AUTHORS NOTE! This is the second version of this story, edited and stuff! I went back and put stuff in, took some stuff out, and editted the wrongs so read and review, see how well I did! XDDD Thanks, all the same warnings about this story, the slash and tears, so yeah. This story was dedicated to Mana-McC So thanks to her, you guys had this story in the first place. THANKS FOR THE REVIEWS TO THIS STORY! I APPRICIATE IT! THANKS SO MUCH!

Author : SlashyAntics

Warnings: Lots of tears, D: But it will get better. BoyxBoy kissing, so if you dont like, dont read! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. Flamers will be laughed at!

Disclaimer - I don't own the characters of this story who ever said they were...what a wonderfull lie, but they lie like rugs :D

Summary- Damon is with Elena, but only so he and Jeremy can together. Elena finds out forbids him from seeing Damon again. Depressed, Jeremy tries to OD, got to read to find out what happens. :D Severe OCC Slash Jyler - Some Delena. Mean!Elena

The knock was causual, almost lazy as pale knuckels rasped against the wooden door of the Gilbert residence. Damon was leaning against the doors frame as he waited for the door to be answered. He looked down at the floor and listened inside hearing foot steps and words being passed back and forth inside the lounge.

The wind behind him whipped his dark blue shirt as he could feel sun grazing his back. Damon looked up as the brass door knob was twisted and the door was pulled open to reveal the smiling face of his current girlfriend.

His mischevious grin was in full force as he stepped through the door way. Elena lightly placed her hands on his arms, her lips pressing against his, and his hands were automaticly placed on her hips.

The kiss was chaste and quick, but sweet well for her anyways.

"Sorry that I'm early, our little Steffy was getting on my nerves." Elena grinned and smacked Damon on the arm slightly before stepping out of his grip. Her hair was still damp from the shower she had gotten out of not thirty minutes previous of his arrival, her clothes and make-up in place ready to go for the date that had been planned for today.

"Well, I am almost done, I am just gonna go and dry my hair and we can go?" The last part wasn't really a question, but Damon just nodded in responce. She smiled cutelyand turned, but not before kissing him on the cheek and jogging up the stairs.

Damon looked to his left after hearing the kitchen door close rather loudly and he sighed quietly before walking silently towards and through it. His eyes immediatly caught sight of his target and he quietly snuck up behind the tense body that was facing away from him, scratching harshly at the soapy plate that was among other dishes in the sink.

Damon's hand reached forward when he was close enough and rubbed lightly at sides that was covered in soft material before wrapping his arms completely around the warm body placing his chin on a strong shoulder.

Jeremy didn't even jump or drop the glass plate he was determind to take his anger out on when Damon wrapped his cooler than humanly normal but strong- arms around his waist. He closed his eyes and sighed when Damon reached up, still keeping an arm around his waist, and took the plate from his hands placing it in the sink full of suds before reclaiming its place pressed against his body. His hand seemingly fit perfectly against the Jeremy's hip bones, one of the many parts of his young lover's body that he had often loved to explore.

"Its just a kiss Jeremy." His tone was quiet as he spoke against his ear, lips trailing over the shell before pressing a soft kiss the side neck making him shiver. The shudder that racked down his spine made Damon smirk lightly against the soft and tender skin before planting his chin back onto Jeremy's shoulder.

"I know...but its still hard to see you two...together in anyway, without getting mad and start yelling at her...because you're mine and it's not-"

"I know Jeremy, I know." Damon cut his speech off and hand movements that were getting excess suds everywhere. Damon waited till Jeremy wiped his wet hands onto the red and white dish towel before unlatching his arms and turning the human teen to face him. The ring around his eyes was slightly red causing Damon melt. His right hand reached up and latched onto the side of Jeremy's face softly, though he kept out a ear for the blow dryer still going off in the upstairs bathroom.

He leaned resting his forehead against the teen's heated one. A tan warm palm was placed over Damon's larger one. Damon's impossibly blue eyes stared deep into Jeremy's switching from one to the other before closing his eyes with the most trust that anyone in Damon's life knew he could give to someone.

