(A/N): Okay, so I was playing the Glee Smule App (not a product placement), and I was singing the song 'Alone', and I was like 'wow, you know, obviously, the person who wrote this song was trying to get a point across; but what point, exactly?' and this is what came out! Hmmm... it's kinda... idk. I'm so sorry that I haven't been responding to reviews; my computer is so painfully slow that it's a fight for me just to upload a story (it's a battle with my ADHD).
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Alone.
So many songs and stories have been written, trying to capture the element of depression and terror that comes with that word.
But it's really just not possible to translate into words.
It's fear of what might happen.
It's conspiracy theories, involving yourself not actually existing.
It's the empty feeling in your chest.
It's knowing that no one cares enough to call you, or visit at that exact moment.
It's jealousy of those who are never truly by themselves.
It's finding things (painful hobbies, really) to fill the void left.
It's gasping in pain, just to fill the empty silence all around.
It's the element that forces you into more of itself; pushes you further into isolation and solitude.
It's the aching in the mind and (far more importantly) heart; that never-quite-healed wound.
It's the contemplative silence that some relish, while others dread.
It's the time when you know that you should worry for your life.
It's how I spend every day of my life.
It's the most painful word in the human vocabulary.
It's reserved for only the lowest of the low; that's why I'm subjected to feel its wrath.
It's what I've long since accepted shall stain my past, present, and future with its hideous trail of destruction.
It's a simple word that most people will never truly grasp the meaning of.
It's all that my life consists of, and all it ever will.
It's not even that complicated.
It has only one definition for itself…
Alone.
(A/N): *Shivers* Yeah, idk where that came from. It made me close my blinds and hide under the covers. And yes, I did make a reference to the fantastical story 'I'm Not Fine' by IAmGlitterati, if you were so clever as to catch it. Okay, so my friend Kenzie (Appleinn4) has just started her first fanfic, and I'm beta-ing for her, so I feel the need to sort of advertise for her (she's doing it for me)! Her story is entitled 'I have OCD, Deal with it', and heavily features Rachel *gag*, but is good anyway. Please check it out, and please review, because reviews completely make my day, and I was really sad with the lack of response on my most recent one. LOVE YOU ALL! SO REVIEW AND CHECK OUT KENZIE'S STORY!