Hey my darling readers, here is chapter 4. Just in case you wanted to know I survived my exams, I had 8! Oh song for this chapter is Breathe by Anna Nalick

Edwards point of view.

As I cared for patients that day I couldn't help but think about what happened last night, I could barely look at Bella yesterday when she stayed at our place. The mistakes I have made, the pull I have towards her. This afternoon is going to be awkward.

Flashback: the night out.

Once I was changed Alice practically towed us to her car, while chirping about how Jasper will meet us there and it's going to be so much fun. I just watched Bella's face get more and more worried. I opened Bella's door to the front of Alice's car and shut it gently behind her, before I got in the back. Alice chatted merrily the whole way and occasionally asking my Bella and me some questions about our day.

We pulled up outside the latest club in Port Angeles, I looked at Bella and she sighed to herself when she saw the club. "Fantastic" she said sarcastically.

Alice laughed and dot out of the car quickly. Once we had all gotten out of the car, not without Bella tripping and almost falling on her face we made our way to the entrance. Bella started to walk towards the back of the line, but Alice had different ideas, she grabbed Bella's arm and pulled her towards the bouncer. Bella's eyes were round in shock, I chuckled under my breath. Bella then glared at me, while Alice ignored us entirely.

"Hey Alice" the bouncer greeted her.

"Hey, Felix is Jasper already inside?" she asked.

"Yeah, he told me you were coming with others." Then he just let us into the club, while the line grumbled under their breath.

Bella and I walked towards the bar while Alice went searching for Jasper after singing, "I'll be right back" over the loud music.

Once Bella and I were settled on high stools by the bar with a drink each, she pronounced, "I can't believe I got talked into this, I should have refused and just gone home." She said with a small pout on her face.

I chuckled and replied, "Impossible, you couldn't have got out of this even if you tried, this is Alice we are talking about."

"How come you didn't have to come?" she asked in her beautiful voice.

I laughed, "Years and years of trying to refuse and she finally got annoyed and stopped trying to get me to come, and I usually apparently ruin her fun. Also I used to dodge the trips, like mysteriously not come home from work for a while, or get another shift."

I laughed; it sounded like bells and smiled at me. "I'm actually surprised you managed to dodge coming out for this long."

"What can I say, I'm talented." She said teasingly.

"At what, tripping over." I retorted brightly.

She scowled at me and said, "Very funny Edward."

I smirked at her expression. "So what's Jacob doing tonight without you?" I asked while hoping that she didn't notice the sadness in my tone.

She sighed, "I don't know, I called him three times, he should have finished work, but he didn't answer. But I left a message explaining where I was and that I wouldn't be home." She looked down at her hands which were tangled together on her lap.

"Oh" I replied. Crap Edward, crap crap crap. You need to cheer her up somehow. I looked around, got it. I reached my hand out to hand, "Dance with me?" I asked her softly.

She looked up at me then and moved away from my hand, "Uh, no. I'm terrible at dancing." She answered quickly, while folding her arms; she thinks that will stop me from dancing with her.

I quickly lifted her off the chair and towed her to the dance floor, "Humour me". I said with a smirk.

She looked really scared I almost laughed. I lifted her slightly and slid my feet beneath hers and began dancing, while holding tightly onto Bella.

She laughed and smacked my arm lightly, "Edward, I said I didn't want to dance." And she giggled again.

Alice must have noticed our dancing and decided to meddle because I saw her talking to the DJ. I'm guessing he was another one of her friends. Then the music changed into a slower song. Alice grinned at me pleased before turning back to Jasper.

I looked down at Bella who had shirted to lean he head against my chest and had pulled herself closer to me. I smiled down at her.

As the song began to fade Bella looked up at me. I smiled softly at her. In the last 20 seconds of song we began to lean towards each other, absorbed in our own simple world. Just when our lips were inches apart. Someone drunkenly hit into us. We swayed dangerously, almost falling over. Well there goes that mood. I thought grimly to myself.

Flash back over.

What are doing Edward? I asked myself. It's Bella, as in Bella with Jacob Bella. I sighed to myself. I can't believe I did that. I almost kissed Bella, and then I did kiss her. To be fair it wasn't on the mouth and she was basically unconscious.

I had just finished and was making my way to Carlisle's office when my phone rang. I looked at the caller ID. It was Bella. "Hey Bella" I answered.

"Hey Edward, my trucks playing up, do you think you could pick me up from my place?"

"Uh, sure. When do you want me to come?"

"Just whenever. I'm just leaving work now; hopefully I'll make it there." I could hear the smile in her voice.

"Kay, I'll see you soon Bella."

BPOV

My truck groaned as I pulled out from the office. Please oh please let me make it. I was feeling slightly better as I approached the first houses of La Push; I'm going to make it. Outside the Clearwater's place I saw Jake and Leah. Odd I thought, Jakes meant to be working. How naïve I am. That was when Jacob and Leah began kissing passionately. My mouth dropped open, and the tears began to flow down my cheeks, causing my vision to become blurry.

I stepped on the gas; I prayed that Edward would turn up before Jacob did. There was no way I was going back to Jacob. I cannot stand cheating. No matter how much of an accident it is.