Jeremy sighed closing his eyes tiliting his head head bumping their chins together before pressing his lips against Damon, Damon automaticly repsonding. Damon's finger enlased with soft dark brown locks, running through them and scraping his nails slightly against Jeremy's scalp, giving comfort in any way he knew how. Damon cupped the back of Jer's neck keeping him there with the other hand. Soft and warming lips closed around Jeremy's bottom one, teeth biteing almost enough to make it red and leave a mark causing Jeremy to almost silently moan.

The soft and tender side of Damon Salvatore wasn't a side that was often seen, like probably never. Elena didn't even get to see it the way Jeremy did, the way Damon touched him before or after sex. Or just when they layed there withDamon's arm's cradled around his back pressed him to the taller male's chest, his strong arms making Jeremy feel safe and loved again exspecially after all the people he had lost.

Jeremy's hands were at Damon's side, keeping him close, trying to find a way to keep him there forever, but he knew when Elena was done this would all end.

Damon seemed to read his mind or feel the sudden tenseness in his muscles and pull back to look at the flushed face of his secret boyfriend. Damon tilted his head and watched with a confused gaze, though he was far from not knowing what Jeremy was thinking, but Jeremy just avoided his gaze likeing it better to stare at the floor where his feet where shuffling.

Damon sighed and curled an arm around Jeremy's neck pulling the boy forward to rest his head against Damon's chest, though no heart beat could heard. Jeremy's arms wrapped around Damon's back cradling his body against Damon's, trying to almost make them fuse together, their fronts completely pressed against one another.

The arm of Damon's that was not holding his young lover to him was petting and softly tugg locks that he often love to pull at, tease about and burry his nose in. The smell of Jeremy embracing him, getting him close to the human, knowing that he was actually there.

"I know that its hard, but this is the only way...It will end soon, and we can just...leave" Damon's voice was at normal speaking level, but still soft. Jeremy just nodded, but Damon pulled back frowning hard before looking at the ceiling and sighing. He leaned and pressed his lips to Jeremy's loving the taste, pulling back quickly as feminin foot steps were heard stepping down the stairs.

"We'll finish this later." And Jeremy just gave a small smile with no reply and Damon nodded before exiting the room at vampire speed, the front door closing loudly not a minute later.

Jeremy's touched his lips still feeling where Damon had bitten his bottom lip. He was reaching up to finger at the special vervain bracelet Damon had made him. He knew that it was to keep OTHER vampires from manipulating him, but Damon had said that it kept him self from doing it too. That arguement on how Jeremy would always trust Damon not to do that hadnt lasted long when Damon won with just touching Jeremy.

Jeremy just sighed and rubbed his eyes looking at the clock on the oppisit wall wear the moon clock hung and then number 3:38 PM glared back at him . 'Its gonna be a long day.'

With that thought he got busy again with washing the dishes that had been his distraction.

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It was dark and he didn't exactly know what time it was when he heard the loud buzzing sound of his phone and the 'thunk' when it hit the wooden floor clarifying that it had fallen off his beside-table. Jeremy raised his head off the dark blue pillow sluggishly looking around his empty bedroom and frowned sleepily. He glanced over at the open window that Damon would usuaully close behind him. He shook his head and reached getting the scratchy sleep crusties out the corners of his eyes. He rolled onto his side looking for his phone on the bedside-table but was greated with bright red blaring lights.

'1:23 AM'

Jeremy's frown deepend before reaching blindly on the floor for the silver and black device that was again buzzing. He felt his fingers tap against it, and pushing it away, but he just couldn't find it in his sleepy little mind to actually get out of his warm bed and look for the damn thing. So reaching around like an idiot half asleep would just have to do.

His fingers finally were able to wrap around it and flip the top open though he had to squint at the bright light of the screen, but successfully seeing that he had three text messages. The first was Elena saying that she would be late..

He quickly check the last two.

