This is the final chapter in Nothing Even Matters. Thank you to all who commented and favorited my story. That's what kept me going. So I hope you enjoy the last chapter.
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Logan's POV
Present Day
We had just passed the halfway point in the movie. I was still resting my head lightly on Kendall's lap. I was so absorbed in the movie that I didn't notice when Kendall stopped running his fingers through my hair. I only realized that he had fallen asleep when I heard the soft snores emanating from his throat.
I smiled up at him and all his beauty (okay, I'm starting to sound like a sappy girl, but it's true. He is beautiful). I kissed the back of his hand that he had draped over my chest, and, very carefully, tried to stand without waking him up. He stirred slightly, but just continued his rhythmic snores. I shut off the movie, knowing it wasn't really Kendall's favorite, so he wasn't getting much out of it anyway. I smiled down at his peaceful form, and turned and made my way into the bathroom to take a shower.
I adjusted the water to the perfect temperature, slipped off my clothes, and stepped under the warm stream of water. I stood for a few moments, just letting the water relax my muscles.
I grabbed the shampoo and worked it through my hair, then I washed my body with the only body wash in the shower, James' Cuda body wash (he probably wouldn't be too happy if he found out I used it, but what he doesn't know won't hurt him).
After I turned off the water, I stepped out and wrapped a towel tightly around my waist. I decided, since I could still taste lunch in my mouth, I would brush my teeth while I was in here.
I went into mine and Kendall's shared room, and traded my towel for a clean pair of boxers and jeans. I turned to get a shirt out of the closet, and jumped when I noticed Kendall standing in the doorway.
"Jeez, you scared me!" I placed my hand on my heart, willing it to slow, while glancing at the floor. I looked back at him, and noticed that he had a slightly worried look on his face. This isn't right. Kendall doesn't worry about anything. He supposed to be our group's fearless leader. Yet, here he is, looking more vulnerable than ever. "Baby, what's the matter?"
Kendall walked over and sat down on my bed, placing resting his head on the palms of his hands. "It's nothing. Don't worry about it." He sighed into his hands.
I wasn't taking that excuse. I leaned down in front of him, and grabbed his hands, making him look at me. "Kendall, it's not nothing. I've known you since we were five years old. I can tell when something is bothering you. Now, spill."
He let out his breath he had apparently been holding in a quick puff of air. "I guess I'm just worried about what the fans will think when they finally find out about us."
"What's making you, of all people, so worried about that?"
"The dream I just had." I didn't say anything, just waited for him to elaborate. "We were on tour, and you told me that you were ready to tell all our fans about us because, apparently, you didn't like that all those fan girls were drooling over me."
I chuckled a little. "Yea, that sounds like something I would do. What happened next?"
He took a deep breath. "Well, I agreed…and…we decided that I would be the one to tell them. We were going to be on a talk show the next morning, so I figured that was the best time to talk about it, since they are always asking us if we are dating someone." I nodded my head, so he would continue.
"When we were on the show, we performed our new song "Worldwide". The first question out of the host's mouth was, 'So, that song seems really personal. Are any of you dating anyone?' just like I thought it would be.
"So, I took the opportunity to tell them about us…and they didn't take it too well." This really seemed to be bothering Kendall.
I ran my hand up and down his arm in a comforting gesture. "What did they do?" I had to know what had him so on edge. It was worrying me.
"Well, I'll just skip ahead to the worst part. When we left the show and went back to Rouque Records…" He paused and took a breath. "…someone had written 'Big Time Fags' on the door."
"Oh." I didn't know what else to say. "It probably won't be that bad when they find out. In fact, I think a lot of people actually put us together anyway."
"Why do you think that?" he asked looking just slightly more hopeful.
I tapped my chin, trying to think up a decent answer to that question. Oh, I got it! "Have you ever heard of fanfiction?"
He looked up, thinking. "Uh…no."
"It's this website where fans can write their own stories about their favorite TV shows, movies, books, comics…pretty much anything really." Kendall gave me the 'your-point-here' look. I pulled my laptop of my desk, and started searching through stories. "Well, I was on it the other day, and I found a romance story that said 'Kogan' in the summary.
