The Choices We Make
I did not enjoy leaving her behind. Feeling that I once thought only humans could and should have were tearing my chest apart. She did need to make her mind up though and deserved the right to know all her options. I left her with all of my heart and thought I'd be able to leave her be.
This was not the case, I had to return to her at least once a month to just see her face, hear her voice and know she was alright. Each time I departed from the humans I felt what little heart I have break. To see her smile at them. I felt as if I won the battles and would to lose the war. They smiled back, laughed, hugged and had no problems showing her affection. To lose her even though I knew she was happy would be like her death to me. I could never leave her alone, never let her be as a human should.
I keep myself busy restoring my role in the western lands. Taking my time in destroying those who opposed me. Though each time I was attacked by the pathetic human race I thought of her. My Rin, who was nothing like the others. Nothing like the simple beings of her race. My joy in all the dark. My Rin.
And now I will tell you what happened to lead to the path I choose.
Rin sat by the river, her feet dangling so they were submerged with in it's warm depth. It hadn't rained much so the water was not high and thee current was not swift. Lady Kagome and Inuyasha sat nearby, Kagome had been teaching Rin to swim and she was excited to get in the water once more. Kagome had been teaching a lot of things to the villagers, though she was wary of a few not wanting to create a problem in the future. She had made swimsuits though, which the group was sporting. Rin smiled as she watched the sky, waiting for her two companions to stop their bickering and get in the water. She had a butterfly in her heart. She always got one there a few days before he arrived at the village.
"Hai!" Kagome yelled as she stood and pulled the white haired Inuyasha up off the ground. "Come on!"
Inuyasha grumbled but stood as she pulled, a small smile on his face as he loved seeing her all railed up. "Feh, fine, fine..." He sighed and jumped in thee river, followed by Kagome who helped Rin get in.
The three swam and fought in the water for a few before Inuyasha stopped and got out of the water. A blush on his face as he cleared his throat. "It's time to get out." Kagome blinked and tilted her head about to ask why when Rin gave a small shrill and caught her attention.
"I've been hurt!" The girl cried as she noticed the bloody water around her and diluted blood on her inner thighs.
Kagome blushed and helped the girl out of th water, she grabbed a towel and wrapped her in it assuring her everything was alright. Kagome had not really thought much of this happening, in truth she would have guessed it happened a year or two before. Rin had turned 15 not to long ago. She had started when she was much younger, everyone was different though. With Lady Kaede's help she explained to Rin what was going on and how to deal with the 'gift'. Rin laid down to take a nap laving the two to speak of her.
"Lord Sesshomaru should be comming for a visit soon. We must talk to him then. Rin is a woman now, she will have to marry. Though she is not of royal blood she has received a few proposals. I dare not choice for that is up to her Lord. They are good families that would take care of her. She has been trained in running a home and schooled well, this is all we can hope for." Lady Kaede said as she fixed a remedy with Kagome handing her herbs.
"She should get a say in the matter. It isn't fair to just give her away." Kagome sighed, knowing that this was different in the era she was in. Rin would have no say in who she was 'wed' to. She would have to deal with the choice Sesshomaru made for her and do her 'duty' as a wife.
Kagome and Sango had been lucky to be given the opportunity to chose who they would be with. Sango was happy with her family, though she no longer fought beside Mikoru. She now took care of the children and home when he was off. Kagome looked down as she thought this over. It would be better if Sesshomaru sought each family out to see for himself which would be best for Rin. Though if he would do so or just pick on the fact of which family held the highest ground and political views or if it would settle peace between this village and another... There was a lot more in to it then just randomly picking a suitor for the girl.
"He will be here soon enough." Kaede sighed as she stood. Not nearly young enough to deal with a angry demon. She would soon pass, and did wish to see Rin in good hands. With someone to provide for the girl. She had wished the young women would have grown up more in her years in the Miko's care. She sighed and leaned on her cane as she removed the medicine and headed out of the hut to deliver it.
Kagome followed to help. Rin laid on the straw filled futon mat, tears down her face. She did not wish to wed anyone besides the on she loved. It rubbed salt in her wounded heart that he would be giving her away to someone else. She had never defied her Lord, and she would not start now. She would do as told and live a sad life. For what ever he wanted she would do. She could not live if he would be displeased with her.
It was three days before he arrived, hid right hand over his face as he neared his Rin. The smell of her hormone filled blood was enough to drive him mad. He had not noticed how he had grown, not realised how much of a woman she was. Now with the smell in the air he was slapped in the face with reality. The time had come. The years of thinking had passed and now was the time he would be forced to act. Forced to say what would be done with the girl. He knew the miko's were not stupid eenough to think they could decide his Rin's fate.
"Lord Sesshomaru, please wait for me!" Jakken pleaded as he carried the packages that Sesshomaru had brought for Rin.
"Find Rin, tell her I will find her not to come to me." Sesshomaru spoke as he ignored the green creature behind him. He wanted to speak to the miko's before he spoke to Rin.
"Onii-san!" Kagome called, smiling as she approached. He still looked annoyed. One of the miko's he wished to speak with.
"Where is the old one?" He questioned his brothers wench.
"Lady Kaede is at the hut." Kagome said annoyed slightly, seemed only fair though.
The two headed towards the hut and frowned as Kaede stood outside the hut waiting on them. "Lord Sesshomaru." She greeted. "You know already then." She said seeing his hand.
"I am sure you have your ideas on the matter." He spoke in a slightly annoyed voice as he stopped feet from her.
"There has been few suitors for her." She nodded.
"Have you spoke to her about them?" He asked trying not to notice his brother was walking towards them. "I have and will let Rin choice her own path. What she wishes will be granted even in the matter of her future."
Kagome smiled as she heard this. She had been worried there for a few about the out come of Rin's husband. Now that she knew th girl would get her say in the matter a weight was removed from the miko's shoulders.
"You will let a child choice what is best for her in the future?" Kaede frowned.
"I will." He glared back at her and turned away, not bothering with the old woman any more. His mind was made and she had no right no second guess his words. H found the girl easy, sitting under a tree with opened packages around her, new kimonos and shoes, jewelry of the highest regard something he had not given her until now that she was older and more responsible. The smell was strongest here. He dared not remove his hand as he watched her. Looking at her as a woman and no longer a child. Her hair was long and shiny as it had been before, no longer did she wear the small pony tail in the front but let it flow around her framing her face. She had lost the childishness in her face, though the kindness and purity still remained. Her eyes sparkled at the jewelry in her hand and her mouth was set in an O shape as she ran a finger over the rubies. Fuzziness filled his chest as she did this, she liked the gift he gave to her. He would give her anything to see the look more, h crushed the feelings though and walked closer. She looked up at him and dropped the necklace without a second thought to it as she ran to him, a look of bliss and love now replaced the one she gave to the necklace. He stopped and sucked in a quick breath as he noticed it. She had always looked at him with the same look. A look he did not place until now, on her grown up face.
She loved him.
Not in the childish way he had always thought she did. In the way a woman and man were meant to love one another. She had undying love for him. The type that would lead to trouble.
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or it's characters. Other wise we would have seen what happened with Rin and Sesshomaru.