Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

"Davis is your ass skulking in my room again," her blonde haired blue-eyed best friend joked as he came through his side door and put his basketball on the floor.

Brooke leaned up on her arms and glared at her friend. "Scott were you playing basketball…AGAIN," she said and mocked his tone.

Lucas leaned over her frame on the bed and trapped her between his arms. "Don't you know it. And I know you love it," he said as he kissed her cheek and stood up. She hated when he got that close to her. It made her so nervous. Sometimes she wished he would actually kiss her instead of a quick peck or a kiss on the cheek. She watched as he pulled off his shirt and told her he'd be back. She didn't say anything for fear that her voice would give her away. She wanted him so badly, but like everything else in her life—she knew you didn't get everything you wanted.

Brooke Davis had it all or so it seemed. She had a great family, great friends and a job that paid the bills. She was extremely close with both of her parents and rarely had fights with her siblings. Her parents had described her as an unruly child but as she aged she changed. She had a heart of gold and was willing to help anyone that she could. This was something that became quite obvious when her parents lost their jobs. The economy wasn't in great shape and her family was having a hard time getting work and paying the bills. Brooke did not always enjoy her job, but quickly learned how to grin and bear it for the sake of helping her family. At twenty years old her life wasn't exactly going as planned, but she always found a way to see the positive things in life.

Her sister Rachel was her best friend in the whole world. She wasn't living at home but they were in constant contact. They spent a lot of time together on the weekends and they shared everything. When one of them was having a bad day they were there to cheer the other up, they shared all of their secrets and all of their disappointments with one another. Brooke was not as close with her brother Nick, but she loved him just as much. Her parents Karen and Keith were just amazing. They were supportive, hard working, laid-back and sometimes a little soft. Brooke loved them so much, but sometimes she got irritated because they overlooked things or tried to brush away problems. She knew they were just being the best parents that they could but sometimes they could be blind to things they didn't want to see.

Brooke didn't really care for her job at an insurance company, but it paid the bills and gave her the money she needed. She had gotten the job a few years back and hadn't intended on staying long, but when the economy sank she was the only one living at home who had kept her job. Her father was let go after twenty-two years when his company went under and her mother was only able to find part time work that paid her very little for the amount of hard work she did. Her brother had lost his job and was living back at home as well. Both he and her father had been able to get side jobs but paying the bills was still a struggle. That's where Brooke stepped up because she could never watch her family go down without knowing that she had fought to help.

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

Brooke didn't have many friends but when she wasn't working or with her family chances are you would find her with her best friend Lucas. Their parents had known eachother and they had met when they were eight years old. They were the same age, spent many nights together at sleepovers and knew all of eachothers secrets. Okay well maybe not all because Brooke had been in love with Lucas since she was thirteen years old but he had never saw her as anything more than a sister. She had tried other relationships but she could never bring herself to fully commit to anyone when her heart unknowingly belonged to Lucas. Brooke's other best friend was his brother Nathan. She hadn't seen him much over the past two years as he went away to school but they talked just about every day. She actually shared more of her secrets with Nathan than she did with Lucas but he didn't know that.

He on the other hand never had a problem being in relationships. He had only been in two relationships and the thing that irritated Brooke the most was that she genuinely liked both girls. They never felt threatened that after Lucas had left them from a date that he would go home and share a bed with Brooke. His relationship with Peyton had only lasted for his junior year in high school. Both had parted ways because they realized that apart from having the same tastes they really weren't compatible. For the beginning of senior year they would occasionally meet up for a quick 'friends with benefits' session. Lucas said he needed to get off to help his game and Peyton said she didn't mind the occasional sex sessions to take her mind off her home life. They stopped doing that after Peyton had a pregnancy scare because they agreed that they didn't want to have a baby when they didn't have feelings for eachother. About two months later she started to hang out with Luke's best friend Jake and they have been together since. She actually became really good friends with Peyton and they spent a good amount of time together. Peyton figured out Brooke liked Lucas and encouraged her to let him know.

