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Chapter 9

"Have you ever thought about motherhood, maybe getting pregnant?"

"Honestly it was something I was hoping to avoid, I don't think I'd be well suited to be someone who has to dedicate herself to the nurturing of another life, I'm the youngest in the family after all and I don't think that's really prepared me to take on the responsibilities of raising another life, not even a pet. Why are you asking, we're both women so we can't conceive a child."

"Oh that's not true, wonderful thing about being supernatural is that pregnancy can't happen accidentally, we don't get pregnant unless we both want to. And it's not like we're limited to men and women like humans are, two women could easily produce a child since we're already equipped for it, it's just a simple matter of taking one of our eggs, transforming it into a sperm and teleport it into the host uterus."

"Hmm, with that kind power I'm surprised there are any men in heaven."

"Men aren't so bad; some of my best friends are men, and it's not just limited to women either, men could do it too."

"How?"

"A common practice is to use an external womb, an artificial device that you mortals should be able to develop in a few decades. Of course there's always a little creative surgery, hey maybe that's what Keiichi and Belldandy have been up to."

"Oh gods no, please no more disgusting mental images! Why did you even bring this up anyway, you're not planning on impregnating me are you?!"

"Maybe, I mean I don't know about you but I think I can be a bit maternal some times, and my mother does sometimes bring up the idea of grandkids."

"Well why the heck do I have to be the one to carry the child, why don't you do it if you want it so bad, you've got a womb too!"

"Okay think about it this way, if one of us does get pregnant would you rather it be you or me? Keep in mind I have superhuman strength, an already short temper and wield enough power to potentially destroy this solar system. If you get pregnant remember I, and maybe even my mother, will wait on you hand and foot, rubbing your swollen feet and seeing to your every need, whim and desire."

"You already do that anyway."

"True, but think about the long term, we could have a son or daughter of our very own, and I'm sure Keiichi and Belldandy's future child will appreciate a sibling to play with, plus we'd have a little bundle of joy ourselves, someone to raise and love as our own, someone who'll take care of us when we're old and grey."

"That's your job remember, you're the immortal one not me."

It was quiet now, awkward considering we had such a lovely night, I honestly never took Urd to be the maternal type either, was it because she had a pair of younger sisters? Pregnancy was never my thing; I never had a serious relationship before now so the idea of parenthood wasn't really a notion I had before. I'm a little embarrassed to admit it but I'm still technically a virgin, my past boyfriends and I fooled around a bit, but never anything involving penetration, and I thought being a lesbian would make the chances of that even less likely, I've never been comfortable with the idea of something penetrating my body, could my attraction to women be based on something so superficial?

"I'm not sure motherhood is for me, I don't think I could ever be the nurturing type, I've barely been able to take care of myself let alone taking care of someone else. Why did you bring this up anyway?"

"I don't know, maybe deep down my goddess side yearns to care and nurture for those weaker than me."

"So, you're saying deep down all goddesses want to be mothers?"

"Not necessarily, I just said my goddess side has the urge to nurture and protect those that are weaker than me, it's part of our nature I guess; but that doesn't mean we're all programmed to be domestic goddesses like Belldandy, Peorth is similar even though she's more motivated by her own ambitions to climb the career ladder, but she's still a got nurturing soul, when she manages the system or grants wishes she's still doing something for someone else, protecting and caring for another's life."

"I don't know, I know I don't this world very well and I've only known you and Peorth for a short time, but you guys just seem like people to me, there doesn't seem to be anything especially compassionate about you. I mean if goddesses are all nurturing what does that mean for demons, aren't they capable of being nurturing as well, isn't your mother capable of being maternal."

"Of course, she is, I never said demons weren't capable of love, but they're not pure or nurturing, you always have to be on your guard with them, they're always planning or plotting to advances themselves or their goals and don't care about anyone except themselves."

"How would you know? Okay so maybe you've had some bad dealings with demons in the past, but how could you know if they're really capable of being compassionate or nurturing?"

Urd didn't say anything, she stayed quiet for a little while, her embrace had grown a little cold and distant as she seemed to contemplate what I said. I couldn't exactly tell this since she always embraced me from behind, not to say feeling her breasts against my back wasn't a pleasant experience but I can't help but think she's always hiding something from me.

