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Chapter one:

I woke early and opened my eyes to the bright sun shining through my window. Today I was going to see Jake again, I was so glad I had Jake, he was like my anchor. He made life seem bearable again. I just hoped his feelings wouldn't get in the way of our friendship. I just couldn't lose him, I needed him to survive. It had been nine months since Edward left me and just thinking his name still crushed me in to tiny pieces. Yet when I was with Jake that pain went away. I got dressed and scoffed down a pop tart before jumping in my old rusty truck heading towards La Push. I arrived at Jakes little red house and knocked on the door.

"Come in" It was the distinct voice of billy black, Jakes dad.

"Hey billy, where's Jake?"

"Still fast asleep" he chuckled. "Go wake him up though, its about time he got up. I'm heading out fishing with your dad today so you kids have fun."

"Sure" I answered before making my way to Jakes small bedroom at the end of the hall. I flung the door open and found a peaceful Jake passed out on his front on the too miniature bed. He was shirtless as always and covered by a white sheet. He started to wake and turned over his eyes fluttering open. That's when I noticed the huge morning wood he was sporting. I immediately blushed and looked the other way.

"Hey bells" he croaked.

"Hey, I'm just going to wait in the lounge for you to... um... you know... err... get dressed." A look of confusion spread of his face as he scratched his messy short hair. I turned to leave the room but he must have realised I noticed his massive hard on, he burst in to fits of laughter.

"Bells? Bella, I'm sorry!" He laughed "it's a man thing." I turned to look at him with a smirk.

"Well I would be worried if a woman woke with an erection." I giggled.

"Don't act like your not impressed" he winked. I had to laugh at this and rolled my eyes.

"I'll just..." I started

"Shut up bells, it's fine, I'll go have a shower wait here okay?" I just nodded in response as he made his way to the bathroom he shared with billy. I sat on the bed and waited for him, getting more aroused every time my mind wandered to the tent he made in the sheets. He was right, I was impressed, definitely something to be proud of! Jesus Bella you have to stop it! I heard the shower switch off and a wet half naked Jacob sauntered in to the room wearing only a towel. My mouth fell agape and I felt myself getting wet. I must have been staring because Jacob let out a booming laugh my eyes snapped back to his face only now realising where I was staring.

"See something you like bells?" He laughed again as I turned crimson red, embarrassed I was thinking such thoughts let alone getting caught.

"So what are we doing today?" I asked trying to change the subject and give me something else to concentrate on except that thin piece of fabric separating me from Jacobs amazing... stop it Bella!

"We could just hang out at the beach?" He offered.

"Yeah sounds good." I went to watch television while Jacob got ready, trying my hardest not to imagine the naked man on the other side of the wall. A couple minutes later Jake appeared fully clothed.

"Ready?" He asked

"Yeah course..." we took a walk down to the beach and laid down. It was a nice day in Washington which was a nice surprise. The sun was beating down on us and it was still early. There wasn't anyone else on the beach at the moment, most people were probably having a lie in on a Saturday morning.

"Wanna go for a swim?" Jake asked with a smirk. I smirked back and shook my head.

"I haven't got a bathing suit."

"Nor have I" he countered. A huge grin swept across his face and I couldn't help but laugh at his cockiness.

"No thanks Jake" I replied with a fake smile.

"Worth a shot right?" He chuckled as he put his arm around me. We lay in silence for a while just staring out at the ocean. That's what I loved about Jake, there was never any need to fill that silence, it was so comfortable lying here saying nothing. "Let's walk" he stated as I looked at him in confusion. he jumped up holding out his hand. I grabbed it and we made our way to the water. As we reached the water edge, a naughty grin spread over his face. I looked at him suspiciously, trying to figure out what he was up to.

"Jake? What? Why you looking at me like that?" Just at that moment he grabbed me by my waist and I felt him swing me in the direction on the water. I screamed as he's hands left my hips and I landed in the ice cold water. He was in hysterics, he clearly thought he was hilarious but I didn't agree. I stood up brushing my wet hair from my face and watched him double over in laughter. "Jake I can't believe you did that! Arsehole! I have NO other clothes, I'm soaked!" I screamed. He was trying really hard to not laugh and failed. He sauntered towards me with that same devilish grin and I tried to back away. He took his shirt off as he walked down before quickly dropping his pants. He was wearing tight black boxers which clung to... well everything. He turned and threw his clothes further up the beach. My god he had a perfectly sculpted arse! I realised I had frozen and he was looking over his shoulder with a cocky grin. My eyes were casting down his body taking in his chiselled pecks and toned stomach before reaching the most impressive part of him. I bit my lip as I openly stared. My eyes rose to meet his once more and he winked. "I'm sorry Jake, I didn't mean to stare."