At the end of senior year Brooke had finally got the guts to admit to Luke that she had feelings for him. She had set up this whole night that he knew nothing about. She was going to admit her feelings to him, ask him to be in a relationship with her and give herself to a boy finally. But her plans got a bit messed up when she went over only to walk in on Lucas in the middle of the deed with Lindsey. He had met her at a party and clicked. Lucas ranted and raved about her and he had asked Lindsey to be with him the night Brooke was going to confess her feelings. He never knew that she was even there and Brooke never told him what she truly felt or saw for that matter. Brooke had left Lucas's house and went home and cried for hours until Peyton came by. She had cheered Brooke up and stayed the whole night talking about anything and every thing. That was actually the first time that Brooke had confided in anyone other than Nathan or Luke and let alone another girl. She knew that girls were catty and often used your secrets against you so she had few friends of the same sex.

Brooke and Lucas were real close but they never really discussed their sex lives. Brooke knew that Lucas had slept with a few girls because, well Peyton told her they did and she had caught him with Lindsey. Lucas would joke about it because he didn't always like Brooke's boyfriends but he didn't know for sure. Once she thought that Lucas was jealous because he would always start fights with Felix but that thought went away quickly. For a while Brooke and Lucas had drifted apart but when she ended things with Felix they became close again. Well to be honest their friendship seemed different a bit after that. Lucas hasn't been as open with her in the past few months since she ended things with Felix but she put it down to him being hurt that she had confided in another guy more than him.

"What's on your mind," Lucas asked as he came in all clean from his shower. He layed down on the bed beside her and pulled her close. "It's Friday night and you are here so is there a reason you aren't at home?"

"I…I had an argument with my parents. There's some stuff going on and I just don't feel like being there," she said as she ran her fingertips over his heart.

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

"Stay here as long as you want," he said and kissed the top of her head. Lucas knew better than to push Brooke to talk. He knew she would open up to him when she was ready. "Oh I got something to cheer you up. Since Lindsey is out of town this weekend I'll be around all weekend if you want to stay and," he trailed off knowing she would ask.

She lifted her head from his chest and gazed at him. She could see the excitement behind his eyes and it intrigued her. "What," she asked as he smiled and ran his hands over her dimples.

"You look real pretty when really smile you know that," he said and she noticed a glint in his eyes that she never noticed before. It made her blush and she put her head down and mumbled a thanks. "But yeah…my brother is coming home," he said and noticed when her head popped up and her smile returned.

"Nathan," she asked and squealed when he nodded. "Oh my God I'm so excited. I've missed my Nathan so much. How long is he back for? Is he just home for the weekend or longer?" She was asking a million questions and had been so excited that she didn't notice that she had straddled Lucas's lap.

Lucas was a little taken aback by how touchy feely Brooke was being. They were always touching but it had always been innocent. For some reason today her touches were feeling different than they had prior and they didn't seem as innocent to him. And it bothered him a little at how much she was excited to see his brother—but he would never admit that out loud. He ran his hands over her thighs and laughed. "Wow you must be excited. You are never that happy to see me. That hurts Davis," he said as he placed his hand over his heart and smirked.

She placed her hands over his that were resting on her thighs and leaned over real close to his face. "That's because I see you all the time. And besides," she said as she jumped off the bed. "Nathan and I are secretly in love," she joked. "I see you every day so I don't ever have time to miss you," she laughed.

Lucas laughed at that. He knew that his brother and his best friend constantly flirted but it wasn't anything more than that. They hadn't seen eachother in about two years and he knew that she would be excited. "Please Davis everyone knows the only Scott you are in love with is me," Lucas joked and noticed when Brooke stopped laughing and tensed. "Just a joke Penelope. No need to get all upset and go all girly on me."

