Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter! JK Rowling owns all! This story contains rape and abuse if you don't like that please don't read!

Harry's occulmency nightmares are now Ron and mine as well. It's bad enough that Harry has to go through with it but us too. I mean I guess I can understand the reason why, we are his best friends and we have information on him that needs to be conceled from Voldermont. It's just that Snape is a bloody rotten teacher I know that he is essential to the order but that doesn't mean I actually have to like him. Yet, here I am at his door knocking and waiting for my hell to begin. I just have to remember that this isn't for me but for Harry and for the whole wizzarding community.

"Enter, Granger", Snape said pracitcally hissing her name. I really hate when he does that, and the fact that he doesn't think I try really annoys the bloody hell out of me. He has no idea how hard I actually do try. Just because I show some of my life to the git doesn't mean I'm showing him everything about me. No one and I mean no one knows about me, well I mean the me when I'm not in Hogwarts. My mom died when I was little and I'm being raised by my FATHER, not DAD but FATHER! Dad is a term of endearment, and father is a term legally given to a man but that doesn't mean they have earned that title. Believe me when I tell you my father has never for as long as I can remember earned the right to the title Dad.

"So Granger, have you been practicing at all or are you gazing off into oblvion hopeing that we will not do anything, so that I won't find out what I lazy student you are?" Snape bit out in obvious amusement at the startled look his student gave him.

I really hate it when that bloody man does that. Although I have to admit that to him it probably is funny to see a student get scared of him. I mean this is Snape we are talking about.

I spoke real quietly as to not anger him further and said "Yes sir, I have been practicing."

Snape looked at his student with mild concern becuase of the tone in which she was speaking with but just gave her a nod and said "Alright Ms. Granger I hope that is true. For right now I want you to just read this, it's about closing off your mind. I will give you about thirty minutes or so and then I will penatrate your mind."

I shivered at the word penatrate but nodding all the same, he gave me the book and I sat down reading praying that he didn't notice the look I gave him when he used that, that word. My mind drifting to that word and I stoped reading and just thought about my Father. I could really just spit that name out. He blames me, you know, for my Mother's death. He said that it was all my fault. I believed him, stupidly I believed him! That thought alone makes me angry at myself. After my mom died not only did he blame me he started to hit me. For the first weeks it was just once or twice but then it was every night. Every bloodly night. Shortly after the beatings started he told me that I looked so much like my mother, and that because of me he couldn't love her anymore, but he could love me. I didn't know what that meant until he started touching me and it didn't just stop there it escualted and quickly. He raped me for the first time when I was five, of course I didn't know what it was then, all that I knew was that it was so painful. It made me feel dirty and it still does. So I guess that is why the word penatrate makes me shiver, I mean I couldn't even tell you how many times that he penatrated me by force. I really have never told anyone this and I hope that I never have to but, I quickly learned that my nightmares were going to become displayed to my most hated teacher in about I don't now.

Snape and been watching his student the whole time. He would never admit it but he liked the girl. She was a great student and the brightest witch of her time. He just had to act like he hated her because of him being a spy. Whilst watching her he became visibly concered by the unconcled emotions crossing over her face.

"Granger, are you ready" Snape asked her softly as to not startle her?

"Um yes sir, I am." She repiled clearly scared of him and his power over her.

"Perpare yourself, Legilimens" Snape yelled!"

All of the sudden I felt my mind being evaded and then everything that I was just thinking about gave to life. The beating the touching the yelling the rapes my living nightmare! Snape pulled out of me as I was crying, and walked over slowly as to not frighten me, but to no avail because the minute I saw hime I ran, and ran as fast as I could.

I ran after the girl, I was worried but I couldn't find her. I went looking off the grounds and that is when I saw her. I mean really saw her because just as I walking over there she looked up and what I saw made me gasp alound.

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