I love Taylor Swift's new song "Speak Now", and it really inspired me to write. So I wrote this one-shot. Please review! Oh, and you might want to listen to the song before or after reading so it makes sense (:

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I couldn't believe it. When I had first heard the news, I had almost laughed out loud; because it couldn't be true. Edward Cullen was not getting married. It was completely out of context for him to do; definitely not something my Edward would do. But then again, he wasn't my Edward anymore.

After I had saved Edward in Volterra, and he had asked for my forgiveness.. I hadn't taken him back. Sure, I had accepted his apology, but that didn't mean I was going to be one of those girls who takes a boy back right away after he breaks your heart into a million pieces. I politely told him "no", and he had left Forks to do who knows what. At first, I was afraid he had gone back to Volterra, but Alice assured me that he was safe.. just spending some time in Denali.

I hadn't been worried then; Denali was a smart place for him to be. Away from this stupid town and away from me. I had been glad.. almost joyous.

But then Alice had informed me that Edward and Tanya were getting serious. That they had already gotten to first base and were planning to go further. Again, I wasn't too worried. Edward wasn't the type of guy to get out of a relationship and right back into one; he'd back off Tanya soon enough.

At least... that's what I had thought.

For months, Alice filled me in on what was going on with them; told me every single detail.

"They cling to each other like their lives depend on it." she had told me. "They're so lovey-dovey with each other that it's almost sickening." She'd winced at that point. "I think they're getting really serious, Bella."

And that's when I had started to get worried. Deep down, I wondered if I should have just taken him back that night. I kept getting this strange feeling in the pit of my stomach that wouldn't go away. And every single one of my thoughts revolved around what Edward and Tanya were doing at that very moment. Holding hands? Hugging? Kissing? The image of that almost re-broke my heart.

But I knew that I wasn't the type of girl to be jealous. As long as he was happy... well, that was all that mattered. The months passed quickly, and Alice soon seemed reluctant to tell me what was going on.

"Bella, let's just stop talking about it. It's really not that big a deal anymore." she said hesitantly after I had asked her what they were going to be doing this weekend. "How about we go to Port Angeles for a shopping spree? I'll pay!"

If she thought that shopping would get my mind off of Edward and Tanya, then she was being stupid.

We went to Port Angeles though, and as we tried on clothes, I brought it up again. Alice immediately changed the subject, asking me what she thought of the dress she was trying on.

I started getting suspicious, and for the few days that followed, Alice wouldn't give me any details. Just that they were still together. I knew that something was up; Alice hadn't been known to be the best lyer when it came to lying to me.

When I finally confronted her about it, Tanya and Edward had been together for 8 months. That was way longer than I expected them to last.

"Tell me, Alice!" I exclaimed, frustrated. "What's going on with them?"

"Nothing; it's no big deal, Bella. Let's just leave it-" she began.

"Alice." I interrupted her. "Tell me."

She sighed and looked down. Then, quieter than a whisper, she spoke.

I didn't understand what she had said; she was being too quiet. I asked to repeat it and she took another deep breath. She stated it louder.

And I understood. My stomach began to knot uncomfortably, and my heart started racing.

She had whispered "He proposed to her."

And that's when I almost laughed out loud. It had to be some kind of joke. Edward was definitely not the kind of boy who would marry the wrong girl; I mean, how could he not see that she was all wrong for him?

But Alice wasn't laughing, and she looked distraught as she thought more about it. It had to be true, and it was utterly dumbfounding that it was. I had always planned on marrying Edward some day; well, after I hadn't taken him back those dreams were erased. But even after all of that, there had been a little bit of hope that he would come back and beg me to take him back; just maybe. And then my dreams would come back.

I sounded like such a brat for saying that, and I quickly shook my head to get rid of the thought. If Edward had begged me to take him back, he wasn't the person for me. But he hadn't, and it looked like he was never going to, anyway.

"When did he propose?" I whispered, staring at her upset face.

"4 months ago." she sighed. "She basically begged him to do it."

"So he doesn't actually want to marry her?" I asked hopefully.

"I don't know Bella... they're inseparable. Maybe he really cares about her." she shrugged.

I bit my lip, my heart still pumping wildly in my chest. Now, more than ever, I wanted to go back in time and take him back when I had the chance. The conversation we had had in my bedroom after we had gotten back started to echo in my head...

"When we were in the forest, when I was telling you goodbye... you weren't going to let go. I could see that. I didn't want to do it-it felt like it would kill me to do it-but I knew that if I couldn't convince you that I didn't love you anymore, it would just take you that much longer to move on with your life. I hoped that, if you thought I'd moved on, so would you."

"Are you telling me... that you lied? That- that you never stopped loving me?" I whispered.

"Bella, I had to. You never would have let me go..." he replied.

I was silent for a moment, staring at him, and then I brought my hand up and slapped him hard across the face. It felt like slapping a statue. His face turned to the side, not because of the force of my hand, but because he saw where this was going.

I slowly pulled my hand back, and he turned back to me. He looked speechless.

"I forgive you." I told him quietly. "But I'm not taking you back, Edward. You broke my heart... I can't just recover from that so easily."

"I understand." he whispered, his expression beyond upset. "I'm so sorry, Bella."

And then he was gone; to who knows where. I flopped backwards onto my bed and stared up at the ceiling, thinking.

That little confrontation continued to play through my mind like a broken record. I realized I was staring at Alice and I quickly shook my head and turned away. I felt tears start to well in my eyes.

"Awe... Bella." Alice reached forward and hugged me tightly; I pulled away.

"I'm fine." I muttered. "I-I'm gonna get home."

I drove the truck from the Cullen's house back to mine, and the whole way there the tears wouldn't stop. I wasn't even sure why I was crying. Was it because Edward was getting married? Was it because I was jealous of Tanya? Was it because Edward hadn't even told me?

I walked into the house with my head hanging, the tears splashing onto the floor. Charlie must have heard my entrance, because he walked into the kitchen where he found me hunched over the counter with my head in my hands, sobbing.

"Bella?" he exclaimed, rushing forward and prying my hands from my face. "Are you alright? What happened?"

"Nothing." I reassured him, straightening myself and looking at him. "It's that time of the month."

That was enough for Charlie to back off. Good thing he'd obviously forgotten that it had really been "that time of the month" 2 weeks ago. PMS was always a good excuse to use on Charlie. I walked upstairs and into my room, slamming the door behind me.

I didn't really know why I was so upset. I just knew that I had to take my anger out on something. I grabbed one of my pillows and threw it at the wall, watching it plummet to the floor after it made impact. I grabbed another one and did the same; it seemed to help. I stopped crying and just concentrated on throwing stuff at the wall. My pillows, my teddy bear, my clothes, and anything else in the room that was soft and wouldn't break were soon hitting the wall. Item after item, until I got tired and jumped onto my bed with one of the pillows. I buried my face in it and screamed.

When I pulled my face out of the pillow, I emerged a calm person. I calmly picked up everything I had thrown and calmly put them back in their places. I calmly opened the window to let some air in. I calmly picked up the phone and dialed Alice's number.

"You ok? You seemed pretty upset when you left..." she said right away.

"What day is the wedding?" I asked calmly, my voice even.

She was quiet for a moment.

"Alice." I stated calmly.

She sighed. "It's this weekend. Sunday."

"What's the theme?" I asked, still calm.

"Underwater ocean or City of Atlantis, or something dumb like that. Why?" she replied.

"We're going." and then I hung up the phone.

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-Catherine