Brooke got a little fidgety, she didn't like when people joked about that especially Lucas. "I know, it's cool," she said as she grabbed her purse. "You know I should probably go home because my parents.."

Lucas jumped off the bed and stopped her before she got to the door. He grabbed her wrist and spun her around. He didn't mean for her body to be as close as it was so he took a step back. What the hell was wrong with him? This was his best friend he had to stop being so weird. "Sorry I pissed you off. I know you don't want to go home AND…" he said as he pulled her towards his gym bag. "I stopped at the movie store and grabbed your favorite film," he said and held up a copy of A Walk To Remember.

She smiled up at him and grabbed the DVD from his hand. "How did you even know I was going to come over," she asked as she sat back down on the bed and tossed the movie to him.

He smirked over his shoulder at her. "I didn't. I just figured if you didn't I would have gone to your place."

"Oh so I'm cool enough to hang out with when the girlfriend is out of town. I get how it is," she laughed as she kicked off her jeans and threw on a pair of his sweats.

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

He walked over and brushed her hair out of her face. "You're good enough even when she is here," he said and kissed her on the lips. He pulled back after a second because it really wasn't appropriate to be kissing her like that. Okay screw that. He pulled back because if he didn't he probably would have kissed her more and he wasn't about to ruin his friendship with her and kiss her when she thought of him as a brother. And he had a girlfriend—a girlfriend that was away and that he was in love with. And the way she was looking at him right now made him feel guilty—like he just made his best friend uncomfortable. He didn't want that because he knew she was uncomfortable with everything else in her life.

"Well, well, well. I always knew I would come home and find you two in bed," Nathan said from the doorway at a sleeping Brooke and groggy Lucas.

Lucas was kind of disoriented. He woke up when he heard the door close downstairs but he didn't want to move. He and Brooke were wrapped up together and he was warm so he closed his eyes. That was until his brother rudely barged into his room at 3 am. "What the hell Nate," Luke said as he squinted towards Nathan and the light blasting in his room from the hallway. He felt Brooke shift closer into him and bury her face more into his neck. He tightened his grip a little on her as he pulled her a little closer.

"Wasn't sure if you were home or at the girlfriends," Nathan chuckled.

"Nah, Lindsey is out of town so Brooke and I hung out and we crashed," he said with his voice still a little croaky from waking up. He looked down towards Brooke and then back at his brother. "Your biggest fan is so excited to see you though," he said with a smirk.

Nathan walked into the room and learned over Luke's bed. He placed a kiss on her forehead. "I'm glad to see her too."

Lucas noticed the way Nathan was so gentle with Brooke. It was as if his brother knew something that he didn't and it made him almost a little jealous. Nathan had always been the favorite child and it irritated Lucas because his friends all liked his brother more, his girlfriends gushed when they met him and the only thing that he had more than his brother was his best friend. He knew Nathan was coming home for a while and he didn't want to lose Brooke to Nathan.

"Well I am beat, the ride here was so long. I'm going to crash. See ya in the morning," Nathan said as he walked from the room into the hallway and shut the door behind him.

"Yeah see ya," Lucas whispered into the dark room.

He felt Brooke shift more. Something was bothering her and he didn't know what. He knew Brooke well enough to know that she was only restless in her sleep when something was heavy on her mind. He knew she would eventually come to him with whatever it was but he didn't like that she was trying to get through it on her own. He felt her lit her head slightly and saw her eyes in the dark room.

"Stop being Broody. Sleep," she said with her voice extra raspy and he smiled as she layed her head back on his pillow.

"Yes boss," he said and closed his eyes. The last thing he heard was her mumbling 'I love you," and he mumbled it back before he gave into the sleep that he so desperately needed.

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

Okay so this is a new story I have had on the brain so I figured I'd post. I'd love to know what you guys think of it so far—love it, hate it? Wanna stick around for a second chapter? If the story seems to have a good amount of readers I'll continue—so leave me some reviews! Thanks and I hope you enjoy!