A/N: Hey guys. I am SO upset with you people. I mean, come on! I write like twelve chapters, which are like thirteen to thirty one pages EACH and you guys REFUSE to review. Try multiplying thirty one by twelve, I'm too lazy to do it, and you'll see what I'm talking about. To the people who DO review, thank you so much. I enjoy reading your rants ; ) your criticisms, your opinions and your voices in general. I write for you guys and thanks again. I need some ideas for where the story is going next. Feel free to give me some !

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To Be with My Beloved

BPOV:

Friday night found me at the Cullen's place, lounging on one of their gigantic sofas next to Edward. Movie Night. I was sleeping over and Alice had decided we were watching something scary, so I sat with my legs curled up under me, in my pajamas, with Edward's arm around me under a blanket.

It was a while before we all agreed on a movie and when we did, Emmett picked up Insidious from the pile in front of the giant flat-screen and put it in with an evil laugh. As the lights dimmed, Edward deftly slid me onto his lap and pulled me against his chest.

I smiled without looking at him. "Scared?"

I heard his low chuckle. "No,"

"Liar," I accused him. "Don't worry; I'll be here to protect you from the bad, bad ghosts."

"Would that be before or after you've screamed and hidden your face in my shirt?" He replied inquiringly.

"Neither. It takes a lot more than a movie to scare me." I said matter-of-factly. "If anything, I find these things rather funny. Hysterically so." I continued snobbishly.

"Okay, Bella," He conceded, his tone carefully laced with defeat. "You win." I could almost hear what he didn't say, but was obviously thinking. For now.

I settled into him, comfortably. He kissed my hair and then the movie started. If you've never seen Insidious, you really need to. Sorry if I'm spoiling it, but the whole thing centered around astral projection, which is when you can travel outside of your body when you sleep. The son fell into a "coma" and wouldn't wake up and the husband's mom's friend was like this psychic chick who could help the son get back to his body before a demon possessed it.

The thing scared the living shit out of me, and Edward of course, picked up on it. I could feel him laughing beneath me whenever I jumped as some ghastly spirit leaped toward the screen.

When the father found out he could astral project too, and stepped out of his body to look for his son in a creepy mansion in the spirit world, I pulled the blanket up to my nose, ready to cover my eyes whenever it became necessary. The movie ended with the psychic woman being strangled by who she thought was the father, but was actually an evil spirit who had been following him around since he was a little boy and had now possessed his body before he could step into it again. It ended with the wife realizing that her husband's body was now possessed by said evil spirit. The screen went dark before the credits rolled upwards with some scary music.

I stared at the screen before I burst out. "What the hell?"

Jasper looked over at me. "What's wrong?" Everyone had turned towards me.

"That's a bloody awful way to end a movie." I said in explanation.

"Well, it did send shivers down my spine," said Rosalie, shuddering. "I mean, think about it: Just when you think everything's okay and turned out right, you find out you've been screwed over by a demon and now you're stuck with a blood thirsty husband. It really gets you thinking."

"Yeah," Alice said. "About whether or not she's going to kill him, or get killed."

"I vote for 'kill him'!" Emmett put in. "I couldn't stand him from the beginning. There was obviously something wrong with their little freakazoid son."

"You mean, other than the fact that he was in a coma?" Edward retorted.

"Nah, not really." Emmett replied, shrugging. We all laughed before heading to bed. I went up to Alice's room after kissing Edward goodnight. Her room was huge and had pink painted walls with black trim. There were clothes literally everywhere and I almost broke my ankle on a seven inch black stiletto heel. The only place without clothes was Alice's huge bed. It was covered with a rosy pink comforter and the head was covered in a mountain of black and pink pillows. She slid under the covers on one end, and I slid in the other. I laughed when she practically disappeared into the pillows and she sat up, grimacing at me.

"I don't know why you're laughing when the same thing always happens to you too." She said indignantly.

I laughed again. "What I don't get is why you don't take all the pillows away, Ally."

"Well, I don't want to lose them," She said as if it made perfect sense.

I rolled my eyes. "Whatever. Goodnight," I leaned back against the pillows, pulling the covers up to my chin and curling over onto my side, the way I usually slept.