"I do it because I want to stay in control, not because I don't want to look into your eyes."

"It's incredibly rude to read minds without permission, and that explanation just sounds incredibly petty, you have to 'control' me even when we're just cuddling in bed? That's both incredibly insecure and creepy."

"I can still look in your eyes if you turn your head, I can touch you and feel you and you can feel me but you can't really touch me back."

"Why all these games, why does everything have to be a silly, pointless game with you?"

She was silent for a moment, not that I didn't expect she wouldn't come up with some quick-witted lie or comeback in an instant, it seemed more like she was really struggling to take that step. It seemed like she either didn't prepare for this or the moment just caught off guard even if she did; we've been lovers for so long now I can tell just by feeling her body against mine, I knew her biology well enough now that on the inside she didn't work like me, but I could still feel her body tense up and the usual warmth radiating from her bosom seemed to chill ever so slightly.

"It's not really proper for you to go beyond your place like that."

"Proper? Beyond my place? What the hell is that supposed to me?! I'm your girlfriend, your lover, I share your bed because I love you and I expected to be treated like it, not like some kind of pet!"

Urd just stayed silent, like she was embarrassed, I actually did hope she was.

"What is this? Is this your mother or just you? I know Belldandy never treated Keiichi this way, at least not as far as I could tell."

"Please don't be like this; it's already going to be hard enough for us to be together as is, what do you think people are going to say? What do you think my parents are going to think?"

"Your parents? When has that kind of stuff ever mattered to you? Is this why last night was the first time I've ever been able to go down on you? Were you trying to impress your mother with your technique?"

"You know that's not what I meant."

"Well what did you mean? How does you spooning me have anything to do with your parents?"

"You have to remember who I am, what I am; you're a human so you wouldn't understand, there's nothing really similar to what I'm talking about, at least not in the culture you come from."

"That's a weirdly insecure and practical way of going about it, I got the impression from Belldandy that goddesses are a lot more romantic."

"Belldandy is the exception, believe me; status and insecurity are just as common in my world as they are in yours."

A brief moment passed, it was strange, every night we held each other in a lover's embrace, now she didn't want to touch, not even stroke my hair. It's strange I had gotten so used to it that I forgotten what its absence feels like.

"It's not exactly fun to realize one day life has passed you by, that you ignored the opportunities offered to make something of yourself."

Those words hit me quite hard, and my image of Urd as confident and always in control and never submitted to anyone else's rules. I guess she's more 'human' than she'd ever let on.

"The years since Belldandy and Keiichi eloped haven't been kind to me, there was no reason to stay on earth anymore so I returned to my job and residence in heaven. But when I returned to my old job and old ways, I found office politics and gossip to be quite rife when there wasn't an emergency."

"I didn't think you were the type to be brought down by idle gossip."

"It wasn't just the gossip, it's a lot of realizations caving in and burying you." Urd's mood changed as her heart became heavier. "I never took my duties all that seriously, I mean I did my best when there was an emergency, but when it came to regular duties, I avoided them any chance I could. I was always an adventurer since I was little, but looking back I think that was just my way of rebelling, of spiting my parents; but now I see how foolish and lazy it was. There's so much I want to do with my life, and yet I wasted my best years playing the lay-about big sister, I can use Bell or Skuld as an excuse anymore."

"So marriage and children are what you want for your future?" I was little put off I had to say, did Urd just stick around because she thought I'd be her lesbian housewife? My parents didn't bring me up to just have someone dump their kids on me so they could keep their carefree lives.

"Now I didn't say anything about children, but I wouldn't mind settling down in some kind stable relationship."

"We need to start having a talk sometime about appropriate mind reading."

Little slut. What does she see in her? Not her body, I would know, I wore her for a little while and I can tell you she's inferior to mine in every possible way.

And yet here she is, taking what's mine, my bronze lady, my sweet Urd.

We were meant to be, we were lovers, we were destined to be so much more. If she weren't forced to be a goddess, it would be me there she'd be sharing her most intimate thoughts with and not that little whore.

I've made a list of all the things she's afraid of and all the things she finds sexual pleasure in; how many places could I stick needles in her, how many bondage positions I can keep her in while I do it, how many ways I could use spells to burn and electrocute her most sensitive parts, pulling her hairs out one by one until she's bald. Every torment I'm thinking of is relatively light, I know this girl well enough to know she's not used to pain and she'd break under the slightest pressure. For all my cruelty I'm not a monster, after all I'd let the girl live and my punishment wouldn't be crippling or life threatening, just very painful.

