Chapter 1: Leaving and Staying

"If you wanna be given everything, give everything up."

Jasper:

"Alice, Jasper. Come on, it's time to go." Esme called out. I heard and felt the sadness in her voice. Ever since, Edward said goodbye to Bella just yesterday, the entire family had been sad, mad and Rose was the only one that didn't find it that way, she was as selfish and uncaring as always. Alice swiftly ran to the front living room and I Slowly walked behind her. We had already loaded the cars and we were ready to leave, Edward was in his Volvo, alone. I could feel the depression and anger and self hatred and about 20 more emotions welling up in him. Rose and Emmett had left last night, they were going to Italy, for their bizzillionith honeymoon. I think that Emmett just didn't want to be here when everything was so doom and gloom. Carlisle and Esme were waiting for us on the front porch. Alice waited for me at the foot of the stairs with a pout on her face, and we walked hand in hand to the door, Esme sadly smiled at us and we walked out of the door, not bothering to lock it and Edward spun his tires as he suddenly left. He knew where we were going in Alaska, but I highly doubted that's where he was going. Apparently Esme and Carlisle caught this as well, both of their emotions went to confusion and doubt.

"Where's he going?" Carlisle asked.

"I don't know, I'm only getting flashes. There are so many unmade decisions. He doesn't know himself."

"Well, we must let him do what he thinks is best. If he wants to be alone, let him. He will get through this." Carlisle said. "I hope." he added sadly.

"That's the thing Carlisle, I don't know where he is going, but I see him alone and moping wherever he is, he has a picture of her with him."

"Well, I don't know Alice, but we must leave." Esme said, wrapping her arms around Alice's shoulders and Alice waved me forward. But I hesitated. I didn't want to leave. The family was never more like a family than in this house, we were never happier. Edward was never happier and neither was Alice. He had the love we all wanted him to have, and Alice had the sister she'd always wanted. She cared for Rose, but nothing like she cared for Bella. I didn't move. I couldn't. I couldn't just give everything up like that. Give up that happiness, I wasn't ready to leave.

"Jazz?" My beautiful Alice questioned.

"I'm going to stay for a little while, I'm not quite ready to leave this behind me yet."

"Are you sure?" Carlisle asked me.

"Yes. I know where we're going and the Jeep is still here."

"Do you want me to stay with you?" Alice questioned.

"No, I'll be okay. Thanks." I said. I pulled her in for a tight hug and gave her a peck on the lips.

"I'll be waiting for you." Alice said with a smile on her face, but her thoughts were still sad that Bella was gone.

"I hope so." I said as she left.

A couple of months passed, It's now December, roughly four months since the catastrophic event that was Bella's 18th birthday party. The very thing that cause Edward to make this drastic decision to leave Bella. I still hated myself for making this a reality. That I couldn't control myself for a second to run out the door before I did anything stupid, but being me, I went for the stupid. It was the easiest thing to do. I didn't even think about trying not to lose it. Alice and Edward had stayed with her, until Carlisle sent Edward to go look for me. Ugh! Way to go Jasper.

It's now noon, on December, 14. Out of the foggy-Forks sky, I heard the familiar grumble of an engine. An Engine that belonged to a '53 Red Chevy. An ancient truck owned by my brother's love. I made the sudden decision to try to fix his mistake. I heard the tires hit the gravel from the pavement and heard the sound get closer and closer to the house. Then I heard her shift the truck into park and turn the engine off. She opened her door and just sat on the seat, her body towards the house. She just sat there, sighed and turned her body back into the cab of the truck and turned on the ignition, I could sense that she didn't have the courage to come in the house, so I decided to give her a little help and sent her courage. They must have worked because she opened the door to her prehistoric truck and got out and looked down, shook her head and walked toward the house ad up the steps and turned the knob before knocking, probably knowing that there was no use to locking it since my family and Bella knew where we lived. She walked into the living room, I could hear her steps as she just walked through, not expecting anybody, the courage I was sending to her was no longer of any use, she was quietly sobbing. I cringed when I felt her. She felt abandoned, betrayed, self-pitiful, but she was trying to be strong. I had to give her credit for that, no matter what happened, Bella was the type to try to be strong, whether it was for her or someone else.

I then heard her walk up the stairs, she went to the third and final floor. I knew exactly where she was going, up to Edward's room. I heard her suck in a deep breath and open the door. I heard her gasp. In the process of deciding to leave Bella, he had trashed his room. He brought down the shelves, and while Alice had packed his CD's he had gotten ahold of his Debussy Album and shredded it to pieces, because It'd held the track of Claire De lune. It was a special song to him, because that sparked their common interests while she was riding in his car after fainting because of the scent of blood. I thought that this would be a good time to make my presence known.

"He did this while deciding whether to leave or stay."

"Jasper?" She asked, turning on a dime. "Jasper? is that really you?" She asked me, shocked.

"Yes, Bella. It's me."

She came up to hug me. It was a good thing that I had just hunted. She let me go.

"What in the world did he do?"

"He wanted to stay, but Rosalie changed his mind, saying that no matter what we did if we stayed, you would be in danger, Edward even made the suggestion of staying here with you, while everyone else left. He says that Carlisle is supposed to be ten years older than he looks, and people are starting to notice. Truth be told, it was time for us to leave, but I stayed. I stayed because, in this house, our family has never felt more together, and you were the glue, whether Rose likes it or not. Bella you tied us together, by ironically bringing our brother back to life. You brought him back into the world."