"Goodnight, Bella." She replied, turning out the lamp and throwing us into darkness. It was quiet for a bit and I closed my eyes. Then Alice tapped me on my shoulder. "Bella?"

I rolled over so that I faced her. The covers were pulled over our heads and I could barely make out her elfin face. "Yes, Alice?"

"You and Edward looked very cozy tonight," She said, giggling.

I turned over again. "Good night, Alice."

"No, no, wait!" She whispered, urgently.

I turned back over. "What?"

"I just wanted to know. You love my brother, don't you?"

I could feel my cheeks heating up. "Isn't it obvious?"

"Confirmation, Bella!" She sang.

"Shh!" I hissed, half-heartedly. "Do you want to wake everyone up?"

"No, I want to know how you feel about my brother."

"Yes, Alice," I sighed. "I am very deeply in love with him. Can I go to sleep now?"

"Why?" she asked.

"Because I'm really tired right now and Coach Goad was merciless today. He made us—"

"No,no,no," She cut me off. "I meant why do you love my brother?"

"Oh," I was taken aback. I'd never really thought much about why I did, I just knew it to be true. "Well, because he's sweet and kind, when he wants to be, at least. And he's sarcastic, witty, charming and charismatic. He's unbelievably gorgeous, but he doesn't rely on his looks for anything at all. He has a brilliantly clever mind and he isn't pushy. He knows me. I mean, he really knows me and he's shown me over and over again how trustworthy he is."

"Anything else?"

I thought about it. "I love the way he looks whenever he plays the piano. Like he's putting everything he has into his music. I love the way he makes his lines flow when he's drawing, the way he uses his hands to emphasize the things he's saying. I love how his hair can never stay neat and how his eyes always express whatever he isn't saying. He's always there for me. Always thinking about what's best for me. Sometimes I wish he wasn't so selfless; it's how he got hurt last time." I finished sadly.

"He loves you too, you know." She said after a moment.

"I know."

"I'm happy for you guys and everything, but could you do me a favor and not try to suck his face off every five minutes? He is my brother, after all, and I mean, come on, who wants to spend their time watching their brother in a hot and heavy make-out session? It's disgusting."

"Good night, Alice." I said, turning back onto my side again.

"Okay, okay," she said, laughing. "You can make-out with him for however long you want."

"Good night, Alice."

She sighed. "Night, Bella." Finally, there was silence. I closed my eyes, trying to sleep. I was drifting when Alice said my name.

"Yes, Alice?"

"I can't sleep."

"Why not?" I asked her.

"Because of the movie." She whimpered.

I laughed. "Oh, Alice. Nothing is going to get you. Think about Jasper chasing all the big bad monsters away."

"Okay," she murmured sleepily, and soon, she was snoring lightly.

I couldn't sleep after that. My thoughts had turned towards the frightening memories that still sometimes haunted my dreams. Jacob had been arrested and was sent to prison for life after being charged with the murder of a child as well as with physical assault, so I no longer had to worry about him. It didn't stop me from dreaming though.

Eventually, I gave up trying to sleep in Alice's room and carefully maneuvered my way out of her bed, careful not to wake her. I crept into the hallway and into Edward's room, quietly closing the door behind me.

He was lying shirtless on his back, with his arm under his head. His mouth was slightly ajar and his eyes flickered beneath his lids as if he were dreaming. It was adorable. I gently shifted him, waking him up.

"Bella?" he said sleepily, shifting so that he was partly sitting up. "What's wrong?"

I stood by his bed and shivered in my light tank top and shorts. "I can't sleep in Alice's room. Can I sleep in here?"

"Bad dreams?"

I nodded and he held his arms out for me. "Come on,"

I climbed into bed with him and his arms wrapped around my waist. I lay facing him, our faces barely two inches apart.

"Thank-you," I murmured, resting my hands against his chest, feeling the heat coming off his skin. He touched his lips to mine lightly.

"Anything for you."

I drifted off easily and slumbered deeply the rest of the night.

The next morning, I woke up with my head on Edward's bare chest and my arms and legs tangled up in his. I was completely covered by the blankets and the darkness created a warm, safe atmosphere. Briefly, I wondered if that's how a baby feels in its mother's womb before it's born.

