A haha... Hey guys! -gets pelted with tomatoes.- GAH! Holy mother.. i am SO. SO. SOOOOOOO. sorry. I don't even expect you guys to forgive me... or even read this.. I am on my KNEES. Begging for forgiveness. Holy crap, i know... i'm a horrible person. But.. i'm back! e.e I still love you all 3 Usually I don't have "titles for this..." so i'm just gonna call this chapter... "The Homecomings" WARNING. Gets kinda... depressing.
A couple of weeks later..
Madge POV.
Life in District 13 is pretty lonely. Gale and Katniss are always away on missions. All I do is sit in my room and pray that they're alright. We have televisions for our rebellious promos. We're always getting in footage of what's happening in the other districts as well. I feel uncomfortable without Gale here. Missing him holding me, kissing me, touching me. I feel, so jealous, envious of Katniss, she sees him more than I do. I'm always doubting myself that Gale with crawl back to her, and leave me behind with our baby. Which I know will never happen. Well, I hope.
At least I have a job to keep me busy, I now work with Mrs. E, Hazel, and even Prim found a job in the hospital wing. I love it there, I feel like I'm needed. It keeps my mind of off things until the evening. After that my thoughts go everywhere, I usually cry myself to sleep. Since no one is there to comfort me. I've stopped going to dinner with the Hawthorne's, Everdeen's and Bristel. It's not the same when Gale's not there to hold my hand under the table.
I've made a couple of new friends, I sometimes run into Sparky on random occasions. He even took me out to dinner a couple of times. But that's not on my mind right now. Gale's coming back tonight from District 8. They made some more tv promos to broadcast. I'm so excited that I even asked to get off of work early. I'm hoping to make this night perfect, before he has to go back to meetings everyday. I make sure I shave, shampoo and condition my hair thoroughly, and lotion every inch of my body. I know it's a rule to wear the ugly tan clothing that D13 provides for us. But I'm choosing to be a rebel and wear a short summers dress and have my usual bow in my hair. My baby bump isn't that noticeable yet. But Hazel knows, I told her while Gale was away. It's not like I could hide it, I'll just have to break the news to Gale tonight. Just thinking about Gale is already making my heart pound.
I meet up with Hazel and the Everdeen's. We always walk together to the homecoming. Vic and Posy stay in the room. Rory comes with us, hand in hand with Primrose. Those to have become "official" they announced to us that they have a 'thing' now. It's cute, and both parents are fine with it.
Gale POV
"Gale? Are you alright? You look sick.. And green.." Katniss smirks at me. I don't know why people ask me this every time. The whole world knows that I can't stand flying. I try to snap a comeback at her, but I keep my mouth shut, knowing something besides words could possibly come out of my mouth.
"Yes Gale, you wouldn't want your pretty girlfriend seeing you in this shape." Annoying Sparky says trying to contain his laughter.
"Shut the f-hiccup.. Up." I glare at his eyes, that are surrounded by golden piercings. I still can't stand this guy, one, he looks like he came right out of the capitol. And two, he's always talking about Madge. Madge.. How long has it been since I heard her voice? How long has it been since I've been able to kiss her luscious lips. I miss her more than she could ever know. I can't wait to see her, I don't care if my ma's against it, I'm will be staying with her tonight. I'll be able to kiss her, touch her, do so many things without kids popping out of nowhere. Just thinking about it makes me shift in my seat. I need her, I love her more than life itself. We're only five minutes away from landing. Five minutes away from Madge.
"Alright kids, welcome home to D13." Sparky winks at Katniss. My blood starts to boil. Can't he flirt with people his own age?"
"I wouldn't call this place home.." Katniss said ignoring his obvious gestures. I look out the window and see a crowd gathered together to welcome us home. We walk out onto the escalators one at a time. Katniss is beaming seeing her mother and sister. My eyes go straight to Madge, who looks beautiful. I start walking towards her when I hear.
"GALE HAWTHORNE!" A vicious voice calls out to me, I see my mother marching over to me. Face fuming, I can practically see the steam flaming out of her ears. I'm scared.
"Yes Ma..?-" I'm cut off with a slap in the face. "Gah, hells teeth. What was that for?" I say holding my red cheek.
"I'm so disappointed in you." I'm confused, she chokes. "You could've at least told me." her eyes start to water. I look over at Madge, she quickly looks away while holding her stomach. Shit, oh shit!
