I wrote the story because of the result of the poll on my profile. Meaning, a new Addek fanfic.

I hope you`ll enjoy it.

I don´t own anything. Sad but true.

xxxxxxx

Chapter 1

He didn`t know what to do. What was the right thing to do? He just found out that his wife is pregnant and only a couple of minutes later he found out that his ex-girlfriend was pregnant too. Sometimes he thought god was trying to punish him. What he didn`t know was, what he was punished for.

Flashback

"Derek, can we talk?" his wife Addison asked carefully. She had noticed that he was trying to avoid her. Of course she did and she also noticed how he looked at Meredith Grey.

"Acutally I have a surgery scheduled in 20 minutes."
"Please Derek, it`s important and it won`t take long." She said desperately fighting for his attention.

"Can`t this wait Addison? I`m really in a hurry."
"Wait until when? Tomorrow, next week, or maybe until next year?"

"I`ll be home around 7. Then we can talk." He said and walked off without a further look at her. No sorry no anything.

"Please be there." She whispered to herself close to tears and he heared it.

End Flashback

Of course he wasn`t there. She didn`t even know when he came home or when he left for work because she neither heard him when he came home nor when he left early this morning for work.

Flashback

"You didn`t show." She simply said the pain visible in her eyes. She didn`t try to hide her disappointment.

"There was an emergency."

"And no one else could have covered it? Damn Derek you`re not god! You have a wife and she asked you to come home because there is something important to talk about." Tears streaming down her cheeks like cascades.

"Well, I have time now, if it`s so important." He said annoyed.

"You don`t even want to talk. Why don`t you just say it? Say it and I`m out of here!"
"Say what?"

"That our marriage is over. That you don`t love me anymore. That you love Meredith Grey."
"For gods sake Addison." He yelled but softened instantly when he noticed her change of expression. She didn`t look sad any longer, she looked frightened. "I said I was trying."

"But I don`t see it. I don`t see any of it." She said with a shaky voice.
"What did you want to talk about?"

"I wanted this to be different."
"What did you want to be different?"

"I wanted this to be a happy moment Derek. This should be a happy moment." She said quietly. This wasn`t the strong Addison anymore. This was the hurt Addison. The Addison who was ignored and left alone. The one who no longer could be strong. This Addison was different and he didn`t notice until now.

"Add. What are you trying to tell me?" he asked now, his voice softer than before, softer and more loving than in a really long time, now as he noticed for the first time that this was a different Addison.

"I`m pregnant Derek."
"Wow." He simply said. Not exactly the reaction she had hoped for but at least didn`t he start yelling.

"That`s all? Looking shocked and saying wow?"
"Addison I didn`t expect anything like that, at all."

"You think I expected that when I fainted two days ago?"
"You fainted?" he asked frightened.

"Yes and they paged you but you obviously didn`t think that I was important enough to show up."

"I`m sorry, I was busy and"
"It`s okay. You don`t have to explain yourself. I`ve known you for a long time now Derek. I know what is important to you and I`m no longer important for you."

"Addison, I`m sorry. Okay? You are important don`t you dear think something different! I was just distracted."

"That`s hard to belive."

"Addie."
"Just drop it Derek."

"Fine, have you had an ultrasound yet?"
"No only a blood test. I have an ultrasound in about 30 minutes. That`s why I wanted to tell you so badly"

"Can I come?" he asked carefully. The baby wouldn`t make anything that had happened better but maybe it was a good start. Maybe it was a new beginning for them as a

married couple.

"Of course you can come. This is our baby."
"Thank you. Can I hug you?" He asked unsure. He knew very well that there was a lot to make up for.

"Yes please." She hoped it was a knew beginning. There wasn`t anything she wanted more than to go back to where they once were. To be as happy as they were a couple of years ago.

"I want you to know that I still love you Addison. It`s just, it`s still hard for me. But I`m working on it."

They found out that Addison was only 4 weeks along and that everything was okay. But there was something unexpected at the screen. There were two emryos visible on the screen.

End Flashback

That moment they couldn`t exactly tell what was bigger. The joy or the shock. After all their marriage was still not on good terms. And actually it was irresponisble to bring a baby in such a relationship.

Flashback

"Dr. Shepherd, do you have a minute? There`s something we have to talk about."
"Sure Dr. Grey. "

"What`s this about?" Derek asked smiling.

"I`m just going to say that. Okay?"

"Okay." He was amused. Her uncertainty was so cute.

"I`m pregnant. 13 weeks to be exact."

"You have got to be kidding me."
"I`m not. Why would I be kidding about something like that?"

"Sorry, it`s just that Addison just told me that she`s pregnant too."
"I guess congratulations then."

"Mer, I`ll be there for you and this baby. I won`t leave you alone."
"What will Addison say about this?"

"I don`t care. She`ll need me in the next couple of month even more as we`re having twins, but you need me too. You`re young. You have no experience with babies at all and you once told me that you don`t want children. Are you even keeping it?"

"Yes I will keep it. I wasn`t sure at first but now I am sure. I`m having this baby."
"Then I`ll be there." He said still in shock.

End Flashback

"Der? Derek? DEREK!" Addison yelled after she had said his name too often for her taste without getting a response.

"What?" he asked alarmed.

"Where are you with you thoughts?"

"Maybe you should sit down."

"Why?"
"Because I`m going to tell you something and you won`t like it."

"Just spill it Derek."

"Meredith`s pregnant too." He said looking at his feet. He couldn`t look at her. It was too much to bear.

"You`ve got to be kidding me" She shouted feeling her world crash into tiny little pieces. She had hoped that this was their new beginning. Without Meredith Grey and now, now she would never get out of their life. Hers, Dereks and their twins lifes. The twins would have a half-brother or sister.

"That`s what I said to her."
"Maybe that`s a sign."

"A sign for what?" he asked skeptical.

"A sign that our marriage is over and that you should be with her."

"Addison"
"Don`t Addison me. You think I`m an obligation. That`s what you told Mark. I don`t want to be an obligation. I want you to stay with me because you love me but if you don`t love me anymore than tell me and I`ll leave this very day."

"Don`t be stupid Addison. You`re pregnant with twins. You can`t go."
"I can do it if I want to. I can be a single mother. Just say it. Say you love this intern and I`m gone."

"I love her." It was a whisper barely audible.

"Thank you. Thank you for finally being honest. I`ll go back to NY. I still have my practice. You`re very welcome to come and visit any time you want."

"You`re going back?"
"Yes."
"I don`t have a say in it? You have my children."

"Sorry but you don`t have a say in this. For once I have to think about myself. How can I be a good mother if I`m unhappy and broken before they`re even born?"

"Fine. Then go." He said frustrated and then she left the trailer.

"But I love you too." He said after she was gone.

To be continued…

So it starts with drama. Otherswise it wouldn`t be Addek, would it?

So what do you think?
Reviews would be nice and very inspiring.