OHYMYGOSH OHMYGOSH OHMYGOSH ITS THE LAST CHAPTERRR!

Oh and I CHANGED MY MIND about my next story! I have this idea for this sorta AU kinda Cargany, Logan angsty story, which is wierd for me cuz Im not a big fan of AU niether am I the biggest fan of Cargan, but I feel really good about this new story though. I think Im starting that one after I finish this story. Especailly because I used to be a big suspense writter, but ever since after I ended And Then There Were None Ive kinda lost touch with my suspensful roots lol. And even just the other day one of my subscribers ((The Girl In The Pink Shirt)) told me they miss my suspense pieces. So I think Im gunna start this new story next, and Im calling it "Indenial For a While"

Oh and one last thing before we start, you guys all remember Johnny, right? In the very first chapter, it mentions that the boys all had another best friend before Logan, who's name was Johnny, and he passed away in a house fire. A year later, they met Logan. If you only vaguely remember the events of the first chapter, I suggest you skim through it before reading this chapter cuz it all brings you back to the very beggining.

Anyway. LAST CHAPTER! LEGGOOO!

Chapter THIRTY! *takes place at age 16 .

This last night's previous events just flew by so quickly; It was all a blur to Kendall.

Flames errupted and spread rapidly throughout the house, the smell of fumes arising in the air. The blonde had been passed out in his bedroom after a long day of back breaking rehearsal with Gustavo. James, Carlos, and Katie were at the pool, and Ms Knight was lounging around in the lobby. Meanwhile, Logan sat in the living room watching tv, with forgotten mini pizza's in the oven. Slowly, Logan grew more tired and tired, and eventually his eyelids slipped closed. The mini pizzas were still in the oven.

The pinching sound of the buzzing fire alarm rang in Kendall's ears and he shot awake. Groggy, Kendall rubbed his eyes with his palm and was suddenly aware of what was happening. He immediatly shot out of his bed and ran straight into the door. The blonde topples over to the floor and shook his head. "Oh, you're closed." And then fiddling hands reached for the door knob, entering a smoke filled apartment.

Smoke fumed the air and clogged his lungs, causing him to hack a loogie. Half awake, Kendall cusses under his breath then gets down on his knees and scurries towards the fire extinguisher. The teenager repeatedly fiddles with it but it wont budge. It was empty. "Shit!" He exclaims, then rushes past all the smoke and flames to reach the phone. Quickly dialing 911, Kendall swears he hears something coming from the living room where most of the flames have spread to. And through the smoke, Kendall manages to see Logan, suffocated in dead air.

"911, please state your emergency."

"Logan!"

The phone hits the ground with a thud, and Kendall rushes to grab his wheezing best friend and carry him out of the apartment.

...

The hospital lobby was quiet, and rain poored the streets outside. The mood was tense. Kendall sat in the corner with his elbows resting on his knees, eyes glued to the ground. James sits across from him in the same position, but looking up at Kendall and tapping his foot nervously.

Ms Knight stood at the front desk, talking to the receptionist. It was pretty often that the boys were here, and it was clear as daylight that Ms Knight had the hots for the young male working at the reception desk. Although, the receptionsist did not feel the same way about Ms Knight and just wanted her to leave him alone. Kendall didnt think this was a very appropriate time for his mother to be flirting it up with a 29 year old, soon to be doctor hunk, while Logan was in a seriously fatal position.

Carlos enters the room, flipping his cell phone shut. Kendall finally takes his eyes off the ground. "What did Logan's father say?"

Carlos huffed, his hands falliing to his sides. "His dad just said, 'okay, well, good luck with everything.'"

When Kendall raised a brow, his shorter friend just shrugged and sat down. It wasnt like this was anything new, infact it was old news. Logan's father could give two shits less about his son. For god sakes, his son was just almost killed in a house fire and all you can say is "okay, well good luck"!

Raging with anger, pity, and guilt, Kendall could no longer take it. Red in the face, Kendall stormed off, leaving a confused Carlos and James behind.

Tears welling up in his eyes, Kendall paced down the halls of the hospital. He didnt know where he was or where he intended on going, nor did he care. As soon as he heard footsteps mocking him, he whipped around. Green eyes met hazel.

"James, I just want to be alone."

"Why are you freaking out so much? Logan is going to be just fine, calm down."

Kendall flailed his arms. "NO! He's not! Okay, even if he does survive, it still doesnt help the fact that he's got a neglecting father and a dead mother!"

James scrunched his face. "Huh?"

Kendall grew frustrated. "Dont you see!" He was exclaimed so loud that a nurse popped her head out of a room down the hall and shushed them. Kendall lowered his tone, but just grew louder again with every heartbeat. "Logan's life is a wreck! He doesnt have the love of a real family, his self esteem is practically non extistant, and he's bullied and harrased almost everyday!"

James' face fell. "Kendall, I think you need to just chill out.."

"No!" Kendall shoved James, and he hit the ground hard, with a thud. But James didnt fight back. He sat on the ground and allowed his flustered friend to continue.

Kendall walked back and forth in the tiny hallway, flailing his arms around as if he were constricted in a tiny cell. James stood up and he eventually continued. "Logan's life is hell. And we cant even do much about it. I feel like such a horrible friend."

James put a hand on Kendall's shoulder. "You're not a horrible friend. Infact you're the greatest friend I know. You're loyal, and friendly, and smart, and caring, and-"

"James, what if Logan doesnt survive? What if it was too late? What if we cant save him?"

"Now what makes you think that'll happen?"

Kendall fell silent for a second, and James neared a boil. "Kendall! You cant seriously think we cant save Logan! You cant seriously have that little confidence in the situation! You just said how you feel like a horrible friend, now you're acting like one! How could you possibly say that!"