She was crying at this point. "So he didn't want to leave?"

"No. Silly Bella. You should've seen him when he left. He was so depressed and mad, he wanted so badly to stay, but you know how he is about decisions. Once he is set on something there is no alternative. Or sometimes, when he has decided something, he goes to that head on, but he can also be turned the other way around, when he hurts someone. He's very fickle." I smiled, and so did she. I tried to relieve some of her stress by bashing my brother, it's a very good thing that he's not here, he'd have my head. Literally, and someone would have to put it back on.

"So if he didn't want to leave why did he?" Bella asked me.

"Bella, he loves you more than you can possibly imagine. I hate to admit it, but what you and Edward have is stronger than any mate relationship. It terrifies him to be away from you, I bet you he is in Hell without you. He left because he took Rose's advice to the extreme, he thought that if you were away from him that you'd be safe and away from any danger and he thought that you'd be better without him. He didn't want to see your soul be damned into eternity. He wants you to have a shot at a normal, human life." I told her.

"That's ridiculous! I know what he believes, but I don't believe it. If he didn't have a soul, then he would've taken me on that first dat of school." She looked around his room, to where the picture of the two of them would be, all that was left was the empty frame. "He took the picture with him." She said, getting off the couch and picking up the empty frame and began stroking it. "Where exactly is he?" She asked, tears running down her face.

"I don't know. No one does, not even Alice, he doesn't check in but every few weeks. If that. "

"Can you take me to them? I'm not expecting anything, I just really miss them."

"I don't know Bella." Just then my phone buzzed in my pocket. It said ALICE on the display and I immediately answered it.

"Hey Jazz, why do I see you and Bella here in Alaska, just curious."

"Because she came here and just asked me to take her to Alaska, and I'm fixing Edward's mistake."

"WHAT? Bring her on, what are you waiting for?" She shrieked loudly.

"Alice, calm down, someone will hear you!"

"No they won't silly. I'm hunting." I could almost see her throwing quotes in the air with her fingers at the word hunting.

"Do you want to talk to her?" I asked her. I saw Bella throw me a nod and a smile. "Of Course! Are you crazy, can I have whatever crack you're smoking?" I laughed.

"Alice, I'm not crazy but you were at one point in time." I joked with her.

"Jasper Hale! Let me talk to her!" She yelled, after giggling.

I took the phone away from my ear and handed it to Bella. She looked at me like 'what can I expect?'

"Careful, she's pretty hyper." I warned her. She nodded and put the phone to her ear, just to take it off.

"BELLA!" I heard Alice scream. "Oh my god!"

"Alice, what are you doing? Trying to burst my ear drum?" She joked affectionally.

"So how are you?" Alice asked.

"I'm good, Now that I'm talking to you guys. How are you?"

"Good, but if he knows that I talked to you, I won't be for long. Oh well! We all miss you Bella." She said, cheerfully.

"He's not even there, how could he know? And I miss you too Alice. I miss everyone." They were talking about Edward, since he said that she was not supposed to watch over her or contact her, She had a great deal of trouble with it, seeing as how Bella was Alice's sister and she knew about her all along. She knew before Edward even knew.

"Alice, have you seen him? Do you have any clue as to where he is?"

"No, Sorry Bella. I see him going back to Forks, I see him staying away, I see him going and coming straight back. The guy is fighting with himself. I don't know where he is though. He doesn't know what to do." Alice told her sadly. "Alright, Bella. I have to go, The family will start worrying, I was only supposed to be on a quick hunt, until I saw you and Jasper in Alaska."

"Okay, bye Alice. See you later?"

"Of course, Silly girl!"

"I'll let you talk to Jasper."

"See you soon." Alice said as she passed the phone to me.

"Hey, Alice. Could you call Charlie and ask him if Bella could stay with us for a few days? We don't want to panic him like last year. Tell him that we couldn't let her visit or talk to her because we were still moving. Or something to that extent." I told her.

"Will do. He'll say yes, so let Bella go back to her house pack her things and get on the road. Love you, jasper."

"Love ya too, hun." I told her.

"Are you ready Bella?"

"I guess." She said shakily.

"Why are you so nervous and jumpy." I asked her, kind of confused.

"'cause I don't know what to expect." She told me truthfully.

"I guess that's understandable." I said as we left the house and she got in her truck and left. I got in Em's jeep and followed her. Luckily Chief Swan was at work.

My phone buzzed again, it was Alice again.

"The Chief said yes, so c'mon!"

"Thanks, is there anything I should know about the trip?" I asked her.

"Nope, no construction and you won't get pulled over." She told me. "It won't take that long."

"Thank you, we'll se you in a bit." I told her.

She squealed delightedly.

"Can't wait, see you! Say hi to Bella for me!"

"Will do."

"Alice said to tell you 'hi'" I said to Bella.

"I just talked to her, not an hour ago." She said while shaking her head and laughing.

"Alright, get your things I'll be here." I said as she ran up the steps and surprisingly didn't fall. I had never been inside the Swan residence. It was a perfect match to Charlie Swan's personality and looked like the bachelor pad of a cop in a small town like Forks in about 25-30 minutes Bella came back down, with a bag on her shoulder. We walked to the Jeep and got in. It was only a few hour drive.

Tell me what you guys think, keep on truckin' or do you EVEN like where this is headed. Let me know. I won't eat you I promise. I'll give you a invisible cookie. :)