"Ma, we were going to tell you together." I grab Hazel's hand. "It's just I've been busy-" I'm interrupted again.
"Oh, busy enough to knock her up?" Madge is blushing badly. The room is already starring us down. I look at Katniss, the look in her eyes.. Hurt? I turn to look at Madge, but she's already walking out of the room.
"Ma, I'll talk to you about this later." As I run to catch up with Madge, I rustle Rory's hair. "Tell Vic and Posy I'll see them tomorrow ladies man." Rory blushes as he holds tightly to Prim's hand. At least his love life is ok. "Madge?" I look around and see her small figure walk into the elevator. "Madge wait!" I put my arm through the door before it closes. "Madge I-" she grabs me by the collar of my shirt, yanks me inside and presses her lips hard against mine. "Mmf.. Madge?" I gasp flabbergasted.
"Shh, don't talk." she moans in my ear. I don't even get a welcome back honey? Eh, who cares this is great. I back her fragile body into the railing of the elevator. Not to hard, I don't want to hurt our baby. She stops for a moment, I look at her baby blue eyes. She jumps up on the railing and wraps her legs around my waist and pulls me in closer.
"Babe take it easy." So impatient today.. She kisses my neck, leaving a burning trail with each peck. The elevator dings and I grab onto her. She wraps her arms around me and I carry her down the hallway. It's hard to focus of where I'm going since her kisses and moans are distracting me. We get to her room.
Madge POV
"..Key.." Gale groans in my ear as he nibbles it. I reach for my pocket and hop off of him. Fiddling frantically, shaking because I haven't felt this in so long. I kick the door open, turn around at a wide eyed Gale, and pull him in.
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Gale lays by my side peacefully asleep. I didn't think the second time would be so painful. I thought it was suppose to feel amazing.. Is it because I'm pregnant? Can making love hurt the baby? Does making love to Gale make me a.. whore? We're not married, and I don't feel guilty about it either. But it's ok right? Because we love each other right? At least this homecoming was better than the last…
Four weeks before..
Madge POV
It's the first time Gale had to leave for a mission. We had a fight, and I had no one to talk to. I have never had a drink in my life. I found a couple of bottles in my cupboard and it went downhill from there. He wasn't even gone that long, only three days, but three days felt like an eternity to me. If I wasn't drunk, I would be smoking cigarettes. Did I care that I had a baby suffering inside of me? No. I went crazy, and I was really quite embarrassed. All I wanted was Gale.
Gale POV
My first assignment went pretty smooth. I was a little nervous, but excited that I was actually doing something to fight against the capital. I couldn't wait to get home, to see Madge. Oh right.. We had a fight before I left. She didn't even come to say goodbye.
"Gale!" Posy comes running up to me at full speed. I smile at her and spin her around.
"Welcome home sweet heart." Ma and the rest of the family come and join. I look around.
"Where's Madge?" Everyone avoids eye contact. My heart starts pounding. "Where's Madge." I ask again.
"Gale.. She hasn't come out of her room since you left. We haven't seen her at all." Prim says quietly. My heart drops and I'm already running towards the elevator. What the hell. Has no one checked up on her? I gulp. Is she.. No, she cant be. I cant breathe. I pound on her door.
"Madge? Madge!" no answer. I kick the door open, the site I see almost makes me faint. Bottles, everywhere; Liquor, beer, wine.. Anything you can think of. Piles of cigarettes cover the floor. And Madge, laying lifelessly in a blanket with only her undies on. Her bare back facing the ceiling. "Oh my god, Madge!" I run over to her, flip her over and check her pulse. She's alive.
"Mmm.. Gale?" she slowly opens her eyes. "Gale.. Why are you crying?" I can smell the smoke in her breath.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Madge."
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I remember that like it was yesterday, I vowed I would never ever hurt myself or my baby like that again. I was so ashamed, embarrassed. Gale couldn't even look at me for awhile. Hell, I couldn't even look at myself. What happened to the strawberry loving, piano playing Madge? The Mayors Daughter, the one who did everything right? Who is this person lying here, not a virgin, pregnant, alcoholic smoker? This is me now? Can I change? I have to change, for the sake of my baby. The baby, I really don't want.
I kind of have a habit of making my stories... dark. o_O Don't worry.. Madge will be back to normal... soon.:3 Review and tell me what you think! Again.. I apologize for being a $#$%# and not updating Muah!