She's little more than a dog compared to me, and yet Urd still loves her, I suppose that means I'll have to eventually. Don't get me wrong, I'm a little upset, but I'm not bloodthirsty, I know how fragile her body is, I once wore it for a little while, so I don't intend to hurt her any more than I have to. I don't want her dead just for Urd to also realize that she has to be put in her place, its not that there's no place for her in Urd's life, she just needs to be put in the proper one.

Hild-sama allowed me to stay here, I'm not the fool she thinks I am, I know that her claims of being a loving mother to me are only half truths; I'm just a way for her to get to Urd. That still doesn't change a lot of the good things she's done for me, my career and my powers and my achievements I owe largely to her: she took me under her wing and mentored me, much like Hagal I was brought into an inner circle that some of the most powerful people among demonkind don't ever come close to, I was always hers, always her right hand, and always Urd's.

Hild-sama has promised I'd get what I want, but only if I promise not to hurt the little bitch until she says so, she never tells me what she's planning until the moment comes, but that's no matter to me. I know Hild-sama will reward, she'll keep her word, she may be hard on me sometimes but she loves me and cares for me.

Mara, Mara, her name sounds so familiar even though I've never met her before she seems familiar to me. But like the rest of Urd's friends and relatives she's very pretty, but she's always angry, especially at me. She really seems to be holding a grudge against me but I don't know what I could've done to piss her off so much. She and Urd's mother seem very close to each other, I've heard her refer to her as Hild-sama or Queen Hild with genuine reverence, I wonder if she's Hild's servant, does that mean she's Urd's servant?

"Urd who is this Mara?"

"Why would you want to know that?"

"Well I think I have a right to know why this woman I barely know keeps looking at me like I'm her worst enemy even though I don't think we've ever met. Also, the deed to this place is in my brother's name so I can kick your relatives out if I wanted to."

'You could try but they wouldn't make it easy.' Urd thought. "Mara is a very old friend of mine, all the way back to being little kids, she and I were very close, to the point in where we even had what you could call a romantic relationship. But unfortunately, life got in the way, even though I was raised in heaven with my sisters I still had a choice to be demon or goddess, and when I chose goddess it meant that our love would remain requited."

"Oh, I see, are you two still close?"

"Of course, we're still very close friends, she's one of the oldest friends I've ever had, and even when she was assigned to harass Belldandy we still were generally on good terms. We'd go out drinking and have fun, and even when there was a something big happening, it was mainly theatrical."

"Theatrical how?"

"Remember your second year there was that huge castle in the campus?"

"I thought that thing was some kind of balloon, you're seriously telling me she can summon an entire real castle out of thin air like that?!"

"Well yeah, she has a first-class license just like Belldandy."

"Belldandy could do that too?!"

"If she wanted to but she wouldn't, you know what Belldandy's like, she's the living embodiment of kindness, she wouldn't do something like that unless it was to help someone."

I know at this point this might seem like me overreacting, but to really find out that Urd's people had powers that went beyond just flying or throwing lightning bolts, and on such a scale, was disturbing me; what exactly could they not do if they mood took them?

"Haven't we all gone all through this before?"

"Yeah, but you didn't go into so much detail, aside from saying you could destroy a planet, but I figured you were just exaggerating a little."

"Well anything's possible, but we don't really the right to use them all outside of business, and even then, we don't really have unlimited power or anything."

"Yeah, you told me about that licensing system. It grants you power, right?"

"Well yes and no, I mean it gives us the right to draw power from the Yggdrasil system, but all of us have our own power, if I were to be cut off, I'd still have enough power in me to get by."

"What exactly stops you from hurting people or something like that?"

"Both sides have their rules and regulations, but mortals aren't really considered that seriously, technically by our standards your considered animals that can be turned into property, and the law is pretty flexible with what you can do to a mortal."

"What if you're not around or what if you can't stop them?!"

Urd was weighing up her options carefully, took a breath before uttering her next words.

"Even if I'm too late, even if I can't do anything at the time, I promise I'll spend the rest of my life making them sorry."