Kendall kept his eyes glued to the ground. "Kendall!" James exclaimed.

"BECAUSE WE COULDNT SAVE JOHNNY!" The blonde boy finally exclaimed.

The hallway fell silent after that, no words to be spoken. Kendall flailed his arms and shook his head, tears now pouring down his face like a waterfall. James sat Kendall down on the floor and Kendall burried his head into his arms.

"Is that what this is all about?" James questioned.

Kendall said nothing. He just nodded.

"Kendall, look at me." James demanded. "Look at me." His tone grew more serious.

Kendall met eyes with James, sniffling and sobbing while James was close to tears as well. James put a hand on Kendall shoulder, and looked his straight int he eye. "Kendall, you are a great friend. And there was nothing we could have done about the Johnny situation. Now I know you miss him, and I miss him too, greatly. But the past is the past and he will always be in our hearts. I know we couldnt have been there in time to save Johnny and I know right now he's looking down on us and totally forgives us. But now we do have the oppurtunity to save Logan. You dont want to give up on him and have him end up like Johnny, now do you?"

Kendall bit his lip and shook his head. James went on. "Now us not being able to save Johnny was an unfortanate accident. But if you give up on Logan now, it wont be an accident. It will be considered being a bad friend."

The two boys fell silent and James was sure something had clicked in the leader's head. Seconds later, a nurse popped her head around the corner. "Are you James and Kendall?"

James nodded his head.

"You may see Logan now."

...

The last few days in L.A. had been rainy, and the boys were sick of being constricted inside. So they went for a walk. In the rain.

James and Carlos skipped marrily and in a child like way throughout the rain, making sure they hop into every puddle they see. And if they miss one, they must go back and hop in it. Ms Knight will not be happy when they come home, but they didnt care. For now, they were living freely.

Kendall walked ahead of them. Hands in his pockets and his forehead dripping wet, he enjoyed the semi emptiness of the streets of Los Angeles during rain storms.

"Hey Logan?"

Next to him, a severly-bandaged-but-still-stable-enough-to-walk Logan met eyes with the blonde. "Yeah?"

Kendall took a deep breath. Ever since Logan was released from the hospital, the boys hadnt really spoken much about the incident. I think everyone was sort of just afraid to speak of the situation, but Kendall finally grew the guts to confront it. "Am I a good friend?"

Logan stopped in his tracks. Kendall stopped with him. "What makes you say that, Kendall?"

"Just answer the question."

"Of course you are! I couldnt ask for anyone better!"

Kendall fell silent and Logan just raised a brow. James and Carlos still being obnoxious behind them, the two boys continued walking. After a minute or two, Kendall opened his mouth to say something, but then shut his mouth.

"What?" Logan asked.

"Nothing."

"Tell me!"

Kendall pursed his lips, then ran a hand through his hair. His tone grew serious and his voice lowered. "Do you remember the day that we all met you, Logan?"

The smart boy didnt even hesitate. "Of course I do, Kendall. We met in the hospital right after my mother died. I was crying..and you guys came over acting all goofy and made me smile. I remember Carlos was trying to stand on his head..and even at eight years old, James was obssesing over his hair..and you were trying to calm them both down." Logan smiled alittle at the memory. "What brings it up?"

Kendall sighed. "Logan, there's something we never told you. About..a friend we had. Before we met you."

Logan scrunched his face. "You guys had another best friend before me? Like a diffrent fourth member to the group?"

Tears welling up in his eyes, Kendall nodded. "His..his name was Johnny. It had been eight years since any of us had last spoke of him, but I still thought about him everyday. And it didnt help that everything you did reminded me of him. I mean, Johnny..he was just such..a lost character, you know? He didnt have the best family, he was so naive and would get picked on alot...but he was also very smart. Infact, the smartest of the group, top of the second grade. And he had that same...like, lost complexion in his eyes that you do."

Logan's face paled, the news just hitting him now. "Wow..what happened to Johnny?"

Kendall sighed, knowing that question was bound to come. "He uhm..passed away. In a house fire. A year before we met you."

Logan stopped walking. Thunder suddenly roared and lighting struck in the backround. It had finally hit Logan as to why Kendall was being so shallow about the recent accident.

"And, I guess that's why Ive always been so protective you. Well I mean that, and because of just who you are..and..you know.."

Logan nodded, and Kendall put an arm around his best friend. "You're like a little brother to me, you know that?"

Logan smirked, "Kendall. Im only three months younger than you."

Kendall smiled back, and the rain began to pour harder. James and Carlos caught up to them. "Ugh, you guys are all muddy." Kendall pointed to James and Carlos and how they were covered in mud.

Carlos smirked. "I know! GROUP HUG!"

The four boys now squeezed into a muddy wet, four way hug, Logan knew he couldnt have any better friends than these guys. They've been there for him for the last eight years, and they'll always be with him for the rest of his life.

The all pulled apart, and a spark went off in Logan's eyes. Kendalll shook his head.

"You okay Kendall?"

"Yeah..Im just..fine."

Kendall blinked, and the four boys all walked back to the Palm Woods. Now Kendall may been crazy, but he could have sworn that for a second, just a split second, that lost, hurt, scared look had dissapeared from his best friend's eyes.

*Crying* AHHHH! Its over! Did you guys like that, though? I thought it was a pretty good ending. Or maybe Im just concieded.

Anyway, Im pretty sure that's what I'll be doing for my next story, but who knows, I'll probably change my mind by tommorow anyway. Lol. Anyway, I love you guys, thank you so so so much for reading and please review! :)

I gotta go to bed now. I just pulled an all nighter and now Im exausted. Review please! I love you all! (: