Title: Forsaken
Author: Akima The Stampede Maxwell
Date begun: February 13, 2002
Anime: Trigun, Escaflowne character names and appearances
Pairings: Not telling…that would spoil everything!!!!
Rating: NR for stuff that happens (be warned…I am spontaneous), in this chapter we find thoughts of worthlessness and possible suicidal thoughts, depression
Disclaimers: Anything Trigun or Escaflowne related is not mine….DUH!!!!
Chapter 1: Knives` Decision and Coming Back from the Dead
Meryl did not even know why Vash came back. She wanted to believe that he came back to tell her that he had realized how much he cared about her and that he wanted to stay with her. She wanted him to take her in his arms and confess his heart and soul to her…but the reality was different. Vash came back alright. He brought Knives with him. She did not know why he came back. He never really talked about what he had been doing for the past two years. He never told her why he was not wearing the red coat or why he decided to leave again.
`Doesn`t he realize that this is killing me inside?`
He just told her to look after Knives while he was gone and that he would be back. That was about a month ago. Meryl was stuck looking after Vash`s silent(at the moment) brother and the subdued Milly. Her old partner had not recovered from Wolfwood`s death. She missed him terribly and always kept his cross with her at all times. She never was as bubbly as she used to be. Meryl really could not blame her for that. Milly and Wolfwood obviously had a thing going for awhile. Now…she could not get angry at Milly for missing him.
`I just want things to be like they were before. Why does tragedy happen to the best of people? Why to Milly? She deserves love.`
Meryl walked into the kitchen. She and Milly bought a small house away from towns in hopes of finding peace only to find unending loneliness. The ironic part of Vash dropping off Knives here was that at least someone else was in the house.
The only problem was that Knives was not that talkative.
He usually just walked around or went outside. He practiced firing at targets sometimes. If Meryl was around he would use her to hold up a target. Meryl was scared at first until he did not attempt to hit her. She often took this time to try and tell herself that she had someone around who would be there to be with her if not talking. Today was one of those days.
Meryl sat a few feet off from Knives as he pointed and fired at all of the targets. He never missed a mark as he rapidly aimed and fired. He looked over at Meryl. He pointed to a target laying on the ground.
"Hold it out there a couple of yards." he commanded. Meryl smiled. She did not smile genuinely like that unless he asked her to do this or if Vash came around. She told herself she would smile for Milly when she got better but that was far off.
"Hey! Come on! I don`t have all day!"
"Keep your pants on!" Meryl retorted. He pointed the gun at her.
`You won`t shoot me.`
"Try me."
Meryl ran out and grabbed the target. She hurried out a couple of yards. She turned around. She held out the target to her right. Knives raised his gun and fired. He hit straight through the bull`s eye.
"Good shot!"
Knives smirked as he spun the gun around and fired again. The clap of thunder and a flash of lightening made him freeze. A downpour of rain convinced him to quit for the day. He put the gun back in its holster and waved to Meryl.
"That is all for today."
Meryl threw down the target and made a run for the house. Knives was not far behind. He just took long strides. Meryl grabbed two towels from beside the door. She threw one to Knives who caught it. He did not even thank her but she did not care. She was used to his often rude nature. She needed his company too much for that to matter. She scrubbed at her hair. The lights went out in the house. She froze.
`Darkness…`
She trembled. The lights came back on with the auxillary power. She hated the dark even more now since Vash was not around. She always envisioned a gang waiting to kill her. Even with someone like Knives around she was still afraid.
"You fear the darkness. How pathetic." Knives said. He smirked. Meryl felt him prodding her brain with his intense ice blue eyes. She turned away from him.
"Stop reading my mind! Some things are private that should be kept inside that person! Quit poking into my brain!"
"How can I be sure if you are not plotting something against me?"
"Why would I do that?"
"All of you spiders would do that."
"Why do you still call us all spiders? Didn`t Vash teach you anything?"
"He is too gullible. He has already been brainwashed by humanity. Why should your pathetic race be permitted to go on existing?"
Meryl ended the conversation by not answering. She made her way to the couch. She laid out on it. She had not slept in her own bed for a long time. She slept on the couch and Knives slept on the chair. He refused to sleep in the bed where they had "held him custody". Despite his bitter words she found a strange sort of comfort in his presense…but she contributed that to her boredom.
