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So let me get this straight. Samara, an Asari Justicar, was going to essentially mind rape me. A Justicar was pretty much an Asari that was EXTREMELY respected and revered in Asari culture, and they had the authority to kill anyone who was corrupted or bad or anything else like that. And she was going to probe my mind. In a room. Alone. Just me and her. Yeah, god must have really hated me, either that or I was just the unluckiest man alive in the galaxy.

Samara currently stood before me, graceful and lithe, dangerous and cold, beautiful and elegant. A perfect warrior. A perfect killer. In my defense, it was completely understandable that I was a little scared right now, and not pissing my pants in fear.

"Are you ready?" She asked of me, walking forwards to me as if I was already going to say yes.

"Not really" I muttered matter-of-factly.

She must of either not heard me, or didn't care, as she kept walking forwards until she paused in front of me.

I had no warning that she was going to begin other than "Embrace eternity!"

Her eyes turned into what was akin to black holes, and just like the namesake, I could not help but feel as if my eyes were being drawn towards hers, as I finally glanced into the depthless black orbs.

The feeling of vertigo immediately started to overwhelm me, and everything went dark, I could not see anything. I could vaguely feel my heart rate increasing and the thud of what felt like my body hitting the ground, but it felt off… as if I was watching from somewhere else or like my body was numbed.

A voice seemed to resonate all around, like it was coming from all directions at once, and also as if it were originating from the inside of my head.

"Remain calm, you are merely inside of your soul and memories." The voice sang inside of my head, and I felt almost as if I were being physically pushed down by it.

Finally, light seemed to seep through the inky blackness that I was in, and then all at once, color burst forth and burned brightly as if seeking my attention.

The overall color seemed to be a calm, friendly green…. But also at the same time, it pulsed with a red wave, as if fury was just waiting to be unleashed. Everything was too much for me, the color, the vertigo, the unknown, all of it was overwhelming me, and I struggled, crying out with every possible part of my body, trying to break free of this stasis that I was in.

Everything finally stopped, all of it closing off to lead me back into the abysmal dark that I had started in. I Didn't know what was going on, didn't know what was happening, and I closed my eyes, slammed them shut and willed for everything to just stop.

Nothing happened, and I felt a probing, like a person was picking at my mind. I cried out, completely freaked out by this feeling and I acted against it, crying with body and mind, thrashing ad struggling to get away from all of this.

The voice cried out to me, urgent and strained "Enough! Rest and relax!"

I didn't listen though, my instincts telling me that this was wrong, to get away, to fight back, to do anything.

The only thing that happened though, was like a reel going before my eyes, and what is showed was scaring an intriguing me.

It was me, and I was standing before a downed Eclipse merc that was begging for his life. I held a pistol to his head, my aim unwavering and solid. The man was pleading, shivering and crying asking for mercy, to be spared. But I never answered. Finally, a man came up behind me and stepped into vision. It was a Colonel of the Alliance Marines, and he had a cold, hard look on his face.

"Very good Commander…. now. Kill him." He ordered with finality, and I could only watch in horror as I pulled the trigger without a second's hesitation. The back of the man's head exploded outward in a red mist, and painted the ground with bits of bone, brain matter and blood.

I stared in horror at what had just happened before my eyes. I tried to get away from this and run, but I couldn't and the next thing I knew, another scene was playing before my eyes.

Batarian slave traders were capturing Civilians and were dragging them off to ships. Those that resisted were either beaten or shot. I could see myself ready a Mantis Sniper Rifle, popping a thermal clip and aiming down the scope. I looked around for a moment before spotting a fuel tanker. Setting my sights on it, I aimed and pulled the trigger.

'NOO!' I screamed out in my mind, but it was no use as the trigger was pulled and the Mass accelerated slug impacted the fuel tanker, puncturing a hole inside and causing sparks, which ignited the fuel. The Tanker blew up and the entire area was swallowed in a shock wave and white light. After the light cleared, I peeked back up, and saw the entire area had now become a 100 foot crater, nothing left intact except a small part of a barrel, still smoking.

I tried to cry, tried to move, tried to scream!... but I couldn't.

One final scene had shown up, and it was the scene where the teenager girl had been killed in front of me by the senior officers and where I had ultimately killed them. My body was flaring with biotic energy, so much that the entire room was cast into a livid ice blue color.

I heard an alarm, and running boots rushing towards the entrance of the door. Turning to face, I awaited eagerly for whatever lay beyond it.

"The traitor is inside! Shoot to kill!" One of the person's yelled, and with a hiss, the door opened up to reveal 4 heavily armed Marines.

They all raised their rifles to shoot at me, but I had already been ready for them, and unleashed a Biotic shockwave at them. All four of them were hit and flung into the walls, hard enough that I heard a couple Snaps of breaking bones.

Rushing out into the corridor, I spotted a group of battle ready marines and charged at them. Erecting a biotic barrier around myself, I screamed in primal fury and biotically threw the closest marine near me into the wall with so much that her body crushed and blood spattered everywhere. All of the other marines snapped their weapons up at me and hosed me with gunfire.

