A KH fanfic! Rated M for later Chapters! This chapter is Rated T!

WARNING: this chapter may contain strong language, implied smex-ual activities, Tear-jerking sadness, and slash/yaoi/boyxboy smut. in other words: gayness. and not the YAY! gay, the homosexual gay. Don't like? don't read please!

Disclaimer: Do I LOOK like I Own Kingdom hearts? I HAVE NO MONEY!

Told from Roxas' POV. Thoughts are in italics. There may be possible OOCness. And please excuse any mistakes, because I cannot beta my own work to save my life!

I slowly forced my eyes open, feeling like they had been closed for eternity. What the hell happened? I rubbed my eyes- Wait. What the-? Scratch that, my freakin arm wouldn't move. What the hell is going on? I took a deep breath, and let it out slowly, before shutting my eyes once more. I focused on my hand, I could feel it there, even if it wasn't working, but I couldn't quite remember how to get my fingers to move, let alone my entire arm. I took another breath and tried to focus on the positives. Okay, I am alive. This is good. Why the hell can't I move? It's like I'm paralyzed or something-

Then it hit me. The crash, the truck, the pain, voices that said things I couldn't quite understand, flashing lights, the keyblade appearing before me, a magic shield, Axel's hand in mine, the scratch of a pen, a weight on my head, a pain in my side, wetness dripping on me, laughter around me, whispered promises in a voice that warmed my heart; it all hit me at once, and the only thing going through my head was Oh, I was in a coma.

I quickly thought back. I could still remember things, there weren't any gaps of black nothingness like there were when I had first lost my memories. I thought back on Sora and Cloud and could remember every birthday spent with them, every holiday and vacation, I could remember buying music with Demyx and books with Zexion. I could remember arguing about love with Xaldin and seeing Mansex molest Saix. Dammit. Still mentally scared. I could remember poker with Luxord, running from Vexen, tea parties Xion and Namine, (cat)fights with Marluxia, running in fear from Larxene, poking Lexaeus to see if he was alive, and hiding from Xigbar for fear of being raped. I remember Hayner and Pence and Olette, even Seifer! So why did it feel like I was missing someone-

Oh.

My eyes burst open and I weakly turned my head, searching desperately for- there he was. Slouching in a chair, asleep, was a lanky red-headed teen, with black tattoos under his eyes, a notebook lying open in his lap and a pen dangling limply from his fingers. I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding in at the sight of that idiot. My idiot.

I opened my mouth to call out his name,

And nothing came out. I tried again, but only succeeded in what sounded like a strangled cry. At this point my emotions seemed to shut down and a very rational part of my mind began speaking to the less ration part, trying to sort everything out.

Okay, so we were in an accident, and have been in a coma for God knows how long. We don't know what is wrong with us, but it is likely that not being able to speak or move is only a side-effect from being unconscious for however long we were out. At least we still have all our memories! Right?

BUT IF I CAN'T SPEAK HOW CAN I TELL THAT RED HEADED IDIOT OVER THERE WHAT A MORON HE IS FOR NOT TELLING ME HE LOVED ME AGES AGO? IF I CAN'T MOVE HOW CAN I KICK THE CRAP OUT OF HIM FOR CHEATING ON ME BECAUSE HE THOUGHT HE WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME? DIDN'T THINK OF THAT, DID YA, VULCAN BOY!

…Point taken.

Suddenly, the red head stirred, and I watched as he shot straight up, obviously surprised that he had fallen asleep, and rubbed his eyes.

"I'm up Rox I'm up!" He tiredly exclaimed, obviously out of habit since there was no way he could have noticed that I was awake. "I'll call Sora and he can get Namine out of the well!" I must admit I was concerned for a minute that Namine had actually fallen down a well (knowing how spacey she could be, this wasn't unlikely), then I realized that he really just wasn't awake yet. I didn't want to try to speak again, so I did the next best thing.

I coughed.

