*WARNING* Character death ahead! Don't read if you don't like!

I finally decided to finish this off~ its been a while, a really long while, and I apologize for the delay. Truthfully I had forgotten all about this story! I know...I'm such a bad author, but I've finally finished it now! And I hope you like it!~

What do you really want?

Lavi had never really stopped to ponder this question before. Sure he knew what he wanted when it came to dinner and everything trivial like that. But when it came to the real thing, living or dying, he had never even thought about how he would want to go. He had faced death on countless times but never before had he asked himself what he would do if he really were to die. Would he helplessly cling to his life? Would he beg to be spared? Or would he simply accept his demise and let death take him?

His thoughts were interrupted by that deep voice next to his ear. "You know I could've killed you already."

It wasn't a question, Lavi realised. He was being taunted. Teased like a fly caught under a jar. He could see freedom but he knew it was his captor's choice whether or not he would get out of this alive.

He couldn't speak. The hand around his throat wasn't tight enough to stop his ability to talk, but an unusual mixture of fear and resolution had made his throat dry and his words couldn't come out.

Allen. . . Lenalee. . .even Yu. . .what would they do in this situation? What should you do?

Lavi tried not to think about his friends. He devastatingly knew how they would feel if they found out he was giving up so easily. Would they understand how he felt? His body ached. He could barely move and he was literally being held off the ground by his throat. The tips of his mud crusted boots only just scraped against the concrete floor.

"You have nothing to say?" Tyki Mikk's voice was low and dangerous. Lavi knew he was mocking him. It was like a ritual for Noah to ridicule exorcist's before killing them. And Lavi was not going to give him the satisfaction of an answer.

So is that it? You're going to give up?

Was he? Of course Lavi had considered in the first few moments of his options to escape. But when it came down to it he knew it was impossible. With every ounce of dignity he had Lavi decided it was his time.

You're really giving up? Without a fight?

Not giving up, Lavi thought bitterly. He did fight. And he lost. This is the consequences of losing. And like a man he was going to bare them. With what little strength he did have left Lavi tried to croak out what he knew would be his last words. "J-just do it..."

Lavi savoured the brief flutter of confusion that appeared in Tyki's eyes before the hand around his throat constricted a little more and he was starting to lose his breath.

"That's all? Very well," Tyki began in his deep voice. Lavi prepared himself as he was lifted slightly higher. He closed his eyes and in his mind he said a quick goodbye to everyone he knew. But when a few seconds passed and he was still in pain and still aware of Tyki's hand around his neck he peeped his eyes open. Tyki's mouth was curved in a wicked smile. His eyes were glowing golden and overall he exuded a menacing and evil aura. Lavi's stomach clenched in fear. "You know...I had a thought that you might want to see your little friends one last time." Tyki's evil smile stretched across his face. "So I'll give you your last pleasure of saying goodbye face to face. Hmm? Would you like that? I am the Noah of Pleasure after all."

Lavi shook his head. His eyes were wide with fear. His resolution was wavering and all of a sudden he had a desperate want to live. Tyki laughed a deep and throaty sound. He pulled Lavi forward and grabbing him around the waist he hoisted him over his shoulder.

The doorway that Lavi had assumed Tyki had entered from was not even a part of the stone room they were in. It was one of Road's portals. Lavi squeezed his eyes shut as Tyki entered the portal and a few moments passed before a blinding light was burning on the other side of Lavi's eyelids. He blinked carefully until he could see the grassy ground below him and the watery sunlight pouring down from the cloudy sky above.

Tyki had appeared in the middle of a swampy clearing. A short distance from Tyki and Lavi was a group of exorcist who immediately tensed at the sudden appearance of the Noah. But as they saw who had accompanied the Noah one of them shouted out.

"LAVI!"

Lavi couldn't hold back the few tears that sprung to his eyes when he heard Allen's scream. When Tyki simply pulled him upright again and pushed him slightly in front he stumbled and would've fallen if it weren't for Tyki's hand holding his arm.

Lavi could see Allen, Lenalee and Kanda running for him from across the swamp. The dirty water splashing around them and soaking them. Lavi felt a small flutter in his heart. His friends really did care about him. The feeling in his chest was instantly replaced by a cold hand clutching his heart, literally.

Gasping at the horrible sensation of being held by his heart Lavi felt his mind collapsing on itself. This was it. He was about to die. Some part of him was glad he could see his friends one last time before he left this world. How ironic, he thought miserably. The Bookman Junior who wasn't supposed to have a heart was going to be betrayed by it in the end.

NO! I change my mind! I don't want to die!

Lavi's eyes started to close as his heart was squeezed none too gently by the Noah behind him. He coughed and felt the blood trickle down his chin.

Let me live!

The running figures that were so close but still too far began to blur.

LAVI YOU FOOL! Why are you giving up?!

His body was numb. His heart was beating rapidly. He was aware that it was the only thing he could feel. The rapid thrum of his heart beating for its life.

"LAAAVI!"

That was the last thing he heard before the cold hand clenched tightly. His heart let out a few last desperate beats before giving up and everything went black.

Wow...this is really depressing isn't it? I'm sorry! By the way if you didn't pick up on it, the parts in italics represented Lavi's inner mind (kinda his actual bookman half). Well there it is. I finished it! YAY! Err...hope you enjoyed it despite how miserable it is~ anyway, if you did like this please leave a review! PLEASE REVIEW! I love hearing your comments and encouragement! And if you want me to write another D. Gray Man fic just ask! :) I would love to...so leave a review and tell me who you want me to write about next! I promise not to kill them off too ;)

Thank you! xx