I could hear the steady thump of Edward's heart and felt it as his chest rose and fell with every breath. It was wonderful just lying here with him. Then his breathing changed as he woke up and his heart stuttered a bit before beating faster. Hmm, that was interesting.

I threw the cover off of my head so that I could at least see him. He was looking down at me, eyes bright and mischievous.

"Good morning," He said, smiling.

My answering grin must have stretched across my entire face as I took in his appearance. "Your hair's a mess."

He grinned back at me and ran a hand through his hair, teasing it up further. "At least I'm not alone," He replied, picking up a strand of my hair and tugging on it playfully. "Yours looks like a haystack."

I laughed and went to sit up, but his arms materialized around my waist.

"Did I say you could leave yet?" He asked, mock-severely.

"Alice will be looking for me," I warned him.

"Let her look," He pulled me back down on top of him and kissed me like he never wanted to stop. My hands were on his shoulders trying to grip myself closer to him as one of his hands drifted down my side past my hip and to my leg. My bare thigh burned where he touched and I gasped when he flipped us so that he was above me and I was being pressed into the pillows. I wrapped my arms around his neck, holding him still closer while his lips drifted from my mouth and trailed across my jaw line to my neck and down to my shoulder. I shuddered as his nose skimmed across my collarbone and he pressed his lips to the hollow there. He kissed his way up to the hollow right below my left ear and caught my earlobe in his teeth.

"I'm really not looking forward to having to give you up to Alice," He murmured.

I kissed his neck and knotted my hands in his unruly hair and pulled his mouth back to mine. "Then don't," I said against his lips. He moaned and pressed me down further into the sheets, kissing me harder and more passionately before pulling away.

He sat up, eyes dancing with a mixture of desire, excitement, mischief and extreme happiness. I pouted at the loss of contact. "Did I say you could leave yet?" I quoted him, pulling him back down. He laughed and kissed me again, albeit briefly, before pulling away.

"I think I hear Alice storming down the hallway," He told me, chuckling.

I sat up with him, sighing and running a hand through my hair, a habit I'd picked up from being around Edward so much. I could hear her too and it was only a matter of time before—

The door crashed open and in its place was the tiny silhouette of the pixie herself. "Bella!" She marched into the room, completely ignoring her brother, and clamped her little hand around my wrist like a vise, trying to pull me out of Edward's bed.

"Noooooooo!" I wailed. "You'll never take me alive!" I grabbed Edward's arm and he wrapped both arms around my waist.

"Bella come on! They're having this humongous sale at the mall and I don't want to be late!" Alice said, nearly pulling my arm out of its socket. Wow she was strong.

Edward let go of my waist for the tiniest moment and slipped one arm under my legs before scooping me up completely, carrying me bridal style. Somehow, Alice lost her hold on my arm and Edward ran me out of his room and carried me down the stairs. I laughed as he ran from Alice, carrying me all around the house, while secretly hoping he wouldn't drop me. Alice finally cornered us in the laundry room and we were forced to surrender.

I smiled at Edward. "You gave it your best shot," I told him, pinching his cheek as Alice led me away as she grumbled and muttered to herself.

"Yeah, and since you did, you're coming along with us as punishment." Alice called over her shoulder.

Edward held up his hands. "Hey, at least I'll be able to sneak Bella away from you when you stop for ice-cream in the food court." He winked at me and I flushed.

Back upstairs, Alice practically threw me into the shower, telling me to hurry up and get out or else. Despite her threat, I took my own sweet time, washing my hair and letting the warm water run down my face. When I stepped out, I wrapped a towel around my body, brushed my teeth and blow-dried my hair so that it fell in soft waves around my shoulders. I dressed in a black halter-neck and crepe and chiffon shirt and patchwork low-rise jeans with black heeled combats. I wore a black leather and chain bracelet, black brass-knuckle-and-sparrow earrings with a pretty black purse to go with.

When Alice looked me over, she smiled in approval before dressing herself in a short strapless black and white icon dress over a black tank-top with fashionably worn and torn skinny jeans underneath. She wore velvet black ankle-boots and black and silver Bohemian design earrings with a black bag. She twirled for me and I laughed.

