AN: Hello readers! Alright.. so I am just experimenting on a random scene that popped into my head the other day.. and I am not sure if I should continue this and convert it into an actual fan fiction story with chapters and all. Like I said, this is just a scene I imagined...

And I would like to know if you are interested in seeing where this can go. I may possibly begin this story as soon as possible.. but your opinion as readers is very important! I love hearing others opinions.. it's refreshing :)

So let me know!

xoxo - Libby

As I continued to stare at her, the different sarcastic remarks that were flooding my mind were craving to escape from the inside of my mouth. I couldn't help but feel bitterness towards my brother. How come she accepted him in such an intimate level? What made him more special than me? What was wrong with me? I mentally smacked myself, coming back to reality... the reality of this situation between me and Anya, the girl in front of me. The first girl I ever fell in love with, unfortunately... she wasn't in love with me as well.

"You're a host, why don't you go back to your customers," It felt more of a order than anything else.

I couldn't help but notice my hands forming into fists and my teeth began to grind softly. This frustration was starting to piss me off. "I want to spend time with you!"

She looked at me, somewhat puzzled. "What do you mean? We already spend time with each other at school."

"No! That's not what I meant."

Anya sighed and leaned against the wall opposite of me, "What are trying to say Hikaru? You're not making any sense."

"Damn it," I muttered. I could feel the frustration rising in me. "Haven't you been paying any attention?"

"..."

"You don't get it... do you. You don't know how much you mean to me. If I wanted to switch roles I could, but I would just fool myself knowing you would call me out on it. I know I can't trick you if I'd pretend to be Kaoru. What I don't understand is this: what is it that makes him more special than me? Why do you love him more? What does he have that I don't?"

Don't cry... you're a guy. Come on, Guy's do not under any circumstances cry.

"There's just something in him I find attractive. I can't help it if I like him a lot."

"So does that mean you don't like me?"

Anya moved from her spot stepping closer towards where I was standing. She placed her hand on my arm gently, "Of course I like you... but not romantically speaking, Hikaru." She paused... "I'm sorry."

I turned my head to meet her gaze. Her eyes were what drew me to her in the first place. I shouldn't have been so foolish, thinking I could possibly have a chance with her. "So there isn't a way I can persuade you, then?" I could hear the monotone in my voice as I spoke. Then, my eyes drifted towards her lips... I often wondered what they felt like against mine. She always smelt so good and just being around her makes me want to go nuts sometimes. Sure I've fantasized about a few times, but would I really have what it takes to carry out my wants? My desire to have her... the need for her to be mine was intoxicating. I found myself not caring for a minute about my younger twin brother. Anya was the one who taught me that if there was something I really wanted, then I should achieve it no matter what is in the way. It was her who told me to not hold back from any obstacles I would face. She told me to go after it with full force.

My only question is this... does this type of situation apply as well?

Can I actually ignore my brother and what he wants? Am I able to push his feelings aside to get what I want? Is this kind of manipulation right? Would I honestly make her change her mind about what was happening?

As I kept asking more questions, the more confused I became? The more I asked, I was not only confused.. but curious. Was I curious enough to carry out my wants regardless of any feelings she has about Kaoru?

That was just it... Kaoru. He was...

My brother...

My twin...

and

My best friend...

There was no way I could really hurt my own brother... could I?