldn't lie to her, would he?

Blair shuddered when she realised that yes, he would lie to her, it would be unlike him to not to lie, even to her. She couldn't sleep and she found herself yearning for a drink, not her usual champaign but for Scotch. Something strong, something to numb the pain. She got out of the bed slowly, her eyes were salty and her mouth was dry, she was still dressed from the clothes she had worn earlier that day. She made her way out of the pent house, slowly and quietly until she was finally on the street. Blair hailed a taxi and clambered into to it.

"Where to ma'am?"

"The Empire Hotel." She replied in a whisper, surprised that the driver even heard her.

When the taxi arrived at The Empire Blair threw her money at the driver, leaving a more then generous tip, and hurried inside to Chuck's Suite.

The apartment was eerie, too quiet and Blair regretted coming here straight away, so many memories came flooding back to her like a slap in the face.

"I was a coward running away again."

She made her way over to his liquor cabinet."

"But everywhere I went, you caught up with me."

Blair reached up and found Chuck's scotch.

"So I had to come back."

She unscrewed the lid quickly.

"You can believe me this time."

She poured a glass to the rim.

"I love you too."

The sweet warmth of the scotch filled her up as she downed it quickly and reached for the bottle again, dumping the glass in the kitchen and taking the bottle into Chuck's room with her.