`How could someone possibly find true happiness with this guy? He is such a jerk!`
She watched him clean his gun for awhile. What else was there to do? She took the moment to look over him. His short platinum blond hair was a bit longer than it used to be. His face was still, despite utter disgust thinking about it, handsome (Meryl contributed this to being Vash`s twin) features. His eyes were still haunting and cold. They could pierce even the hardest of souls. His lips were in that perfect indifferent appearance. She could not decide if he was happy or sad. It was neither a smile or a frown. He wore the same outfit which Vash had brought him here in. It perfected contoured his lithe and muscular body. It sickened Meryl to think that but she could not help thinking it. He was actually a good piece of work.
"What are you staring at?" Knives asked. Bitter irritation seeded his words. Meryl sighed as the world was thrown violently back into reality. She put back on her angry front which was slowly eroding.
"Give me a break! I was thinking about something!"
"About my brother. Why do you pine away for someone that is too good for you?"
"I love him!"
"Love him? Ha! You could not possibly believe that he could love you! No plant would do that!"
"Why not?"
"You are not worthy!"
"Look who`s talking! Do you think that you`re some kind of catch? You stupid, insolent, revolting, ugly, worthless plant!"
Knives was speechless then suddenly he was on his feet. He jumped up and landed beside her. He pointed his gun right at her forehead. He sneered then put the gun to her teeth. He forced her to open her mouth to push the barrel inside. His eyes went wild. He was practically mad with the anticipation.
"I will kill you, bitch! I will rid the planet of you!"
`Do it.`
Knives` eyes narrowed.
`Do it, you stupid plant. Do it.`
He cocked the gun. His hand was shaking. Meryl`s eyes brimmed with tears. She closed her eyes. She waited for the shot.
`Please…just do it. I can`t go on. What`s the point?`
The shot never came. When she opened her eyes Knives was back in his chair. He was holding the gun in his hands. He looked different somehow.
`Why didn`t he shoot me?`
He was staring down at his gun.
`He probably realized he was out of bullets or something. Why else would he not shoot me?`
Knives lolled off to sleep before she did.
`He actually looks innocent when he sleeps. Strange how our true natures can be hidden so easily.`
She eventually went to sleep. Her dreams were filled with nightmares.
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Meryl awoke in a cold sweat. She put her hand to her forehead. She felt like lying down and dying right there. Tears were running down her cheeks.
`My life is worthless!`
"You are a weak spider."
`Oh no. I don`t need this.`
"Shut up, Knives!"
She peered through her fingers. He was in the same place as the other night staring intently at her. She growled and cursed herself inwardly for staying on the couch. She averted her eyes from his.
"What? You can`t even look at me when I speak? Typical spider."
She faced him.
"Why are you such a jerk? Didn`t Vash show you compassion?"
"He did…but that is his weakness. My mission is to change that."
"So when do you plan on doing that?"
"Now."
Meryl looked around. She shook her head. She got up and slipped on her cape. She was checking her guns as she spoke.
"I don`t see Vash anywhere. How can you do that?"
"I can find him. We are twins."
She heard his gun cock. She turned to look down the barrel of his gun. He smirked.
"You are coming with me. You know about my plan."
"Who says that I am coming? Just because you point a gun at me. Idiot."
He reached forward and grasped the collar of her shirt. He pulled her close to him and spun her around to face away from him. He covered her mouth with his hand. With his other hand he pressed the gun to the back of her right shoulder. He fired. Meryl`s muffled scream filled his hand as her blood and flesh fell across the table in front of her.
"You are coming."
He pulled her up by the hand still holding her mouth closed. He kicked open the door with his foot and made his way to the bike sitting in the driveway. It was Wolfwood`s bike. Meryl felt the warmth of tears again.
`Milly will be devastated! What a monster!`
She felt the wound getting to her. Her vision was blurring as Knives got on the bike. He sat her in front of him as he started the bike. Meryl lolled her head around until it rested on Knives` chest. Her eyes slowly saw darkness as the motorcycle roared down the road.