The reaction was immediate. He froze, and deep emerald eyes snapped open and stared, meeting my own. I smiled weakly and raised an eyebrow. Well?

"R-Roxas?" he whispered, falling out of the chair and onto his knees, notebook and pen clattering to the floor, forgotten. "Y-you're really awake? I'm not just dreaming? Cloud didn't slip something into my food because he was sick of having to see my face every day? I'm not dead am I? 'Cause if we both are dead then Cloud will be pissed and blame it most likely on me." I rolled my eyes and tried to find my tongue; hearing him speak had brought back memories of what talking felt like.

"Y.. … i..id..i.o…t," I managed to get it out. It was clumsy and sounded garbled but he knew what it was, and really, that's all that matters.

"ROXAS!" He threw his arms around my neck and latched on, and I was too weak to struggle out of his grasp. It totally had nothing to do with the fact that I wanted him to hold me. Nothing to do with the way his arms made me feel safe and whole. Nope, absolutely nothing to do with any of that.

I didn't even realize I was crying until he pulled back and I saw that his own eyes were filled with tears. I wanted to wipe those tears away, but again, being unable to move… not exactly the best. I settled for him kissing away each and every one of my own tears, before those soft full lips settled on my own. This wasn't like our usual kisses though; this wasn't needy and passionate, or bittersweet like the last time I had kissed him, when I suspected he was cheating. This kiss was chaste and wonderful and full of so much god dammed love it made my head spin.

"Rox, oh Rox," he moaned as he kissed my face over and over. "I was so worried about you; I'd thought that I'd lost you without telling how I felt- Goddammit, I thought I lost you period! God Rox, I can deal with you hating me forever, I can deal with you never wanting to see me again, but God, if you had died-!" He buried his face in my neck, hiding his tears, and I wanted so badly to wrap my arms around him, but they just wouldn't work. "Roxas," he muttered against my collarbone. "You need to know, I love you." He pulled back and looked me in the eyes. "I always have, I always will. I-I didn't tell you because I –I thought that you didn't truly love me, that you couldn't even if you wanted to, because, well, you're so amazing and perfect, and I'm just …me. I'm so sorry, I don't know what I was thinking, but Zexion helped me realize how stupid I was. I guess, after having you and him and practically every goddamed Nobody in the Organization cept Demyx tell me that every day, I finally listened… and then you were in the accident and, God, I was so fucking scared!"

Tears still streamed down my face, but I was smiling now. "I…di..ot." I whispered. "al…w-w..ays l-lo..ved y..y..ou." Axels eyes widened and he smiled too, and unrestrained smile that stretched ear to ear.

"Roxas," he kissed me again, a peck on the lips, before pulling back and slapping a hand to his forehead. "Oh crap, I'm suppose to call one of the nurses if you wake up! Hang on!" He stood up and ran to the door, leaning out into the hallway and calling in a muffled voice. He returned with a woman following behind him. 'Hmmm.. she looks vaguely familiar..'

She smiled sweetly and pushed a strand of brown hair out of her face. "Hello Roxas, I'm Belle! I'm not your regular nurse, but I'll have to do for the moment!" I could feel my eyes widen for a minute as it hit me; she was from Beast's Castle, the chic that the Beast was in love with! What the hell is she doing here?

She moved to my bedside and checked my pulse, asked me to open my mouth so she could check my throat, shined a light in my eyes, that sort of thing. Then she asked me if I could sit up.

"N-no.." I muttered, looking to the side.

"That's fine," she said, smiling sympathetically. "Let me give you a hand then!"

"C-c..an..'t m-mo…ove," I slurred, wincing at the clumsy was the words fell from my mouth. Axel was hovering, his eyes alight with concern. Belle's brow furrowed and she looked at me oddly.

"You can't move at all?" she said, propping me up on the pillows. "And you're having trouble talking as well… how odd! I should definitely call in the Doctor…" she got up and walked to a phone hanging on the wall near the door. She picked it up and dialed before whispering conspiratorially with the person on the other end. Axel sat next to me, concerned.

