Title: Change

Pairing: KoIzu

Summary: Things change in a moment and yet they never do.

Disclaimer: I quite obviously don't own Naruto.

Dedicated to: Durgas (art trade)

Thank you to my betas: morgainedeshone and Kita the Spaz

Izumo shifted then bit his lip and tried not to move. He could feel the flush on his cheeks and hoped Kotetsu wouldn't wake up. It was just a normal morning response but the fact that their legs were tangled together meant he could feel Kotetsu's erection through the fabric of their pajamas. Each little shift sent shocks of pleasure through him and could feel the damp spot from on the front of his pants where the head of his cock pushed against the fabric.

For all his attempts to remain still it did him no good when Ko shifted. The motion sent a shiver up his spine and heat pooling low in his groin. Gasping he pressed his face harder against his best friend's chest to muffle the sound and curled his fingers in the blue fabric of Kotetsu's shirt. Even breathing seemed to cause noticeable amounts of movement.

Wrapped in Kotetsu's arms and pressed up against his chest the way he was, Izumo could hear his heartbeat, slow and even with sleep while his own raced frantically.

He knew then he was a horrible friend and Kotetsu should and probably would hate him but he couldn't help it he arched his hips very slightly and rubbed himself against his best friend. His best friend who would be horrified if he woke up to find Izumo grinding against him. It felt so good though and his heart raced even faster until it was thudding so loudly in his ears he was positive it would wake Kotetsu up.

Izumo squeezed his eyes shut and resisted the urge to reach down and touch himself or Kotetsu. Rocking and grinding against him felt so good though, even through the fabric. He focused on keeping his breathing as even as possible in the false hope that if Ko woke up he could pretend he'd been sleeping and not doing what he was doing. 'Please don't wake up. Please please pleeease don't wake up,' he chanted to himself mentally.

It was all he could do to keep from pushing harder against Ko with his balls drawn up tight with need. The wet spot was a lot bigger and the wetness of the fabric only added to the friction driving him crazy.

Kotetsu ground back against him in his sleep and moaned softly.

That little bit of motion, that one sound was all it took to push him over the edge. Izumo came and he gasped, the cum trapped by his pants coated the inside front of them making the wet spot significantly larger and sticky. "Ko..." he moaned then horrified bit back the sound at the realization of what he'd just done.

He pushed himself out of Kotetsu's arms and dashed frantically for the bathroom. Shutting the door behind him, he slid to the floor and pulled his knees up to his chest. The tears poured down his cheeks and he buried his face against his arms. Kotetsu was his best friend and he'd just violated him without even thinking about it. He was a horrible, horrible person and he knew it. "Why did I do that? Why didn't I just go to the bathroom?" he sniffed through the stream of tears.

"Zumo... hey open the door," Kotetsu pleaded from the other side of the door. "Izumo please... I'm sorry. Please just open the door."

The sound of his voice grabbed Izumo's attention and it hit him that his frantic escape must have woken him up. He couldn't do it though, he couldn't open the door and tell Kotetsu what he'd done, couldn't face the consequences, couldn't take knowing Kotetsu hated him. Clutching his knees even harder, Izumo rubbed his face on them and bawled harder.

The door shifted slightly and then was yanked open entirely, sliding on its grooves despite Izumo leaning against it. Startled he fell over backwards, his arms flailing slightly.

Kotetsu leaned over him and pressed their foreheads together, his fingers wiping the tears from Izumo's cheeks. "I'm sorry... please don't hate me... please don't cry... I was asleep. I didn't mean to, I promise. Just please, please don't hate me."

Izumo sniffed, his chest shuddering, he stared up at the spikes of Kotetsu's hair and the ceiling beyond. He couldn't figure out what Kotetsu meant, Ko hadn't done anything but he was too tired and confused to make sense of it or argue. Giving into the confusion and pain, he pushed Kotetsu back enough to roll over then crawled onto his lap and slid his arms around Ko's waist.

They sat there on the floor not moving or talking for a while, long enough his pants started to dry and stick to him which made him itch slightly. Izumo shifted a little but didn't pull away, he was still sniffling like a little kid and uncomfortable or not he didn't want to move.

Kotetsu let out a long breath then swallowed audibly. "Izumo..."

He knew he should say something, explain, but he couldn't. His voice seemed stuck in his throat. Kotetsu's earlier words were starting to sink in and he was fairly sure he knew what Ko had meant which made him feel even worse. Knowing Kotetsu thought it was his fault when he'd been the one asleep made Izumo feel even more like trash. Izumo took a deep breath, he knew he had to tell him. "It- uh- it-" he stuttered, his voice barely above a whisper, "-was me. I- I was awake..." His cheeks burned with the confession as incomplete as it was. "I- I couldn't help it." He should have, it was a pathetic excuse and he knew it. "I know I shouldn't have but- but I woke up and- and you.. and it's just... it felt good and I didn't think and I'm sorry." The rest of the words just stumbling out of his mouth sounded stupid and inexcusable even to own ears.

Kotetsu stiffened then started laughing.

Izumo leaned back and stared at him, feeling utterly confused by the response. His embarrassment was momentarily forgotten in light of his trying to figure out why Kotetsu was laughing at him. "What? Ko..."

Still laughing, Kotetsu pulled him close and hugged him, burying his face against Izumo's neck.

Izumo squeaked but didn't fight the snuggling. "Ko?" he asked weakly, still baffled.

It was a while before Kotetsu stop giggling like a little kid but when he finally did pull back he was grinning. "I love you, Izumo."

"I know..." He knew that, they were best friends and now that he was sure Kotetsu didn't hate him for what he'd done he wasn't questioning it. Questioning it or not he didn't really understand why that had sent Kotetsu into a fit of laughter.

"No, no, no you don't get it," Kotetsu corrected him, shaking his head. He pushed Izumo back far enough to look at him directly. "I love you, more than anyone or anything. You're the most important person to me in the whole village, in the whole world." His cheeks flushed a bright red as he spoke. "I've been trying so hard not to do something wrong..." He dropped his head and looked up at Izumo, his cheeks glowing brightly. "You know— uh, like what you did. I didn't mean to laugh at you, but it's just..."

Izumo could feel his eyes growing wider the more Kotetsu talked and he opened his mouth, but wasn't quite sure what to say. Kotetsu was his most important person too but he had simply never considered what that meant. He'd never had a crush, never been 'interested' in anyone, but up until then he hadn't thought of Ko that way either. He hadn't thought about it at all really.

Kotetsu looked away, his cheeks darkening even more. "It doesn't mean you have to like me that way or anything like that... I just... you don't- have to feel bad- for- that."

Cheeks burning, Izumo leaned over and kissed Kotetsu's cheek. Given what he'd done it shouldn't have been such a big deal but it was. It was a bigger deal than the first time he'd kissed Ko, and that had been on the lips.

Turning to look at him, Kotetsu stared for a moment then smiled.

"I love you too," Izumo whispered, his cheeks hot and his heart racing then he snuggled against him again. He was too embarrassed to look at him and at the same time he didn't want to let go of him. It felt to him like everything had changed but at the same time that nothing had.