How Do I Love Thee? Let Me Count The Balloons.

Justin's POV

And Brian leaves the door open to go get his briefcase. What on earth could he possibly have in there that couldn't wait till tomorrow? What would he want to give me, that apparently is a treat for both of us, for our wedding night, and then decide tonight is more important? Every time I think I've got Brian Kinney figured out he does something like this that totally blows the mind… and not my cock, or me blowing his cock. I can't wait till he gets back. I'm trying really hard (ahh) not to touch myself, because I know whatever he has to give me won't wait if I'm in a compromising position when he returns. No matter how much I would like to be in such a position for him.

Brian comes back in with an envelope in hand, still naked, semi-hard, toned, perfectly tanned, fucking gorgeous, a god among men. And he's all fucking mine! He smiles his little smirk, he knows what I'm thinking, maybe I'm drooling, but I'm sure my cock getting harder and painfully throbbing and still dripping might be a good sign as to what I'm thinking. He bends down on his way to the bed, picks up the scarf, and places it around his neck, then stands up. I gasp, I can't help it. A naked Brian is the sexiest thing on earth, but with that scarf, just the scarf. Fuck.

"Fuck, Brian"

"Yes, Sunshine, see something you like?"

"You fucking know I do, now get your ass over here so I can pound it into the mattress all. Night. Long!"

"Patience Sunshine, first your gift."

And he hands me the envelope, both our names on it, from the clinic? Oh my god, tell me he's not sick again, I rip open the envelope and pull out the paper and am fucking. Speechless. This, wait, it can't be.

"Brian, does this, I mean, what, is this what I think it is? What are you saying?"

"Those are our test results Justin, both clean as a whistle and completely healthy. So it is what you think it is. And I'm saying what you think I'm saying. We'll be married tomorrow… I think it's time we forgo the condoms, don't you think? You are the best I've ever had, and I plan on keeping having over and over and over again, top, bottom, sideways, and any other position we can manage. I don't want anyone else, ever. What do you think?"

What do I think? What do I think? Brian Kinney is promising me monogamy AND bare backing. Holy fucking shit! I get to fuck Brian fucking Kinney raw. What the fuck am I still sitting here for?

I attack him as he laughs. I grab his cock and practically eat his lips, then I grab his ass with my other hand.

"Fuck, Justin… slow down… we have all night."

"Sorry, it's just." I can't help but grin like the cat that ate the canary. "I get to fuck Brian Kinney raw." I know I have a big shit-eating grin on my face and I don't fucking care cause ( I gotta say this again ) I GET TO FUCK BRIAN KINNEY RAW! For the rest of my life. I'm crying, now, I'm crying? Shit!

"Sunshine? Are you sure you're up to this little boy?"

Oh no, he did not just say that.

"Little, little, I'll show you who's up to it… roll over."

"Yes, sir." He smirks.

*gasp* Still so fucking perfect.

I take the scarf and put in around my neck; while I lean over him I let the ends gently sway against his skin. I can tell he's enjoying this, if his little gasps and pants are any indication at all. I love the reaction I can get from him, and I know only I get this reaction, and only I will ever get this reaction. I rub his ass gently, sliding my hands up and down his cheeks and thighs. He moans and starts rutting in to the bed.

"Hold still, and hold on." I say.

I part his cheeks and breathe across his hole. He gasps "Justin."

I lick a couple of times, softly, slowly, as he starts panting and breathing harder. I stop, he whimpers, he whimpers? I chuckle.

Then I attack his hole, stabbing it with my tongue, tongue fucking him as hard and as long as I can. I love the taste of Brian, I can't decide if I can't get enough of eating his ass, or him eating mine, or fucking him or sucking him or him fucking or sucking me. He's gasping, and panting and rutting hard. "Oh, fuck… God… Justin… gonna… stop!"

I stop and smile and just wait for him to catch his breath.

"Want you inside me… when I come."

