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Sorry about the long delay between updates. I've had a serious case of writers block and haven't had any inspiration to write. Hopefully I can overcome this fully and update regularly. Thanks for sticking with me =]

Chapter 8 - So Far Away

Last night was the best and worst night of my life. I married the man of my dreams but was defiled by the man of my past. My wedding went on for hours after the incident and I was grateful for the distraction. I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts. The memories of his violation of my body were something that my vampire mind would never allow me to forget. I had to move on, but was unsure how to. How can I move on with someone so angelic, kind and caring as Carlisle, now that I have been dirtied? Rosalie has hardly left my side since it happened and I am constantly reminded by how strong and supportive she is.

"You can do this, Bella. You're stronger than I ever was." Rosalie said, as she noticed my eyes on her.

"I just want to be able to forget. I want to get through this. I want to be good enough for Carlisle. I feel like I'm not worthy of him. I know it's stupid because I know how much he loves me, but I can't help but feel dirty."

"You won't ever forget what happened, but you just have to push it to the back of your mind and get on with your life. I think perhaps you and Carlisle should go away for a while. It might help you to clear your head. I will always be at the end of the phone. But I think a fresh start is what's best for you at the moment." I stood up from the settee that I was sat on and moved over to where she was standing.

"Thank you, Rosalie. I don't know what I would have done without you these past few hours." I pulled her into a hug. She awkwardly wrapped her arms around me.

"It's Rose to my family, Sister." I pulled back and saw the smile on her face. I hugged her again before running off to find Carlisle. I stood in the door way to his study and watched him with his head in his hands looking completely helpless. I moved over to him and stood behind him before I wrapped my arms around him. He leaned back into his chair and pulled me down into his lap.

"This isn't right." I shrank away from him and tried to stand up. I knew it was too good to be true. How could he want me after I was tainted so badly? He pulled me back down into his lap. "That's not what I meant, Bella. It is I that should be comforting you not the other way around."

"I want to leave Forks. Rose suggested that you and I leave for a while." He seemed to mull this over for a second before saying,

"Have you any thoughts of where you want to go?"

"Somewhere without lots of people." He sat silent but it didn't take him long to think of a destination.

"I know just the place. Go and pack your things. I'll get the tickets. We'll leave as soon as we can." I raced to my room and pulled my suitcase into the walk in closet. I picked out a whole range of things as I didn't know where we were going. I changed out of my dress and put on a pair of jeans, a black tank top and my converse. I carried my suitcase downstairs and waited at the door for Carlisle. Emmett, Rosalie, Alice and Jasper slowly filed into the room.

"Do you know where you're going?" asked Emmett, a sad look on his face, probably wanting to come along.

"No idea, Carlisle just said to pack and I have done. I just want to get out of here."

"Well just know that we'll miss you, and can't wait for you to come back." said Alice. I smiled and pulled them all in for a group hug.

"Are you ready?" I heard Carlisle say from the outside of our huddle. My family released me and I nod my head at my husband.

"I'll see you guys." I say as Carlisle takes my hand and leads me outside to his Mercedes. He puts the bags in the boot as I climb in the car. He joins me and starts the car, waving as we drive off into the night.

"So where are we going?" I asked.

"It was supposed to be a present, a honeymoon for us but I think it's more of a retreat for us now. Somewhere that we can just disappear to for awhile.

"Where is it?"

"Isola Bella, an island in The Bahamas. It means beautiful island. I thought a beautiful woman needs a beautiful island." I couldn't help but smile at his compliment.

"It sounds perfect. I can't wait to get there."

Sorry, this chapter was a bit of a filler. The next one will be when they arrive on the island.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter XD