Loveless Fanfic
(Ritsuka's Story)
Speechless
Chapter 1: Loveless Loveless
I'm used to be going out with Soubi but this time is different. Something is bothering me, I'm confused.
"Ritsuka, is something bothering you?"Soubi asked. I don't know what to answer. I don't know what is bothering me. I want someone to tell me… Please…
He stopped for a while. I looked back…
"Ritsuka, tell me what is it? What is it bothering you?"He looked so confused, frustrated…
His eyes, they're concerned, worried…
"S-Soubi, tell me, why do you keep saying that you love me? Since, we just met…"
My eyes, so teary. My heart, it's pounding, breaking into pieces. Expecting he would say those words
"Because I was told to do so." Shoot! So it really was it. It's all about Semei…
My tears falling down, ignoring what his reaction will be… not thinking twice. Words just came out.
"Go away! I don't want to see you anymore!"
His face looked down; he tried to stop me, but… I ignored him…
I don't know what to do, I just ran away so fast, but still, I wish I could've stayed with him a little longer. I really hate him for saying the words that came out from his voice but not from his heart. What I really hate about him is that, he made me love him…
"Ritsuka! Dinner is ready! Are you hungry? I made your favorite!" my mom, she really hate what I am right now. Sometimes, I really wish that I stayed as me two years passed…
"Ritsuka?"
My name, is it actually mine? Is it really Risuka or is it Loveless…
Loveless… destined not to be loved… what an awful name… my…
…NAME…
Three days passed since I last saw Soubi… Does he really take my words seriously? Do my words definite for him to take it?
"Ritsuka!" I flushed! I looked back, it wasn't Soubi… My head, down…
"hey, Yuiko… Good morning!"I faked a smile…
"Good Morning!"
"Ritsuka, have you and Soubi just fought? Did something happen? You looked kinda different these days and I haven't seen Soubi for a while…"
"Uh-we, uh… nothing at all…"She doesn't look convinced.
"Ritsuka! Come on!" she took my arms… just like when Soubi and I first met.
"Uh-Yuiko! Please slowdown, I can't keep up with you!"
"Ritsuka! We're already late!"
"Uh-sorry"
Ding dong ding dong
Class is over; I don't want to leave… I looked at the window to see if Soubi was here.
So as expected, he didn't come. Soubi, please… come here… I miss you
My head's already spinning…
I walked along the road quickly to get to sleep at home…
I finally got home not even noticing it…
I went upstairs ignoring my mom in the kitchen.
I was surprised my window's open. I wish it was Soubi… I run to see what it is there…
"Soubi!" I said aloud with my eyes full of joy and my mouth clearly smiling… it all went down when I see nothing…
My tears did fall as expected… The words in my mind, always in my mind, these words…
I miss you Soubi…