"You mean you'll kill them?!"

"No, we have much stricter rules about that kind of thing, but my mother is the queen of hell, don't think that doesn't count for something."

'It doesn't if she's the one after me.'

Just one moment, one moment when Urd's distracted, one moment when Hild-sama isn't looking, just enough to work a quick spell, a little air bubble in her brain and it'll all look like a freak accident.

These little dolls with their little pumps and channels break so easy, it's almost not fair to compare them to us. She thinks what she does with Urd is making love, it's more like a baby playing at it. I remember how we used to make love: in the air, on the ground, bathed in molten lava. The only use a little doll like her would've been to us is if neither of us wanted to play submissive, Urd would always be the playful one and always stop me from breaking her playthings, I was always too rough with mortals.

Hild-sama will understand, Urd will come to her senses and apologize for letting this dog get between us. I'll be seeing you very soon little Megumi.

What is that? Is that paint? A weird smudgy sensation is coming from the inner side of my right hand, I awoke to see Urd testing out different shades of her lipsticks on my skin: red, pink, blue, lime.

"What are you doing? I thought you didn't use cosmetics."

"I don't, I'm just seeing what looks good with your skin tone."

"Well that's very nice but I don't use lipstick either."

"It won't be going on 'your' lips."

"You lost me."

"I like the idea of leaving my mark on lovers: bite marks, body painting, I've even branded a few submissives if their bodies could take it."

"So you're going to brand me?"

"No, I wouldn't do that, unless you really piss me off. I like to use my mouth a lot, so how about next time we make love I'll cover your body with little lip shaped butterflies."

"I'd like that, although it still falls into that creepy domination territory your mind seems to keep going into."

"And its talk like that makes this necessary, you're my girl now so that means you should remember that."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"How about we play a game, I have my own special brand of lipstick, it's been infused my personal brand of magic. We'll make love, I'll cover your entire body with kisses but you're not allowed to wash them off, spend the next day with them still on your skin and the sensations I gave you will never go away."

"As fun as that sounds I don't think I want to end up fumbling around at the local supermarket, there might be children present."

"Oh, you're no fun!"

"Hey, we've done lots of stuff that's fun."

"Within the limits of what you're willing to accept."

"That's kind of the point of a relationship, if we went with every idea that you came up with, I'd be dead or crippled or maimed."

"Like when?"

"Well for a start I'm pretty sure if our love making lasted as long as you wanted, I think you'd end up pulverizing my pelvis."

"What can I say, I've lived a rich full life and it takes a lot to get me off."

"Why can't we just do something I enjoy that doesn't involve the words 'death defying'?"

"I could invite some friends over, we could take turns making you cum, the one who gets the most intense orgasm wins."

"You'd really do that?"

"Of course, we could do that all the time if you want, polyamory is very common where I come from."

"So, if we actually tie the knot?"

"You can have every kind of lover, every kind of flavour, every kind of fetish. Believe me I know how boring just having one lover can be, passion is good and all but without some variety even love can get stale."

"Are you really telling the truth or are you just fucking with me?"

"I would never lie when it comes to fucking you."

"You'd share me others?"

"I wouldn't be sharing anything, you think I'm blind, I know how you look at my sisters and the other goddesses you've met, hell I could even see how you look at my mother. Wanting multiple partners isn't something to be ashamed of and I'm not offended, I'm actually happy we share so much in common."

"You mean you're not jealous?"

"Your happiness is more important to me than my ego."

"You're not allowed to hurt that, ever, not without my direct permission, is that understood?"

"Yes Hild-sama."

How can she not understand, how can she allow that dog to slobber all over her?

"I understand your pain, I understand your anger, but if you touch a hair on that girl's head, I'll do something to you much worse than anything I have done before, do you understand?"

How could she do anything worse than what she's doing now?

"I love you, I always will, no matter what you're very much like a daughter to me, so what I am asking you isn't for your obedience it's for your trust."

"Yes Hild-sama."

"Now if you want to help and you want make me happy, I have a new job that I think you would enjoy. If I'm to accept this mortal into my life and the life of my daughter I think I should get to know her."