"You're not paralyzed, the doctors told us that when we first got here," he said, brushing my hair out of my face. "So don't worry about that. Maybe it's from being asleep for so long…"

"H..ow l-lo..ng?" I asked, looking up at him. He moved his hand from his head to stroke my cheek.

"A little over nine months. You missed Christmas, and it's the end of August now. But don't worry, your presents are still unopened, I restrained myself." He winked, trying to make me laugh, but I felt like a stone had just been dropped on my chest. 'NINE MONTHS!' My mind went temporarily blank as it tried to understand the fact that I had been comatose for nine freaking MONTHS. I looked out the window and wondered how I hadn't realized it before; the trees outside were green and there were flowers mixed in with their leaves. The room was cool, but not in an uncomfortable way, so obviously it must be cooler that the temperature outside of the room. I took a breath and let it out slowly.

"N-ni..ne mo—n..th..s," I whispered, then snorted. "Heh..D-De..m..yx."

Axel snorted, "Heh, yeah, well, it's the month of the Axel, so no wonder you woke up!" He leaned down and gently kissed my forehead. I smiled; normally he would have tried to jump me by now. If me being unconscious had taught him some self control, then it was worth it.

"Alright Mr. Strife!" said Belle, smiling brightly. "Your regular nurses will be in a moment, so please bear with me! Mr. Heart, I'm going to have to ask you to leave for a bit though, and if you could contact Mr. Strife's legal guardian, that would be wonderful!"

"Oh, right, okay!" Axel kissed me on the forehead again and stared into my eyes. "I'll be right back, okay? I have Cloud on speed dial now, he's six six six." He gave me a saucy wink and I rolled my eyes as he left. As he went out the door, two young adults came in.

"Hi there Roxas! I'm Lizzy Tweedle, and this is my twin brother Colin Tweedle! You can call me Dee, and him Dum! It's nice to finally see you conscious!" The girl was practically skipping around the room, looking creepily cheerful. She had short curly brown hair and her brother, Colin apparently, had spiky brown hair and blue bangs.

"We're your regular nurses!" Colin was practically singing as they whirled around the room, grabbing instruments and charts. "You had lots wrong with you and a HOT big bro who pays lots of money so you got twice as much looking after!" I blushed at that; stupid Cloud with his stupid hero money…Wait, did he just call Cloud HOT?

Suddenly there was a twin on either side of me, smiling reaaallly creepily at me. "It's time for us to run some tests!" Somehow… I fear for my life a LOT right now.

"ROXAS!" Sora ran forward and outright glomped me. I wanted to squirm away, but I was still having issues with moving. The demon twins had told me that it was because of using the Keyblade and other magic to save myself. Apparently there were mixed results. I got to live, but all my strength was used up, and because of the scale of the accident and the fact that doctors who didn't know about magic or Nobodies got to me first, the small amount of magic that I had had left was having trouble replenishing. Then I found out that VEXEN was actually my doctor, so that gave me a heart attack. Then there were about a million tests, and any strength I'd had in me went right out the window.

"So..ra.. get…off.." I gave him my most evil glare. "B..ig. b..a..by." Sora was sobbing and smiling at the same time, clinging to me with all his strength.

"You-you almost DIED and you call me a baby for crying? I thought you were the smart one!" He laughed and wiped at his eyes. "I'm so happy you're okay Roxas, I was so worried!" I felt a hand in my hair and looked up right into Cloud's eyes.

"NEVER. DO THAT. AGAIN." He hissed, glaring death down at me. "Do you know how worried I was? You are never allowed to drive anywhere ever again. I don't care if the red-headed demon has to carry you everywhere; you are not driving a car EVER again!" I ignored his words in favor of outright gawking at the tears in his eyes. He leaned down and wrapped his arms around me. "Really Roxas, I thought you were the smart one too."

