Disclaimer: I don't own the characters or dialogue owned by one life to live.

A/N : This a short story which I have completed in its entirety hope you enjoy it. Today is Matthew and Destiny's two year anniversary :)

Lose Myself Chapter 1

He was walking towards the auditorium for the second day of rehearsals. Yesterday sure was intense but hopefully today wouldn't be as bad. Deep in thought he felt someone bump into him causing him to grab the other persons waist. Matthew felt sparks flying then he looked up to see a very flustered Destiny which caused him to blush ever so slightly.

"Destiny. Whats wrong? You look a little flustered." He asked concerned not letting go of her waist. Matthew noticed Destiny bite down on her glossy lips. He shook his head at the thought of her lips.

"Must be butterflies , that's all." Destiny replied stuttering slightly. Little did he know true that was. Boy was her shirt soft he felt his hands rubbing against the soft and silky pink fabric. It felt right.

"Your telling me. I'm clueless about playing Markko - I mean loving - y - Langston and everything. We should go over those scenes." Matthew replied slightly nervous. He was a little too "excited" over the thought of doing those scenes. Unbeknownst to him he wasn't the only one that was.

"Lets go to the auditorium and go over today's scenes before rehearsal." He said happily. He noticed her get even more flustered than before.

"We cant got in there." Destiny replied placing her hands on his shoulders in order to stop him from going anywhere, little did she know he really didn't want to leave this spot.

"I don't understand. Why cant you I mean we go in there?" Matthew asked her.

"Because there's someone in there." She admitted biting on her lip once again.

"So isn't there room for more than on person in there?" He asked noticing her glance down briefly. He didn't really notice the direction of her glance. But when she looked up she was breathing heavily and her pupils were dilated, but he had no idea why.

"It's more - - more than one person its tw-two people." Destiny replied stuttering glancing at him briefly.

"What does that have to do with us not being in there? Last I checked it was a pretty large room." Matthew said curiously.

"They're kinda making out." Destiny answered.

"Who?" He asked awaiting an answer but when she opened her mouth someone else spoke instead.

"What is all this talk about kissing?" He heard Nate ask. Matthew and Destiny immediately jumped apart. He noticed Dani standing quietly next to Nate he felt a brief flash of guilt before tugging on his bag.

"I don't know what you to heard (or saw he added silently), but we were just talking about the play." He said glancing nervously at Destiny who looked away when he caught her gaze.

"Some heavy stuff in there." Nate said. For some reason he felt his irritation at him diminishing.

"Hot and heavy." He heard Destiny mutter while twirling her hair on her finger cutely. Cutely where was all this coming from? Today he was feeling all these things he didn't ever experience before.

"Dani and I actually went over our scenes last night. It really helped didn't it Dani?" Nate asked looking at Dani who just looked away with a strange expression on her face.

"Heads up. Coming through." He heard Markko call out, what was he doing here? Before he really had a second to think about it he noticed a panic stricken Destiny follow Markko in the auditorium.

"Wait,Wait,wait. You cant go in there, No! Wait,Wait,No!" Destiny cried out after him. Why couldn't Markko go in there?

"Langston." He heard Markko say in a confused tone. Was it Langston Destiny saw kissing someone or was it someone else entirely that he wasn't allowed to see? Boy was this day confusing.

"Markko?" Langston questioned in a slightly nervous tone. He saw Destiny backing up slowly into the hallways. Matthew was having a hard time not focusing on her. It was like something in him was ignited and he kinda liked it. A minute later Mr.G was ushering them into the auditorium.

"Hey, Markko. Glad you could make it. Guys, Markko has an announcement to make." Mr.G said. Matthew looked over to Markko and noticed he had some large items with him.

"Yeah I'm making a video of Starr x'd lovers from rehearsal to final curtain." Markko announced to them.

"What do you mean a video?" Matthew asked.

"Like a documentary?" Dani asked.

"Are we going to be on TV?" Destiny asked. A smile spread quickly across his face.

"No,No. I'm doing it for Langston. It's not everyday my girlfriend's musical get produced, and I wanted to make a video diary so she'll never forget it." Markko replied. How nice of him to do that for her.

"Okay leads lets mark through some of the more dramatic material today so get ready." Mr.G said. Nate and Dani made there way on stage following him.

"I cant believe you would do that for me." Langston remarked sweetly.

"Why not? I'm way proud of you babe. And I love you , you freak." Matthew replied kissing her.

Matthew glanced over at Destiny once again and noticed she was glaring at Langston. Why was she so angry at Langston? He didn't get it. Matthew gathered her attention a moment later and motioned for them to go behind the table and she nodded following while he resisted the urge to hold her hand. The mere presence of her was driving him insane so he got out his script so he could look over the scene they were going over today. He flipped to the page Mr.G told him they would be rehearsing today. The dialogue seemed to blur before him when a certain word caught his eye. Kiss. He shook his head making sure he read that correctly. As it turns out he did. Matthew was going to have to kiss Destiny today. He gulped nervously. They had gotten close before but that incident hadn't been brought up since. Neither of them ; it seemed ; had the guts to say anything about it or she had forgotten about it. He wondered if she had truly gotten over him liked she claimed she did. A part of him an admittedly large part of him hoped she hadn't. While a very small part of him knew nothing would come of them. Today felt like the start of something wonderful. Shaking him out of his thoughts Mr. G announced it was time for them to go onstage. He followed Destiny onstage trying his best not to ogle her from behind. But boy was it mighty tempting. They took their spots onstage and opened up their scripts to the days dialogue. He was having a hard time keeping his nerves in tact.