Message - Damon S. 1: 17 : Hey, hope I'm not waking u. 'lena decided to get a couple of drinks with Caroline & Bonnie, sorry that I couldn't come and lay with you ~~~ ` Damon .S

Message - Damon S. 1: 20 : And Jeremy dont forget, I love you. 3

"I love you too." Jeremy muttered into the quietness not bothering to texting back, Damon probably already knowing that he had read his text. Jeremy just leaned over and placed his phone back on the small side table -farther away from the edge this time- and just layed backwards and staring at the blackness. Though this time he felt a smile on his face as he curles his fluffy comforter around himself trying to make a perfect subsitute, just for tonight though.

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The light greeted Jeremy this time, though he was glad it was Sunday. He looked around the room once again, and sighed before getting up and heading to the bathroom closing the door behind him and releiving himself. He was wondering what happened with Damon and Elena last night. Jeremy knew that Damon and Elena hadn't had sex yet, well Damon said that and Jeremy believed him. He smiled while washing his hands and brushing his teeth about all the times and conversations.

The touches and words spoken, their first time and of course Jeremy was a shivering mess when Damon's lips ghosted over his sweaty flesh, biting and tasting. His moaning while Damon moved above him, all around him...in him. Jeremy couldn't help but smirk as he looked down to his pants and a certain solider was already stand up straight.

He finished washing his face and shaved quickly. Damon said that he liked Jeremy's like beard, the light bristles, but Jeremy was just now getting the mustache and beard and he didn't like how it looked, so he usually shaves every few days. Luckily he only cut himself once.

His morning wood had completely deflated, thank god because when he came back into the room Elena was just exiting while looking down at something in her hands, her back faced to him.

"Elena!" His voice was cheerful as he called to his older sister, who looked startled and turned around to face him, hiding what ever she had behind her back. Jeremy tilted his head in confusion, but didn't really care enough bother with it. Elena and Jeremy took things from each other all the time, and this wasn't an unusual thing.

"Jeremy! Hey...Uh, goodmoring." Her olive skin reflected in the light as she waved with one hand and smiled awkward. He couldnt help but grin at her. "Something you needed, Elena?" He said her name with that tone, the one of I-know-you're-up-to-something-so-just-leave-already.

She opened her mouth and nodded looking around. "Just uh, wanted to say sorry for leaving you alone so late." Okay, her exscuse was pretty lame as she never had any problem doing it before, but you can't judge a girl for trying. "Yeah, its fine-Actually got some house work done today, so yeah." Jeremy scratched at the smooth skin of his right face cheek, nodding at his sister who nodded and mumbled something before making a quick exit.

Jeremy raised his eyebrow twisting him mouth, wearing a rather comical exspression.

"Strange, Strange girl." Jeremy said tisking as he closed his door and dressed for the day.

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"I just DON't understand WHY I can't go!"

"Because you did NOT tell me where you were going, and passed you curfew."

"But wasnt even that much!"

"It was three HOURS Elena." Man, Aunt Jenna sure was tearing her a new one. Jeremy couldn't helpbut grin, Elena wasnt perfect and not alot of people saw that. All they saw was the sweet soft little Elena who had lost her parents, Jeremy wasn't as lucky to have that. He lost his parents too, but everyone just saw him at the boy you need to avoid, the goth drudgie longer. Jeremy had tried to see past what people had named him and everytime he even thought about it, Damon would know. Damon had become upset on several occasions when Jeremy thought or said these things about himself.

Jeremy sighed and looked outside and saw the sun come through once again. He officially hadn't seen Damon more than twenty four hours. The whole day he was waitng for a text, but when he realized he hadn't heard his phone go off he went looking for it.

He had asked Jenna if she had seen it, but she just looked at him confused and told him she was away the whole day yesterday. Of course asking Elena, who had been acting really angry to him like a pmsing bitch, just answer a snipped 'no' and walked away.