"I had no idea what that meant, but I was curious, so I opened it up. It was a story about you and me. Apparently, 'Kogan' is our couple name.
"So I searched some more around the site and I found, literally, hundreds of romance stories about us. Some were from even before we were actually dating. Do you see my point, here?"
Kendall shook his head. "Not really."
I went on to explain a little better. "People are supporting us, without even knowing it. Just think how excited these fans would be, if they found that us dating is actually true."
"You have a point, Logie."
"Well, I am the smart one, after all." Kendall rolled his eyes at my comment, and then leaned down to peck me on the lips.
He pulled away with a huge smile on his face. "Thanks, babe. You always know how to make me feel better." I kissed him one more time, grabbed a shirt, and headed out to the living room to see if there was a hockey game on.
~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~
Kendall's POV
I don't know why I was so worried. Logan was right. As always. After sifting through those stories on that website he told me about, my worries started to fade. There were some serious hardcore 'Kogan' fans out there.
I also noticed that there were 'Kames', 'Cargan', 'Jagan', and 'Kenlos', which I found to be quite funny, considering how badly James and Carlos reacted to me and Logan.
I was suddenly hit with inspiration for a new song. Everything that had happened while me and Logan had been together would make a great song. Maybe that's how we could tell the fans. I pulled out my guitar and the notebook where I keep all my songs (that no one ever sees, by the way), and began to write.
~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~
Back to Logan's POV
I whooped, rather loudly, and jumped off the couch as the Wild's scored another goal. When I sat back down, I heard a light sound, like the plucking of a guitar. Kendall must still be stressing a bit. He always played his guitar when he felt stressed or worried, or just when he needed to think.
"This wall we built together, there ain't no way of knocking it over. We'll be here forever, getting closer, and closer baby." I heard Kendall softly singing. Then there was a pause. He stopped singing and the guitar strumming stopped.
Confused as to what was going on, I got up and made my way over to our bedroom door, staying out of his line of vision. The playing and singing started again.
"Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. And nothing even matters. And nothing even matters."
I had no idea Kendall wrote songs. This was really good. I walked into the room, and he immediately stopped playing. "Don't stop. It's good."
"You think so?" I nodded my head. "I wrote it for us. I thought maybe this is how we could tell the fans."
I smiled at him, reassuringly. "I like that idea. Let's go play the song for Gustavo." I grabbed his hand, and pulled him off the bed.
~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~
And Back to Kendall's POV
I couldn't believe Gustavo actually liked the song. He said we were gonna record it immediately, and sing it during our next live performance, which was in three days. So we had to start rehearsing now. I happened to leave out that we were going to tell our fans we were together. I didn't want Gustavo saying we couldn't.
I called James and Carlos and told them to get their butts to the studio.
Ten minutes later, we were in the recording booth with song sheets in hand. The song was sung perfectly. Gustavo was even happy with the outcome, which was rare. The rest of the day was spent with Mr. X teaching us the dance moves to our new song.
Much like the time we had to prepare for our first concert, we spent the next two days on a mock stage setup, rehearsing over and over again, to make sure the song was perfect.
~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~BTR~
No One's POV
After much rehearsing and hours upon hours of harmonies and dance practices, the day had come for the boys to perform their new song.
They stepped out of their limo where the outdoor concert was being held. Big Time Rush was one of three other bands that were singing. It was some benefit concert where all the money that's made goes to save the whales or something like that.
They were going to be performing three songs; 'Big Time Rush' (obviously), 'The City Is Ours', and then they would end it with the new one.
The first band, Heffron Drive, was already performing. The sound of the screaming fans was deafening. The stage manager of the whole event made her way over to the boys, with her headphones around her neck.
"Ok guys, you're on in about five minutes, after this band finishes its last song." The guys all nodded their heads, and she walked away, yelling incoherently into her headphones.
"I'm gonna go grab a corndog off the snack table," Carlos said already halfway there.
James followed him saying something that sounded like, "That's not good for your voice. Don't you know hot tea with lemon is what you should drink?"