I pulled quickly into the front of Jakes house, and ran while still sobbing into the house. I threw the door open and made my way to where bags would be kept. I then proceeded to jumble all my clothes into the bag. I walked around the house picking up anything of mine and adding it to my stuff. It was a good thing I didn't have much.

Once I was done I set the bags by the door and sat on a chair in the kitchen waiting for Edward to arrive. As I wasn't doing anything the pain began to set in. The pain of finding out that someone you loved doesn't, the pain of losing a friend, the pain of broken promises, the pain of having nowhere to go, the pain of being broken.

It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would, especially when I thought of how awful Jacob really was and is. All the weird hours he worked, all the times he went out on his own, all the times he threatened me to make sure I wouldn't run off with Edward. All that time he was Leah. Leah our family friend. Leah who had come over for dinner at my place. Leah who complained of not having a man in her life.

I was looking at my lap, while the tears dripped silently off my face and onto my hands, leaving little salty puddles. The door slammed the sound rippling through the silence. My head snapped up to look at the door. When Jacob walked through my eyes narrowed.

"Bella?" he asked, "Are you alright?" he actually sounded worried.

"What a good actor you are Jacob, you had me fooled this whole time. Well done." I said sarcastically. I could feel my anger boiling inside me all ready to explode.

"What are you talking about Bella?" he actually looked confused.

My fist clenched in my lap, "How stupid do you think I am Jacob?"

He still looked confused I decided to enlighten him. "I saw you and Leah outside the Clearwater's. You weren't really trying to hide it, seeing as you were standing on the side of the main road of La Push" I thought back to all the looks I had been getting from people in La Push: the check out guy at the store even Seth. The look of pity, they all knew. No one told me.

My anger, the force which I was relying on to fuel my argument fell away then, leaving me feeling weak and alone. "How could you Jake?" I asked in a broken voice that would barely cross the room.

I looked up expecting to him to look apologetic, but no he looked furious. I flinched away from his glare. "How could I? How could I? How could you Bella?" he snapped angrily.

"What?" I asked thoroughly confused.

He laughed once without humour, "Here you're saying I'm the good actor. What about you Bella? The innocence, making everyone think, 'oh poor Bella, Jacobs seeing someone else and she doesn't know'. If only they knew? If only they knew eh Bella."

"I have no idea what you talking about Jacob?" I answered softly.

He snapped then, and rushed towards me. He picked me up by the tops of my arms, his fingers wrapping all the way around them cutting off the circulation. "You and CULLEN." I looked up at him. "You think I haven't seen the way you look at each other, the way you flirt. You look at me disgusted thinking 'oh how could Jacob do this to me', then you skip off and stay with the Cullen's every week or so. You Bella are just as bad." He said while shaking me violently, I could feel my eyes widening in fear. I had never had Jacob loose it so much.

"I not with Edward." I said softly and cringed away from his glare.

"Sure you're not." He said sarcastically. He dropped me and I landed to my side on the kitchen floor. "Get out Bella!" I looked up at him towering over me.

I scrambled out of his path and hurried towards the door, grabbing the bags. I slammed the door behind me, threw the bags into the bed of my truck and climbed in. I quickly mashed down the locks with shaking hands. Before driving as fast as I could out of La Push away from the hurt.

As I drove I began to realise how much danger I could have been in, causing my shakes to become more violent. I don't know where I was going I just drove towards the dark sky over Forks, away from Jacob.

I couldn't help it but I thought back to all the times Jacob had 'accidently' hurt me or scared me. The bruises I had gotten over the year or so I had been living with Jacob. I was so absorbed in my thoughts that when the thunder and lightning started I screamed and jumped in my seat causing my truck to swerve on the road. Then the rain began, it came down in torrents. My windscreen wipers were almost useless I could barely see.

I thought of my bags then. I pulled over flung the door open and rushed into the wet. I grabbed my already sodden bags and swiftly placed them on the passenger side seat and floor. I put my seatbelt on again and turned the key. The car clicked and spluttered it did not sound healthy. No No No I chanted to myself. I sat there for a moment, feeling the hopelessness rush in on me. I leant my head on the steering wheel, could this day get any worse.

I pulled out my phone and went to ring Edward telling him where I was. Of course I muttered to myself when I discovered that my phone had run out of battery. Of course. I looked out of my window I wasn't far from Forks I could walk to Charlie's place. Making a quick decision I got out of the car and locked it before walking away without looking back.

I was so absorbed in my crap life and trying not to slip over on the slimy grass, a feat that I had already done twice, I didn't see the silver car drive past me...

A: N: Man I'm mean I was told to put my cliffies in my story to make it better so there. He He He. I liked writing that chapter. Thanks to all the people who added me to favourites, alerts and REVIEWED. You rock. I will try to update soon as I have finished school for the year, but I am looking for a job so that may cut down updating time, but I'm like insanely short so I'm not sure if people will hire me. Lol. Oh and cos I didn't have a disclaimer at the top. I don't own anything Twilight; if you recognise it I don't own it.

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