"I can't believe this." Destiny said softly but passionately. This was going to be even harder than he thought. Damn.

"I can, You're the best thing that's happened to me i-in a long time , Langston. I love you." Matthew spoke passionately while gazing lovingly in her eyes. Her warm chocolate eyes. His palms were to sweat onto the page. His heart felt like it was going to beat out of his chest.

"I can't believe how much I like the way that sounds." Destiny admitted breathlessly. When she was around it seemed liked the rest of the world seized to exist.

"It's okay. You don't have to say it back. I know some things take time." He replied. This scene felt oh so real. Like he wasn't just playing a character.

"I want to say it. I really want to say it. I love you ,Markko. I , do." Destiny admitted lovingly. He believed her he honestly did. Matthew took a step closer placing a hand on her shoulder as he tilted his head as his lips met hers. Once they touched he felt sparks and he deepened the kiss and he felt her tongue tangle up with his responding him to equal passion. A minute later they breathlessly pulled apart albeit reluctantly. He could still taste her tongue in his mouth and smelled her cotton candy lip gloss on his mouth. There was no way he could walk away from Destiny, not now.

"That was awesome you guys." Markko replied happily. Matthew shook his head slightly trying to emerge from this daze she left him in. He looked over at Destiny and noticed her smiling slightly, he looked away quickly.

"Thank you." Matthew replied as calmly as he could really manage at the moment. He felt like his body was on fire right now. All of him.

"Really nice work,guys. Matthew I thought you perfectly captured the characters sincerity - - Markko's willingness to put it all on the line for this girl. Something wrong Destiny?" Mr. G asked. Matthew looked over at Destiny who had a slight dazed look on her face which she snapped out quickly.

"Um. I'm just working out the kinks in my character." She sputtered.

"Well you know it was a good start, I want you to think about Langston's vulnerability. You know? She lost both of her parents, she's gotten used to being alone in this world, and along comes this guy who says, "Hey, no matter what , I'm here for you," Now Langston wants to believe him, but its a real leap of faith for her. And that's whats makes the scene poignant. Make sense?" Mr. G asked her.

"Yeah." Destiny replied with a sigh. He could tell that there was something on her minds besides what just happened between them.

"You can do it. All right. Good job. Let's take a ten minute break." Mr. G announced leaving the stage. Matthew took a step in front of Destiny.

"Are you mad at Langston or something?" He asked curiously. Why had she been giving Langston the look of death earlier?

"You bet I'm mad, I have to play Langston the worlds biggest hypocrite." Destiny replied angrily. He furrowed his brow in confusion.

"How is Langston a hypocrite?" Matthew asked.

"Because she's pretending like she loves Markko and he's all into her. And she's just using him." Destiny replied bitterly. That could only mean one thing.

"Why do you think that?" He asked curiously.

"Because she's the one I saw in here making out – and it wasn't Markko. It was some other dude." She admitted.

"Langston's cheating on Markko?" He exclaimed quietly in disbelief. This was not good.

"And there's no way the guy you saw Langston with could have been Markko?" He hopped against hope that it was true however unlikely it was. Matthew and Destiny took a seat on stage.

Destiny shook her head and pursed her full lips. "No he was older."

Matthew turned his head and saw Langston talking with Mr.G. "It wasn't Mr.G was it?"

"Eww! No!" She said in a repulsed tone.

"So,Who?" He asked curiously.

"The hot guy at L.U. I think his name is Ford?" Destiny replied unsurely. That really sucks for Markko.

"Are you positive?" Matthew asked.

"Would I say something like this if I wasn't like this if I wasn't like 1000% sure?" She retorted looking over at him. He knew she never especially something of this magnitude.

He shook his head slightly. "Poor Markko."

"I know. And I have to play her. How am I supposed to be all lovey dovey with Markko now that I know whats really going down?" Destiny asked. He honestly had no clue.

"This is beyond weird." He remarked.

"It's a lie Matthew, all of it." Destiny remarked a bit loudly. He nodded not saying a word.

"What's a lie? What are you talking about?" Langston asked curiously. Oh crap she overhead them. This was not good.

"I just meant that when I'm trying to play Langston …." She sputtered nervously. Destiny trailed glancing at him nervously basically hoping for him to finish for her. Man the things he would do for this girl.

"It doesn't feel real." But what a blatant lie that was at least on his part. He wasn't quite sure how she felt.

"Because some of the things that have happened to you and Markko haven't to me so it feels like a lie." Destiny replied nervously.

"Because Destiny and I aren't a couple in real life, so it's just you know hard to do sometimes." The only thing that was hard, besides a certain area of his, was sputtering this complete and utter that was far from the truth.

"I guess that's why they call it acting." Langston said giving them an odd look as she walked away papers in hand.

"Man kill me now." She sighed laying her head on the piano. This time he did check out her admittedly voluptuous backside. And boy was it fantastic.

"Okay, that was way too close. From now on we stay out of this." He said. Besides he had some breaking up to do before anything further happened with them. His feelings for her were rapidly growing by the second. She lifted her head off the piano and turned around.

"Definitely, and if Markko ever finds out Langston's cheating on him it's not gonna be from me." Destiny replied. A second later they heard the opening of the auditorium doors.