Right, inside him… raw… oh yeah!

I grab the lube and squirt some in his hole. He gasps. "It's cold."

"It'll heat up."

We both chuckle. "This really is a first time, isn't it?"

"Yes Justin, now hurry the fuck up… fuck me so I can fuck you."

"Such a bossy bottom"

He turns around and glares at me, but his eyes are smiling. Then I shove two fingers in him fast and graze right over his prostrate.

"FUCK!"

I start to move my fingers, scissoring them apart, stretching him, adding a third.

"Justin, fuck me."

I straddle his legs and line up my cock, my bare cock, fuck that's beautiful. I have to sketch this when I'm done, but will never show anyone. I grab the lube to rub over my cock. Then I stop and get off of him.

"Justin, what are you waiting for?"

"Turn over, I need to see your face… I want to see your eyes as I fuck you raw."

"Fuck."

And he turns over. I kneel between his legs and line my cock up with his hole, again. Our eyes are drawn to each other and we stare into each other's soul. There's no going back, once this happens, that's it, I know we'll never want to be with anyone else, we'll never want the feeling of any barrier between us again.

I grab his legs and place them on my shoulders. Then I push in slowly. Oh. My. God. Give him time to adjust and push in further. Then I push in all the way and just stay there for a sec. Our eyes still locked, barely, we have to fight to keep them open. The he pushes back, telling me he's ready. We both instinctively look down as I pull out slowly. We both watch in fascination and utter bliss as my cock slides, naked, in and out of his ass. Our eyes meet again. I lean forward to kiss him. The kiss is tender and aggressive and too much and not enough, all at once. We're both groaning incapable of speech while we're both bombarded with feelings that are beyond imaginable. To be raw inside him, un-fucking-believable, it's more than I ever thought it would be.

I break our kiss so I can breathe and our eyes meet again.

"Brian, I… fuck… inside… raw… god!"

"Justin… can feel… every throb… fuck… faster… harder."

I grab his ankles and hold them apart as I start pounding his ass, bare, "FUCK!"

"BRIAN!"

Can barely make out words "harder, faster, deeper, fuck."

I grab his cock and begin to stroke with the same speed I'm pounding his ass.

He cums hard, harder than I think he ever has. His ass grabs my cock and rips my orgasm out of me. We both look down immediately… my come is in his ass. I swear he had just stopped cumming when he starts shooting again, just as hard. "JUSTIN!"

"Fuck, God, Brian, so… Shit!"

He collapses back on the bed as I collapse on top of him. I was just thinking I needed to get off him, when he grabs my waist and holds on tight. "Don't pull out." He whispers. I meet his eyes, we both have tears in our eyes. So close, we're so close right now. I don't have to pull out. I can feel my dick softening and my come dripping out, I can't help it, I move my hand between us, and without pulling out I rub my come that's on his ass right below my dick. He groans.

"Fuck, Justin… I never thought that raw… could feel this good."

"Brian… I feel… so fucking close to you… a part of me is inside you. I can feel you. I can feel you."

I don't care that I'm crying, I have never felt so close to another person in all my life. God I love this man more than anything else, I would do absolutely anything for this man.

"I can feel you too. And as much as I don't want you to pull out, I want to feel inside you, too."

My eyes jump to meet his, my cock had just slipped out and hardened immediately at his word. We both groan.

"Yes, Brian, fuck me, fuck me raw, hard, fast, NOW!"

He flips me over and laughs, I laugh, god this feels fucking amazing. Laughing with the man I love, crying with the man I love. Fucking raw with the man I love.

He attacks my lips and starts stroking my cock while our tongues duel in each other's mouth. He pulls back when breathing becomes necessary, then gets an almost evil glint in his eye. "What?" I ask him.

He slowly starts licking down my stomach, licking off his come and our sweat. He licks my balls and then cock.

"Brian, Oh god!"