"JEREMY! If you want a ride to school with me you have to hurry up!" Jenna's voice was loud as she yelled up the stairs, obviously Elena wasn't going to give him a ride. Jeremy sighed, and looked at his outfit, it was simple enough. Dark washed jeans and wite logoed band tee with a black short armed button up, tennis shoes and his back pack. He didn't even bother with the hair, the whole thing like grass, soon needing to cut, though Damon basicly forbid it.

"Well he is just gonna have to get over that." Jeremy whispered to himself as he walked down the stairs grinning and running his hand through his long hair. Jenna smiled at him confused, but wasn't taking his good mood for granted and walked out the door.

School was a drag, as usuall, though having Alaric as his teacher while he was dating his aunt was just a bit comical, but still just as stressful.

He sat on the benches drawing and waiting for Jenna to come and pick him up, but she would be running a tad late so he waited in plain few listening for his name above yelling and jokes. He was drawing a blackened rose, not having the right colors to color it red or some other color.

He felt the sudden urge to look up and the instant his eyes raised from his half done creation they locked with baby ocean blue. Damon wore the 'Damon' smirk, his black hair shining in the sun, looking like a god...and holding his car door open for Elena, though when Elena spotted Jeremy she just grabbed the door herself and slammed it shut. He tilted his head confused and looked at the Damon smirking before shaking his head.

Damon tilted his head towards his car giving a clear sign for him to get a ride, but he just shook his head and smiled waving his head, though he had to squint as the sun hit him in the eyes. Damon smile turned soft before walking around the car opened his door and gracefully getting into the drivers side before speeding off out of the parking lot.

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"Jesus christ." Jeremy laughed out slightly as he picked himself off the floor from where he had tripped. His foot had caught the table leg as he was talking to Aunt Jenna, well yelling down the stairs, and was trying to walk side ways. He was a clumsy mess right now and at least his face wasnt the first thing to hit the floor, believe him when he says that is not a fun thing. Jeremy latched onto his back pack and picked it up from the place that it had been thrown when he fell over his own fucking feet.

"Smooth Jeremy." Shaking his head and shuffling his feet this time, dragging them slightly so he had less of a chance to trip, well he hoped he did.

Jeremy sighed and sat on his bed but couldn't help but smile. He had been awhile since he was so...happy. He looked down at his bracelet and twisted the dark vine between his index -and middle- finger and thumb before reaching for his shoes and laughing, memories forming in his mind as he pulled off one of his shoes.

"And what are you laughing about?" Jeremy's head snapped over the smile instantly falling off his face when he locked eyes with dark raged ones. Elena was standing in the door way her arms crossed, fingers tight around her biceps the nails would drawing blood if wasn't the long sleeved pink shirt that Elena had decided to wear that morning. Her steps were slowed as she looked around his room, almost like a distraction of not walking over and slapping him.

The shoe that he had slipped off his socked foot fell to the floor and he lifted the other leg. Looking down he untied the white laces though it wasn't completely nessarcary, but it would keep him from looking at her for the moment.

"You..little bastard." Elena words had him stopping short, not slowing down, not pausing and restarting... just completely stopping. He tilted his head after frowning deeply and thought if what she said, what ELENA GILBERT his older sister, well first cousin if you want to get technical, just called him. He left the shoe on, undone, and looked over at Elena.

"W-what?" Jeremy stuttered over his words as he watched Elena stop closer to him, uncurling her arms. Jeremy had the urge to back up, but he didn't.

"You heard me. You. Little. Bastard! How could you!" Jeremy was very confused and it showed started to quickly pace in front of him. Jeremy stood up and walked towards her slightly but sat back down with a now stinging face. Elena...hit him! Jeremy knew that it didn't do much damaged but a red cheek, and he had taken worse hits from Tyler, but this was...

"Elena I don't..."

"How could you do that to me!" He watched her as she reached into her back pocket...and pulled out his cell phone. The cell phone with all his and Damon's text...

Jeremy was almost almost glad of it not being a complete secret and he was almost happy that this was actually real, but he could tell this conversation was far from being a merry thing, thats why he said almost.

