And….chapter 5! Yay!

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Chapter 5: Is revenge really what's right?

Kurt was actually starting to feel better. He was avoiding Blaine and spending all of his free time with Brian. Brain had even come out to Kurt during the last few weeks. It wasn't any surprise to Kurt though at this point. They had talked a lot about when Kurt came out to his dad and his friends and what it was like. Kurt told him about Karofsky and about his first kiss leaving out the whole reason of why he was at Dalton now, and he even told him about the time he tried to pretend he was straight and made out with a girl.

Brian was starting to really like Kurt and he felt that Kurt was feeling the same towards him. They would text all the time and in the evenings they sat up and watched some of Kurt's favorite musicals. The musical's weren't really Brian's thing but he watched them because of Kurt anyway.

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It was a few weeks away from Regional's and Kurt hadn't spoken to Blaine since that one Warbler meeting. If you wanted to count that as talking. It still hurt to think about him. Blaine was Kurt's first reciprocated love. Every time Kurt seemed to see Blaine he was with Ryan. Had they gotten back together? That couldn't have been it. Blaine had always looked so miserable lately. Kurt had wanted to go over there to talk to him but he wouldn't with Ryan around. He just wouldn't do that to himself, it hurt to much.

Brian and Kurt where headed to Warbler practice once again, ever since winter break ended they had always walked to practice together. Today was different though and today Kurt had heard some rustling in one of the rooms near by.

"Hey Brian I forgot something in my room I'll meet you at rehearsal okay?" Brian nodded and smiled when Kurt leaned up to kiss Brian on the cheek. Kurt waited until Brian was out of site to investigate the noise he had heard. The closer he got the louder the noise got, it sounded like moaning and panting. A few doors up there was an empty classroom, the door cracked open. Did they not realize they hadn't shut the door all the way?

Kurt couldn't help but to look in. He had to know who it was and maybe he could catch some tips while he was at it. That last thought had Kurt confused. He didn't even watch porn on the internet and he was actually interested in watching two people have sex right in front of him? No that wasn't it. He just couldn't believe two people would actually have sex in a room where it would be so easy to get caught.

Kurt peeked around the corner, careful to not let the couple see him spying. His face beat bright red and his eyes fluttered. He felt his whole face stiffen. He felt so wrong doing this but he just couldn't believe two people were…Blaine!

Blaine was lying down on his back against some desks that were pulled together, his clothes laid in a pile underneath and his cock was hung high as Ryan played with his balls and leaning over Blaine's sweaty body. One of Ryan's free hands had Blaine's mouth cupped to keep him from saying a word.

Kurt just couldn't react, silent tears poured from his eyes as he stood, hurt and confused. He had to get anyway, he couldn't believe what he was seeing. It really was all a lie. Ryan had been telling Kurt the truth about Blaine.

Kurt ran back to his room his heart was broken into what seemed like a million pieces. When he reached the door he pulled out his phone and immediately called Brain.

"Hello…? Kurt? You okay? What's wrong?"

"Brian skip practice with me, I'm at my room I-I- just need you right now." Kurt sniffled softly and Brian hung up and excused himself. That he wasn't feeling very well and would have to miss rehearsal today. As he left he past a very guilty looking Blaine and a very pleased Ryan.

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When Blaine and Ryan entered late as they had been the last few meetings David became concerned. He gave Wes a look and Zack knew they would be starting late again today.

Without a word David and Wes pulled Blaine out and into the hall, leaving a very upset looking Ryan.

"Dude what's going on with you lately?" David was not going to let this thing go.

"Yeah. Blaine if there's something on your mind were here for you. It is about Kurt?" Wes tried to pull a smile from Blaine as he touched his shoulder. Blaine just nodded and slid against the wall onto the floor. He was just too tired to put up any real fight.

"Why don't you go talk to him then man!"

"It's not that simple. I kept trying to contact him all through break. He never answered or responded. I left so many voice mails and texts. I've tried to get him alone but he's always hanging around Brian now."

Blaine sighed. "Besides I'm a horrible person. Kurt doesn't deserve me." Wes and David blinked and looked back down to Blaine.

"What are you talking about. Your amazing Blaine."

"No I'm not, I'm horrible and I'm a slut."

"What do you mean you're a slut?" Wes hated that word for some reason.

"I've been sleeping with Ryan again." Blaine sighed, he just really wanted to punch something.

"Ahhh so that's why you've been looking so guilty lately." David felt like Sherlock Holms and he just solved the case.

