Heyyy, this is my brand new fanfiction, i had this up before but i decided to redo it and edit some of the plot. So here goes nothing.

For many years I have acted like I thought I was meant to, heartless because that was what I was nothing more but a murderer. I killed any hope of her having a normal childhood. I had kept this secret for so long, it became a part of me, a part of my identity.

I thought I could keep my feelings in place, but I never was more wrong. When Bella hade her own daughter Nessie, reminded me of the child I had lost many decades ago, I wasn't there to protect her. The child I could never have, I wasn't even worthy of her.

She was alone, in the world. I was meant to protect her, I was her mother, and should have known better. But there was nothing I could have even done, I was 17 and alone with no help and a huge disgrace to the community.

Many times I had tried so much just to forget, but she was always on my mind. How her small fingers felt, her blonde hair, and her toothless smile. It was like the old me was starting to come out, and I couldn't control it. My own past was starting to haunt me, and it was ruining my future.

"What do you want to know," I asked, facing my family.

"Everything." Emmett looked like he was about to burst, he hated secrets more than anything.

"I suppose, this day was inevitable." I said, trying to smile, but it didn't reach my eyes, it was more forced.

I began to tell the secrets I have tried so hard to keep, hidden from the world to know even the people dear to me.

This is a sneak preview of what is to come, and i am going to post the full first chapter tomorrow.

Maya