Author's Note: I'm just going to write this one-shot songfic about Merlin and my OC Kiya. I thought this up when I was listening to my ipod on the way home from one of my random car rides. So I'm sorry if it's not up to scratch.

Disclaimer: I own nothing except for Kiya.

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

As kids, they were the best of friends. He would show her magic whenever she was sad so he could see the smile he loved so much on her face; he would tell her stories of a far away kingdom where she was a princess. Because to him, that's what she was.
She was his princess.

The long flowing brown hair which he longed to run his hands though, the blue grey eyes he had lost himself in more then once; her infectious laugh which had him laughing along with her every time. They would chase each other around the village while their mother's talked and made them dinner.

They didn't have a care in the world.

She was the one who he could trust with every secret. She knew about his magic and she never once judged him for it; in fact, it made her love him more. Because he trusted her enough to tell her this, and never once did she look at him any different.
To her, she was Merlin.
Just Merlin.

They were ten and eight but they were best friends; their mothers knew, they had smiles on their faces. Knowing smiles on their faces. When the two children were back into the comfort of their homes; neither of them would ever sleep due to them wanting to see the other.

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

They had come back from a hunting trip carrying three dead rabbits and what looked like a bird in her hand. They were laughing and joking around like they usually did. William; a mutual friend of theirs, had come over to help carry the load back into the kitchens of their houses.
Merlin looked at Kiya and saw her in a different light. He didn't know how it happened but one day; her hair seemed that little bight more glistening, her eyes seemed that bit brighter, her lips looked more full, and his heart was pounding out of his chest.
He was sixteen.

When they were sat around the small fire; with the stars above them twinkling in the sky, the glow of the fire bouncing off her face. He looked at her once and saw her looking at him, he blushed and looked away. He wondered if she was thinking the same as he was. Everyone had called it in for the night so it was only them in the village awake. Like it usually was.
Just the two of them.
He started telling her another story, the way he did when they were kids and there was a smile on her face so bright that even the large, full moon in the sky couldn't compare to it.

He had never even seen her move closer to him, she was fourteen and feeling safer then she had in such a long time. Her head was resting on his shoulder as they both watched the fire; talking about the future. Where they would be in ten years time. Neither of them knew, they weren't even sure if they wanted to know where they would be. The usual questions arose and they didn't know how to answer them. What he did know was that no matter who she was or who she married; she would always be his princess. And slowly; she moved her head up to face him, and placed her lips on top of his own and whispered the words 'I think I'm in love with you'

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

There were celebrations all around. He was eighteen and she was sixteen. What they were celebrating he wasn't so sure but there was loud chatter, dancing, music, and cider. He looked around the crowd and saw her; her brown hair falling over her shoulders, her eyes glistening in the light. She was talking to Will and laughing quite loudly. A pang in his heart made him walk over to them and join in the conversation; it was jealousy that made him walk over to them. He placed his arm around her protectively and brought her into him. Will raised an eyebrow, giving Merlin a look which showed him that he knew the feelings he had for the younger woman.

As the night wore on, no one seemed to want to call it a night. There was more laughter in the village that night then no one had heard before.
They didn't want it to end.
Merlin danced with her a few times and stumbled over his feet while doing so; making her laugh more then she had ever. Tears were falling down her face as he smiled to himself at his succession of making her laugh.
She cautiously led him over to her house where she took him to her bedroom. He looked at her with a confused expression before he saw the look on her face.
He knew what she wanted him to do.

His hands were shaking more then they ever had before. He untied the lace on her dress as she took off his dark blue shirt with equally shaken hands. He kicked off his boots as he gently lied her on the bed. He swallowed deeply before capturing her lips in a passionate kiss. He knew they both wanted this; he knew she wanted it. Yet he pulled back from her before beginning anything too serious. He had to be sure that she wouldn't regret it later on. And with the look in her eyes; her mouth whispering his name; he took her fully.

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

When he told her he was leaving for Camelot, he never thought he saw how much hurt in her eyes then he did at that point. Her voice, so soft yet so loud at the same time asked if he was ever coming back. And he replied truthfully; because he knew he could never lie to her. So he told her he didn't know. Maybe one day he would. But then again, he knew just as much that there was a chance that he might not.
He took her face in his hands and kissed her lips. It was only chaste, but everything he had tried to say to her was in that kiss and she knew it.

All the way to Camelot; that kiss lingered on his lips. He found he had the overwhelming urge to know what she was doing at every moment of everyday. It almost broke his heart to be away from her. He didn't know what he was going to do without her now. She had been in every aspect of his life; he had been there for as long as he could remember. Their mothers were best friends and, being so far away from them; from her. He knew he was going to be lost.

When he saw his new home on top of the mountain; he immediately thought of her and how much she would love it there. Here, she would really be a princess.

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

When his mother came to Camelot to ask for their help; he wanted to ask her so many questions about home. His main one was to ask if Kiya was safe; if she was hurt any way. But he couldn't. He had written to her everyday since he came to Camelot; but he had never heard back from her. No matter what he was doing, she was never far from his mind. Because he loved her more then anyone and thing in the world.
It was that which gave him reason to return to his home.

He saw her for the first time in what seemed like a lifetime. She was carry buckets of water up a small hill; he climbed off his horse and immediately ran to help her; ignoring Arthur, Gwen and Morgana. The look on her face when she saw him almost made him laugh.
Almost.
Because he saw her eyes, saw how almost dead they looked; they had lost their spark to them. Their fiery wit.

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

He asked her; he tried to get her to open up to him the way they did when they were younger. Yet she wouldn't. She would pretend she was okay when he knew she was anything but. Even when they were training to fight in the battle he would try; yet he couldn't.
He explained to her that nothing had changed, his feelings for her still remained the same even though he left.

She looked at him with tears in her eyes and asked him why he didn't take her with him. He didn't know why he didn't; he knew he should have, yet he didn't. So he gave a weak apology and walked away from her. The way he did one year ago.

Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

When it was all over; he walked over to her and held her hands in front of them; he pressed a small kiss to his lips and asked; 'Come to Camelot with me? I need you there with me. I love you more then anyone in the world'
She smiled and shook her head 'I'm needed here' She let go of his hands and walked away from him. Leaving him with tears trailing down his cheeks. He felt his stomach drop to the very pit of his body as he wiped away his tears and walked over to his friends from Camelot. He decided they were all he needed now; his friends.

With one last look at his old home; he saw her standing there watching him leave with tears down her cheeks.
His princess.