He gets down lower and licks my hole then starts rimming me like his life depended on it. I'm moaning and groaning and can't speak coherently, just babbling; the things this man can do with his tongue. Then he sucks my cock all the way down his throat and swallows while shoving lubed fingers in my ass.

"AAAHHH! Brian!"

Fuck he's fast, I didn't even see him get the lube, I didn't even hear what he was doing. Then in one smooth, fast motion his mouth and fingers are gone, my legs are on his shoulders and he attacks my mouth while his cock rams into my ass. "AAAAHHHH!"

Then he freezes, fuck… raw… Brian, in my ass, raw!

"Justin… this feels so fucking amazing."

"I know."

I start moving telling him I'm ready.

"Stop. Don't move, not yet… feels so gooood!"

I can feel his dick throb, it feels so soft and hot and wet, fuck!

" I never knew why you wanted me to stay in and not pull out… I get it now… I totally get it. I don't ever want to pull out, not after this… and I didn't want you to pull out. Now I know why other's want this, but I had to make sure you were safe."

"Never want you to pull out… but yeah, especially after this. We both needed to be safe and sure. Still can't believe how hot and soft this is. I hope this doesn't ruin the mood, but I am going to sketch this, I have to, but it will be for only us."

"Go right ahead Sunshine. I just have one problem."

"What could possibly be a problem right now."

"I desperately want to move and fuck you, but I want to never move again."

"I know what you mean, let me help with that."

I flip him over, and after he slides out and groans at the loss, I quickly settle back on top and slowly glide his cock in my ass and then I start riding him.

"Justin… fuck… that feels… fan-fucking-tastic."

"Brian."

He reaches up for the ends of the scarf and wraps them both in one hand then pulls, hard. Kissing me like he needs my mouth to live and it was killing him not to kiss me. I know exactly how he feels. We both moan deeply into each other's mouth. From the amazing sensation that is his perfect mouth moving instinctively with mine, his tongue dancing with mine, moving as much as our gasps and groans can allow us. Because we're still fucking, raw and he feels so fucking good inside me, I can feel every ridge and vein and throb and poke and stroke.

He lets go of the scarf to grab on to my waist and lifts me up with both hands and starts forcefully moving him up and down on this cock while he moves his hips hard and furiously.

"Oh, god, Brian, so … fuck!"

"Justin… come… for … me."

And I do, just like that, and then he comes.

"Holy shit!"

"Christ!"

Brian's come is in my ass. Again, I say Holy Shit!

I collapse on top of him, with him still inside me.

"God, I love you Brian, so fucking much. Thank you so much, this was unreal!"

"I love you too Justin, and you're welcome, I think we've both wanted this for a long time, it just took one of us, oh, who am I kidding, it took me to realize that what we have can't be beat. We can't find it anywhere else, so why bother trying. Our lives together have just barely begun, our fucking adventures have just barely begun, now that we have the rest of our lives to fuck raw, and I can't wait to make you mine in every way possible, this was just the beginning."

"As much as I would love to continue such a sweet, heart-felt, beautiful statement, I'm fucking exhausted. And we have a busy day tomorrow."

"We do, don't we, but you haven't told me anything about tomorrow."

"Mmmm… it's a surprise."

"You know I don't like surprises Sunshine."

"I know, but you'll like this one."

"You falling asleep on me?"

"Mmmm hmmm."

"Shouldn't we get cleaned up first, we're all wet and sticky, or have some of the lovely food and champagne you put out for us. "

"I like wet and sticky, naked, mmmm, feels good, and I'm too sleepy to eat."

*chuckle* "Alright, Sunshine, go to sleep, we'll get cleaned up in the morning. You must be sleepy to refuse food."

"Shut up. Night Brian."

"Goodnight Sunshine." Brian covers them both with the sheet, while keeping his Sunshine safely in his arms.

"Love you Bri, can't wait to get married."

"Love you, too Justin, and me either."