"No it's fine really, you can look whenever you want" he laughed. I know I should put a stop to this but I really didn't want to. I gave him my best bitchy grin and tried to walk from the water but he was already in front of me with his arm around my waist, effectively stopping me from going anywhere. I realised doing this in a white tank top was probably not the best of choices but by the look on Jakes face he didn't agree with me. I rose my eyebrows at him until he looked at my face. A big goofy grin graced his face and I knew he wasn't ashamed at openly ogling my breasts. I smacked him on the chest and made my way out of the freezing cold water. I continued down the beach heading for his home and he quickly caught me up. I realised he had put his cut off's on over his wet boxers and I felt a twinge of disappointment. I know I shouldn't feel like this, he is my friend, I shouldn't be thinking of him in that way, but any woman could tell you how attractive he was. He had an amazing body and his russet coloured skin contrasted to his white teeth. He's warm smile was infectious, I always thought of Jake as my sun, I just felt warm around him. He said it was a werewolf thing, it wasn't, it was a Jacob thing. We reached his house and made our way inside, me dripping all over the floor, which I felt quite smug about. That will teach him for throwing me in the ice cold ocean I thought with a shiver. Jake shot a worried glance at me and the goosebumps that covered my whole body.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cold, but it was pretty funny" he giggled. I sent him my best glare I could muster but I could never stay mad at Jake. "Go have a shower and warm up, I'll lay some clothes out for you until yours dry."

"You sure?"

"Yeah of course."

"Thanks Jake" I smiled warmly. I made my way to his bathroom and jumped in the shower. The heat was amazing, I could feel the warm water slowly thawing out my skin. I jumped out the shower not wanting to use all the hot water as tempting as that may be. I wrapped up in a towel and made my way down the hall. I turned to go in to his bedroom, not looking where I was going and walked straight in to a half naked Jake. I bounced right off his chest and hit the ground with a thud.

"Ouch!" I moaned rubbing my head, I heard a chuckle and raised my eyes to Jakes amused face. I couldn't help my eyes appraising his muscular chest and the fact that he wasn't wearing any trousers again. He stood there very proudly in those black wet skin tight boxers. I think I may have dribbled much to my embarrassment.

"What you haven't seen it enough today?" he joked I blushed at being caught again. He held out his hand for me and I grabbed it eagerly, standing up less than gracefully. I caught my towel just in time before it fell. I could feel my cheeks burn and to my horror Jake just stood there gawking, as if he was waiting for it to fall a little further. His eyes were wide like saucers and he chuckled nervously.

"I'm just going to... err... have a shower too bells, won't be long" he stuttered as he made his way around me, going towards the bathroom, pulling his boxers down on the way revealing his toned tanned backside. Perfect, there was no other way to describe it. I could just imagine my heels digging in to the cheeks. Control yourself Bella! He shot me one last smirk before closing the door. I heard the shower switch on and I quickly made my way in to his bedroom slamming the door. I towelled myself off before dropping it to the ground. There was no point putting wet underwear on so commando it is, I thought. Jake had left a pair of boxers and a t shirt on the bed for me to wear. I pulled the boxers on rolling them down a couple of times, they were far too big. I contemplated a bra but that was just as wet as my thong. I was so lost in my thoughts it wasn't until I heard the bedroom door swing open I realised Jake was out of the shower. I gasped and covered myself with my hands facing a very shocked Jake.

"Oh my god Bella, I'm so sorry!" he's eyes glued to my hands "I-I-I thought you would be dressed by now, shit bells, I'm sorry I just... err..."

"Could you give me a minute Jake?" I saw him gulp and nod slowly, he's eyes never moving from my chest. "Jake!" I screamed

"s-s-sorry" he stuttered. He left as quickly as he came and I heard him in the hallway. "Fuck!" He mumbled as he paced outside. I threw on a t-shirt and gathered up my wet clothes. I couldn't resist the urge to toy with him a bit more so I made my way out of the room. I leant on the bedroom door frame and tried to put on my most seductive voice. I'm sure it came out more shaky than I intended. "Jake" I whispered he spun to look at me his eyes still wide from shock and I couldn't miss the bulge in the towel that was wrapped around his waist. "Where should I put my wet clothes?" I said holding up my white lace bra and panties set. He's mouth hung open and the smirk on my face grew... just like something else. Not a time for innuendos Bella! I chanted. He just pointed to the kitchen with a look of shock before he composed himself, I don't think he was expecting that from me, quiet, shy Bella. I let out a giggled before I moved around him and sauntered in to the kitchen, swaying my hips as I went. I looked back at his stunned face, very aware of Jake staring behind me. I could feel his eyes burning in to my back as they made their way down to take in my backside. I don't know where this sudden rush of confidence was coming from. Whether it was because of the positive attention I was getting from him or because for the first time in my life I felt truly sexy. He shook his head like he was trying to wake himself up and disappeared into his room to get dressed. I made us some sandwiches with the limited supply of food in the fridge and laid it out on the table ready for Jacob. He came in rubbing the towel through his black messy hair and leant against the work top.

"Looks good bells, thanks."