The biotic barrier flared brightly as it soaked up the slugs, and getting within close enough range, I whipped out my knife and lunged at the marine to my left. The man jerked and coughed up blood as I impaled him on my knife, and he crumpled lifelessly to the ground as I yanked the knife out of him, already swiping at the next marine. The tip got the next marine in the throat and sliced it open. The man clutched his hands to his throat in a futile attempt to stop the gushing blood, gurgling and chocking on his blood as he sank to his knees. Whipping around, I threw my knife at the last and final marine, and was rewarded as the knife lodged in the woman's shoulder, causing her to cry out in pain and drop her assault rifle. Not even pausing, I whipped out my pistol, centered the sights on her head and pulled the trigger three times, twice to punch through the shielding and third for the kill shot.

The woman's blood blossomed into the air, but I was already moving, sprinting down the numerous corridors and cutting down anyone in my way. I finally rounded one last corner and stopped as I stared down the barrels of five assault rifles.

"Commander Babik! Throw down your weapons, and surrender!" A Woman yelled at me, bearing the rank of Gunnery Chief.

With reckless abandon, I charged forward, biotics flaring dangerously. All of the marines fired at me, but my barrier absorbed the slugs like a sponge and I continued to rush towards the marines, my instinctsscreaming at me to kill everyone there. Letting loose a biotic shockwave, I mowed down three of them before turing to the woman and sending a warp towards her. The womans dying, agonized screams filled my head and echoed in the corridor as she was torn apart at the molecular level. These screams only served to fuel my crazed, rage-induced madness and lunging forward, I grabbed the last marine and with a violent twist, snapped his neck.

Running towards two large doors, I opened them with a flick of my wrist and I immediately set upon to two guards right in front of me. The guards were quick though, and with a burst of accurate fire, they finally punched through my barrier. Growling in anger, I grabbed one of the marines around the neck, and twisting him so he was in front of me, i turned towards the other Marine who had just started firing. The man that i was using as a meat shield jerked and seemingly danced a rhythm to the impacting bullets. When the other marine stopped firing, I dropped the now dead marines body and ran up towards the woman. Her eyes grew as wide as saucer plates as I came withing stricking distance. The last thing she saw was the knife that was plunging towards her forehead. Not even bothering to yank my knife out of the woman's head, I sprinted for the hanger, where there was hopefully a shuttle or a Mako that I could take.

Finally, without warning, I was sent hurling back though the dark, and then to light. Blinking rapidly, I looked around, panicking and unsure of what was going on, then everything hit me like a sledgehammer.

I had been, WAS, a murderer. 'No, no no no no. No! This is not true, can't be, can't!'

Glancing down at my hands, I saw that my fleshy left hand was flaring brightly blue. Then I realized that my ENTIRE body save for my right arm was glowing blue. It was all true, I WAS a murderer.

Glancing around, I saw that everyone was watching me, Samara, Shepard, the man Jacob and the woman Miranda, all worried and surprised. I had to get away from their stares, had to get away from it all. Letting out a loud cry of anguish, I snapped my arms out, and was surprised when everyone had been frozen in stasis. Panicking, I ran out of the room, running blindly about the ship. A pair of doors opened up to reveal a huge room, with a galaxy map in the middle.

A couple of people glanced at me, but I ignored them and ran into what looked like an elevator. I hammered on the button that seemed to lead to the engineering level, trying to get away from everyone. As the doors closed, I could not help but feel panicked and depressed by what I had seen. How could I have been such a cold, heartless monster? I needed to get away from everyone, I could not bear to see their glance of concern.

Finally the elevator opened up, and I sprinted down the hallway, passing a surprised Lia on the way.

I opened up the door that said Cargo, and running in, I moved to the other side of the room and slumped down against the wall, clutching my hand in my hands.

'How could I have done all of that? I'm just a fucking monster, a goddamn murderer! I didn't deserve to be living with all of the evil that I had committed.'

My feelings finally overwhelmed me, and the tears spilt over, sliding down my face and dripping onto the floor. A monster. I was a monster, that's all I was.

The sound of the door opening caused me to snap my head up, and when I saw Lia there, I looked down in shame. How could I even deserve to have her in my presence? I deserved to be dead for all that I had done.

"Alex? Are you okay? Is something wrong?" She asked, her voice laced with worry.

I just grimaced and looked the other way, the tears still sliding my face. She must have notice, because she came over and wrapped me in a hug, her embrace warm and comforting. I turned into her hug and grabbed onto her tightly, my only lifeline in my depression that was overwhelming.

I only sobbed into her shoulder, saying how I was a monster, a murderer, and how I didn't deserve to live.

Lia responded by only rubbing my back and hair, comforting me and telling me how everything would be ok. It was here that I realized that I truly loved Lia, if she could accept me, comfort me, with even my past hanging over me like a cloud.

Hey guy's Im back. Sorry for the really late update and short chapter, but school and writers block has currently got me down and i am just getting over it, so please bear with me here.

Bloodwolf432, your OC will DEFINATELY introduced next chapter, so don't ask. Anyways, read and review please.

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