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Yesterday had turned into a mess. I really thought it was going well. It was really reassuring and comforting that Kendall and Logan accept me for being bisexual. I felt happy and finally thought everything was gonna be alright. But then more confusion seemed to find it's way back to me.

-Flashback-

"Carlos..." I heard James say from the spot on the bed he was sitting on. I turned toward him and nodded waiting for him to finish the sentence. His eyes began tearing as he opened his mouth to continue. "I'm in love with you."

After his words sunk in I realized Logan making his way out of the house at running speed. In a flash Kendall ran after him yelling out, "Logan!" as he continued running. I heard the the front door close and silence filled the empty house.

I sat on the bed staring at the ground. I tried making sense of everything but a haze seemed to envelope my mind. I remembered that James was still sitting next to me, silently sniffling. I looked up at him and gazed directly into his eyes.

I took a few breathes and asked, "Is this tue? You...love me?" There was an intensity in my voice which was also mixed with curiosity and maybe even some fear.

"Yes, it's true," he answered. His eyes still watery with some tears escaping. "Ever since the day you came over when you told me about your dream...and everything else that happened. When you told me I was a good singer and was praising me, believing in me when i didn't... It felt like I could be myself around you without hiding anything."

I was speechless. James was my closest and best friend, I would never imagine us being anything more than friends. "James..." I started. I had no idea what to say next, it was all still overwhelming. "James I...I need to go. I'll see you later." I got off the bed composing myself and began walking out of the room.

"Carlos!" James yelled, running towards me. "Carlos, please don't hate me! I can't live with myself if I knew I did something to make you hate me!" His tears had picked up and were now dropping at a constant pace.

I turned and held James by the arms getting him to calm down. "James I don't hate you, I never could. I just need to be alone for a while. So please stop crying." His face seemed to cheer up a little but the sadness was still noticeable. I then turned around and left the house and made my way to my house.

-End Flashback-

I had spent the rest of yesterday afternoon trying to think things over. So far it hadn't gone very well. My parents suspected that something was wrong when I told them I wasn't in the mood to eat dinner. They began worrying and asking me if they needed to take me to the doctor.

I lied and told them I had a stomach ache, which led them to let me stay home from school today. It took some convincing to get my mom not to stay home from work, I really wanted to be alone for a while. After some reassuring, we settled upon her calling me frequently all day if I ever needed something.

Once she left I went to the living room and turned the television on. I knew I wouldn't be paying any attention to it, but I just needed something to break the silence. I mindlessly flipped through channel, my mind traveling in a bunch of different directions.

James...loving me? Why? I asked myself. Oh no. I shouldn't have told him about Logan. It would have saved him a lot of hurt...

Logan... My mind said. I haven't given him any thought in all of this. He's the one I'm in love with, not James. Not James...the handsome...loving...funny James. My mind drifted to thoughts of James, memories of him helping me and showing affection towards people. Then. I realized how easily I could love James too. I CAN feel the same way...but what about Logan? He has all the same traits. He's also smart, he has a good head, and he always worries about me. I argued. Though Logan doesn't feel the same.

With all these different viewpoints, I really don't know what to do. I've loved Logan, but I can love James. And James can feel the same, he does feel that way. As for Logan, he'd probably be disgusted if I ever told him. *Why did he rub out though? He's got to have a reason for doing so right after James admitted that.*

Suddenly my phone vibrated, I took it out of the pocket expecting it to be my mom calling. I was surprised to see it was a text from Logan. "Logan texting...during school! What's that about?" I said to myself. I opened the message and read it.

To Carlos:

Why aren't you at school today? Are u ok? I'm worried :(

I quickly punched in a reply.

To Logan:

Im ok. Just didn't feel like goin to school. R u ok? U left running...now Im worried.

I clicked send and waited for a reply.

To Carlos:

gtg. Bye.

"He avoided the question...Now I really need to know what's happening." I ordered myself. I felt my phone vibrate again, I picked it up and hoped it was Logan replying.

I found out it was a call from my mom. I answered and tried making my voice sound like I was really sick before saying anything. "Hi mom," I said in a weak voice.

"Hey mijo, are you ok? What are you doing?" she asked.

"Better," I lied. "And I'm watching...Barney on tv." I did a double take noticing that Barney and Friends had been on for the past half hour.

I heard her laugh on the other end of the phone and then say, "Haha, how mature of you. If you need anything call me at work, there's food in the fridge if you're ok to eat. Love you, I gotta go. Bye!"

"Bye mom." I said before hanging up. Talking about food had me hungry, and since I didn't eat dinner last night, I went into the kitchen and heated up four corndogs to make up for yesterday's lack of food. I momentarily forgot about all the trouble with James and Logan, and just settled on my corndogs and Barney. I have to admit, it's a decent show.

*A/N* Yeah its ooook. Poor Carlitos all confused. :( And the barney thing was so random and out there xD
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