"Eat up, sorry it's not more but I had limited resources" I winked. All I got as an eye roll in return before he dug in to his sandwich, he finished two before I finished half of one. When we were done we made our way to the sofa, we both laid down and Jacob run his fingers through my hair. I forgot how relaxing this feels. The memory of Edward hit me hard and strong and I resisted gasping for air. I felt like I had been punched in the stomach.

"Bells? You OK?" He said as he pulled me up to look at him.

"Yeah, great" I lied. I could tell he didn't believe me so I just cuddled into him, he smelt so good, an earthy smell like the forest. I looked up at him to find his eyes on me.

"Did you just sniff me?" He laughed. The blood shot straight to my cheeks and I started stuttering incoherently.

"I-I-I err... no, I mean..." He just let out a booming laugh and leant down burying his face in my long brown hair, I felt him breath in deeply. I gazed at him with shock and embarrassment.

"You smell good too bells..." he muttered staring in to my eyes. At that moment I forgot where I was, who I was. Edward was the furthest thing from my mind. When he left, he told me he wanted me to forget he even existed, so he wouldn't want me hanging on to him would he? He made it quite clear he didn't want me why shouldn't I find someone who did? Jake was my best friend, if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have been able to get up everyday, to face the world and their pitiful glances. Jakes face was edging towards mine, his eyes darting from mine to my lips and back, checking how he was going to be received. But I couldn't stop him, I didn't want to. My breathing hitched as he's lips were so close to mine, my eyelids fluttered closed, willing for him to continue, his soft lips finally joined mine. There was no electricity or sparks like there was with Edward but it still felt right. Jake made me feel safe, warm and wanted. He kissed me with passion not like I was made of glass. I felt finally equal for the first time ever. My tongue darted out licking his bottom lip, he opened his mouth to me in understanding. The warmth coming off of Jake consumed me, all I could feel and smell was Jake. His arms wrapped around my petite form as my hands found his hair, pulling his head closer to mine, but it still wasn't enough. He rolled on to his back as much as the sofa would allow, pulling me with him. Straddling his waist, he sat up his lips never leaving mine. I pulled away gasping for air as his lips moved to my neck. It sent a shiver down my spine and I knew I couldn't resist him any longer. I moved to get up but his hands formed traps on my hips, instead pulling me deeper in to him as he thrust up between my legs. I could feel his hardness through his jeans as he groaned in to my mouth.

"Jake" I sighed resting my forehead against his. I made a play once more to get up but again he's arms restricted me. "Jake? Follow me?" I asked. He just nodded in response, taking my hand as we scrambled off the sofa. I led him to his small box room and looked over my shoulder for his response. I could visually see him gulp when he realised where I was taking him. I bit my lip as my nerves rushed back to me, realising how vulnerable I was now being. If he turned me down I think it would shatter the little self confidence I had. I turned towards him, looking through my lashes at his expression. His eyes showed his nerves but also something else...excitement? He's eyes locked with mine as he took one big step forward, his arms encircling me like a steel trap. He lips crushed against mine with none of the gentleness I was used to. Jake was passionate, that was true but there was something so animalistic about him that got me very aroused. He pushed us back until my legs hit the side of his bed, gently lowering me down on to the mattress. His eyes were alight with a fire I had never seen before. I scooted back so I was laying in the middle of the bed and he crawled over me. He attacked my neck and his hands roamed my body, this was all so new to me, I didn't know what I should be doing. Edward was never like this with me, always so careful, but Jake he was worshipping every part of my body. His hands were fixed on my waist, then they slowly slid up to the curve of my breast. He groped me roughly but not painfully, it felt good, too good. I couldn't think, I couldn't breath. All I knew was Jake was no longer my friend, he was more than that. We could never go back could we? I was suddenly terrified that if I let this continue, I would lose him and I couldn't let that happen. He was my life support, the only thing that kept me breathing.

"Jake?" I managed to squeak.

"Bella" he moaned in response. I stopped his hands immediately.

"Jake, we can't do this, we're friends, I don't want to ruin my friendship with you." He took a deep breath and nodded, his hands leaving my skin, I missed his touch already. "Jake I'm sorry, I don't know what I was thinking, I can't lose you Jake, I'm so sorry, I've ruined everything."

"Bella, Bella, Bella, it's OK, I mean I want to do this with you, more than you know. I will always be your friend Bella, you mean too much to me to lose, I don't know what I would do without you. It's just I've always wanted more, being your friend isn't enough for me."

"I'm sorry Jake, I don't know, I need time to think. I should go..."

"No please don't, stay, I swear I wont try anything just... hang out with me please?" All I could do was nod in response, my head was spinning too fast to be able to form a coherent sentence. All I could think about was the fact that I have ruined everything...

Hey guys, I hope you liked this, it's going to be in three parts...

I'm writing another story too called 'My dirty little secret' which is still ongoing... if you haven't read it, its basically twilight with a twist, it is Bella and Edward from Edwards POV except the Cullen's don't know about their relationship.

Check it out if you can :) I'll update soon thanx... xoxo