"They are so crazy." Kendall stood there shaking his head at his best friends.
Logan laughed. "Yea. So…are you ready to tell everyone about 'Kogan'?"
"Never been more sure of anything." Kendall smiled and wrapped his arms around Logan in a loving embrace.
"Let's do it then." They turned around as the two members of Heffron Drive made their way off the stage.
"Hey, aren't you the guys in Big Time Rush?" The lead singer asked as Carlos and James came back and stood next to Logan and Kendall.
"Yea, why?" Carlos asked with his mouth full of corndog.
"Just wanted to say good luck out there. We are big fans of yours." He said shaking Kendall's hand.
"Thanks. That means a lot coming from you." The two turned to walk away, as Kendall added, "You guys were awesome, by the way." They waved to say thanks as they got into their limo.
From the stage the boys could hear the announcer of the event, "And now, welcome to the stage, Hollywood's newest singing sensation, Big Time Rush." The crowd erupted into cheers as the four made their way onto the platform.
They breezed right through the first two songs, now it was time for the big moment. Kendall's heart was practically leaping out of his chest.
"Before we sing our next song, there is something I want to say." Kendall looked over at Logan who nodded his head for him to continue. "I wrote this song about four days ago. It talks about being in a relationship with someone that you love so much, that nothing matters what anybody says or does, you're in it for the long haul. I hope you like it. It's called 'Nothing Even Matters', and I'd like to dedicate it to my best friend in the entire world…and my boyfriend…Logan Mitchell."
Back stage, Gustavo choked on his drink, and yelled, "What did he just say?"
The music began to play, and the crowd cheered as they sang.
(Eh!) Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters (eh)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
It's like one for the haters, two for all of those who try to shut us down.
They don't really know. There ain't nothing they can do that can tear us apart. No.
I don't care about the money, don't care about the clothes. When we're together, baby, anything goes.
We don't even need to prove what we feel in our hearts. No.
This wall we built together, there ain't no way of knocking it over.
We'll be here forever, getting closer, and closer baby.
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh) And nothing even matters. (eh)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, about us. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
It's like the sound goes off and the people all freeze.
They disappear and it's just you and me.
Anything you want to do, anything that you please. (oh woah no)
Forget about our problems, forget about our past. I've seen the future and I know we're gonna last.
Every second I'm with you just goes so fast. (woah oh woah)
This wall we built together, there ain't no way of knocking it over.
We'll be here forever, that I told you, that I told you baby.
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, about us. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
Nothing even matters. (woah) A
nd nothing even matters. (woah)
We don't even need to fight. Everything will be alright. (oh yea)
Nothing even matters, but you and I.
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters, nothing even matters.
And nothing even matters. (wooaah)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, (Say what they want woooah) about us.(oh woah oh)
And nothing even matters. (woah) And nothing even matters.
(They can take my money, take my cars. Oh woah oh woah)
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters, nothing even matters.
And nothing even matters. (Baby)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, about us. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters.
As the song came to a close, the fans applause rang in their ears. Kendall draped his arm around Logan's shoulder, and pulled him in for short, but sweet, kiss. Every girl in the audience, which was 98% of the group, 'Awww'd' at the sight.
Kendall, James, Logan, and Carlos bowed before heading off the stage. Kendall and Logan's worries were finally over for good. Gustavo was so pleased with the crowd's response, he didn't even yell at them.
Kendall stopped walking after they got off the stage. Since Logan was holding his hand, he got tugged backwards.
"Why'd you stop?" Logan questioned of the taller boy.
"I'm just so happy everyone is ok with this." He gestured between them.
Logan smiled and looked up into Kendall's bright green eyes. "I love you, you know?"
"Yea, I know. And I love you." Kendall didn't hesitate to lean down and kiss Logan's waiting lips.
They didn't care what anybody thought about them anymore. They had each other, and as their song says, "Nothing Even Matters."
A/N: Wow. I can't believe I finally finished it. I'm so proud of myself (not to sound vain or anything). This is the first story I have ever actually completed. Woot Woot! Well you know what to do. Please, Please, PLEASE, read and review! It would mean the world to me. Much Love