`Don`t worry, Milly. I will find some way to get back to you. I won`t leave you alone. Please let Vash get back. He`ll know what to do. He always knows what to do…even if it is not coherent. He`ll save me from his jerk of a brother!`
The motorcycle hit a bump. Meryl`s wound flared. She gritted her teeth against the pain. She began to cry silently.
`I can`t see! What`s going on?!`
"Just relax!" Knives ordered. Meryl felt her heart beating faster and faster.
`I`m going into shock!`
Knives stopped the bike. He grabbed her shoulders and pushed her forward. Meryl could hardly see him yet her eyes were wide and fearful. Knives looked her over. The blood from her wound was pouring out faster than expected apparently as Knives had that surprised look on his face. He looked around. He looked behind him to find a compartment. He opened it with one hand while holding Meryl out in front of him. He found a bandana. He pulled it out. He tied it around her shoulder tightly until the blood ultimately stopped.
`Then why do I still feel like my lungs will burst?`
She felt the blackness coming again. Her heart was slowing down. Knives cursed as he jumped down from the bike. He lay her down. She breathed in and out.
"It will make things much easier if you would simply calm down! I already stopped the bleeding!"
Meryl stared at him.
`Why do you care?`
"Breathe in and out! Come on! We all do it! If you do that then you will not die!"
He watched her. The way he was studying her face was unnerving.
`Why is he doing this? Why does he care?`
"I don`t care! This is simple logic! Breathing means live! You want to live for Vash and I need a hostage!"
`So that`s why.`
Meryl suddenly realized that she was not breathing rapidly anymore. She felt weak and tired but that was about it. Knives pulled her up harshly by the right arm. She screamed in pain. Knives cringed.
"Don`t you woman spiders ever stay quiet?!"
"Not when you pull on our wounds like that!" Meryl spat back. He stuck her back in front of him as he got on the bike.
"Now be a good hostage and shut up."
`That will not be a problem.`
Meryl felt her eyes droop. She lay her head back against Knives` chest.
`This is so disgusting but I do need to rest and he`s the only one here.`
Sleep claimed her as the sun rose high into the sky in the late morning.
*That Knives! Won`t he ever become like Vash? Who knows! Oh well….on the Chapter 2!!!!
Author: Akima The Stampede Maxwell
Date begun: February 13, 2002
Anime: Trigun, Escaflowne character names and appearances
Pairings: Not telling…that would spoil everything!!!!
Rating: NR for stuff that happens (be warned…I am spontaneous), in this chapter we find thoughts of worthlessness and possible suicidal thoughts, depression
Disclaimers: Anything Trigun or Escaflowne related is not mine….DUH!!!!
Chapter 1: Knives` Decision and Coming Back from the Dead
Meryl did not even know why Vash came back. She wanted to believe that he came back to tell her that he had realized how much he cared about her and that he wanted to stay with her. She wanted him to take her in his arms and confess his heart and soul to her…but the reality was different. Vash came back alright. He brought Knives with him. She did not know why he came back. He never really talked about what he had been doing for the past two years. He never told her why he was not wearing the red coat or why he decided to leave again.
`Doesn`t he realize that this is killing me inside?`
He just told her to look after Knives while he was gone and that he would be back. That was about a month ago. Meryl was stuck looking after Vash`s silent(at the moment) brother and the subdued Milly. Her old partner had not recovered from Wolfwood`s death. She missed him terribly and always kept his cross with her at all times. She never was as bubbly as she used to be. Meryl really could not blame her for that. Milly and Wolfwood obviously had a thing going for awhile. Now…she could not get angry at Milly for missing him.
`I just want things to be like they were before. Why does tragedy happen to the best of people? Why to Milly? She deserves love.`
Meryl walked into the kitchen. She and Milly bought a small house away from towns in hopes of finding peace only to find unending loneliness. The ironic part of Vash dropping off Knives here was that at least someone else was in the house.
The only problem was that Knives was not that talkative.
He usually just walked around or went outside. He practiced firing at targets sometimes. If Meryl was around he would use her to hold up a target. Meryl was scared at first until he did not attempt to hit her. She often took this time to try and tell herself that she had someone around who would be there to be with her if not talking. Today was one of those days.
Meryl sat a few feet off from Knives as he pointed and fired at all of the targets. He never missed a mark as he rapidly aimed and fired. He looked over at Meryl. He pointed to a target laying on the ground.
"Hold it out there a couple of yards." he commanded. Meryl smiled. She did not smile genuinely like that unless he asked her to do this or if Vash came around. She told herself she would smile for Milly when she got better but that was far off.
"Hey! Come on! I don`t have all day!"
"Keep your pants on!" Meryl retorted. He pointed the gun at her.
`You won`t shoot me.`
"Try me."
Meryl ran out and grabbed the target. She hurried out a couple of yards. She turned around. She held out the target to her right. Knives raised his gun and fired. He hit straight through the bull`s eye.
"Good shot!"
Knives smirked as he spun the gun around and fired again. The clap of thunder and a flash of lightening made him freeze. A downpour of rain convinced him to quit for the day. He put the gun back in its holster and waved to Meryl.
"That is all for today."
Meryl threw down the target and made a run for the house. Knives was not far behind. He just took long strides. Meryl grabbed two towels from beside the door. She threw one to Knives who caught it. He did not even thank her but she did not care. She was used to his often rude nature. She needed his company too much for that to matter. She scrubbed at her hair. The lights went out in the house. She froze.
`Darkness…`
She trembled. The lights came back on with the auxillary power. She hated the dark even more now since Vash was not around. She always envisioned a gang waiting to kill her. Even with someone like Knives around she was still afraid.
"You fear the darkness. How pathetic." Knives said. He smirked. Meryl felt him prodding her brain with his intense ice blue eyes. She turned away from him.
"Stop reading my mind! Some things are private that should be kept inside that person! Quit poking into my brain!"
"How can I be sure if you are not plotting something against me?"
"Why would I do that?"
"All of you spiders would do that."
"Why do you still call us all spiders? Didn`t Vash teach you anything?"
"He is too gullible. He has already been brainwashed by humanity. Why should your pathetic race be permitted to go on existing?"
Meryl ended the conversation by not answering. She made her way to the couch. She laid out on it. She had not slept in her own bed for a long time. She slept on the couch and Knives slept on the chair. He refused to sleep in the bed where they had "held him custody". Despite his bitter words she found a strange sort of comfort in his presense…but she contributed that to her boredom.
`How could someone possibly find true happiness with this guy? He is such a jerk!`
She watched him clean his gun for awhile. What else was there to do? She took the moment to look over him. His short platinum blond hair was a bit longer than it used to be. His face was still, despite utter disgust thinking about it, handsome (Meryl contributed this to being Vash`s twin) features. His eyes were still haunting and cold. They could pierce even the hardest of souls. His lips were in that perfect indifferent appearance. She could not decide if he was happy or sad. It was neither a smile or a frown. He wore the same outfit which Vash had brought him here in. It perfected contoured his lithe and muscular body. It sickened Meryl to think that but she could not help thinking it. He was actually a good piece of work.
"What are you staring at?" Knives asked. Bitter irritation seeded his words. Meryl sighed as the world was thrown violently back into reality. She put back on her angry front which was slowly eroding.
"Give me a break! I was thinking about something!"
"About my brother. Why do you pine away for someone that is too good for you?"
"I love him!"
"Love him? Ha! You could not possibly believe that he could love you! No plant would do that!"
"Why not?"
"You are not worthy!"
"Look who`s talking! Do you think that you`re some kind of catch? You stupid, insolent, revolting, ugly, worthless plant!"
Knives was speechless then suddenly he was on his feet. He jumped up and landed beside her. He pointed his gun right at her forehead. He sneered then put the gun to her teeth. He forced her to open her mouth to push the barrel inside. His eyes went wild. He was practically mad with the anticipation.
"I will kill you, bitch! I will rid the planet of you!"
`Do it.`
Knives` eyes narrowed.
`Do it, you stupid plant. Do it.`
He cocked the gun. His hand was shaking. Meryl`s eyes brimmed with tears. She closed her eyes. She waited for the shot.
`Please…just do it. I can`t go on. What`s the point?`
The shot never came. When she opened her eyes Knives was back in his chair. He was holding the gun in his hands. He looked different somehow.
`Why didn`t he shoot me?`
He was staring down at his gun.
`He probably realized he was out of bullets or something. Why else would he not shoot me?`
Knives lolled off to sleep before she did.