Parents are a funny thing, when you're young they're your entire world, now I'm not sure I want to ever see my parents again. Hokkaido isn't the most liberal place in Japan, and while my parents are understanding and open, it was only to an extent. My relationship with Urd has been the most fulfilled I have felt in my entire life, I wouldn't trade it for the world, but if my parents find out I'm a lesbian they'd probably end up disowning me.

What will I say to them when I see them again, I can't very well not see them for the rest of my life, I still love them, but I know, I just know if ever we reach the point where I have to face them and tell them about my relationship with Urd, it'll end badly.

How long till graduation, how long till the next letter, how long until I have to come face to face with my mother and father screaming in my face and disowning me.

I lay in my futon with Urd's body providing a supernaturally comforting warmth, she's so comforting it just makes me want to lose myself in her. She's got a perverted mind, things like bondage and extended sexual torture and stuff like that, I always thought those things existed only in hentai mags in the minds of perverts. But to do this with someone like her, not just emotionally fulfilling but, a woman who knows more about lovemaking than anyone else on this planet.

Except maybe Peorth, or her mother. Urd's mother is easily the most frightening person I've ever met, but at the same time, the first time she introduced herself to me, even if it was just tickling my foot, just the way she did it and the way her fingers felt, it seriously turned me on.

Oh goddess, what the hell am I thinking?! Am I seriously thinking of having a threeway with Urd and her mother?! I need to get these perverted thoughts out of my head!

"Urd, are you awake?"

"What, you want me go down on you again?"

"Not this time, how about we do things your way for a change."

"What way?"

"Well, kinky stuff, like tying me up and tickling me like you like to do. Gently though."

"Ohh? What's this, I thought you weren't comfortable with me being 'dominant'."

"Well, this stuff, it's nice, a nice kind of domination, and I get a safe word too."

"A safe word? In that case, no, I don't believe in safe words, my subs don't have a right to a safe word, you experience me in my full glory or you don't experience me at all!"

"That's a little egotistical isn't it?"

"Isn't that why you love me?"

"You'd think someone who calls herself the 'goddess of love' would have more respect for her partner's boundaries."

"I'm really sick of having these conversations with you, you know that right?"

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"How many times have we had a sweet moment and then start in the criticism!?"

"Hey, some of the stuff you talk about really bothers me ok, I don't like all this talk about domination and hierarchy and being your doll or pet or whatever. That's not how a relationship should work, it's backwards and it just means you can abuse me."

"Abuse you?! I've done nothing but shower you with love and affection from the moment I entered into this contract, against my will might I add. Do I have to remind you I'm technically your slave, I can't leave this relationship no matter how much I want to, and quite honestly every time we have a conversation like this you really, really make me want to."

"I'm sorry, it's just something that makes me uncomfortable."

"You know what I'm not in the mood anymore, Peorth is still squatting around somewhere around here, why don't you go play your self-righteous little games with her. I need some fresh air."

Urd dissolved into the floor with a pouty look on her face, part of me was relieved not having to deal with the horny octopus. This was going to be my first night alone for the first time in months; it's strange to actually be alone for a change. Though now I kinda miss my borderline psychotic, domineering tickle monster; goddess why can't I ever make up my mind, beautiful women with supernatural powers are like some kind of beautiful supernatural drug.

What the hell is wrong with me, I used to be comfortable-ish being alone, wait no I wasn't. I wonder what happened to me, I remember when I first to Nekomi I was popular, I even had a fan club, but now? When the hell did I become such a clingy, dependent little whiner.

Snuggling up to Peorth does sound like a nice idea though, she may even let me. God I'm so pathetic.

Who knew relationships could be so complicated, then again, I burn through partners like nobody's business, so I guess I don't stay long enough to get involved in the drama; it must be why I'm attracted to jerks like Troubadour? Never any real potential for a long-term relationship, never any real chance to get attached, and thus never having to deal with anyone's drama.

No wonder I never got a 1st class license, I'd be absolutely terrible as a goddess, Belldandy is so much better suited for this job than I am.

Its nice out here, I forgot how quiet this place could be at night. It's a little cold out, but that doesn't bother me; it's a beautiful night out, the moon is full and bright, it makes me think of the past when this house was full of noise and activity. Floating above the ground, taking in the air, the sound of cicadas and moonlight reflecting on the ground and the pond; it's funny that it's only been a few years since I left this place, but somehow it all seems so much more beautiful and peaceful since I last saw it.

