Kouji headed to his doctor's office for another session of therapy, with Kouichi trailing behind him. Kouji sighs desperately, not wanting Kouichi to be his chaperon. Every few seconds Kouji would look behind his shoulder to see if Kouichi was still marching happily behind him.

'I should do it today..' Kouji thinks darkly.

"Do what?" Kouichi asks, but Kouji just gives him a glare.

Kouji opened the office door, not bothering to knock. Dr. Kido looked up from his files on his desk and at Kouji. "Kouji-kun, come in! Sit down!" He said cheerfully. Kouji nods at him as he went to take a seat on the couch. With Kouichi beside him.

Kido went to go sit in a chair in front of Kouji. "How have you been feeling recently?" Kido asks.

"Sad," Kouji replied.

Kido sighed quietly to himself. It always felt like Kouji was taking one step forward and three steps back.

"I miss him.." Kouji swallows hard. "I miss Kouichi so much.."

"Kouji-kun, you have to learn to let Kouichi go." Kido tells Kouji. "It doesn't mean you're betraying him. Everything you shared in the past will still be there, but he's no longer here with you now. He won't be able to be there for you in the future. You have to learn to accept that, so the pain will eventually ease." He says sternly. Kouji just stared at him, unable to reply. Despite not looking at him, he could tell Kouichi was staring as well. Taking in what he just heard.

"Kouj," Kido says, his voice turning slightly harsher. "Kouichi is no longer here anymore. You have to live your life." He consoles. "Please let him go."

Kouji swallows again before nodding.

To Kouji, it only seemed like the only thing Kido could do to help him was to give him pep talks. But Kouji nods his head anyways, not having much hope for himself. Suddenly he hears a beeping noise in front of him. Kido stands up, turning off the alarm off on his watch.

"Ah, time for your medicine."

Kouji watches as his doctor goes over to his drawer. He takes a deep breath before looking back down at his feet.

"Here," Kido helds out a pill in his palm and a cup of water in his other hand. Kouji nods and took both from him. Kouichi had no problem with this, he knew the whole routine. Kouji looks down at the pill in his hand hesitatingly before swallowing and drinking some of the water afterwords. Kouichi just smiled unknowingly.

Until Kouji gave him a look that said "sorry".

Kouichi's expression changed instantly. From happiness to absolute rage.

"E-Eh? You...You didn't...!"

He watches as Kouichi stands up as his body shook from the tears that were streaming down his face. "What are you doing, Kouji?"

"Kouji-kun? Are you okay?" Kido speaks up, large amount of concern in his voice. Kouji hands him the cup before walking calmly out of the room, leaving a crying Kouichi behind.


Kouji's walking soon turned into jogging as he makes his way towards his room and closes the door behind him.

"Am I worth nothing now that I'm dead?" Kouichi asks as he stood in front of the other boy, staring at him with hate in his eyes. Kouji just remained silent.

"Why do you think I'm dead in the first place?" He asks but didn't want a reply. "You know, right. You understand it, right..? Everything was your fault!" He starts yelling. "I wouldn't have died if I never wanted to meet you."

He watches as Kouichi starts becoming breathless, walking closer and closer to him. Kouji just watched Kouichi as he started breaking from the inside out. Kouichi looked at him in the eyes and those eyes only held anger, jealousy and hatred as he's taken in by the dark emotions that Kouji's betrayal stayed within him.

"What the hell did I die for then?" Kouichi asks, panting. "If it wasn't for you..Then why did I have to die? I'm dead because of you. I sacrificed my life." He looks at Kouji, glaring. "You might as well have killed me yourself." He says coldly.

"I'm sorry!" Kouji yells out to him, frustrated. "I'm sorry! I'll make it up to you!"

"How?" Kouichi asks. A few seconds later he got a reply.

"I'll die for you."

Kouji gave him a determined look after he said that.


Kouji had realized much earlier that he would never get out of here. He thinks that he'll never be cured, because he would never allow himself to be cured. He doesn't want to live in a world with this raging illusion following him around. If he wanted to kill himself, it wouldn't be because of this fake. But because he wanted to be with the real Kouichi. He didn't want to be around this Illusion anymore. An illusion that made him feel worse. A illusion hat would never leave him alone.

Kouichi only stared at him in silence as Kouichi took the stash of pills from under his pillow. He looked at Kouichi and Kouichi only continued to stare at him. There was no expression on his face. Kouji gave him one last look.
A look that spoke of anger.

Kouji grabbed a handful of the pills, and shoved the pills into his mouth one by one.

Dr. Kido pushes the door open. His eyes widen in shock as he sees Kouji shove the last of the pills into his mouth. What was this? Why? Kido rushes to his side, pulling Kouji's hand away from his mouth but it was too late. All the pills had been swallowed. How many pills did he swallow?

Kouji smiles at him warmly as he laid on the bed.

"Kouichi.."He whispers.


Dr. Kido sat in the waiting area of the hospital hallway. 'What kind of doctor am I..?' He thinks to himself. He hears the loud and quickening footsteps from someone down the hallway from him and Kido lifts his head immediately. The person's face looked familiar to him.

"Dr. Kido," Takuya says, anger in his voice as he walked up to the much taller man.

"Kanbara-kun?" He questions.

"If you weren't twice my age and taller then me, I'd beat your fucking ass!" Takuya shouts out at him.

"Takuya-kun!"

He turns around to see a girl his age running up to him. She was still in her pajamas, and her hair a mess. Zoe starts panting when she finally made it to him, "How's Kouji-kun?" She looks at him with hopeful eyes. Takuya only gave her a shrug, and motioned his head towards Kido. She looks up at the doctor and before she asks he answers her question.

"He still hasn't woken up yet."

The three stared helplessly at the closed door to Kouji's hospital room.


Kido felt the stingy pain of the slap across his cheek and could only bow apologetically in front of Kouji's mother.

"If Kouji survives this, I'm never sending him back there!" Satomi announces, tears streaming down her cheeks. "I'm not sending my only child back to that place just so he can drown in his own sorrow!"

"I'm sorry," Kido look at her with guilt and sadness before bowing again.

"Just what kind of place are you running where you don't keep a better eye on your patients?"

Her voice starts to become harsh, pointing a finger threateningly at him. "If Kouji dies..So..help me."

Kousei now stands in front of his wife, grabbing her shoulders making her look at him. Satomi lets out a sob, her arms clinging to her husband.

"Takuya..What if.." Zoe felt as if she was about to cry as well. She and Takuya sat in two of the chairs in the hallway, Takuya comforting Zoe. Takuya bit his lip, trying to not cry as well. He had to be strong for Zoe. Zoe reached for the phone inside her purse. "I should call Junpei and maybe Tomoki.." She pauses for a second, a tear dropping from her face. "How can I tell Tomoki this?" Zoe turns her head to Takuya. Looking for some sort of answer in his eyes. Takuya only gave her a shrug as he felt tears wanting to come out.

"Excuse me? Satomi? Kousei?" Kido Shuu walked up to the couple.

The look of sorrow on his face said it all.


Sorry it took me so long to post this story up. I have a bit of a writers block and when I finally got this written up, my computer imploded in on itself, so this story ended in a really lame way, ne?

I hope you enjoyed it anyways, and don't mind the extremely sad ending. D: