This is not the Right Time, This is not the Right Day

This story sets after Dimitri said love fades, mine has to Rose in Spirit Bound. Rose is really hurt but still believes that Dimitri loves her deep inside. But that all changes when Dimitri does something really wrong with… Lissa. Something that can make Rose sees Lissa in a entirely different way. Something that both Lissa and Dimitri will regret for the rest of their lives.

"You are late," Dimitri said looking at me. We were at the school gym just about to start our trainings. He was wearing loose running pants and a black T-shirt. I was trying really hard not to kiss him right there and do a lot more interesting things that I was imagining. "Again".

"Well, I would be here in time if…" I didn't finish because Dimitri was now moving closer to me. And when I say closer I mean… really closer. Our bodies were inches apart. I couldn't speak or even breathe.

"If?" He was looking me in the eyes. His eyes were so perfects. I felt like I could just stay there and stare into those deep brown eyes forever.

"If I didn't dream with my hot older mentor every damn night" I said trying to sound sexy but I think it all came out so fast that he didn't even understand.

He slightly touched my arm with his fingertips. This simple touch on my bare skin sent an electric current through us that was impossible to ignore. I jumped on him sending both of us on the gym's floor. My mouth met his on a hungry kiss while his hands were on my hips pulling me closer. It felt like we could never get enough of each other. It felt… wonderful.

I pulled away to look into his eyes where I found a lust gaze. I smiled and kissed him on the cheek. Then I left open mouthed kisses all over his neck.

"Stay away" Dimitri said voice hard.

I stopped kissing him almost instantly. The harshness on his voice was like cold water to me. It almost hurt. No, it did hurt.

"What?" I asked shocked still on top of him. "No, I know you want this." I kept kissing him on the neck. "I know you want me" I said between kisses.

"I can't have people loving me," his voice was cold, he didn't even move. "I'm incapable of loving anyone in return."

"What the hell?" Now I pulled away no longer turned on. What he was saying was ridiculous… but yet… it felt like I've already heard this before. Like a déjà vu.

"I wish you hadn't come here," he said the coldness was still in his voice. "It's really better for us to stay apart."

Damn it, what was he saying? And why the hell I was still with the déjà vu feeling?

"You love me" it came out as a whisper. "I know you do."

"No, Roza. I've given up on you. Love Fades. Mine has."

"No!" I screamed getting up. I opened my eyes. I was on my bed covered in sweat and breathing heavily. Another nightmare. It wasn't the first one I had. Actually, since Dimitri said "Love Fades, Mine has" I've been having bad dreams very similar to this one. Of course, the dream didn't make any sense. I mean, first we are making out and after Dimitri just pulled me away. Or maybe it just sums up my relationship with Dimitri. Sometimes we're hot and sometimes we're cold.

I looked at the clock. It was three in the morning for the Moroi world. Too early to get up but I couldn't stand staying in my bed any longer.

I got up and went to the bathroom. I looked at my face on the mirror. My hair was all messy from sleeping and I looked like a zombie. I didn't get a full night sleep for a week now. It's been a week since Dimitri said those things to me. After the day on the church I hadn't seen him again but I wasn't worry because Lissa was having lunch with him every day and after that she would come to my room and tell me how he was. Yes, she would tell me because she was blocking me out of her head.

At first I got really pissed with the blocking thing but then she explained that Dimitri said he would only have lunch with her if she blocked me out. I was really angry with all of this but I rather be blocked out of Lissa's head while she was with him and after knowing that he was ok than not knowing at all. So I agreed with all this blocking me out thing but that didn't mean I hadn't tried to find them on lunch time, because sure as hell I did. I went to every court's restaurant but never found them and every time I asked Lissa where they had lunch she would only shook her head and I felt a guilty feeling through the bound. I knew she wanted to tell me but she didn't because of Dimitri.

Lissa told me that Dimitri was getting better each day and that he even gave her a full smile yesterday. Of course I almost burned with all the jealousy I felt hearing that she was the one who saw he giving his first full smile after returning to a dhampir, but I know she just wanted to help me. And that meant that he was almost back to his old self and once he does get back to his old self he'll realize that he still loves me and that we are meant to be together, just like I always knew we would.

I decided that I couldn't get back to bed so I decided to take a shower. The water was warm and I think I stayed there for almost an hour washing my hair. I finally got out of the shower and went to my bedroom where I watched TV until my stomach started doing hungry noises. I hadn't realized until then that I was starving. So, I decided to go to the café near the guardians headquarter to eat some doughnuts.

It was still early but there were already plenty of people on the streets. I made my way to the café but once I was inside I saw someone that I really didn't want to see. Adrian.

The last time I saw him he was really mad at me. He yelled at me that he couldn't stand me being his girlfriend while I had still feelings for Dimitri. He said that when I was ready to move on I could look for him. And well, in different words, hedumped me. Not that I could blame him.

He saw me entering in the café but didn't say a thing. He was still mad at me. Ok, I guess this couldn't get worse, could it?

"Good morning, Adrian" I smiled at him "Pretty early for you, isn't it?"

He didn't answer, he just kept drinking his coffee.

"Adrian" I said, now serious. "You can't just ignore me."

He looked at me and I could see pain in his eyes. "Have you decided what you are going to do? Me or him?" Me or him. Yeah, he actually said that. Well, what could I say¿ I guess it is better this way. My relationship with Adrian wouldn't work anyway. His own mother knows that. I didn't answer his question, so he took that as a no. "Well, so I guess I can ignore you after all." He then left the café without looking back.

I ordered a chocolate doughnut and sat down at a table. Poor Adrian. He was so good to me, but I knew I didn't love him in a romantic way and it was better letting him go. Someday he'll find a woman who'll love him the way he deserves. And unfortunately, I'm not this woman. I took a bite of my doughnut.

"Rose," I heard a familiar voice saying "are you really going to ignore me?" I looked away from my doughnut and saw Christian Ozera staring at me. He was sitting in front of me and he looked annoyed.

"What?"

He frowned. "Rose, I am here for almost three minutes talking to you." What? Three minutes? What a guardian I am!

"Oh, I'm sorry, Christian."

"It's ok." He said eating a doughnut as well. "So, how are you?"

"Fine."

"You don't look fine." He argued. "You look like shit."

"Wow, that's exactly what a woman wants to hear!" I sent him a death glare "Now I know why Lissa broke up with you."

I instantly regret saying those words to him. Christian still loved Lissa and I know that Lissa still loved him too. But they were just being stupid and immature! I was sure that soon they would get back together, but it was taking so long!

"Christian, I'm sorry!" I said "I didn't mean-"

"It is ok." He said but it didn't seem ok. Damn it! "Let's just eat."

We finished our food silently after this. If someone said for me three years ago that I'd be eating breakfast with Christian Ozera I'd say that this person was drunk. No way in hell I'd do this. But well, time can change everything. Christian has been an amazing friend to me. He was like a brother to me. Some days ago he said that if Dimitri wasn't so tall and strong he'd kick his ass for let me sad. I laughed.

"I think I'm going to the gym now," I said as we got out of the café. "Do you want to have lunch later?"

"Sure" he answered. "I think I'm going to see Mia now. We're really doing a good job with our magic."

We said our goodbyes and I started running towards the gym. The gym wasn't far away from the café so I get there pretty fast running.

"Hey, Rose!" I heard someone calling me once I got inside the gym.

"Hey Ambrose" Wow… Ambrose. I hadn't expected to see him here. I mean, when he gave up being a guardian I just thought that he would give up the gym too.

"Didn't expect to see me here, did you?" He smiled. "Well, I have to take care of my body."

I nodded. "Sure you do." And what a body he had! Ambrose was really cute. No, cute is not the right word. The word is SEXY.

Suddenly I was no longer with Ambrose. I was pulled into Lissa's head. Through the bound I felt lust and longing. I smirked. Looks like fireboy didn't go to Mia's place after all. He and Lissa were together now after all this time and they weren't wearing many clothes. They were in a room that I didn't recognized. The room was dark and silence except for a moan. Lissa was kissing a neck… a neck that I knew well. But it wasn't Christian's. The neck that she was kissing had six molninja marks… The neck was…

No, it couldn't be. She wouldn't do this. She is my best friend.

But it was Dimitri's neck.

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Okay… I hope you guys liked this chapter. It is my first fanfic ever. I know that Dimitri and Lissa would never be together on the books, but I've just wanted to write a story where Rose is betrayed by her favorite people in the whole world. Lissa and Dimitri.

Please, forgive my grammar mistakes! It is really hard for me to write in English since it is not my first language.

Xoxo

Mandy.