"Hey, you ok to talk?"

I turn around to see Mara floating behind me, her face was full of shame; she's obviously nervous, I guess I can't blame her, it wasn't exactly a clean break.

"Yeah, its cool. Its been a while, I know we haven't kept in touch since, you know."

"Why did you do it? Wasn't I good enough for you?"

Wow, not beating around the bush this time is she.

"I- It's not about you, it was me. I really mean that, you and I were always close and I will always love you. But I just wasn't ready for you, I was dealing with my own shit, I'm only just starting to get used to my mother, a relationship with you just wasn't-"

"But you choose her instead?!"

"Its not like that, you know how the system works, I didn't choose her, the system did, I didn't make the wish, she just did that on a lark not realizing the gravity of the situation."

"We both know that's not really how it works, like Keiichi and Belldandy, there's no such thing as free will or coincidence, everyone is bound by fate, even you and me."

"I didn't think you were such a fatalist."

"I've changed since last we met, I've done some digging, and you'd be surprised what's out there if you really looked. Things like the Judgement Gate and the Ultimate System Force? You think we control them, but no, there are things out there older and bigger than even us."

"Ok, fair enough, so let's say this wasn't an accident, say it was fate. What exactly are you going to do about it, because if you even think of touching Megumi-"

"Oh, believe me, I've thought about it, but no, Hild-sama has declared that she won't be touched."

"Oh, heh, that's good of her, I was almost expecting her to hurt Megumi."

"All this time and you still don't get her, she's not a monster, she never was. Yes, has a dark side, yes can be cruel and something of a sadist, but honestly if you really take the time to think about it, she really is just the same as you. She's you with power and responsibility, she's you if you had to commit yourself to something greater than yourself, she's a queen so of course she has to be a monster, but she's no more a monster than you, and that's why you hate her and don't want to let her, or me, in. Because if you did you'd realize all the reasons you hate us is all in your head, and just an excuse to avoid facing your own shittiness; being a demon doesn't make you inherently evil, having that black wing doesn't make you a bitch, that's all you, but you need it to be that way to avoid taking responsibility for the kind of person you are."

Mara vanished in a puff of smoke, and for the first time in a long time, I felt cold, really cold. I held myself there in the cold, night air, and no matter how much I tried to hold myself the cold wouldn't go away.

This is why I hate drama, why I hate relationships, because eventually my own shit will come out, and that's something I hate much, much more than other people's drama.

I'm bored, very bored, and when I get bored things tend to go very badly for other people.

Maa-chan's away, can't very well touch Pe-chan, I guess that leave little Megumi.

Oh little Megumi, so sad, so alone.

Don't worry little one, mama Hild is watching you, mama Hild has a special treat for you.

I even made a little doll of you, just a little bit of your hair and it's all ready.

Its playtime.

Woah, what's going on.

What's this feeling, what's happening to my body?

I can feel something touching me, titillating me, I can feel it on my groin.

It feels like soft, beautiful fibres, like some kind of giant paint brush is stroke my nether regions.

Oh god, this is some kind of magic spell or something, Urd or one of the others are screwing with me somehow. I should be mortified and outraged, but it feels so good!

'Don't resist little one, just lie back and enjoy.'

I hear a voice in my head, I vaguely recognize it.

It's Hild, she's doing something to me, to my body, it feels so good.

I roll around in my bed desperate for a way to let out the emotions building inside me, I try desperately to resist it but it feels so good and so intense. I can't help but reach down and touch myself, bringing my fingers down to my womanhood I begin to pleasure myself.

Only to be rudely interrupted by the sensation of a giant brush against my genitals being replaced by giant fingers tickling my feet and armpits.

'Oh, such a naughty girl, you didn't think it would be that easy, did you? No, you have to work for your pleasure, you have to beg like a dog.'

Oh god, this is hell, this is literal tickle hell! Nothing Urd had ever done was this insanely bad! Please make it stop!

'Who's a bad girl!? Who needs to be punished!?'

Please for the love of god stop!

'Goochie goochie goo!'

(TBC)

A/N: Its been a while I know, almost a decade, but I felt nostalgic one day, looked up the old AMG mangas and this had been on my HD for a while just sitting there, so yeah, I thought I'd finish it off, will I continue? Not sure.

Hope you're all doing well.