Dear Diary,

Last night my entry to you was cut a little short because Manabe was waking up.

Oh my goodness diary! I had to put you on my bedside table and act like I was just about to lie down.

But he caught me! Oh~~ and what he did next diary is just so unbelievable!

He pulled me down closer to him and kissed me. He kissed me the same way he kissed me in that bathroom at the fair! So gentle, yet controlling. But it wasn't a bad kind of controlling. He knew what he was doing, that was for sure!

He grabbed my hands with one hand and he slid his other hand down my back to grab my Oh! Yup. He grabbed my butt. That amazing little devil that he is. But it doesn't stop there diary!

He kept his hand on my butt and he started french kissing me! EEK! He's so good!

Is that just because I don't know what I'm doing? Is it because I haven't had this experience since I was little? "Oh Yuki~ you look just like your mother did...hmhmhm who's a good little girl Yuki? Yes, you are, you're such a good little girl for papa aren't you?""Yes papa, I'll be your good...girl...yes papa. I'll be good for you." "Shut your mouth you little shit! I did not say you could speak!" "No papa! I'm sorry! Papa~! Please papa I'm sorry!"

I don't remember when at what point I had my flashback diary, but when I came out Kakeru was looking at me extremely worried. "Kiki? Love, what's wrong? Did I hurt you?" He wiped his thumb under my eyes and held my shirtless self to his own.

God diary. I didn't know what had gotten into me. But, he just held onto me. I guess I was crying. "Yuki, please tell me. What did I do wrong?" I looked at him and it took me a moment to remember where I was. "I'm so sorry Yuki, I swear I didn't mean to hurt you." I blink a few times at look into his eyes.

"You didn't do anything wrong Manabe-san. I promise you, it's not your fault." I spoke quietly to him and looked away not really looking at anything. "Then why are you crying my love?" He held me close and turned my face towards him. He touched his forehead to my own. I put my head into the crook of his neck and I start crying again.

"Yuki? Lovely, is there anything I can do for you?" I shook my head no and I held onto him. "Okay love." Low an behold he stroked the back of my head and held me, much like Nii-san did before we moved here. "It's okay Yun-Yun, papa's just a little crazy right now. Y'know what Yun-Yun? I'll make you a strawberry crepe in the morning hm? How's that sound? I can even make you a new pair of pants and shirt if you's like?" "mhm..." "Okay then, that's what'll happen. I love you Yuki, don't ever forget that, okay?" "Okay Amayee. I wont."

Oh Diary, I kinda wish things were different. But we all have a part to play don't we?

Oh Diary, I'm crying on you again. I'm sorry. I wish I could be better...

Goodnight Diary,

Sincerely,

Yun-Yun