"Y'know it's funny, Alice." I said, measuring her height against my shoulder. "No matter how high the heels you wear are, you never get any taller." I laughed again as she smacked my arm and walked out, me following close behind.

Rosalie was waiting at the bottom of the stairs, already dressed in a black lace blouse under a red spaghetti strapped newsprint vest top, black skinny jeans, stilettos and a dark purse. Her golden hair spilled over her shoulders and down her back as she looked up as we came down, and smiled.

"About time you two showed up," She said.

Alice grimaced. "Blame Bella and our idiot brother, we'd have left ages ago if they hadn't decided to lam out on us." She shot a look at me and I smiled sheepishly.

"Sorry?" I offered.

"Sorry don't cut it, sister," said Alice, putting her hands on her tiny hips. "And that reminds me. Edward! Get your lousy butt down here NOW!" She called up the stairs.

Edward came down, running a hand through his hair, wearing a T-shirt with a giant 'Peace' sign on it with dark jeans and gray converse. He frowned down at Alice. "I don't even want to come, Alice." He grumbled as he trudged down the stairs, dragging his feet.

"Well you should have thought of that before you interfered." Rosalie replied mercilessly.

We piled into Rose's red convertible, me and Edward in the back seat with Alice riding shotgun. Rosalie turned the radio to a classic rock station and we all, meaning Alice, Rose and I, sang along to So What by Pink.

"So What"

Na na na na na na na na na na na na [x2]
I guess I just lost my husband,
I don't know where he went,
So I'm gonna drink my money,
I'm not gonna pay his rent,
I got a brand new attitude and
I'm gonna wear it tonight,
I wanna get in trouble,
I wanna start a fight,
na na na na na na na I wanna start a fight,
na na na na na na na I wanna start a fight.

[Chorus:]
So, so what
I'm still a rock star,
I got my rock moves,
And I don't need you,
And guess what,
I'm having more fun,
And now that we're done,
I'm gonna show you tonight,
I'm alright,
I'm just fine,
And you're a tool,
So, so what,
I am a rock star,
I got my rock moves,
And I don't want you tonight.

(Uh check my flow, aw)
The waiter just took my table,
And gave it to Jessica Simps (shit!),
I guess I'll go sit with drum boy,
At least he'll know how to hit,
What if this song's on the radio,
then somebody's gonna die,
I'm gonna get in trouble,
My ex will start a fight,
na na na na na na na he's gonna start a fight,
na na na na na na na we're all gonna get in a fight!

[Chorus]

You weren't there,
You never were,
You want it all,
But that's not fair,
I gave you life,
I gave my all,
You weren't there,
You let me fall.

[Chorus]

No, no, no, no
I don't want you tonight,
You weren't there,
I'm gonna show you tonight,
I'm alright,
And you're a tool,
And your a tool,
So, so what,
I am a rock star,
I got my rock moves,
And I don't want you tonight!

Laughing hysterically, I air guitarred in the back seat while Edward grinned. After Pink, Queen came on with We Will Rock You. Of course everybody knew that one and we sang it loud and proud until we pulled into the parking lot of the mall in Port Angeles, stomping and clapping with the beat. When Rosalie parked, Edward took my hand as I got out and spun me around the he would if we were waltzing. I giggled and Rosalie rolled her eyes as she walked past to follow Alice, who was already a few steps ahead.

"Come on, Bella!" She called over her shoulder. I sighed and took Edward's hand, intertwining our fingers, and followed them to what I knew would soon make me regret wearing heels.

Four hours and like, a million bags later, found us, rather predictably, in the food court. Alice and Rosalie had gone to get ice-cream and Edward was supposed to be guarding the bags. I'd stayed behind with him because at this point, my feet were killing me and I needed a rest.

I leaned against his shoulder and groaned. "Knock-knock?"

"Who's there?"

"I hate,"

"I hate who?"

"I hate shopping," I groaned again.

He laughed. "That was one awful joke but I won't blame you for it since this is torture for me too," His fingers trailed across the bare skin of my back and I shivered with pleasure.

"What happened to us sneaking away while they were otherwise occupied?" I asked him.

"We can always ditch them in Barnes and Nobles," He said, winking. I laughed and sat up as I thought about being surrounded by books, in a quiet, comfy environment. Alone. With him.

"Not a bad idea, Goldylocks," I said, playfully ruffling his hair.

He caught my wrist. "You do know that I am not a little fairy tale girl that goes skipping through the woods, breaking and entering bears' houses and stealing their food, right?"

I smirked at him. "I might have forgotten," I batted my eyelashes at him. "Want to remind me?" I continued sweetly.

He leaned in and swiftly kissed me just under my jaw-line before sitting back. "Maybe later,"

I pouted, before grinning again. "Here they come," I nodded towards Alice and Rosalie as they walked towards us with the ice-cream.

"Here we are," said Alice. "with a Cappuccino Chunky Chocolate Fudge for Bella, a Chocolate Mint for me, Rocky Road for Rose and last but not least, Lime Sherbet for Edward." She smiled a little too sweetly as she slid it over to him. "I know it's your favorite."

Edward raised an eyebrow. "What are you talking about? I hate Sherbet. It's not even a real ice-cream,"

"Oh, I'm sorry brother dearest, I had no idea." She smirked at him while he rolled his eyes.

"Come on, Alice," I wheedled at her. "He's suffered enough,"

"No, he hasn't," she sniffed.

"And he can't go get another one because I took his wallet too," added Rosalie with an evil grin.

"What? No you didn't—" He checked his back pocket and came up empty apparently.

"Really, you guys?" I said. "Stealing his wallet? Don't you think that's going a bit too far?"

"Oh, don't feel left out Bella, dear," said replied, giggling. "We took yours too." She turned to Edward gleefully. "Now you have to eat your horrendously sad excuse for an ice-cream,"

I pushed it back to her. "No he doesn't; he can share with me," I picked up a spoonful of ice-cream and put it in his mouth and when he grinned, I had to resist the urge to add a 'So there!' to the end of my sentence. He took the spoon from my fingers and fed me a bit of it too. I smiled at him, getting caught in those eyes. He stared back at me, his hair falling over his forehead and I pushed it back. Our moment was interrupted by Alice murmuring:

"Whore alert, everyone hide,"

We all looked up to see Lauren and Jessica entering the food court.

"Damn it," Rosalie said in a low voice.

"Oh no, they've spotted us!" I whispered harshly as Jessica turned back to Lauren and motioned towards us.

"Could they have dressed any more ridiculously?" said Alice incredulously. Her face was wide-eyed with horror. I looked again, this time noting their outfits. What I saw made me burst out laughing. Lauren wore a grayish white version of Rosalie's tank, only she had nothing under it, with a really short black leather mini-skirt, red heels with little bows on them, and a bright blue bag that did not match at all. Jessica was just as slutty but way more ridiculous. She wore red overall shorts that barely covered her ass with a black camisole underneath. She wore bright orange over the knee go-go boots with a giant yellow purse and huge blue star-shaped earrings. If that wasn't stupid enough, she was also wearing bright green eye shadow and lipstick with it.

They decided they wanted to make an appearance at our table a ridiculously swayed their way over to say hi. Predictably enough, the first words out of Lauren's mouth were:

"Hey Edward,"

I leaned back in my chair and regarded them coolly. "Hello Lauren, Jessica,"

Her eyes flicked unwillingly to me, "Bella," she replied snottily. "Alice, Rosalie,"

"Bitch," Rosalie murmured under her breath and Edward smiled, hearing her.

Jessica thought the smile was for her and she grinned brilliantly back while Edward looked away. The silence stretched.

"Was there something you wanted?" I asked, almost rudely.

Lauren tore her eyes away from my boyfriend and smiled at me. "We just saw you guys and decided to say hi. We should totally hang out more often." She sat herself down on Edward's other side and Jessica sat next to Lauren. Edward shifted uncomfortably, scooting closer to me and I put a hand on his leg, comforting him.

Jessica noticed and sneered at me. "Hey Bella, what's with the gothic look? Black top, black bag, black shoes, black earrings, weird bracelet and who even wears lace anymore? What are you, suicidal? You totally need my help," She and Lauren laughed together and I leaned back in my chair, regarding them coolly.

"Well, Jessica, if I ever want to walk around looking like Skittles for Whores, I'll be sure to give you a call." I smiled benevolently while Rosalie, Alice and Edward laughed and Jessica turned red.