"Don't! You!...How could you?" She spat the words at him, and he almost winced in repsonce to them. He couldn't look at her, yes he was sorry she had to find out this way, and yes he was worried what she would do...but he was not sorry he and Damon were together and she couldn't make him say it.

"Look Elena.." Jeremy's face was pale, but Elena didn't care. In fact she could care less. He had taken something that was hers damnit. Touched Damon, kissed, hugged, held hands, maybe even HAD SEX with something that belonged to her.

"Hey, is everything alright in here?" They both looked over at Jenna as she peeked her head in, obviously dressed for a night out with Alaric or a friend, well you never really knew with Jenna. Elena's face turned back from rage into just regular Elena, though that was after she glared hatefully before turning to Jenna and nodding. He looked at his phone and debated making a grab for it, but that would just cause trouble, questions from Jenna, and he just wasn't ready to answer.

"Yeah, everythings fine." Elena answered for the both of them, Jeremy not even bothering to look up and answer.

"Okay than...Well going out, got a hot date with a certain teacher." Okay, date with Alaric it is. Elena said her goodbyes to Jenna as their aunt walked away, down the stairs, and out the front door. Jeremy's hand bunched into a fist on the top of his thigh and he peeked through his lashes at Elena who was staring at him.

"I can't even look at you...I FORBID you from seeing him again." Jeremy head snapped up at her words.

"Y-you can't do that-" Elena walked over and threw his phone of the bed and stood infront of him pointed a finger right in his face. He was tempted to slap it away, but he just...couldn't harm his sister in anyway.

"I can Jeremy...and I do. You will NOT see him anymore!"

"You are NOT mom-"

"You even look at him-" Elena stopped short and got very close to his face. Her lips were locked tight, and he could see that her jaw was clenched. Her hair was was hanging straight, if he reached his fingers up slightly, he would feel his brush the top of his hand. He could see her pupils, they were blown wide with anger.

"So help me god...I will out you to everyone! I will make your life a living hell. Damon is mine...it doesn't matter what you two have...God you're disguting! You two are done! Don't talk to him, to call him, dont LOOK at MY damon!" Jeremy looked up at her as his eyes started to water, and soon enough the image of Elena started to get blurry. His fingers clenched and he started to shake.

"." Jeremy's voice broke and he had to clear his throat before looking down, no longer being able to look up her...God.

Elena grabbed his wrist in her grip and made him look at her. "Do you understand?" He tugged his hand out of her grip and stood up making her back up but she didn't flinch, she just stared at him. Jeremy knew that if he pushed Elena to far she would do it. He would deal with being out, but so many things could happen and Damon would be outed too, but Jeremy loved him to much for that.

"I understand..now get the fuckOUT of my room." She watched him as he yelled at her and pointed towards the door. He face was cracking nearly as bad as his voice, and she was glad he was hurt. He could see that he please her too, and he couldn't bare to look at the sibling who he had grown up with.

"Fine...I'm going out. Got a date." Her words were like a slap to the face as she walked out his door and he walked over and slammed it locking it harshly. If he was a vampire like Damon the knob probably would have broken off.

He turned and leaned against the door heavily. He stared out the still open window, the one one he had hoped Damon...Oh god. Jeremy felt himself starting to shake worse as he slid down the door, he couldnt believe this. Jeremy jumped up and he jogged over to his stereo and turned it on full force, the volume making the birds outside his house screetch and fly away. He let the tears fall and his cheeks turned a deadly red as he walked over to his desk and slid his arms across it pushing all the item onto the floor.

He tore things, ripped, stabbed, threw, and everything else. His room looking like a major tornado had come through an used Jeremy's room as a punching bag. His hands and knuckels were bleeding. his face had a small scratch, his feet were bloodied from stepping on broken glass that had been his cup of water on his night-stand. He didn't feel the injuries, didn't hear the music, did see the mess, he just slumped on his bed, laying on his back, and continued to sob and cry till he fell asleep.

Jeremy had spoken to soon, he knew the happyness wouldn't last forever.