Disclaimer: I do not own CSI Miami (unfortunately because if I did I would air it on time!)

Ok guys this is the end (of this story) I want to thank everybody that added this story to they favorite/alert list it was very important to me because this is my first story

I hope you'll follow me in the next story

I also want to thank all the reviewers, thanks for telling me what you think; again first story and opinions were very important and they always will be

One Step at a Time

Yaks! who made this food? Is this even food? That's defiantly not food!

Ryan tried to pick a spoon fool of what the people here called gruel, it defiantly wasn't it, and it was barely a soup, more like water filled with junk

A person that almost died shouldn't be tortured with this; sick people in hospitals shouldn't be tortured with this, I rater continue eat threw the infusion thank you!

Alexx was supposed to bring dinner and Calleigh lunch he wasn't allowed to eat anything he wanted, the guys told him to call if he'll need breakfast but he refused to become needy

And it smells like crap, help!

"It doesn't look very eatable" came a voice from the doorway

Ryan turned his head and was shocked

"Karen? What are you doing here?"

"You surprised?" said Karen "wasn't it obvious that I'll come to see you?"

"I get why you came but I figured that you'd like to get away from all of this, from us"

Karen smiled, she smiled since Langley's got arrested, she actually smiled

"I'll be fine eventually; I just need to learn how to live with all of this, want some real food?"

"Sure, where did you get that from?"

"My mom" answered Karen "she's a doctor so she told me that you can't eat curtain things now and she made this for you" she took the bowl with the hospitals so called food and handed him another bowl

It's was also gruel but it smelled different

"Vanilla, apples and cinnamon" said Karen

"G'd bless you and you mom" said Ryan starting to eat slowly, it still hurt to do everything "she saved my stomach and you saved my life, literally"

"I was only returning a favor" said Karen taking a seat

"I was only doing my job" said Ryan "this is good" he added pouting another spoon in his mouth

"Everything mom makes is good" nodded Karen "and you weren't doing your job when you saved me I know that, it wasn't a part of your job"

"Anyway I'm a cop and I acted like a cop but you did something that we couldn't"

"Well at least now its over for me" said Karen "you think I'll get over this"

"I think that like you said you going to have to learn how to live with this" said Ryan

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Natalia walked into Ryan's room he was asleep still breathing heavily, but at least he's breathing on his own, he looked ok, peaceful , he was still pale and all but it was like he let something inside of him go, maybe it was his sister?

Natalia knew how it felt when you have to live with painful memories go, everybody got something that they've learned to live with, she taught herself to live with the fact that the man that promised to love and protect her actually was the one she needed protection from

Ryan slowly opened his eyes and looked at her

There are my gorgeous warm colored eyes; I thought I'll never see them again

"Hey pretty girl" he said and smiled

She smiled back "so I'm a pretty girl?"

"The prettiest in class" said Ryan trying slowly to sit up

"Oh no don't do that" panicked Natalia she took a seat an dragged it to his bead

She took his hand in hers and looked t him "we need to talk Ry"

"Yeah" agreed Ryan "I think that if I'll hill and we'll come back to work like nothing happened it'll be weird"

"Defiantly" agreed Natalia

"I'm not taking anything back" said Ryan "I mean what I said"

"Me too, every word"

"We were stupid" said Ryan sadly

"No I was stupid; you just acted like a friend and a gentleman trying not too pushing into something that you think I didn't want"

"I shouldn't give up" said Ryan "I shouldn't let you go so easily, it always scared me Nat"

"What?"

"The fact that you can have this kind of feelings for someone for so long despite the fact that nothing ever happened between the two people, we never even kissed"

"No we didn't" smiled Natalia "but I have a confessions I always wondered how it would feel, you know I… love you"

"I love you too pretty girl, we could build something together years ago"

"I know" said Natalia kissing his hand

"My life is a mess baby" he said

"I know" she whispered holding his hand tight

"And I'm not talking just about what happened, and it's not about my sister too, it goes beyond that, its other stuff a lot more messy and complicated"

"I know" she whispered again

"I can't talk about it, not because I don't want to share it with you, just because I can't… talk about it… handle it… I just cant especially not now, but I'm not involved in something illegal like gambling or something"

"Again Ryan I know, I believe you and I trust you, I always trust you I know what kind of man you are and I also know that you wont lie to me, you can keep secrets and not tell them to me, I don't like it but I respect that because you could lie but you choose to tell me that you cant tell me what's going on, and that's something that I do like"

"You have no idea how much it means to me to hear you say that Natalia, your trust means the world to me no matter what's going on between us"

"Same here" said Natalia with a smile

"I always trust you baby, but I was trying to tell you that I'm not ok yet, and I cant be with you when I'm not ok because then I cant give you what you deserve, and I refuse to be only a part of the man that you need"

Natalia smiled, Ryan looked surprised

"Why are you smiling Nat? I thought you'd be upset"

"One of the thinks that I love the most about Ryan Wolfe is the fact that if he doesn't walk into something knowing that he can't give 100% of himself, I'm not upset I'm actually impressed"

"I got things I need to fix and organize" he whispered

"I know baby, you need to do that, and you deserve to let yourself do that"

"And what about you?" asked Ryan

"What about me Ryan? I'm still here"

"For now but where you'll be when I'm done cleaning my mess? Maybe you'll find somebody a lot less complicated?"

Natalia smiled again "but I wouldn't love him so what's the point? You know how many chances like that I had? There are a lot of nice non complicated guys there but I'll never stop thinking about you"

She sit on his bad and lay her head on his chest "I'm not going anywhere" she whispered as he stroked her hair "you need to figure out everything and then…"

"One step at a time" he completed the sentence

"Yes" she whispered she lifted her head and landed a soft kiss on his lips "a little something for the road" she explained "so you'll remember to ask me out in the future"

"Oh I can never forget that" he smiled as they both closed their eyes, she concentrated on his heartbeats

G'd it feels so good to feel those heartbeats I was so scared that I'll never hear them again, as long as he's alright everything else isn't important, and I can wait, I know he loves me so I can wait

Ok I guess that this is not the ending that you expected but don't worry there is a sequel!

I'll post it as soon as possible and the name is "Welcome to Miami" and it'll focus around Ryan's family want to guess what the title means? It related to something that was mentioned in the story a few chapters ago

I'll make it shorter then this story

In the meantime I'll celebrate with myself the end of my first story

Please read and review

Maria :D