"Skittles for Whores? What the hell is that supposed to mean?" she asked.

"Sweetheart," Alice said, laughingly. "You don't wear bright orange, blue, green, red and yellow at the same time without expecting people to wonder when you're going to start saying 'skittles: taste the rainbow'. It's just not possible."

"Ha!" Jessica spat. "You think you're the fashion expert, Alice, but you can't even do your own makeup right. You can't even tell if you're wearing any."

Rosalie and I snickered and Rose said: "Well your makeup is definitely interesting, Jessica. Tell me, when you chose green eyes-shadow and lipstick this morning, were you thinking of the princess or the frog?"

She stuck her nose in the air. "The princess, obviously,"

"Well you look like a frog," We dissolved into hysterics while, Jessica, red-faced, sputtered indignantly.

When we finally managed to shut ourselves up, Alice and Rosalie got up to throw their trash away while Edward and I finished the last of my ice-cream all the while, ignoring Lauren and Jessica.

When I gave him the last bit, some of it was smeared on his upper lip and, giggling, I leaned forward and licked his lip clean. He chuckled and wiped a finger on the inside of the empty cup, collecting some sludge leftover on the sides before wiping it on my bottom lip.

Grinning, he leaned towards me and took my lip in his teeth, running the tip of his tongue over it. My hand knotted itself in his hair, holding him to me as he kissed me and I kissed him back, tasting the cappuccino and chocolate in his mouth and relishing the fact that he was mine.

I pulled back. "Mmm, you taste good,"

"Do I?" His eyes twinkled, mischievously.

"Oh, yeah," I rubbed my nose against his. "I might go in for another taste,"

"I would let you."

"Ah-hem," Lauren pretended to cough. I ignored her as I kissed Edward again, partly rubbing him in her face and partly just enjoying being with him. "Ah-hem," she tried again and without pulling away from Edward, I reached my hand into my purse, pulled out some cough drops and tossed them to her. Edward smiled against my lips and pulled away as Alice and Rosalie came back.

"Where to next, Bella?" Alice asked amiably.

I immediately jumped at my chance to go to the store of my choice. "Barnes & Nobles," I said, standing. I looked down at all the bags surrounding our table. "But first, let's put these in the car. Edward shouldn't have to lug these around the whole time.

"Thank-you," Edward said. "Finally, someone who understands."

"Okay," Rose replied. "We can be flexible," And we gathered everything up and headed to the car. Unfortunately, Lauren and Jessica followed us.

While Alice and Rosalie organized the bags in the car, I stood to the side and watched. Edward stood behind me with his arms wrapped around my waist and his chin resting on my shoulder. I yawned and leaned back into him.

"Tired?" He asked me.

"You have no idea," My feet were killing me, my head was starting to hurt, I really wanted to sit back down and my neck was starting to hurt. "Everything hurts," I told him.

"Your neck?"

"Mmhm,"

He pressed his lips to my throat, lingering and trailing his mouth up towards my ear. "Your shoulder?"

"Yes," My voice shook as I struggled to form a coherent reply while he was touching me. His lips trailed down the side of my neck to my bare shoulder.

"Better?" His breath tickled my ear.

"For now," I said, smiling softly.

At Barnes and Nobles, Alice, Rosalie and Jessica and Lauren, who wouldn't go away, all decided to chill at the café while Edward and I actually went to go browse the books. I lead him to the teen fiction section and perused the dark romance novels. I'd picked up Hush Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick and sat down with my back against a bookshelf when Edward sat down with me and leaned against me, his head on my chest, with his hair tickling my neck, and his arm in my lap.

"Will you read to me?" He asked me.

I leaned my chin on his head. "If you want me to,"

"I do,"

"Then I will," I kissed his hair. "What shall I read?"

"Whatever you want,"

I looked at the book I was holding, shrugged and started to read to him in the quiet solitude of millions of books. It was wonderful to just sit here, to be with my beloved.

A/N: I hope you guys liked it. Sorry it was so late, but school's started, everything has been so hurried and hectic and I've been busy. You know how it is. Anyway, I'm here now and I'm BEGGING for reviews. Come on people! Do unto others as you would have them do to you!

Love you guys!

xoxoSirena32