Ok people. I don't really know where this is going yet cuz it just kinda came in and took over my thoughts. it will probably be a slow progress because I'm working on a couple other things at the moment and life seems to get in the way a lot. I do know it is going to be a Bella and jasper story though. There will also be lemons violence and drug and alcohol abuse along with a dominant Jasper. Cuz god do I love that sexy cowboy when he takes what he wants. it will be OOC cuz I cant stand Bella being all perfect and shit. anyways I hope u enjoy this one.

I do not own the characters they are soul property of one Stephanie Meyer.

The pain that I felt was excruciating. The burn was running thru my veins, shit it was running thru my muscles even. Even though the pain was more then I could bare it was not what I was thinking about. That bitch had killed my family. I had to remember what she did. What they did. I vowed that I would find that bitch and tear her limb from limb along with that prick she was manipulating to get what she wanted. I had to remember so while I burned that what I did. I thought about the last couple of months. I would not forget the faces that have hurt me. They would all pay.

My dad Charlie, was dead, killed with a snap of Victoria's wrist. I watched as the life left my fathers eyes. I was in shock that I didn't even notice the bitch had a second vampire with her. Riley snatched me up from behind, effectively dislocating my shoulder. He hauled me out to a van throwing me against the wall of the van effectively knocking me out cold. When I woke up I was tied to a cold metal chair in nothing but a white sundress. I looked around trying to find out where I was. It was dark the only light was from a square hole above me. The space wasn't very big with what I could tell. The stench of death was heavy in the air. I could smell the blood and had to force back the bile that threatened to escape at the stench.

Suddenly a light came on and Victoria was in front of me with Riley standing close behind her. I hadn't noticed the third person till I herd the whimper. Soon my eyes landed on my mother who was beat bloodied and bruised. Profanities started leaving my lips instantly and the madder I got the louder I got. Victoria didn't seem to care about anything I said. She nodded her head at Riley who immediately put a gag in my mouth. It was soaked in something I couldn't identify and the liquid ran down my throat. It was a disgusting substance that tasted like ass and burned like fuck. I wasn't worried about what was just shoved in my mouth though. My only concern was my mother. With a chuckle from Victoria, Riley had my mother by the throat from behind and was licking at her pulse point. A tear escaped my eye as he sunk is teeth in and drained her.

I sat in that pit of death for a month while my mother and father lay there at my feet staring at me. Victoria broke bones, made cuts, hell she even went as far as burning me. When I stopped screaming in pain is when she showed up with Phil and did the same thing to him that she had done to my mother. I was numb by that point and only a tear escaped my eye as Phil was drained and sat in front of me. After another month Victoria got bored with it. She came in and looked at me then chuckled and walked out.

How I started to burn I don't know. At this point I was though so there was no going back for me. As I lay there burning alive I started to remember the other people who had hurt me. They would see me soon enough as well.

Edward had left me in those woods. He had completely broke me. I couldn't heal myself. I stopped caring and just went thru life as a zombie. The other Cullen's just let it happen. I wondered briefly how Jasper was holding up. Nobody seemed to trust him. I don't even think Alice trusted him and she was suppose to be his mate. Yea right. I bet that shit was a huge lie. She was always manipulating her visions making them happen how she wanted them too. Edward was just has bad with the manipulation. I think him and Alice planed that whole birthday fiasco. How could they not. Thinking back why would they have all those plates and shit when it was just me who was going to be eating. I seen Jasper's eyes before I was thrown into the table. They where darker yes but he was in control. And he didn't lose it when I hit the table he lost it when I was pushed. The family though didn't see that all they saw was Jasper snapping. What they didn't see was he was snapping at Edward not me. I never blamed Jasper though I bet everyone else did.

Just then I had made up my mind I would find Jasper and get him away from the people who hurt me. The Cullen's. but first I had to eliminate Victoria and Riley. As I was coming up with my plan I noticed the burning had stopped but I still had a burn in my throat. Guess that meant I was thirsty. I opened up my senses and was up and outside in no time. I sniffed the air to find my lunch and immediately I smelled the warm blood pumping through several bodies. I took off in the direction and came across three men skinning and animal. They reeked of liquor and I immediately pounced and snapped their necks. I took my time feeding on them and as I finished the third man I felt slushy and full.

I realized then that the Cullen way of life was not for me. I could just help rid the world of the scum. The ones that didn't disserve this life. I snatched up the bodies and threw them under a huge rock. No one would find them it would just be reported as missing hikers if that is what they where. Though something told me they where bad people. As I finished up I realized I was still in the bloodied white dress so I snatched up a flannel shirt and a pair of jeans and boots. Id find something better later. After I finished getting dressed I ran. I didn't know where I was going or what I was really doing but there was somewhere I needed to be and I could feel it in my chest. It was this pull in my chest. It felt like it was leading me somewhere. I just didn't know where.

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