"Kurt. Kurt." Kurt opened his eyes and blinked. Everywhere he looked, it was white. He blinked again and he was in a green field filled with colorful flowers. The sky was a clear, bright blue. He heard his name again, and the giggle of a baby. His heart began to race. He knew that giggle!
He whirled around, and saw Amanda behind him, holding Maddie on her hip.
"Amanda! Maddie!" He yelled, running toward them. "Amanda! Maddie!" Maddie giggled again and Amanda laughed, setting her down on the ground. Maddie reached for her father, and Kurt stretched out his arms. Just as he was about to scoop her into his arms, the field, the sky and his family all disappeared and Kurt was falling down into blackness.
"NOOOOO!!!" He screamed, his hand reaching out for the family he could no longer see.
"Kurt! Kurt, wake up!" Kurt sat straight up in bed, gasping and crying, the tears running down his face and soaking his downy fur. Kitty was sitting on the side of his bed, her white nightgown making her look like the angel Kurt always considered her to be.
"Kurt, are you all right?" She asked softly, reaching up and cupping his cheek. Kurt nodded, then thought about it and shook his head.
"Oh Kurt." Kitty said sadly, hugging her friend. Kurt hugged her too him tightly, his tears falling on her shoulder and dampening her nightgown. Kitty let him cry onto her shoulder, not even being able to imagine the pain he was going through. She had lost Lance, but still had her baby. Kurt had lost everything. His wife and daughter.
Kurt finally stopped crying and pulled back abruptly from Kitty. Kitty felt a pang of hurt, but understood. Kurt didn't like to share his feelings. He was used to suffering alone, and needed to do that for a while. After all, she could only help him heal if he wanted her to.
She got up to go, and Kurt stopped her with a furry hand on her arm.
"No Keety. Ztay vith me. Pleaze. Ztay vith me Katzchein. Pleaze. I. . . I need you right nov." Kurt pleaded. Kitty couldn't resist the look in his eyes. Hesitating only a moment, she slipped into Kurt's bed, wrapping her arms around his waist, and resting her forehead against his. Kurt reached back and snapped on the radio. Then they lay there in the dark, listening to music and comforting each other. 'Angel' by Sarah Mclachlan was playing.
*Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Oh, let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight*
"Thankz Katzchein. You're an angel." Kurt whispered sleepily. Kitty was surprised. This was the second time he has called her Katzchein. He hadn't called her that since she had started dating Lance. It had always been Kitty, or Kathrine. After she had married Lance and he had married Amanda, it had just been Kitty. She didn't realize how much she missed hearing his special nickname for her.
*In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there*
Kitty closed her eyes and snuggled closer to Kurt. She missed this too. Him holding her. The feeling of his warm silky fur on her face. The last time he had held her was at her wedding when he had danced with her for a few minutes, whispered, "You look beautiful Keety. A beautiful angel." kissed her forehead and handed her off to Lance. He had never held her like that again. The closest he had came to it was a arm around her shoulders when Tristen was born.
*So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees*
"We'll find Maddie Kurt. I promise. If it's the last thing I do, I swear to you that we will find your daughter." Kitty whispered, snuggling closer to Kurt. Kurt's arms tightened around her and he nuzzled her neck as he slept. Kitty smiled and tried to remember the last time they had lain like this. It would have been a month before she married Lance, when she'd had a nightmare. With his sensitive ears, he had heard her whimpers and cries and come right to her. He hadn't even hesitated, just climbed right up next to her and held her until her cries stopped and her sleep was peaceful.
*In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here*
Kitty smiled as she remembered, and heard Kurt whispering in his sleep. She listened close, but couldn't make out any more than the words 'Maddie', 'angel' and 'Katzchein'. Kitty smiled and tightened her hold on Kurt before falling asleep herself.
He whirled around, and saw Amanda behind him, holding Maddie on her hip.
"Amanda! Maddie!" He yelled, running toward them. "Amanda! Maddie!" Maddie giggled again and Amanda laughed, setting her down on the ground. Maddie reached for her father, and Kurt stretched out his arms. Just as he was about to scoop her into his arms, the field, the sky and his family all disappeared and Kurt was falling down into blackness.
"NOOOOO!!!" He screamed, his hand reaching out for the family he could no longer see.
"Kurt! Kurt, wake up!" Kurt sat straight up in bed, gasping and crying, the tears running down his face and soaking his downy fur. Kitty was sitting on the side of his bed, her white nightgown making her look like the angel Kurt always considered her to be.
"Kurt, are you all right?" She asked softly, reaching up and cupping his cheek. Kurt nodded, then thought about it and shook his head.
"Oh Kurt." Kitty said sadly, hugging her friend. Kurt hugged her too him tightly, his tears falling on her shoulder and dampening her nightgown. Kitty let him cry onto her shoulder, not even being able to imagine the pain he was going through. She had lost Lance, but still had her baby. Kurt had lost everything. His wife and daughter.
Kurt finally stopped crying and pulled back abruptly from Kitty. Kitty felt a pang of hurt, but understood. Kurt didn't like to share his feelings. He was used to suffering alone, and needed to do that for a while. After all, she could only help him heal if he wanted her to.
She got up to go, and Kurt stopped her with a furry hand on her arm.
"No Keety. Ztay vith me. Pleaze. Ztay vith me Katzchein. Pleaze. I. . . I need you right nov." Kurt pleaded. Kitty couldn't resist the look in his eyes. Hesitating only a moment, she slipped into Kurt's bed, wrapping her arms around his waist, and resting her forehead against his. Kurt reached back and snapped on the radio. Then they lay there in the dark, listening to music and comforting each other. 'Angel' by Sarah Mclachlan was playing.
*Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Oh, let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight*
"Thankz Katzchein. You're an angel." Kurt whispered sleepily. Kitty was surprised. This was the second time he has called her Katzchein. He hadn't called her that since she had started dating Lance. It had always been Kitty, or Kathrine. After she had married Lance and he had married Amanda, it had just been Kitty. She didn't realize how much she missed hearing his special nickname for her.
*In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there*
Kitty closed her eyes and snuggled closer to Kurt. She missed this too. Him holding her. The feeling of his warm silky fur on her face. The last time he had held her was at her wedding when he had danced with her for a few minutes, whispered, "You look beautiful Keety. A beautiful angel." kissed her forehead and handed her off to Lance. He had never held her like that again. The closest he had came to it was a arm around her shoulders when Tristen was born.
*So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees*
"We'll find Maddie Kurt. I promise. If it's the last thing I do, I swear to you that we will find your daughter." Kitty whispered, snuggling closer to Kurt. Kurt's arms tightened around her and he nuzzled her neck as he slept. Kitty smiled and tried to remember the last time they had lain like this. It would have been a month before she married Lance, when she'd had a nightmare. With his sensitive ears, he had heard her whimpers and cries and come right to her. He hadn't even hesitated, just climbed right up next to her and held her until her cries stopped and her sleep was peaceful.
*In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here*
Kitty smiled as she remembered, and heard Kurt whispering in his sleep. She listened close, but couldn't make out any more than the words 'Maddie', 'angel' and 'Katzchein'. Kitty smiled and tightened her hold on Kurt before falling asleep herself.