Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi.

Dear Julia,

I dream about you ever night, Jules. It makes me look forward for sleep the entire day. It's always the same dream, too. You and me are lying underneath the sunset in the middle of a field, and it's perfect.. Just like you were. But as soon as the sun finally sets, you disappear and no matter how hard or long I look, I can't find you. You're gone. And I always have the same feeling in the pit of my stomach that I did the second the doctor told me you were gone. That's not a feeling I would wish on anyone, Jules. Not even the bastard that hit you with his car.

Even though I don't believe in God, I really do hope that there's a heaven. It's just because I want you to be safe and happy, wherever you are now, since I can't protect you anymore. I want you to be able to finish writing those books you used to spend so much of your time on, and reading those long novels I will never have the attention-span for. And I know that if there is a heaven, I'm sure there's a special spot in it reserved for you because you were like no other person I've ever met.

I hung out with Clare again today. She started asking questions about you. She wanted to know if you were like her, and I of course said no. When she started asking how you two were different, I said that I didn't know. She knew I was lying, so I told her part of the truth. I told her that you and I had more in common. She got offended somehow, even though I was just stating a fact that she wanted to know, and stormed out. Usually I would have chased her, but instead I just sat there and thought about you. If I had told her the full truth, that I loved you more than I love her, she would probably never talk to me again.

That's another difference between you two; you're way more laid back than her, Jules. It's number 8 on my Top Ten Things I Miss About Julia list. Original name, right? Ha. Number 1 is the way you looked naked. Ha, kidding again. It's actually the way you laughed. The way your eyes squinted and your nose wrinkled up a little bit made me just want to kiss you.

Damn it, Clare is calling me. I should probably stop writing this letter now. It's not like you'll ever be able to reply or anything. I just really hope that you will be able to read it. I want you to know that I still think of you all the time, and I miss you so fucking much. Even though I like Clare a lot, it kills me to move on from you. If I could, I would have stepped in front of that car and killed myself just so I could have saved you, Jules. It's too late now, you're gone forever. And the only time I'll ever be able to see you is in my dreams. I'll see you tonight underneath the sunset.

I love you,

Eli

This isn't one of my best works,

and I'm sorry for the total anti-Eclare in this. Yes, I'm obsessed with Eclare, but i have a huge soft spot for Eli/Julia. Look at some of the videos on youtube for Eli/Julia and you will see why.

PLEASE REVIEW IF YOU WANT MORE ELI/JULIA. OR IF YOU WANT TO SEE ME WRITE SOME ELI/CLARE.