So I have no internet at my place and was sitting here bored watching nothing, waiting for a Hockey game to come on and I didn't get to do this earlier, so I figured that I would do it now. Just a short Olivia oneshot.

Title: Reality

Summary: There was no reality. There was only facts and truth. No love, no nothing. Just facts.

Genre: Drama

Rating: K+

Characters: Olivia Dunham

Reality

Haze. Fogginess. Blackness. Confusion. The vastness of a mind lost forever in the universe. The complexity of lives lost and feelings emptied. The thought of never returning to normalcy. The lostedness of it all. These were the things that Olivia Dunham knew. These were facts. Not feelings. Facts, and nothing more. Nothing less, nothing lost, nothing regained. This was all there was.

There was no love anymore. No lust for life. No fun, no happiness, no sense of security or safety. Everything that she had known was gone. Everything that had been in her mind that was her inner safe zone was gone out the window. Everything that she had become was now in question. There was nowhere to go now. No place safe to escape what she had been through and seen. Nothing to be done, but everything more to lose.

Olivia knew no such thing as reality anymore. There was no such word. Reality was merely a figment of the imagination. A mere thing that was placed in front of you to hurdle over. Nothing more, nothing less. Just a obstacle that you pressed on through and got on with life about the way you knew how. Only Olivia didn't know how to live her life. She didn't know what reality was. She didn't know anything anymore. What was reality? How was it defined? How was it grasped? She didn't know. Then again, she didn't know much anymore. She didn't know if she ever would know what she once had in life. She didn't know if she would ever have a safe sense of life's security around her again. Things were just as unsure as ever.

Reality had two different sides. One side, she was cruel and unusal. On the other side, she was familiar and friendly. Olivia had met both sides and they both seemed so promising. So inviting and scary at the same time. She didn't know what side to trust more. Because it seemed that the Cruel Side was easy to manipulate and get in tune with. But the Familiar Side was home. Olivia was almost hysterical to the point of breaking for a return. A return that would never come.

Or was it that Reality was just fiction? A part of her mind that was broken and would forever remain that way. Maybe Reality was just...unreal. Just a word tossed about the air like any other word in the world. Just a word. That's all. Nothing tangible, nothing reachable. Just a thing. Olivia knew a lot about things. And a lot of the time, things were just that plain and simple to figure out. Other times, they were tedious to work with and never were figured out. Reality was the latter.

Olivia wasn't happy anymore. She didn't know happiness. She didn't know truth. She didn't know love. Everything was lost. Her mind was with it and no matter what she thought or prayed for, absolution wouldn't come in her favor. She waited to cry. Waited to crack. Waited to die. Waited for tortue. Waited for something that would never come to her aid. She didn't know what emotions to let out anymore. It was too hard to let them out. It was like they were non-existent. And that scared her.

Reality was a confusing thing. To Olivia Dunham, Reality was as unreal as the depths of human nature. People could be who they wanted to be, destined or not. However, to Olivia, human nature was no more violent than war. And her mind was playing the biggest war.

End

Jay