"Shut up! It's not funny. Every time I tell him no that I don't want to. I try and push him away but he keeps going, he knows exactly what I like and what my body craves. He's just so much stronger then me. I just give up, hoping that it'll make me forget about Kurt." Blaine started to cry. He had never felt so weak before. David and Wes knelt down and they laid their hands on each of Blaine's knees. "It hasn't done a damn thing though to make me forget."

"Dude, one I just got a very disturbing image stuck in my head and two this is serious. You have to stand up for yourself Blaine. It's your body not his. Get over yourself and be a man!" David coughed. "No offense"

"You guys just don't get it do you!" Blaine cried as he stood up to face his friends.

"Then explain it to us then Blaine cause I don't get it!" It was Wes that yelled this time. It was weird, Wes never raised his voice.

Blaine sighed maybe they were right. Blaine was being a child and not even a very good one. He needed to stop running away from things. That was why he came to Dalton in the first place. A new start, new friends, he wasn't here to run away again.

"I just don't see how Kurt will understand this. He's never going to forgive me." Blaine ran a hand through his brown curly locks and down his face.

"I bet Kurt will fully understand if you just go and talk to him. Just please promise us you'll actutally go talk to Kurt tomorrow or even today."

Blaine just nodded and wiped his tears away on the sleeve of his Blazer. David and Wes smiled at him and the three of them went back inside and began rehearsal.

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It was pretty obvious that Kurt had been crying until Brian had gotten there. That was when a loud knock was heard on the door and Kurt pulled himself together - or tried to at least. Quickly he ran over and opened the door to find Brian on the other side, concerned and confused.

"Kurt what's wrong? What happened? Are you okay? You didn't answer any of my questions on the phone" Brian closed the door behind himself and pushed Kurt forward to take a good look at him. He was splotchy all over, his eyes puffy, and his cheeks red. His hands were cold and his hair was a mess. When Kurt noticed Brian looking at it he quickly adjusted and placing every strand back into place.

Kurt just stood there looking up at the taller boy without a word. He didn't want to talk about what was wrong he just wanted to forget about it. Without a cue Kurt reached up on his tip toes and pulled Brian down into a kiss. His lips brushed softly over Brian's at first, getting the feel of both of their lips together.

Brian blinked, surprised that Kurt was actually kissing him. It was only about a week and a half ago that Brian and come out to Kurt and the Warblers but look at where he was now. It just felt so right.

Suddenly, Kurt had pulled Brian down onto the bed and pushed his lips to Brian's harder, emphasizing his need.

"Whoa Kurt what's gotten into you?" Brian asked with a laugh as he pulled back from Kurt and looked down at his newly formed tears.

"Wa-what? Did I do something wrong?" Kurt was embarrassed he was crying and he was defiantly not in a presentable state. He didn't want to talk, he wasn't in the mood to talk he just wanted to do.

"No you didn't do anything wrong. It just didn't seem like something you would just do. You sure your okay?" Brain was a good friend and Kurt was feeling bad. If Kurt didn't even know who he was anymore then how could Brian know who Kurt was?

"Brian just kiss me…?" His eyes looked sad and pleaded up at his friend. "Please….?" Brian decided not to say anything more. Kurt was upset and he apparently needed this, Brian wasn't no going to give it to him. The truth was that Brian wanted this too. He wouldn't have admitted it to Kurt and he wouldn't have made the first move. But he had pictured the two of them just like this. Making out and heading towards other things.

Brian leaned down and brushed his lips over Kurt's and cupping his jaw with his hand. Kurt wasn't having any of it though. Kurt pulled Brian hard against his body and wrestled with the tie around his neck. Brian seemed to like the aggressive Kurt and so Kurt kept going.

His dainty fingers battled with the buttons of Brian's blazer and shirt. They were off in a flash and laid who knew where along the floor. Kurt's nails grazed the slightly tanned skin of Brian's chest as their tongues battled in their long kiss. That was when Kurt received a small moan let out from Brian's lips and it gave him a bit of reassurance.

"Brian?" asked Kurt in a breathy whisper.

"Yeah Kurt?" Brian replied as he moved his lips away for breath and Kurt grabbed onto his neck.

"Take my shirt off. I-I-I want us both to be in the same form" Kurt's eyes were closed shut he really didn't want to look. The sooner this was over the sooner he could forget. Brian didn't even need to reply. Quickly Brian ran his fingers over the buttons of Kurt's blazer and shirt and they laid on the floor along with his own now.

Kurt began to moan as Brian's mouth latched onto Kurt's neck and he planted kisses up and down along his jaw line, stopping at where is shoulder and neck connected. Kurt was beginning to get annoyed by this time though. Why was this not over? Why had he not forgotten yet? Why was Blaine still swimming around in his mind?

As Brian was still preoccupied with Kurt's neck, Kurt reached out to the buckle of Brian's belt. That was when Brian noticed the move and he gasped in anticipation. "Oh K-K-Kurt" Brian stuttered as the buckle loosened.

Kurt's palms were sweaty and his heart rate had elevated to a rate that was most likely higher then was normal. His brain felt like it was swimming and his whole body was stiff. He was certainly aroused. What teenage boy wouldn't be aroused when another person touched you in those types of ways?

"Brian…?" whispered Kurt.

"I-I-I-can't do this!" Kurt pushed Brian away quickly and sat up running his hands through his perfectly groomed hair as he leaned back against the head board of his bed.

"Kurt…I! Did I do something wrong?" Brian sat up and grabbed his shirt from the floor, slipping it on.

Kurt grumbled and as much as he always swore himself from touching his face he rubbed his face to try and rid the stress.

"No…it's not you…it's me" Kurt looked up at Brian realizing how lame that sounded. "Sorry I mean we shouldn't be doing this, not right now. I'm not ready and I know your not ready."

Brian now sighed, "Yeah maybe your right. But you seemed all for this what happened?"

"I don't really want to talk about it Brian. Just I was upset and I thought you could help make it go away." Kurt could feel the pain coming on again and he hoped he could compose himself until Brian left.

"I'm sorry Brian…I-I-didn't mean to hurt you if I did."

"Kurt no it's okay. The important thing is that you felt like we were pushing it and you stopped." Brian stopped to laugh. "Beside's I don't regret anything. That being my first time with a guy and I have to say it was great."

Kurt let out a small chuckle. "Well thanks, but I had no idea what I was doing either." Kurt looked up from under his long black lashes at Brain to notice that he was pulling on his Dalton Blazer. "Brian were still friends then?"

"Yeah dude no problems. I'll see you round then?" Kurt nodded as he watched Brian leave then room.

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It had been a long day for Blaine. Just today he ate, had sex, went to Warbler practice, wallowed in self pity, finished practice, wallowed more in self pity, and now he was heading to Kurt's room. He didn't even know what he was going to say to Kurt when he even got there. 'Hey Kurt I love you, come back to me?' He felt like such a loser just thinking about it.

Why would Kurt even want to talk to him anyway? It had been all over school lately that Kurt was with Brian. That Brian was now gay. Blaine had even heard some people say that they think that Kurt was the one to turn him gay. Blaine knew better though. Blaine knew Kurt wasn't like that that he wouldn't manipulate someone like that. He felt so dirty and like scum.

The whole walk towards Kurt's room, Blaine had been playing these same mind games in order to try and get himself to turn around and head back. He had to make up a lie to Ryan about what he was doing and thankfully David and Wes had come to his rescue.

Blaine had made it to the start of the hallway that led to Kurt's room and he felt his body become cold and stiff. Why was he so nervous? Oh right rejection. Rejection was the number one fear Blaine thought anyway of teenagers. When you get rejected your self esteem reduces and some kids can't handle it. Blaine knew he would live but it still hurt his ego and esteem pretty bad.

He was snapped out of his thoughts when a rather disheveled Brain walked by him and nodded a greeting. Had he just come out of Kurt's room? Blaine's bright blue/green eyes were wide and in shock. That had to have been correct. Kurt's room was like three doors away and Blaine hadn't seen Brian further down the hall before that.

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A knock sounded at the door and Kurt looked up from his place on the bed. "Uh…one moment!" Quickly Kurt jumped and landed by his clothes. He was just picking up his shirt and started to button up when Blaine entered the room.

"Kurt?" Kurt looked up again, his eyes wide and he immediately felt uncomfortable. He wondered how he looked to Blaine. He was buttoning up his shirt, his hair was a mess, and he was sure he looked as if he had been crying. To top it all off Kurt had to wonder if Blaine saw Brian leave his room.

"I…uh…came to talk." Kurt's face started to heat as Blaine stepped forward. Quickly he turned and headed to his desk where his tissues sat.

"You okay Kurt? What's wrong?" It was that same heart felt compassion that Kurt felt in the stairwell at school that one day and that just made everything harder.

"I'm fine" He blew his nose, "Just uh…allergies. I get them worse during the winter months."

"Uh huh…and your hair?" Blaine wasn't buying any of this.

"I took a nap." Kurt immediately looked up and put his hair back into place again, it didn't help that his hairspray say abandoned in the bathroom.

"So you skipped practice to take a nap? That doesn't sound like you Kurt."

"I already said I wasn't feeling very well Blaine," snapped Kurt and it drew Blaine back a step.

"Did Brian just leave here?" Blaine didn't want to ask but there was no point in standing around awkwardly playing games until someone spoke up.

That was when Kurt nodded and Blaine felt his whole insides flip upside down and his stomach drop.

"So you weren't taking a nap?" Blaine looked over at Kurt's back and his eyes gazed over Kurt petite frame waiting for a response but gone none.

"Did you two…just…uh...you know." Blaine had tucked his hands into this pockets and stood at the foot of the bed watching Kurt. The silence between question and response seemed like a lifetime and Blaine's palms were starting to sweat in his pockets.

Kurt was shocked when he heard the question but not all that surprised. It was confirmed that Blaine did see Brian on his way here.

"Of course we didn't!" Kurt turned around when he heard the loud release of breath that Blaine had been holding in his waiting of a response. Blaine was about to begin his next question when Kurt spoke up once again.

"I tried though…" Kurt looked so broken. Lately that's all he's looked like. Kurt came to Dalton to not be broken and Blaine was just ruining it.

"What do you mean you tried?" Blaine started to feel a lump form in the back of his throat, he could use some tea to calm himself right then.

"Your back together with Ryan right?"

"No! I never want to get back together with him."

"BullShit Blaine!" Had Kurt just yelled and swore all in the same sentence? Blaine was shocked and was choking on his response.

"Why do you keep insisting on lying to me!" A single tear slide down Kurt's red face and he stood from his bed to try and seem more intimidating. Blaine's mouth was just held open agape not really knowing what to do or say at that moment.

"I-I Saw you! I saw you and Ryan today! You were naked in a classroom...together! So don't you DARE tell me there is nothing going on between to and Ryan!"

"K-Kurt I…"

"NO! Blaine I think you should go." Kurt turned around, his back facing Blaine again.

"Kurt! Stop it! Just stop. Your blowing everything up bigger then it really is!" Blaine turned Kurt around again and held his arms in his hands tightly so Kurt wouldn't try to move away again.

"I came here to talk to you Kurt." Blaine said more calmly now and sat themselves both down on Kurt's bed.

"I wanted to tell you. Or I had to tell you. I miss you Kurt. We were such good friends. You were someone I could connect with. But then you broke up with me. I felt broken and then Ryan was there. He knew what I liked and I thought maybe it would make me forget about you." Blaine felt sick admitting this. He was admitting how weak he really was. He was such a faker. He acted strong and confident on the outside but on the inside he just ran from his problems.

That was when Kurt began to cry harder and Blaine then knew it was over. "Kurt please don't cry I'm sorry! I didn't want to hurt you!" Kurt didn't respond for several moments as he just wept into Blaine's arms. Finally he wiped his nose on his sleeve and hiccupped.

"No…It's not that Blaine. I did the same thing. Or I tried too." Blaine blinked and pulled Kurt away from him.

"Kurt what are you talking about?" That was when Kurt broke out in a new set of tears.

"Just now! I tried to have sex with Brian but I couldn't go through with it! I kept thinking about you." Kurt paused "I still love you Blaine" whispered Kurt.

That was when Blaine blinked and had to let Kurt go. There was still actually a shot at this. Blaine just had to say the words. Those three magic words that Blaine had been so frightened of in the first place and what had gotten him into this mess. Well them and Ryan.

"Kurt your amazing you know that right?" Kurt just kept looking down without a response. He didn't feel amazing. He felt like a horrible person and felt like he wasn't good enough. Blaine was more experienced then ever before and Kurt couldn't even go through with it.

When Kurt didn't say anything Blaine leaned forward. His lips hit Kurt's in a fiery rush and his hands gripped the sides of Kurt's waist to hold him still. Blaine brushed the stray strands of hair away from Kurt's face and he held the back of his head tenderly.

Finally, Blaine pulled away and just smiled down at his angel-faced boy who was in shock and disbelief.

"Kurt I have to tell you something, and if I don't say it now then I'm going to regret it for the rest of my life." Blaine paused to pull Kurt closer.

"Kurt Hummel? I love you, I know I made some huge stupid mistakes, but I do love you and I remember what I said.. but I mean those words now. I just hope you'll maybe forgive me and take me back?"

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Muwahahaha what will Kurt do! I wanted to keep writing but I thought that was a great spot to leave off haha. Sorry I'm mean. But it'll just be even better when Chapter 6 starts!

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