I'm so depressed I really wanted Olli to be at the event on Saturday, but I understand that he wants closure from Tom. I just really hope that he can still make it. It made me even more depressed when I saw that note on the coffee table when I woke up. He really left.

Well he come back?

God how I hope he comes back and if he does I'm going to kiss him.

I had the worst dreams ever and it's all because of that man the man I've known less than a month. The man that haunts my dreams my thoughts my waking hour.

I didn't even know I had fallen asleep with the note in my hand until I felt the note being pulled out of my hand, I opened my eyes and notice Judith standing beside me. Sorry she said. When she asked me if I was alright and I shook my head no I felt like I was going to tear up, me can you believe it just over some guy. I sit up on the couch and she sits down next to me. She tells me I have my brother but still I've lost so much in such a little period of time.

I tell her everything that's inside of me. I don't hold anything back. I tell her that I want Olli, and it's true I want him so bad. I can smell him, I can taste his kiss. I see his smile and his eyes glowing.

Judith rubbed my back and I told her thank you. No need to thank me sweetie she tells me.

That night I took a cool shower, more like freezing cold, but it helped me feel more relaxed and not so depressed.. I did one last work out in my room to feel emerged and pumped up for the match

I got dressed in what I was going to fight in and my roommates except one where already waiting for me in the Living room.

I was really surprised that my roommates gave me a group hug. It made me feel so happy despite the crappy way I was feeling that day.

I answered the door when I heard it knock and it was my brother I put on a fake smile but I could tell that he knew something was wrong.

Gregor looked at the room mates and noticed that Olli wasn't there.

"Where is he?" whispered Gregor

"He left last night to get the rest of his things from Tom" said Judith

Gregor just nodded his head and mouthed 'Oh."

I grab my things and head out the door.

When the event was about to take place I looked around the arena I can't believe how many people showed up for the event and how many camera men were around.

Axel came over to me and noticed that something wasn't quite right with me.

"Are you ok?" asked Axel

"No, not really. I'm sick to my stomach"

"Nervous?" asked Axel

"Yeah something like that"

"It'll be alright"

"Yeah I hope so"

"Good luck" said Axel

"You too"

I was so nervous when the announcer called my name but I had my brother backing me up so it wasn't all that bad.

I wasn't ready for the match to begin it was as if I had completely forgot how to box. My arms were moving but all I was hitting was air. Axel moved way too fast for me and I was moving way too slow.

Knock this shit up what the hell is wrong with me.

Shit Axel is going to win I think to myself as I fall down on the mat and see my brother telling me to get up. I don't want to get up please let me just stay where I am but then I hear a voice I think it's my head but I look up and there he is my angel, telling me to get up. He came I thought as I was getting up. He looks so good too.

I watch him go to his family and without even thinking of it I swing my arm as hard as I can and bam goes Axel on the mat.

If I win this thing I'm going to grab Olli and kiss him right here in front of everyone.

I get out of my thoughts and Gregor comes up behind me and I turn around and we hug tightly and I see Olli coming over to me and Gregor and I get out of the hug and Gregor lets Olli into the ring and I tell him it was great of him to come and he said he couldn't miss it for anything.

And something animal comes over me I just grab him and kiss him deeply.

I feel him pushing away but he just smiles and I smile back and we just attack each other's lips all over again and I think will we have a future together? Oh how I hope so.

The end.