`He actually looks innocent when he sleeps. Strange how our true natures can be hidden so easily.`
She eventually went to sleep. Her dreams were filled with nightmares.
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Meryl awoke in a cold sweat. She put her hand to her forehead. She felt like lying down and dying right there. Tears were running down her cheeks.
`My life is worthless!`
"You are a weak spider."
`Oh no. I don`t need this.`
"Shut up, Knives!"
She peered through her fingers. He was in the same place as the other night staring intently at her. She growled and cursed herself inwardly for staying on the couch. She averted her eyes from his.
"What? You can`t even look at me when I speak? Typical spider."
She faced him.
"Why are you such a jerk? Didn`t Vash show you compassion?"
"He did…but that is his weakness. My mission is to change that."
"So when do you plan on doing that?"
"Now."
Meryl looked around. She shook her head. She got up and slipped on her cape. She was checking her guns as she spoke.
"I don`t see Vash anywhere. How can you do that?"
"I can find him. We are twins."
She heard his gun cock. She turned to look down the barrel of his gun. He smirked.
"You are coming with me. You know about my plan."
"Who says that I am coming? Just because you point a gun at me. Idiot."
He reached forward and grasped the collar of her shirt. He pulled her close to him and spun her around to face away from him. He covered her mouth with his hand. With his other hand he pressed the gun to the back of her right shoulder. He fired. Meryl`s muffled scream filled his hand as her blood and flesh fell across the table in front of her.
"You are coming."
He pulled her up by the hand still holding her mouth closed. He kicked open the door with his foot and made his way to the bike sitting in the driveway. It was Wolfwood`s bike. Meryl felt the warmth of tears again.
`Milly will be devastated! What a monster!`
She felt the wound getting to her. Her vision was blurring as Knives got on the bike. He sat her in front of him as he started the bike. Meryl lolled her head around until it rested on Knives` chest. Her eyes slowly saw darkness as the motorcycle roared down the road.
`Don`t worry, Milly. I will find some way to get back to you. I won`t leave you alone. Please let Vash get back. He`ll know what to do. He always knows what to do…even if it is not coherent. He`ll save me from his jerk of a brother!`
The motorcycle hit a bump. Meryl`s wound flared. She gritted her teeth against the pain. She began to cry silently.
`I can`t see! What`s going on?!`
"Just relax!" Knives ordered. Meryl felt her heart beating faster and faster.
`I`m going into shock!`
Knives stopped the bike. He grabbed her shoulders and pushed her forward. Meryl could hardly see him yet her eyes were wide and fearful. Knives looked her over. The blood from her wound was pouring out faster than expected apparently as Knives had that surprised look on his face. He looked around. He looked behind him to find a compartment. He opened it with one hand while holding Meryl out in front of him. He found a bandana. He pulled it out. He tied it around her shoulder tightly until the blood ultimately stopped.
`Then why do I still feel like my lungs will burst?`
She felt the blackness coming again. Her heart was slowing down. Knives cursed as he jumped down from the bike. He lay her down. She breathed in and out.
"It will make things much easier if you would simply calm down! I already stopped the bleeding!"
Meryl stared at him.
`Why do you care?`
"Breathe in and out! Come on! We all do it! If you do that then you will not die!"
He watched her. The way he was studying her face was unnerving.
`Why is he doing this? Why does he care?`
"I don`t care! This is simple logic! Breathing means live! You want to live for Vash and I need a hostage!"
`So that`s why.`
Meryl suddenly realized that she was not breathing rapidly anymore. She felt weak and tired but that was about it. Knives pulled her up harshly by the right arm. She screamed in pain. Knives cringed.
"Don`t you woman spiders ever stay quiet?!"
"Not when you pull on our wounds like that!" Meryl spat back. He stuck her back in front of him as he got on the bike.
"Now be a good hostage and shut up."
`That will not be a problem.`
Meryl felt her eyes droop. She lay her head back against Knives` chest.
`This is so disgusting but I do need to rest and he`s the only one here.`
Sleep claimed her as the sun rose high into the sky in the late morning.
*That Knives! Won`t he ever become like Vash? Who knows! Oh well….on the Chapter 2!!!!