"I…am…th..e s..smar..t.. o..ne." I pouted, glaring slightly. Cloud straightened up.

"Doctor Vexen briefed us on why you can't talk and why you can't move," his eyes darkened in a way that made my heart freeze. "Un- I mean, fortunately," he said the word through gritted teeth. "Axel has been training with Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum, who are licensed physical therapists, and has gotten his physical therapy license in a crash course while you were unconscious. So He'll be your physical therapist, but you'll still have to report in at the hospital once a week for physical exams, and Vexen will be checking in on you while you're at home." Ah, so that's why he was grumpy. He had only just barely allowed me and Axel to go out, and he had known the instant that we had broken up thanks to Sora. No wonder he was so pissed about all this. Come to think of it, why wasn't I mad at Axel anymore? I'd have to ask Zexion and Demyx what Axel had been doing while I was unconscious.

"W..wh..en c..ca.n I g..go h..o..me?" If I could have moved my fingers I would have crossed them for good luck. Going home and starting the physical therapy as soon as possible was pretty much at the top of my priority list. Cloud's frowned deepened.

"If by home you mean back to the Castle that Never Was, then not for a long long time," I deflated a little at that. "But," OoOh, a catch! "You can come home to my house around October or something. Your old room is just how you left it and everything, and Sora has been staying there as well since Riku," he spat out the name like it was poisonous, "Has been visiting his grandmother and didn't want Sora to stay in the apartment all alone." Sora pouted.

"He wouldn't let me come with him!" he complained, sitting on the corner of my bed. "He said I'd only slow him down since he didn't want to be caught by his Dad, and since his Grandma AND the attic really creep me out!" I rolled my eyes. I would have left Sora behind too. Frankly, he was a huge wuse when it came to things that he couldn't just whack with a keyblade.

I sighed and felt my eyelids drifting. Dam I was tired. Cloud noticed and grabbed Sora, pulling him out of the room and pausing only to throw a gruff "Goodnight" over his shoulder. The room was silent for a moment and I shut my eyes for a second, then suddenly there was a hand on my head. II lazily opened one eye and saw Axel, smiling softly.

"Hey, sorry, I know you're tired, I just wanted to say gonight, okay? And that I'll be here when you wake up, and I won't let the Tweedle twins go near you while your asleep cuz I could tell that they creep you out as much as they creep me out." I hummed a bit shut my eye, not wanting to use the effort it took to make words. "Heh, you're lucky you're adorable when you sleep. Of course, be sure to wake up this time, kay?" I "Hmmm"ed in what I hoped was an affirmative way, but by then I couldn't really care because I was long gone, falling asleep to the voice of the idiot I loved, and maybe, maybe, possibly wouldn't kill for leaving me.

YAY FINALLY POSTED! So much joy at finally getting this HIDEOUS LIFE KILLER off of my harddrive! :D Seriously, SO MUCH WRITER'S BLOCK. and the story isn't even that good. *facepalm* YEah, this took waaaay too long. the original plan was to post it AUGUST 13th, AKA, Akuroku day! and I FAILED SO HARD. IT'S OCTOBER FOR PETE'S SAKE! So I fail at life.

Wellll, next time I post it should beeeee... Roxas being discharge from the hospital. Most likely in Axel's POV. I think I'm just gonna switch back in forth between them, one chapter from Roxas, one from Axel, ect. ect.! I will definetly get it up this month because I do not want to be so horribly late AGAIN. ... you know what? some day some one is gonna read this, and they will not give a dam about the months or when it was posted. BUT I CARE. MY OCD COMPELS ME. *flails like a magicarp*

Also, Author cameoooo! because.. I suck. XD YESH, I AM TWEEDLE DEE. tho, my name is not Lizzy, and I may have been watching Black Butler when I wrote that part, but WHATEVER. and Good ol Steve is Tweedle Dum. Ah Steve. So much therapy, so little time.

Leaving you wondering,

Cuz I suck like that,

~Seo